A/N: I have been cracking up all day because I found out that Kappei Yamaguchi plays Chichiri on the Fushigi Yuugi CD(not anime sadly…)! (This is for FY fans! I can so see Kappei going "No da!" snort of laughter) Also, I read somewhere that he does the Japanese voice over for Bugs Bunny! And Naraku's guy does Elmer Fudd! (HAHAHAHAHA! Much fun imagining!) Okay, and now back to our regular story…

Chapter 16: Haunted by Dreams

A cry of a baby could be heard throughout the forest. Kagome ran towards the sound, her mind only on one thing, finding Kuro. He was lost, and she had to get him home before…

Suddenly, the cries of the infant ceased. She was puzzled but she ran towards where she last heard them nonetheless. She found herself staring at Goshinboku. And she saw no child. She only saw Inuyasha, his silver hair being moved by the breeze.

"Inuyasha!" she said, running towards him. "Have you seen Kuro, I can't find him!"

"Don't worry about it." He said, coming closer. "I took care of him."

"Are you sure?" she asked. "Is he okay?"

He nodded. "He's fine."

"But—" She said, looking around.

"Don't worry about him right now." He said, coming closer. "He's not here. It's only us, together." He hugged her.

She leaned against him, savoring the warmth that he provided. "Inuyasha…"

They looked into each other's eyes, amber meeting chocolate orbs, before his lips crashed down on hers. She kissed him back, surrendering herself to him. He kissed her neck, and started slipping down her yukata. "Inuyasha…" she moaned, succumbing to his touch.

She opened her eyes slightly, to get a glimpse of him, and was shocked at what she saw. He had transformed into his full youkai form again, his eyes red and full of twisted lust. His fangs had grown and his mouth was set into an evil smirk. Purple stripes had formed on his cheek and his claws had grown longer and much more sharp. The kotodoma rosary around his neck broke and fell to the ground when he cut it with his nail.

She backed away, not bothering to pull her yukata up. "Inuyasha…why are you doing this?"

"Do I need a reason?" He asked, coming in closer and causing her to back away. "I am youkai. No one should trust me. You were a fool for trusting me, for loving me. For believing I loved you. You are a pathetic little bitch who dared give her love to a youkai!"

"Inuyasha, please! Stop this!" she wailed. "Please, remember who you are! You aren't a youkai! You're a hanyou! You're half human! Get you're human heart back! Please!"

He flexed his claws. "Keh. That filthy part of me is gone. Humans are only for youkai to kill." He said this word with great pleasure, and at that point, the madness in his eyes raged.

"But…we are mates!" Kagome said, her eyes streaming tears. "Are you telling me that you never…you never loved me?" She paused, her eyes emitting many tears. "Will you kill me too?"

"Keh. Why kill you? After all we are mates." He grinned at her evilly, lust flashing in his eyes. "And you're mine."

She didn't think a second thought. She ran. She ran as fast as she could towards the village. But the forest seemed to be getting longer and longer. She was terrified, she knew what he could do to her. She heard him running behind her, but not fast enough. He was toying with her, enjoying the chase and her fear. He would make sure she had no escape. "NO! PLEASE, SOMEBODY HELP ME!" she screamed.

Inuyasha ran faster, enjoying her fright. The more terrified she was, the better. But he had enough of her screaming. It was time to end this.

"HELP ME!" she screamed, but she was cut off as Inuyasha jumped in front of her and grabbed her by the shoulders, his nails digging into her flesh. He forced her down to the ground.

"NOOOOO!" she screamed, trying to break free as he continued to pull off her yukata. "PLEASE, STOP THIS INUYASHA! DON'T DO IT, PLEASE! INUYASHA!"

She was cut off from screaming when his hand covered her mouth. With a smirk, he bent down and whispered in her ear, "Kagome…you're all mine."

She wanted to scream, but she couldn't. She couldn't keep struggling, he overpowered her. All she heard was someone in the distance yelling, "Kagome, Kagome!"

Inuyasha had been jerked awake from his sleep when he felt Kagome thrashing. Great… he thought, trying to fall back asleep. She's dreaming again…

"Inuyasha…" she moaned.

He sat up and blinked. He looked down at her. She's dreaming about…me? What sort of dream is she having? From the way she says it, it sounds like we're— But he cut off that thought when she said something else.

"Why are you doing this?" she asked, turning over.

"What?" he asked. What am I doing? "Kagome…"

Tears fell down her face. "Inuyasha please, stop this!" She cried. "Please!"

His mouth fell open. What am I doing? I'm…hurting her. How can I be hurting her… He stopped. Those nightmares…I'm the one making her scared… "Kagome…"

She suddenly thrashed harder, yelling, "NO! PLEASE! SOMEBODY HELP ME! HELP ME!"

I have to stop this! He grabbed her by the shoulders, trying to shake her out of her dream. "Kagome! Wake up!" he yelled, but it didn't work.

"NOOO!" she cried, struggling to be released from his hold. "PLEASE, STOP THIS INUYASHA! DON'T DO IT, PLEASE! INUYASHA!"

"KAGOME! KAGOME!" he yelled, and suddenly, her eyes popped open.

For a second she looked at him, looking more terrified then she ever did in her life. He was looking concerned, but more hurt on top of that. He had never felt worse. I'm the one hurting her in her dreams. I'm the one she's afraid of.

"Inuyasha…" she said, trying to think of something to say. But there was nothing. She knew by that expression that she must have cried out in her sleep. They were both sitting up, looking at each other, but Inuyasha turned away. She noticed there was a droop in his ears.

"Tell me." he said.

"What?" she asked.

He suddenly turned towards her. "Tell me what's happening in those dreams!" he yelled.

Tears filled her eyes. "But…Inuyasha…I…"

"TELL ME NOW, WENCH!" he ordered.

She knew he was serious. He had never called her that before, well, not for as long as they had been mates. She couldn't even remember the last time he had used that word. She knew how hurt he must feel, thinking that she might be frightened of him. In truth she was frightened, but of his youkai form. She knew he would never hurt her in his hanyou form…would he?

"Inuyasha…these dreams…I…I can't…"

"Tell me." he repeated. "I don't care how horrible it is, what have I been doing?"

It was hard for her to even think of them. Tears fell from her face in a stream, making her yukata wet with tears. Her voice trembled but she said, "Y-you…You st-start out as a h-hanyou…you're just the same as you are…and then…y-you…turn…into a youkai…" she said, more tears falling.

"What do I do?" he asked.

Kagome covered her face with her hands. "Y-You…b-bit me…ki-killed the baby while I was still p-p-pregnant..." She nearly choked on tears. "T-tried to kill me…and…you…raped me…" She broke down into sobs.

I…did all that? He thought, his ears drooping so much that they were almost flat. But how could I…I'd never do that to her! And she knows it! But one thought came across his mind. You wouldn't…as a hanyou. As a youkai, however…

Then it made sense. I see…she's afraid of me as a youkai…

He felt terrible, knowing that there was some part of him that she was afraid of. Like he had felt before he knew she loved him, he felt dirty. Unworthy of her. Beneath her. I'm like an animal…so far beneath her that I don't even have the right to be talking to her. My hands…they've killed so many things…and she knows. Is that why she fears me? She knows I could…I could…

I don't deserve her. I never did… He stood up. "I have to think," he said, heading for the curtain leading out of their hut. I just need to be alone…and I'm sure she wants me gone too…seeing as I scare her.

"Inuyasha…" she said, looking at him through teary eyes. "I'm sorry…I don't mean too…I mean…I don't think…you wouldn't…"

"I'm sorry too." He said, walking out of the hut, leaving a sobbing Kagome.

He looked up at the stars. All I ever do is hurt her. I make her cry, make her angry make her have to go through so much pain…

He remembered something he had learned, long ago. Something that he had believed for so long. It was something that he had to live by, something he had to live with, in order to survive. Hanyous are nothing. Not good enough to be demons, but enough to scare humans. Hanyous don't get trust, or mates, or children. Nothing. They have to live alone.

It's true. I am nothing compared to her. Yet…somehow, she still loved me…But…she knows…she knows that I could hurt her. And it scares her.

He added in an afterthought, and it scares me too…

A/N: And here begins the long line of angst. Sighhhh good bye for now, fluff.