I lie wide awake thinking of the things I told you the day before. Wondering if it was the right thing to say. Wondering if I should apologize for making stupid assumptions. You seem as if you're a whole new person, that I admire. You no longer seen mean, and cocky, but nice and sweet. I will probally never admit this to you, I may be a Gryfindor, but I'm not brave enough to admit this secret that I hold within. Maybe, I have always secretly liked you, but could never admit it to myself. Why is this so confusing for me? I feel as if I don't know what to do, for once. I am trapped in a cell of things I have never been able to tell anyone, but I want to. The most visible thing in that cell are the feeling that are now ready to get out. Will I ever be able to speak of this? I may never know.
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Draco-
I almost confessed my love and passion for you, but you distracted me by the hurtful words that came out of your mouth and to my ears. Right then and there I could have died of a heart break, but I tried to hold my head up high. The things that you said will always hang over my head and never leave my side, just because I have never been hurt emotionally as bad as those words hurt me. I would never take advantage of you not just because I love you, but because you are a living person and you deserve to be treated wtih respect that I have not given you in the past. I hope that you and I can just erase the past and move on together. Hopefully. If we can not move on in the future, I will continue to watch you through the window of the Owlery.
After Draco was finished with his morning thoughts of Hermione he got dressed and headed down to breakfast. When he got there he realised he was about an hour late and no one was there and neither was the food. His stomache was rumbling horribly practically screaming FEED ME. Since he couldn't get anything to eat he decided he would go back up to his and Hermione's common room. He left the the Great Hall and went up the first flightof stairs and turned left down the fith hall and came to a wall with all of the House's mascots. When he got to the picture he whispered 'acceled'. When he entered the common room he saw Hermione sitting on a couch curled up with a book called "IT" by Stehpen King.
"Hey." Draco said to her.
"Hello," Hermione said looking over her book.
"I've never seen that book in the library."
"You won't ever see it in there, my parents sent it to me. I read 'Dream Cathcher,' and 'Bag Of Bones,' so I decided that I wanted to read this one.
"Oh," Draco said examing the jacket of the book. He wondered what it was about. It looked quite scary in his oppinoin. It had a black cover with a storm drain and a green chicken like hand coming out of it as if it were reaching for a paper boat that was flowing towards the drain. "It looks scary."
"It kind of is. I'm only on the secon part: June of 1958. It's really good so far, I think that this is one of the best muggle books I've ever read."
"Well, do you think that I could borrow it when you're done?"
"Sure! I think that you will like it a lot." Then Draco's stomache growled so loudly that the whole common room could have shaken. "Did you eat breakfast? You sound really hungry."
"No. I was just thinking this morning when I got up so I didn't go and eat. I wish I knew where the kitchens were." With that Hermione marked her place in the book and set it down.
"Lets go."
"Where?"
"Well, since you got me to class the other day I think that you and I should go and get you something to eat from the kitchens."
Draco looked at her with dismay. "You know where the kitchens are?"
"Yup. Are you coming?"
"Of course. My stomache feels like a knot and I need to eat something before I die." Hermione smiled at him and headed towards the door with Draco fowling her.
"You know Draco. You've changed a lot."
"I know. A lot happened over the summer. Lucius, my father, he almost died. I was very dissapointed when I found out that he was still alive. It always feels like he's watching me. I don't like it."
"Oh. Well, I can only imagine how you feel. I always thought that you would follow in our fathers footsteps."
"Nope. I am creating my own." Draco and Hermione looked at one another with a smile revealing both of there white teeth. The rest of the way to the kitchens they remained silent. When they were apon the kitchens Hermione stopped in fron of a picture of a fruit bowl.
"Ok. Well, we're here."
"Are you taunting me with that bowl of fruit? 'Cause if you are, it's working."
"Haha... no. Can you lift me up towards the peach? I need to tickle it so the door will open."
"Sure." Draco put his hand around Hermione's waist and heaved her up towards the peach. She tickled it and it squirmed and the door slowly opened. When Hermione led Draco into the kitch he was in an awe. This was one of the bigest kitchens that he has ever seen with the most house elves.
"Weren't you were working on something to free the house elfs?"
"Yes. S.P.E.W."
"Just to let you know, I would have participated in it if it weren't for my father. I would never be able to do anything like that when he is still alive."
"Thanks. It's ok, not to many people joined in on it. The ones that did only did it for me to stop bugging them, or in Harry and Ron's case they HAD to just because it's what I beleived in. It means a lot to me that you would do that. Imagine if your father sponsored S.P.E.W? The house elves would definatly be freed. But, I don't think that that's what they want."
"Hermione? Can we not talk about my father?"
"Sure. I understand it must be a fragile situation for you."
"It is. So are we gunna eat?"
"You are. I'm not hungry, I hate breakfast." With that Hermione asked a house elf, Clause, if he could get Draco some food. When Draco had gotten his food Hermione and him talked about school, weather, and what it's like in the muggle world.
"Well, I'm stuffed. Wanna go?"
"Sure. Next time you miss breakfast because you were thinking just remember this is where the kitchen is."
"Well, I don't think I would like to be alone. So, the next time I miss breakfast will you come with me?
"It's a date." Draco smiled at Hermione and together they got up and left the kitchen. On there way back to the common room they were silent.
'Ok,' thought Draco, ' I am going to tell her.'
"Hermione?"
"Yes?"
"Uhh..I umm.. what day is it?"
"Sunday."
"Oh. We have class tomorrow."
"I know. Did you get your essay done for potions?"
"Wich one? The one for us being late or the one on how to make a love potion?"
"Both."
"Yup."
"Well, I need to go. I am tourting Ginny in Charms."
"Ok. Can we hang out later?"
"As in friends?"
"Yes. I think I would like to get to know you."
"Sure. Same here you seem like you are very interesting."
"Thanks.Remember when you get done with that book I want to read it"
"I never forget." With that Hermione turned around on her back heel and left.
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Later that night, Draco-
Why is this so complicated for me to tell you that I am in love! I need to get this off of my chest. You are the Smartest, funniest, most beautiful lady that I have ever met and I want to look into your deep brown eyes forever. I know I do not deserve someone so perfect like you, but I would do anything for you. I would kill just to protect you from harms way. I know that you have defeated Voldemort and you are strong, but I can still protect you from what I can. I love you, and I wish you knew.
Later that night, Hermione-
You are one of the best people that I have been around in a long time. Harry and Ron and good people, but they can't just sit and listen to me like you can. You respect me for who I am, and don't constantly want to copy off of my notes, yet. You always seem as if you are going to say something, but can't just get it out. I wish I knew what it was because it looks like it's bugging you. When I found out that you were the head boy I could have killed Dumbledore, but now I am happy that I didn't.
A/N- Well, I said I would get another chapter up before easter, so i did! sorry, this chapter just kinda ended. I just need to run, i have things i need to do. So, like it? hate it? How about u tell me and r-e-v-i-e-w.
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