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Bloody Roses
Two
I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears,
And if you have to leave,
I wish you would just leave,
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
-"My Immortal" by Evanescence
Sometimes, it is harder to watch the one you love fall apart piece by piece than to be the one to crumble and fall away. Sometimes, it breaks your heart just to see the agony in their eyes-the eyes you love so much. And sometimes, when you just can't stand it, it seems better just to run away. You know you're being selfish…but it breaks your heart just to be a witness to their pain. It's too much of a burden-even for you… So you run away, but deep inside, you know that you need him just as he needs you. But love is a one-sided thing…and you're not perfect. You know you aren't strong enough to stay there and support him. So you run. And hope he can survive without you. Because you can't without him.
Her heart was breaking into a million pieces, shattering into a million shards as she walked out the door. There was an aching in her heart-a piercing ache-that was spreading through her body. She heard his voice, behind her, weak and uncertain.
"Kaoru…don't go…"
She wanted to turn to him, to take him into her arms. He needed her. But her feet led her farther and farther away from him. Because that was the way it had to be. She cried, tears that shook her body with each step she took. Why can't you stop killing, Kenshin? Why can't you do it for me? What do I mean to you? She cried with the grief of one that had lost his loved one forever. Because she had. She had lost Kenshin. And her soul was being ripped apart…
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all these years
But you still have
All of me
She had lost him. And she still loved him. Because he had become part of her. And now he was gone. Kenshin...I'm lost, I need you. Come back to me…
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along
She needed him. He was her everything. But she had left him. Because she couldn't bear to see anymore blood. But she couldn't bear to loose him either. He had been everything to her.
She walked until she could not walk any more and cried until her tears ran dry. She had lost the one she had tried to protect the most to herself. I'm in darkness now, Kenshin. Come be my light. Come bring me out of the dark….
She would never see him again. Her heart would wither away, but it would be alright. She would find others-none that would truly compare to him. But it would be alright. She would dream of him every night, but she would see him in her dreams without blood drenching him. He would go on without her and she learn to live without him. But her heart would remain dormant. Because he was the only one she could ever love.