Craig held her, gripping her tightly in his arms, "Emma what are you doing here?" he asked, unable to figure out why she would be here after their break up. He thought she hated him after those words she had exchanged with him earlier.
She let go of him, and looked up so that she could look him in the eyes as she said it, "Snake told me about what happened to your daughter and Kelsie. I just knew I had to be here for you at such a horrible time," caressing his cheek with the back of her hand.
His head was telling him to let her in, but his heart was telling him that he needed to focus on his daughter at this moment, she was much more important than any relationship. Slowly pushing her hand away, "I can't do this right now." Walking away, "I have to go be with my daughter."
"Why are you trying to push me away?" she bellowed trying to get him to open up to her, to talk to her. It had never been this hard before to get something out of him.
He slowed down in his tracks as those words hit the back of his head, twirling around, "ME," pointing to himself, "You're the one who pushed me away, REMEMBER," he hollered back so loud that the whole floor could hear them. He looked at her with irritation in his eyes at the thought that she was acting as if that whole day hadn't happened, as if she hadn't done anything wrong.
Going up to him, with tear falling from her eyes to the ground, "I'm sorry" she wailed. "I never meant to do that, I was just upset. I don't want it to end between us. You've been the best thing to come into my life. You've helped me through a hard time in my life, and I want to pay you back by doing the same for you."
Tears flowing down his cheeks, "So you're just here because you want to pay me back?" It was as if he wanted to start a fight with her, that he wanted to make it hard on her like she had done to him.
Getting frustrated since he was being difficult, throwing her hands in the air, "No that's not what I meant and you know it."
Looking slightly at her face, but trying hard not to look into her eyes, the eyes that always seemed to draw him in, eyes that he couldn't see enough of, "NO, I don't know anything anymore," he began to walk away. This isn't what he needed right now, he was losing time with his daughter by staying here, time he didn't know if he could waste.
She took hold of his arm, "I can't lose you, not when I finally realized that…that I love you."
Craig didn't know what to say after that. He was in shock, and he began to ask himself if he loved her back. He was filled with so many emotions; he couldn't seem to find an answer not when he had too many things running through his head. "I have to go see my daughter," he said softly as he walked away with his head down, watching the floor in before of him as one single tear fell from his eye.
He was confused; he remembered what he had told Paige earlier. Was he really still in love with Kelsie; was he love with both of them? What was he doing, he couldn't think about that now, now he had to be there for his daughter to help her fight; he was her only parent that could do that right now.
Emma stood there watching him walk away from her, tears poured down her face, as it seemed like her whole future was slowly drifting away from her. What if he never came back? What would she do then? He was her rock to lean on; he was the only one who truly understood her, or what she was going through. Not even her own family knew her as he did.
She leaned up against the wall, arms crossed, banging her head against it. Thinking how stupid she had been today, for letting go of the only man she had truly loved. No one that she had been with could compare to him.
Chris sat there in the uncomfortable hospital chairs, slouched over with his hands covering his mouth, waiting to get into to Kelsie. He had let her parents go see her first, but he wished that he had gone first instead because the wait was killing him. Just by looking at him, you would think he hadn't slept in days, his eyes were blood shot, and his hair messed up as if it had been a windy day.
Ashley sat across the room and saw the distress in Chris eyes, and sympathized with him. She decided to go talk to him. Maybe she could get his mind off this all, if only for a few moments.
She walked up, and sat right beside him, putting her arm around him, "Hey, how you doing?"
Looking over at her, "I'm better; I just want to get into see Kelsie, to let her know that I'm here, to make sure that she knows that I came back."
"I bet she knows you're here, she knows that you love her."
Not looking so convinced, "I don't know we had a pretty big fight."
"Yeah Jimmy told me about that," she gazed at him with empathy.
"Yeah well I haven't seen her since really, what if she doesn't know, and she decides to give up fighting, and…" just the thought brought more tears to his eyes. He couldn't handle the thought of her dying.
"Chris, you know that she's not like that. She always fights for what she wants. If not fight for herself she'll fight to be with that daughter of hers."
"It's funny how every time things are going well something goes to screw it up. Like she was going to have the baby, we got a house and she even sent in her book to be published. It seemed like everything was back on track after everything that happened last year."
"Chris things will work themselves out, I know Kelsie is going to be fine, all she needs is time."
Thinking of how she was since he has known her, he smiled "She's always been one to do things on her own time. You could never push her before she was ready, like with showing others her music. I tried forever to get her to do it, but she simple refused."
"We didn't even know she could play anything until her birthday party, when she sang a song that she wrote for you."
Smiling as he thought of her voice, "She is amazing, isn't she?"
"Yeah, she is," she smiled.
Craig sat right in front of his daughter's incubator, just gazing at her. A tear ran down his cheek as he thought how beautiful she was, and how much he loved her. "Hey sweetie, I'm your dad. Your mom's not here right now, she's not feeling that well right now. But you have to hold on for her, she's awaited your arrival so long. You'll love your mom when you see her; she's the most loving person you'll ever meet. Always thinking of others before herself. And I promise you that I will be the best dad in the world that I will be here for you when you need me."
Craig touched the side of her face. She looked so innocent, and he felt so helpless watching her like this. He just hoped that the doctor's were right when they said she would be fine. Just seeing her in person made him realize how much he wanted to be a father to her.
"I love you my sweets," he smiled as he glazed at her.
A nurse came over to Craig, "We need to check on her so if you wouldn't mind could you wait outside?"
"Okay," he said getting up from the chair that he hadn't left in hours. To stand outside the doors, watching her from the outside window.
