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Author: Spideria
Story Title: Because I Never Gave Up
Chapter: 9
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Chapter 9: Numb
'Mmm...' Harry thought to himself, as he drowned in the scent of Oliver's cologne.
Harry snuggled into Oliver, as they continued to dance. This felt just so peaceful. Sure, Harry was feeling a weird, almost queezy feeling, but he figured it was just nervous jitters.
Sighing pleasantly, Harry smiled into Oliver's neck.
He felt Oliver tighten his hold, slightly, on Harry's waist. Harry didn't feel as comforted by this act of intimacy he usually felt, but Harry just pushed the thought away, as he did with everything he didn't understand. He never liked looking into things too deeply.
People around them slowly began coming to a stop, and so did Oliver and himself.
The song came to an end, and Harry reluctantly pulled away from Olive, only to one again find himself drowning, only, this time, he was drowning in Oliver's deep blue eyes. (A/N: I know his eyes are brown, but I think blue is such a nicer eye color for Oliver! )
"I..." Harry began, struggling to find something to say, in hopes of ending the awkward feeling in the pit of his stomach.
"Yes?" Oliver asked, amusement evident in his eyes.
"Erm..." Harry looked around, fervently, hoping to find something to say, when he suddenly saw Draco's back walking away. 'Bingo!' he thought.
"I sort of came with Draco, so, I'd better go spend some time with him." Harry said, smiling weakly.
Oliver's face fell, slightly, but he quickly recovered, putting on a smile.
"Of course, Harry. I mean, what kind of date would you be if you left your partner all alone the whole night?"
"Thanks for understanding. Maybe we'll dance again later on, tonight?" Harry asked, with a hopeful smile.
"You bet." Oliver answered, his smile widening.
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'Why doesn't Harry get it yet?!' Draco thought to himself, angrily.
The site of Harry holding on to Oliver so dreamily stilled burned itself in Draco's mind no matter how hard he tried to forget it.
He'd thought Harry had finally started to understand Draco's feelings for him. They had been dancing together so lovingly. They'd even kissed, for God's sake!
Draco didn't understand anything about Harry anymore.
Hadn't he showed his feelings to Harry?
Weren't his feelings for Harry obvious?
How was it that everyone else knew how he felt for Harry, yet Harry, himself, acted oblivious to it?
Was he not blunt enough with Harry?
....Apparently not.
'Unless...no. No, Harry would never do that. We've been best friends for years now! Harry would never, ever do that to me....right?' Draco thought to himself.
Draco new that Harry liked to play around with a lot of guys as just quick flings for fun.
Harry always had a new crush, ('except for Oliver,' Draco thought, grumpily to himself.) and always has someone new that he was chasing after, but...but.
He would never do that to Draco!
He would never toy around with Draco's feelings that way!
...Would he?
But...what other explanation was there? Draco had been much too obvious for Harry to not know Draco's feeling for him.
So...Harry really was just toying around with his feeling, and treating him like some dumb, one-time fling.
Draco quickly blinked away the tears that threatened to spill over.
Instead, he decided, he would be angry.
He had been sad for much too long. It was time he started acting like his real self. He wasn't going to let Harry toy around with his feelings anymore.
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Jogging, Harry caught up to Draco, and tapped him on the shoulder.
Harry turned around stiffly, narrowing his eyes as he saw that it was Harry.
"What do you want?" Draco growled out, scathingly.
"What's wrong, Draco?" Harry asked, completely taken aback by the harsh tone in Draco's words.
"I don't know. Why don't you tell me, Harry?" Draco answered, through clenched teeth.
Taking a fearful step back, Harry looked onto Draco's angry, cold, grey eyes. What had he done now? Honestly, he was beginning to think that Draco was trying to prove the scientists wrong by showing that guys, too, could have PMS.
One minute, Draco had been all warm and cozy with him, and by the time Harry had gotten back from his dance with Oliver, he- ALERT! ALERT!!!
Suddenly, everything clicked into place. Harry had always suspected that Draco was slightly jealous of his crush on Oliver, but he had always just pushed the thought away. Now, though, he just couldn't ignore it anymore.
Every time Harry talked about Oliver, or spent time with Oliver, or even just glanced at Oliver, Draco would just suddenly become grumpy.
After blinking dazedly, Harry looked into Draco's cold eyes once more, horrified.
"Draco-" Harry began, hesitantly, but was quickly interrupted by Draco's raised hand.
"Forget it, Harry! Just forget it! I'm not going to let you do this to me anymore!" Draco yelled, his voice cracking, and turned to walk away, hurriedly.
'This is it,' Harry thought to himself. It was now or never. He had to decide between Draco and Oliver.
Harry didn't know why, but he didn't even have to think. He knew who he wanted.
"Draco, wait!" Harry called out.
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Draco knew he was mad at Harry. He knew he deserved to give Harry the cold shoulder and just completely ignore him, but he couldn't.
He just couldn't.
He just had to know what Harry had to say.
Some part of him couldn't help but have a small glimmer of help that may, just maybe, Harry wasn't playing with his feelings. Maybe he really was just plain thick-headed.
Draco stopped walking, and slowly turned around to face Harry.
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A huge smile lit Harry's face as Draco turned around toward him.
He saw, in Draco's eyes, a glimmer of hope.
This was it.
He was really going to tell Draco how he felt for him. The adrenaline rushed through Harry's veins, and he opened his mouth to speak, when, suddenly, he was whirled around from behind.
"Hey, Harry. How about that other dance, now?" Oliver asked, playfully.
Harry had never wished for Oliver to just explode into oblivion more than he did at that moment. He knew it wasn't Oliver's fault. After all, he didn't know that Harry was just about to proclaim his undying love for Draco, now did he?
'Wait,' Harry thought. 'Did I just say love?'
Harry shook his head to clear it up and told Oliver in a frustrated voice, "Now not, Oliver."
Harry turned around to finally tell Draco at last, just how he felt.
...
...
...
...But...Draco was gone.
Harry quickly ran at top-speed, outside of the school, and out, into the parking lot for Draco, but Draco's car was no longer parked there.
How could Draco have left so quickly?
Just then, Harry heard a car speed by, and saw the back of Draco's car quickly driving away.
"DRACO!!" Harry called out, desperately!
But the car didn't stop, or even slow down, for that matter.
It just kept speeding away.
He had lost his chance forever.
Oliver came running up behind Harry and asked, "What's the matter, Harry?"
And had Harry heard him, he probably would have punched him, but he didn't.
All Harry heard was silence.
All he saw was darkness.
All he felt was emptiness.
Harry's vision began to blur with tears, but they didn't fall onto his cheeks.
He couldn't cry.
He couldn't feel.
He was completely numb.
A/N: Okay, so this chapter was sort of long, right? Sorry about the cliffy, lol. I just have a habit of doing that. Sorry, you guys. lol. Anyway, I just want to say, that the ending will probably remind a lot of you guys of the song by linkin park, and although I'm a very big fan, I swear I didn't try to intentionally copy them. It just seemed that the word numb explained Harry's feeling well. Didn't you think so? Sorry, I'll try not to title my chapters the names of songs anymore if you guys really don't like it. Just tell me, and I'll re-upload the chapter with a different title, and I'll change the ending so it doesn't use the word numb, Just let me know. But if you don't mind, then that's great! Less work for me! Yay! Okay, well, please review!!!
xoxo Spideria xoxo