I Hate You
Pairing: SasuNaru
POV: Varied
Will strip for beta.I feel like a whore... Learn a word.Pander-syn. to "Pimping". Betcha they don't teach you that in English.
I hated you. I still do. It's something to grab onto during battles and whip around madly over my head. We're ninja. We run on adrenalin. And you're gasoline to my fire. Because, when we are trying to kill one more person than him and another death at my hand is just one more glory point, killing doesn't seem so bad.
This is why I can never be with her. She can't strip humanity away like you do. And honestly I don't think I need the love she's holding out. Her love can't make me numb like your hate. And when I lay in bed at night, I can think of all the men I killed as tally points in our game. It's sick. It's twisted. It works for me.
The image of me crying into their shoulders and unburdening the filth I've buried are reflected in each and everyone one of their glossy eyes as I walk the market. They see me whispering words of guilt and destroying families that are like a catalyst to my psyche because I'm slicing my father's throat every time I slit a man open. Really, family doesn't matter much to me. My past took care of that.
Love's an anachronism. It won't survive in this day and age. It's been torn, shredded, machete-ed till it streams around battlefields like broken spider webs, beautiful once upon a time.
And it won't be until after all the blood shed on the ground evaporates and the weapons wither and the hate turns to sweet sweet peace that the once upon a time will have come again. I won't hope for it. I doubt with a shadow's faith that this will come to past. But, I will wish that we'd both be long dead before peace and love and harmony come and all the hate dries away.
Ah, I did not really want to submit this. But, I'm getting desperate for a beta for my Supernatural thriller that needs all the purple prose weeded out of it and no one's biting. So, just consider this as my "Plea of Help Masquerading as a Fic" piece. Once again, contact is at bishiesincocoa at yahoo. com.