The Diary of Lily Audrey Potter
Chapter Seven: All By Myself


Disclaimer: Nope, still don't own Harry Potter. But I do own all of the Original Characters, and the plot. Yes, it is shocking. The plot bunny is mine! I fed it, and took care of it, and named it.

Dedication: I really don't have a person to dedicate this chapter to...

Still Tuesday, 8:08 Pm

Dumbledore's Office, biting my nails off

Play "Mission: Impossible" music now.

The house elves are making a bargain: Dan for clean living and working environments, as well as a proper education. Yes, I know, there has to be a catch. Well, there is a catch, a very big one at that. See, I have to be the one to venture down to the entrance of school and get Dan, and bring the contract that Dumbledore and that house elves are to sign. Dumbledore has already drawn up, and signed a contract, and it is up to me to carry out the rest of the mission.

Cut "Mission: Impossible" theme, and play some sad piano music. Like the Beatles song that Dan and I learned...I'm crying now...

Really, I don't want to do this. I am all for rescuing Dan from the house elves, but I don't want to do it. I really don't. If I were my father, I would probably jump right in, take that contract, save Dan, and even line the elves up in alphabetical order, in a straight line, according to age. I could never do that. I have never mastered alphabetical order.

See, in Primary School, they almost held me back, because I was writing stories with the words they had given us, instead of putting the words in alphabetical order. It was when I wrote a story about Mary, and her little lamb, and what would happen if a giant goat tried to eat the lamb, and Mary started swatting at the goat with the braids, when my teachers read that story, they decided to bring my parents in, and they suggested that when I reached the age of seven, that I be put in writing classes. And I am seriously getting off track.

Anyway, I have to go save Dan, and I don't think I can. I haven't done anything spectacular and amazing that would earn me a Special Services Award to the school like Snape got five minutes ago, from saving Cassandra from the eggshell. I have gotten enough detentions to rival my uncles, (all of them combined) and have had every teacher, even Dumbledore call me a delinquent. Granted, Dumbledore said I was "An intelligent delinquent who is capable of many great and truly magnificent things if she only put her mind to it," but he still called me a delinquent!

And I DID NOT inherit the "saving-people complex" that my dad has; I don't think any of us did.

Dumbledore is almost ready to send me on my way. I don't want to go, but I know I really don't have a choice. Its either I go, or nobody goes. Not even the aurors are coming with me. It's just me, by myself. Nobody is coming with me. I wonder if this is what mum meant by giving me more space?

You know, all of these parents always talk about how their kids do something that proves to their kids that they are worth something, and can do something without their parents with them. I wonder if this is what I am doing in life that will prove to me, as a person that I can do something without other people helping me.

I am really scared about this. Nobody is going to help me, and it's scaring me, because all through my life, I have had people helping me every step of the way, and now, I have nobody. I will be truly alone in this. And right now, the world just seems huge. I don't want to do this...but I have to...I know I have to. Dad was by himself at age one, and Mum at eleven. Me? I am doing my big thing at age seventeen. I hope I come out of this alive, both me and Dan...

I have to go, Dumbledore is ready for me. If I never write again, you know what happened...

Lily

End Notes: Honestly people, I don't mean to be picky or anything, but I got TWO REVIEWS for the last chapter. I mean, I am very happy I have gotten 32 reviews and all, but really, two reviews. TWO REVIEWS?!?!?!?!?!? WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? I will only post the next chapter if I get FOUR reviews. FOUR.

And honestly, I have up to chapter twelve written, and am working on thirteen. But you will NEVER read those chapters unless you steal the heavily guarded disk that holds this whole story, or REVIEW!!!!!!!!!! And reviewing is much easier. Much.

I don't mean to be nit-picky, but I was a little upset about that. And my friend, who I was e-mailing chapter twelve to can attest, I was VERY impatient for her to read that chapter.

And we really should form an "I Hate Hillary Duff Club." It would be very time efficient, and we can protest her music, which sounds like a dieing cow. Trust me, my sisters blast it ALL THE TIME! That, and ATeens. It's horrible...shudder

Anyway, PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!