The Diary of Lily Audrey Potter
Chapter Ten: A Thought For The Day

Authoress Note: I am terribly sorry for your long wait, but I have had many things going on lately, and I am currently covered in red paint, so...yeah.

Anyway, I have 59 reviews. I started doing a dance in front of my family, while screaming, "I HAVE FIFTY-NINE REVIEWS!'

In other news, JKR announced the title of the sixth book! It is: "HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE." I have a Cho theory that goes with the title, but we won't get into that. I ran around screaming when I found this out. And I had no shades on my windows, so I think the whole neighborhood is now aware of my Harry Potter obsession.

Dedication: To JKR for announcing the title of the next book.

Disclaimer: I am not smart enough to come up with such a title for a book.

November 14th, 6:56 AM

The Tearoom in the Hospital

Yes, I came out. In fact, the person was Bray, and she wanted to talk. She was worried—okay, so everyone was worried, but she got elected to come talk to me. Jay would have, but she had to go back, something about their parents wanting to talk to them...anyway, so Bray was standing there, and the minute I opened the door, she screams, "LILY!" And hugs me to near-death.

And then I went, "BRAY!" And hugged her back with equal enthusiasm. I looked around, and saw that she was the only person in the room. "Where is everybody?" I asked her.

"Um...Dan and Drew went off with their parental units to go chat, Jay had something to deal with up at Hogwarts, your parents are talking to the Healers about what they think about your mental condition, and James, Sirius and Remus were shipped off back to Hogwarts."

"Oh."

"I brought you something."

"Really?"

"Yea." And then, Bray pulls out my CD player. "And, Smile Empty Soul is in there, just to let you know." She said, with a smile.

"Oh...well...thank you! You have no idea how much this means to me!" I cried, and hugged her again. "You have no idea how horrible it was, locked in there with no music."

"Yea, hey, they are showing Bridget Jones' Diary in the tearoom in a few minutes. Want to check it out?"

"Sure!" And we walked up to the tearoom, me carrying my CD player. We had a really fun time; it was amazing to be in the company of other people. Some of the people in the tearoom got a bit mad at us, because we started yelling when the two blokes started beating each other up over Bridget, and when ever we saw Hugh Grant we would start talking in loud whispers about how hot he was.

And then, when Bridget ran out into the streets in her knickers, and kissed the one bloke, we stood up, and clapped, which almost got us kicked out. And then, after that was over, they played—get this—Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban! It was the funniest thing either of us had ever seen. Bray and I started laughing at the introduction, and we thought that the actor who played my father looked like a young Toby McGuire...and then we started laughing again, and people stared at us, until we were asked to be quiet. And then, the best part of the movie came up. It was the part when Hermione slaps Draco. We stood up, and clapped, and screamed, "You go girl!" And, "Girl power!" And then we were personally escorted out, but we snuck back in and watched the rest of it. It was pretty funny.

Then, when they showed Sirius and Remus hugging, I screamed, "They are not gay!" And promptly ran out of the room, only to sneak back in a few moments later.

Then, the lights came back on, and we had to somehow make it look like we had left the room, so we hid under an ottoman until everybody had left, when in walked Jay. And then, they sat me down, and demanded that she talk to us about something.

Lily

Later

My rooms...sigh...

Jay and Bray are very...shocked at this moment I suppose. I don't know. I sort of left them in the tearoom after Jay told us what she had to say.

Apparently, their original parents, who gave them up for adoption because they were half-vampires, and death eaters were still a big priority when we were born, and their parents didn't want them killed, have contacted the muggles who adopted my two best friends, and want to see their daughters at Christmas. Their muggle parents were mad about this last part, because that would mean that they wouldn't get to see Jay and Bray at Christmas, so their muggle father called up to the school, and wanted to talk to one of them, and it has been decided that Jay and Bray will spend half of Christmas Holidays at their muggle parent's home, do their Christmas thing with them there on the last day of Hanukah, then come to my house for Christmas Eve, and then go to their birth parents house for the rest of Holidays.

When Jay started yelling about how she hated that their real parents never tried to get them until now, I left. They needed some time to themselves, and I just wanted to be alone, I suppose. Even though I had locked myself in a bathroom for two days just to do that, I still wanted to be alone.

I kind-of thought it was funny that they knew that they were adopted, but never got mad at their real parents for leaving them when they were so young. I mean, I would be mad at my parents if they did that to me, because I would have wanted to grow up with people who I belonged to. I don't want to have to face new challenges in life, because that scares me.

Having to let go of what you have grown to love, accept and agree with is a part of life, I suppose. But it's hard to let go, and I can see that now. That's why I didn't want to go face those house elves, even if it did mean that I would bring Dan back. I didn't want to find anything that I haven't countered before. I don't want to explore anything new. And maybe that's my problem. I am trying too hard to hold on, and I think that I am letting go, when I'm not. I am just sitting here, not facing my fears, not coming to terms with anything. I am just running, and I slow down at times, so it doesn't seem like I am running away from anything, but then something happens and I just lock myself up again. Just like the bathroom. I am such an idiot. I run away from my problems, rather than try to make them better. I let other people deal with things.

Emotional attachment isn't my problem. I run away from everything. I didn't stay with Jay and Bray, I left them. I didn't go after Jay when they pranked her; I walked in the other direction. What kind of person am I? No wonder my mother hates me. I can't even confront myself about HER! I am just running away from her too.

I am screwed up. I need to stop running, and face some challenges. But, as long as there are obstacles, I don't see myself ever stopping to take a breath from running.

Lily

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