((Ryou's POV))
School was just about ending. Just a few more hours left. I'd have biology class next and Bakura would have Critical thinking class. Poor Bakura. All that critical thinking stresses him out.
I don't like him. If you think I'm thinking that I'm not. We're just…f-friends now. Just plain old buddies. Even though it would've been nice if we could have been more…
I sighed. I packed up my books and parted with Bakura without even saying goodbye. I was too embarrassed to say good-bye to him. After the move I pulled, I wouldn't even say bye to me. I must have scared him.
I entered biology class. By the smell, I knew we were dissecting some sort of fish. Ew fish. Nasty. Why would we even do such a thing? These poor animals.
I cut open the fish and almost threw up on it. It was so disgusting. Those nasty fumes were giving me a headache and making me nauseous. How I longed for Bakura's sweet smell of perfume.
I sighed delightedly. How it smelled so good. How just the smell of it told me I was near him. Mmm. Ow! I looked at my finger. I had cut it. I was about to stick it in my mouth when I realized I was cutting a fish.
"Teacher, may I use the bathroom?" Always wash your hands good hygiene means a good body. She filled out a pink pass for me and I walked to the bathroom.
While I was walking, I noticed something. The air smelled of Bakura's perfume. I was close to his Critical thinking class. I wanted to take a peek and see him. I couldn't possibly live without him.
But I don't love him. We're friends. Remember that. I shook my head and entered the bathroom. Someone was in the stall because I saw the door closed and someone's feet.
Bakura has those same sneakers. I remember the day I bought it for him and he had it in with the store clerk because they didn't have his size and he really wanted them.
He had said he wanted a pair just like mine. Since he didn't have his way, only two people were sent to the shadow realm and I sacrificed my shoes. I'm such a true "friend."
I don't know how much longer I can go with this friend business. I leaned against the wall crossing my arms and squeezing my chest a little. Stupid Bakura. I think I made it pretty obvious that I…
I sighed. The person in the stall came out, but I didn't look. Only when they called my name was when I looked. It was Bakura. I think I smiled or blushed or did something to notice I was happy to see him.
Yes "friends" are happy to see other "friends".
"What are you doing in here?" I let myself go to be relaxed instead of tense.
"Pissing like normal people do. What about you?" He asked about…me? Well, there's a first time for everything I guess.
"Nothing. Just…standing here. By myself." I shrugged. He started washing his hands and wiped his hands dry on his shirt. He passed me by and I moaned pretty loudly making him stop.
Whoops.
He cocked an eyebrow. He paid no attention and went to walk out when I asked him this question:
"Bakura, let's say someone came up to you right? That someone that came up to you kissed you. How would you react?"
I bit my lip hard hoping my question wasn't too…"weird".
He looked at me strange. He then smiled at me and walked up to me closing in. Had he…smiled at me? Smiling is not something he does. Why did he smile? He was a bit close to me, but I didn't care.
"What type of kiss?" He asked. Um…think Ryou. What kiss examples did Marik teach you?
"Well there's the um…pop kiss. The there's the regular kiss and then there's that weird tongue kiss that's not a French kiss. It's what Marik taught me!" I blushed furiously biting my lip even harder.
"So, there's the pop, the regular and the "tongue non French" kiss. What is Marik teaching you?" He chuckled. He was acting strangely today.
He was thinking. I guess it's his critical thinking class mode.
"Pop kiss. Like…this?" He showed me an example. He…popped kissed me? He…what?
"Regular kiss. You mean like this?" He kissed me for a longer time and let me go. What the hell was going on? My eyes became watery.
"And that last one with the long last name…I know this one." He kissed me for an even longer time and I felt the tip of his tongue making me jump and squeeze his arms.
"You sure were into the whole thing for just being examples. Now, you tell me how you reacted to that and there's the answer to your question." He said licking his lips. Had…I died? This had to have been some dream.
Sad to say, I wanted more. I grabbed him before he left and looked at him sadly. He was pulling and I pushed him into the wall moving closer to him.
"What do you think you're doing?" He asked angrily. I'm going to kiss you is what I'm going to do. I passed my hand through his hair and ignored his comments.
I tuned him out and I was only paying attention to his features. I stroked his face making him close his eyes. He may hate me, but he can't deny this feeling I'm giving him. Everyone has to love it.
I put my face close to his allowing me to feel his warm uneven breath. I would soon extinguish your breath for the time being Bakura. I put my lips close to his. Breath to breath. It was about to happen when…
He kneed me and I fell clutching my stomach dropping myself on my knees to be just as tall as his waistline.
"It was an example Ryou Bakura. Not so you could take advantage of me. Little bitch. Who do you think you are?" He walked around me and left the bathroom leaving me…alone.
I growled angrily. I…can't believe he did something like that to me. I slammed my fist against the floor and ran outside. I watched him put his hands in his pocket.
I ran quickly and tackled him to the floor punching his face. I started yelling and screaming and yanking his hair.
"Why do you keep leading me on! Why! Why!" I screamed crying. He grabbed my arms and slammed me into the lockers denting them from the force.
"I'm not leading anyone on! The last person I'd lead on would be you! I don't like you and I never will! And if you punch me like you did you won't have a body anymore! It would be chopped into tiny little pieces!" He breathed heavily from screaming so much.
I looked at the bruises I gave him that were now forming into their purply black and blue stages, the cuts on his arms, and the blood on his lips. I did him in good. My hands did this?
I…I can't keep denying myself. It's why I did it. I still love him! I started crying.
"Bakura I'm sorry! I'm really sorry. You could hit me all you want when you get home. I want you to have your revenge." I was still crying. I wanted him to be happy! I wanted him to do whatever he wanted to me.
He dropped me making me fall on my hands and looking at the floor.
"And you stay down. Bitch." He said walking off and kicking me.
I cried harder. I snuck out of school and ran home. I needed 2 more hours of school. Well, fuck school! I'm too…too…sad. He hadn't beaten me in so long. I thought he would stop.
I laid on his bed sniffing his scent and crying softly. I heard a knock on the door. It was the mailman. He pushed the mail through the slot and I got a letter from…Marik?
I opened it. He was inviting me to Moonlit beach. A beach? What was the occasion? I flipped the card over and it answered my question.
"A get together of great friends."
Who was going? I looked lower on the card.
Ryou BakuraRyou's Yami Bakura
Me duh!
Yami Marik
Joey Wheeler
Yugi and his Yami + Tea.
I sighed. Why…why did he have to invite Yugi? I hate Yugi and his dumb Yami too. This was all taking place tomorrow. Monday. It was Labor Day and a week off for spring break. The weather would be perfect.
I started packing for the hell of it and packed some stuff for Bakura. I had put the luggage in the living room when the door flung open. It was my Yami.
2 hours passed already? It's only been 45 minutes! What's he doing here?
"What are you doing here?" I gulped wishing I said that a little bit nicer.
"We switched classes and I noticed you weren't there—Oh my god he noticed I wasn't there. Great job Bakura.
"I was lonely so I came home." He finished. Aw! He missed me! I wanted to run to him and hug him tightly, but I was scared he might hurt me again.
"So you missed me?" I asked suspiciously and blushing. His cheeks turned a bit pink. Was he…blushing?
"No I didn't miss you! Yugi was just pissing me off!" Sure…Bakura. Maybe he does have feelings for me after all. He sat on the couch drinking from an apple juice box. I sat down on my couch thinking of a good plan to get him.
I sound like some sort of serial killer. I giggled to myself. He had heard me because he looked at me. I scooted closer to him. This was going to scar me for life, but I need to.
He felt me moving closer and he ignored me slurping away at his juice box. I got on my knees and grabbed the juice box from his mouth. His face said "What the hell?" but he did nothing.
I started to kiss him. He actually let me. I opened my eyes and saw his hand inch closer to me. Probably just going to hug me. I was wrong. He started choking me.
"I told you not to get fresh with me Ryou. I don't know who you think you are, but you better change your act before I really kill you." I rubbed my neck. What the hell! He could have pushed me!
I growled angrily again and jumped at him again.
"You keep doing it!" I punched him harder than I did before. He grabbed my arms sinking in his nails through them. He started beating me and held the knife at me.
"You honestly don't know who you're messing with Ryou. I…I got over it. So I don't have to worry about you…
Why did he stop? I groaned in pain holding my sides wiping blood off my cheeks.
"I see now you show everything, but I'm afraid it's a little too late for that now."
What is he talking about? He's like…using some really hard metaphors. He walked away licking his fingers? I forgot to tell him about the trip. Oh well. I stayed on the ground curled in a ball letting myself lose blood.
I'm…wasting my time. He will never love me. I started to cry. Damn I cry a lot. I don't want to cry.
I fell asleep on the floor for a couple of minutes. I was half awake when I felt someone pick me up. It was pretty dark outside. I looked at who picked me up. Why was Bakura picking me up and taking me to his room?
Well whatever. I fidgeted in his arms and buried my face in his chest. He was so warm. He plopped me down in his bed and he sat beside me. This is exactly what I mean.
He grabbed my arm gently and began cleaning my wounds. I…I don't understand him! He keeps sending me different messages!
"Stupid Ryou. Never does anything right." I sighed to myself. Dumb…Bakura.
He started digging in my pant pocket and grabbed the letter Marik gave me.
"An invitation to Moonlit beach huh? Don't know where this is." He started mumbling all the people that were going and grumbled every time he would say Yugi or his Yami.
"Great a week at the beach with the people I hate the most. What a vacation." I could tell he was being sarcastic. He pushed me aside and started watching TV. He was watching the cooking channel? Why the hell would he watch that?
"Yes! Kill the pig." Oh! Because there is violence when they show skits of pig killing. Only you Bakura. I decided it was time to wake up…or not. I decided to squirm myself over near Bakura and hug him.
It wouldn't technically be bad because I was doing it in my "sleep". I made a stretching sound and hugged his waist. I could tell he was staring at me because I somehow felt his eyes on me.
He grabbed my arms and pushed me away. Ugh…it was pointless. I opened my eyes staring at his hand scratching his thigh. I sat up, but quickly so it can seem like a surprise.
I wanted to hear what he had to say when I asked him.
"What am I doing here?" I tried to sound as tired as possible.
Bakura stayed quiet and flipped the channel on the TV.
"I asked a question." Ooh. I said that a bit firmly.
"And I'm not answering it. Since you're awake go away." I did as I was told.
"I suggest you go to sleep early tonight. We're going out tomorrow." I said when I opened the door.
"Oh I don't think I'm going." He said coolly.
"W-why not?" I asked hoping he was lying. It's the only time I'll ever see him in his trunks.
"Eh, there's a lot of people I don't like going."
"Please reconsider Bakura. You'll have a good time I promise." I sounded a bit desperate.
He stared at me. "Why should I listen to you?" He sure was tough to talk to.
"Because you never do and maybe you could listen to me for once." I kicked the ground shyly.
"Whatever." I had won. His whatever's always meant a yes.
"Glad to hear that." I walked out happily smiling and clapping my hands. I couldn't possibly wait for tomorrow. I was hyper and wired from my sleep on the ground.
It was a quarter to two in the morning. I was still sitting on my bed just reading a really boring book. I had fallen asleep for a couple of minutes and awoke from sudden shaking.
I opened my eyes slowly and saw Bakura standing in front of me with his hands on my shoulders.
"W-what happened Bakura?" I rubbed my exhaustion away and stared at him.
"I…I can't go to sleep." He rubbed the back of his head in embarrassment. Are you serious? Bakura is coming to me because he can't get to sleep. This is too funny. What do I tell him?
"What do you want me to do?"
"Its kind of the whole point on why I came here maybe you can bore me and I'll go to sleep from there."
Oh that's nice. Let's "bore" you. I…had an idea!
"Well, um. When I was little I um…I used to crawl in my moms bed and she used to play with my hair. That always helped me to fall asleep."
"But your moms not here." He's such an idiot, but he's my idiot.
I think he got the memo and stared at the empty space in my bed.
"You're clean…right?" No I'm filthy. I have germs, fungus everything you could possibly imagine.
"Yes I'm clean Bakura" I smiled at him and he rolled his eyes. I could tell he wasn't up for the whole idea of getting in bed with me so I can play with his hair.
"You better not pull any funny business Ryou Bakura." He said covering himself with my blanket.
"I won't." I lifted my book and started reading again. He wrapped his arms around me and snuggled his head on my shoulder.
"Make it happen." He said demandingly. I rested my head on his sniffing his hair and stroking it. His hair was so soft. My fingers never got once got caught in a knot.
He yawned loudly and pulled me closer to him. I rubbed his back and went back to reading. After a few minutes from reading, Bakura started moaning. He had said "my" name through his session of moaning and I started chuckling.
I turned off my lamp and wrapped my arms around him. "Goodnight Bakura" I made sure he wasn't awake and kissed his cheek.
I had woken up to annoying banging sounds on my door.
"Wake up guys! Let's go!" Marik was screaming. I looked at the time. 5:30! I woke up Bakura and got dressed as quickly as possible.
"This is insane! Waking up at the crack of dawn! I'm tired!" Bakura said crankily while brushing his teeth.
"We can sleep in the car Bakura." I told him brushing my hair. I grabbed the heavy bag that Bakura clearly saw I was having a hard time carrying and ignored it.
I tossed it in Marik's trunk and entered the car with Bakura following me. It looked like a freaking house in his car. Yugi and his Yami were already there with Tea and Joey. Yami Marik was sitting in the front seat airing himself and listening to music.
Bakura sat far away from me and I sighed sadly resting my head on the window waiting for the long drive ahead of us.
"Bakura loves Ryou!" Marik coughed.
Bakura growled angrily and folded his arms. "I do not!"
"Yes you do that's why I saw you s-l-pee-pee-I-n-g with him." Marik said. I've always wondered why he couldn't spell.
"It's s-l-e-e-p-I-n-g Marik. Sleeping." I corrected him. Hey, I'd rather him get It right than in the future having it spelled "sleeping" the way he did.
"And there goes super nerd Ryou to ruin the moment." Bakura never called me a nerd. I sighed.
"Yes Bakura, I'm super nerd." I waited for the car to start before I went to sleep. I rested my head in my hands sighing.
Ishizu got into the car finally and started driving. Car rides always made me tired. I listened to Marik's conversation with Yugi and the annoyance my Yami had when Marik would always say he loved me.
I fell asleep. It wasn't a very long nap either. I woke up when I felt cold.
"Come on Bakura you know you wanna look." I heard Marik giggle.
My shirt was up. That's why I was cold. I felt sharp pains when Yugi would push down on my scars.
"Ryou has a lot of boo boos." Boo boos? Dumbass. I shook him off me and kicked him away.
"Leave Ryou alone Yugi." Bakura said.
"But he has so many cuts. What does he do?" Yugi asked.
"Nothing."
Yugi continued touching my cuts making me feel uncomfortable.
"Stop it Yugi!" Bakura yelled throwing him away.
"Yea Yugi! You're making Bakura jealous because you're touching Ryou and he's not." Marik started giggling. He sure loved messing with my Yami.
"How about I mess up your face huh? Sounds good right?" My Yami was full of it.
I felt him move closer to me and pull my shirt down. I grabbed his hand and kept it by me.
"See Ryou loves you!" Marik said happily.
I did. I won't deny it either.
"No he doesn't! And I don't love him either…not anymore." Bakura sounded sad.
What does that mean? "Not anymore?"
"Not anymore? So you used to love him?" Marik had asked.
"Yes. I had really strong feelings for him, but they all left me when I saw he didn't love me back. I felt like I was wasting my time. After a few days of feeling like a part of me had been ripped out, I…got over it."
I was shocked. B-bakura loved me and now…it's too late. I felt tears rolling down my face and turned away from everyone. I didn't want them to see me crying. I can't believe my only chance was gone…just like that.
Yay! Cliff hanger…sorta! I'm gonna make you guys suffer and post my next chapter when summer vacation starts for me! That's June 1st dudes! ((evil laugh)) But wait! Not June first because I'm not completely out of school! My school's going to the movies! On Wednesday! OOoOoOoOoOh now you gotta wait longer! It's not like…you know…you'll review anyway….you didn't review for like 2 weeks you losers! I don't feel special! Only my friends are special! At least "they" review me…..((grumble grumble grumble))