((Bakura's P.O.V))

Why does Ryou have to be in my business? So what if I'm doing what I'm doing? I know it's bad…but for just some reason the sight of blood calms me down. Whatever I just won't do it often just…when I see Ryou. Well, I see him everyday that's dumb.

I turned to the side and sighed deeply. All this stress, these thoughts…they're killing me. I still wonder if Ryou had to go through this or if I'm just being too dramatic about it.

I moaned. Ryou sat up from laying down and looked over at me.

"What?" I asked him.

"You ok?" he asked me.

Besides the fact that I feel totally crushed inside and I'm in the need of beating up something so bad…no everything is not ok.

I didn't answer him.

He rubbed my side and just started talking to me about any random subject that came to his mind.

He was putting me to sleep actually. His soft voice talking to me about…I'm guessing socks, his gentle hand tickling my side it was relaxing.

"Bakura do you love me?"

I sat up quickly staring at him in confusion.

"What? Was I making you feel uncomfortable?"

"Did you just ask me…a question?" I asked.

"I was talking about the trip. You know how the beach was and such."

Am I hearing things?

I stayed sitting up for a couple of minutes and felt something rubbing my legs.

"Stop touching me."

"I'm not touching you." Ryou said cocking an eyebrow. "Are you all right?"

"I'm going to go to the couch…to…watch some TV." I got my pillows and a blanket and went to the couch.

I could've sworn that was Ryou rubbing me and talking to me. I'm not delirious. You can't say you felt something and then have the only person in the room say they didn't touch you.

I sat on the couch and laid out my things. There was absolutely nothing on the TV. Just stupid reality TV shows about damn drama queens and such. They're pathetic.

I yawned loudly and just closed my eyes listening to the air vent right above me. I was in a deep sleep and was awoken by…Ishizu? I was still half asleep, but I managed to sit up.

"Go back to your room." She told me.

"I'm watching TV." I mumbled.

She turned to look at the TV and noticed it was off.

"You're not watching TV. Go to your room Bakura. The couch is bad for your back."

"I want to stay here!" I almost screamed putting the pillow over my head.

She patted my back and left me alone.

After all that commotion there was no possible way for me to get back to sleep. I wonder what everyone was doing besides sleeping. Marik rarely goes to sleep maybe I can have his company.

I placed one hand on my back from the pained scars Marik gave me and went over to his room.

Sleeping. Marik was sleeping! Marik never sleeps. He gives insomnia a whole new meaning. Yet there he is dozing off cuddled up with his dumb Yami. I wish Ryou would do that to me. Even when I did despise him I loved hugs.

I went to my room. Ryou was sleeping soundly on the corner of his bed leaving my side empty waiting for my return. I sat down on the bed and just looked around.

We're leaving this place tomorrow. How will life back at home be? Ryou back in his room cooped up and me back in mine cutting up stuff. What a wonderful life.

I don't want to go back I like it here. Sharing a bed with Ryou, the sand and the beach and the sun, the partying. I don't want to be home and be quiet never talking to Ryou.

But why did it take me this long to accept Ryou? Ryou cared about me when no one else cared about me nor loved me like he did. Now I'm broken up inside back to being cared and loved by only myself.

I should stop mourning. Mourning never got anyone anywhere. My mourning won't bring Ryou back and I don't know what will.

I moaned. This is all just dumb. I can't be—I lost my train of thought when I felt two arms wrap around me.

I looked at Ryou whose head was laying on my shoulder.

"What are you still doing up?" He asked me.

His warm breath hit my face making me relax my shoulders.

"I couldn't get back to sleep after Ishizu told me to come back to the room."

"You mean you left me leaving you a spot when you were intentionally planning to sleep on the filthy couch?" He asked me fidgeting.

His chin was sinking into my shoulder socket making me feel uncomfortable, but I left him there in fear he would get off of me.

"I…wanted to watch TV. I should've told you that I was going to sleep on the couch. Sorry."

I felt like I was getting softer by the second. No more will to fight, curse, scream, punch, beat or anything. It had all gone down the drain when I started loving Ryou. It's like he transformed my heart to be kind.

"I don't know if I should forgive you. You abandoned me here…cold…alone. Like you always do." Ryou said upset sounding.

"No Ryou, I didn't mean it that way. Please do be upset with me. I'll stay now." I said.

He sat there quietly for a bit.

"On one condition." He said whispering in my ear.

"What?" I asked him.

"You have to kiss me." He said smiling.

I sat there. He was toying with me. He obviously knows I have feelings for him now. What do I do now?

"Come on Bakura, you're not gonna leave me hanging again are you?"

This was all so strange. Should I do it? If I do it he might find out I love him, but if I don't he'll think I'm neutral, but if I don't do it…I'll never be able to feel a kiss again. I'm taking it.

I faced him. He was still smiling at me. I moved closer to him hesitant at first. Still doubting this situation. He moved closer to me close enough we were at breath to breath. I gave him a passionate kiss and felt fingers running down my hair. He started shaking me?

"Bakura! Wake up!" Marik screamed tossing a pillow at my head.

I sat up from the couch staring at everyone.

Damn…just a dream.

"You were about to kiss me their buddy!" Marik said smiling.

Ew.

"Let's go get dressed! Chop chop! Last day here wanna spend the time to the fullest!" He said dragging me off the couch and to the bathroom.

Ryou was brushing his hair when I went to the bathroom. He ignored me. I sighed to myself and started brushing my teeth.

"Hey. I didn't see you there." Ryou said to me smiling.

"Hi." I said muffled from the toothpaste.

"You…left me last night. Our last night together sharing the water bed." Ryou said.

That's right! Oh my god how could I have been so stupid! Ugh…stupid TV.

I spit and gargled.

"I'm sorry about that. The TV must have gotten the best of me." I said.

"Oh that's all right. I'm sure next vacation we'll stay together again." He said walking off.

Yea…next vacation.

I spiked up my hair and caught up with everyone who were already at the beach having a good time.

Ryou was playing tag with Marik. Yami Marik was just sitting there. Yugi was being his normal gay self with his Yami and Joey…where is Joey?

I looked around and saw nothing. Oh well. Maybe he left.

I saw the gay patrol come walk over to me and I grumbled angrily.

"Bakura you're not playing! You under arrest for not playing." Yugi giggled.

"And you're going to jail for being so short and gay all the same time." I said getting up and leaving.

God I didn't need that. I looked back at Yugi crying and that lesbo Tea trying to comfort him with Yami yugi about the power of friendship.

…….right…..

Tea just wanted to be there because she wanted Yami Yugi. I bet if she had the chance she'd bang him. But then again she's a lesbo. Oh well I'll never understand them.

I stretched and fell to the sand roughly when Marik came running towards me.

"I'm sorry." Marik said.

I pushed him off me and dusted the sand that was on me.

"You ok Marik." Ryou asked running up to us.

"Yea I'm fine."

"Good let's go play another game." Ryou said grabbing Marik's shoulders and walking off with him.

Not even a "Are you ok?" Bakura? I got up. He's just being mean now.

I went back to the hotel. I don't need to be outside with those low lives.

I opened my pocketknife that still had my dry blood on it. I looked at my arm. I know what I was doing was wrong but I needed to see blood.

I cut my arm a bit and did that a couple of times till I heard the door open.

I laid down and put the knife under me. I covered my arm and waited for them to leave.

They came inside.

"Why aren't you outside?" Ishizu asked me.

"Yea we're having lost of fun come and hang out with us." Yami Marik said.

"Nah, I'm fine here." I said. "You go on without me."

Ishizu looked at the bed.

"Oh Bakura you're bleeding!" She said shocked.

Dammit! They caught me.

"Yea what happened?" Yami Marik asked.

Think Bakura think.

"Uh…Marik ran over me and I tripped really badly and I scraped my arm." I lied.

"That's horrible. Here get up so I can help you clean it." She said.

"No! That's ok. I'm fine." I said watching Yami Marik give me looks of suspicion.

"No let's help you clean it." Yami Marik said.

"I said I was fine! Stop it get away!" I screamed shooing them.

My arm was hurting a lot now. It kept letting out blood. I was still stressed though. I need to see more.

I calmed myself and inhaled deeply. I felt like I had been unconscious for a while. They had placed me on in the car in the last section. I saw everyone getting their stuff and putting it in the trunk.

My knife. Where's my knife! I rummaged through my pockets and noticed it was missing. Oh-no! They have it. The sliding door opened and Yami Marik was standing before me.

"I know what you're doing." He said to me.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said sinking into my seat.

He pulled out my arm making me flinch in pain.

"This is wrong Bakura. You're endangering your life. Stop it please." Yami Marik said.

"I'm not doing anything." I said trying to cover it up.

"You're cutting yourself. I'm not giving you your knife back ever. You'll have to deal with your problems without feeling the pain." Yami Marik said.

"But I don't do it to feel pain. I don't feel pain! I do it for the blood." I said.

"Well then…like something Marik would say…look at a carton of strawberry juice." He said walking out.

I sighed. I could stop. I wasn't too crazy about it anyway. No big deal. I passed my hand on my bloody arm.

I laid back down on the seat. The commotion was coming. Marik opened the sliding door and bounced on the chair followed by Yami Yugi, Yugi, Tea and Ryou.

"Bakura you missed it. We were having so much fun in the water and stuff and—

Everyone stayed quiet.

"And…?" I asked.

Ryou had a face of fright.

"W-what happened to your arm?" He asked me.

"Oh. Um...this? I um…fell." I began sweating.

"Wow…how'd you fall?" Marik asked.

Leave it to Marik to continue asking questions.

"In the bath…tub." I said smiling nervously.

Ryou gave me the same exact look Yami Marik gave me.

He grabbed my hand and took me to the middle section.

This is the same place where Ryou confessed to me.

I'll never forget how sad he was when I said no to him each time he would ask me to love him. I won't forget how I forced him to do things he didn't want to do only so I could be bossy about everything and treat him horribly.

He sat me down.

He grabbed my arm and passed his hand on it staining himself and his sleeve with blood.

"What's going on Bakura? I'm really worried about you now."

I looked at him sadly. I couldn't tell him.

"I know what you're doing Bakura." Ryou said.

"No…no you don't." I said backing away from him.

"Why are you doing it? Is there something that you're hiding from me?" He asked getting closer to me.

I slapped him away.

"You don't understand leave me alone." I screamed.

He stayed silent.

Silence filled the car except for the wheels rolling on the pavement.

Say something Ryou. Say…something!

"Bakura…I….

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