((Bakura's P.O.V))
Ugh…where the hell am I? I shook my head and rubbed my eyes. I was in my bed. We got home from our long drive. I feel like shit. I shouldn't have drunk so much.
I don't remember anything that happened last night…or if it was still night or whatever. I just don't remember anything that went on before I fell asleep.
I dragged myself out of bed and looked at the time. A quarter past three. I wonder if Ryou was sleeping. I walked down the stairs holding on to the wall because if I didn't hold onto something I would've collapsed.
I feel so weak and light headed. I'm not drinking till a long time from now. I stumbled when I got downstairs and straightened myself out.
I heard a faintish sound coming from the living room and walked in limping a little.
Ryou was sleeping on the couch snoring softly with his head on the armrest looking uncomfortable.
I first went to the kitchen to see if there was anything to alleviate my headache. My head was throbbing with pain. It felt like it would explode at any second. I went through the medicine cabinet, but everything looked like it was in Chinese.
Advil, Tylenol, Aleve…what is this crap? I opened one and accidentally dropped them all on the floor. Aw, shit.
I heard moaning and rustling on the couch. I woke up Ryou. He stretched out and yawned loudly sitting up.
"What time is it?" He asked himself drowsily looking at the clock. "I'm going to see if Bakura's awake."
"I'm right here." I said picking up the pills.
I had startled him. He walked over to me and asked me what I was doing.
"My head really hurts and I was looking for some medicine to help me only I didn't know which one. I'm sorry I woke you up."
He smiled at me and picked up the Tylenol. He poured me a glass of water and put the pill in my hand.
I was always scared of drinking pills. I always thought I would choke on it one day.
He took me on the couch and we started watching TV together.
"Are you tired?" He asked me.
"Not really just feeling a little sick." I said.
He chuckled.
"I told you, you drank too much. It'll go away soon and if it doesn't I'll take care of you." He smiled.
I hate to admit it, but he was right. He's always right.
"Oh! I just remembered! You were going to tell me something." He said.
"What? When?" I asked.
"In the car when you were…acting strangely…you were going to say something but you fell asleep on my lap."
"Acting strange—
It was all coming to me. Oh…my…god. I remembered. I kissed him. And not just any kiss either.
"Oh Ryou I'm really sorry about that. I was drunk. That didn't mean anything." I said quickly.
He sighed sadly.
"It didn't?" He asked.
"It didn't what?" I asked.
"Nothing, nothing. Never mind. Um…I see you don't remember. Well, that's all right." He said faking smile.
He sat on the far right corner of the couch looking sadly at the TV.
"Hey Ryou," I said.
"Hmm?" He replied not looking at me.
"Can you um…get my blanket from upstairs? I'm getting kinda cold." I asked.
He got up and went upstairs to my room.
I felt so lazy making him get up from the couch just so he could get me a blanket.
I waited a good few minutes just sitting on the couch and Ryou still hadn't come back. It doesn't really take long to get a blanket.
I went upstairs and saw Ryou laid out on the bottom half of my bed sleeping away. I guess I'll get to sleep with Ryou one last time. I took off his shoes and unbuttoned his shirt to put on a more comfortable one.
I lifted him a bit and laid him out right on my bed. I stripped and left just my boxers on and hopped into bed.
I turned off my lamp and just stayed awake thinking. I really love Ryou now. I didn't think I would ever. What changed me? Was it how when I knew I wasn't getting any attention from him it made me feel lonely? Did I realize I actually wanted someone in my life that actually shared some of my same interests even if it wasn't by a lot? Or was it because he was a good kisser?
Ryou moved closer to me and put a cold hand across my chest making me shiver.
"Bakura," Ryou said.
"You're awake." I said a little shocked.
"Of course I am. I only pretended so you could leave me here."
I liked that thought. I turned on my lamp and turned over to him.
I stayed quiet.
"You're not talking. You haven't been talking a lot lately. What's on your mind?" He asked me making tiny circles on my chest with his finger.
Ryou was acting hotter lately. Not hot like look wise. Just…hot. It's not like him. Nothing like him at all.
I didn't want to tell him I was thinking about him.
"You thinking about me?" He asked me smiling.
I blushed a little.
"I'm just kidding." He said.
I sighed in relief. Thought he had me there.
"Bakura…you know how I've been trying to…kiss you lately right?" Ryou asked me.
Why was he asking me this? Where is this leading too? What's he thinking about? And why would he ask me this if he doesn't like me anymore?
I stayed quiet yet again.
"You're so shy. What's gotten into you?" He asked running his fingers down my hair.
I could really tell Ryou was hyper and I don't mean thathyper. Not the hyper you'd find in the dictionary. A deeper context. What's up with me using all these hidden words? It's not like me.
"So, if I got your permission…would you…allow me to kiss you for real? Not drunk not anything?" He asked making his hand into a fist.
"I don't see why not." I said smiling slyly.
I've got him in the mood. He moved closer to me. Are lips were touching by the tip and a voice comes out of nowhere.
"Why don't you ever…EVER pick up your damn phone!" Marik screamed from the answering machine.
"I know you two are awake probably going at it again. You hot people."
I groaned and picked up the phone.
"Hello."
"There's Bak—
I hung up. I turned away from Ryou leaving him hanging there. I lost my mood as always every time Marik interrupts. I'll never get what I want from Ryou if he keeps interrupting. He'll just have to die. Ooh I liked that a lot.
Ryou got as close as possible to me and embraced me closely. The warmness of his breath helped put me to sleep the rest of the night.
I awoke extremely early the next day to Ryou tugging at my hair in his sleep. Not to mention all his moaning.
I grabbed a book from my drawer and started writing in it. I know what you're thinking and no it's not a diary it's more of like a journal thing. I take it with me everywhere and I write in it everyday.
If anyone caught sight of it they'd know about my whole life. I've been writing in it since the day I got it on the day of my 5th birthday.
I wrote about what happened all on the trip to the beach and the bar and everything. When I was finished I put it on top of my drawer and went to freshen up.
Ryou was moaning about eating cookie's and milk and ice cream with soda. Weird I know.
I went down stairs and fixed Ryou some breakfast. I knew he wanted cookies and milk because he said so in his sleep. I hope he's surprised when he sees I fixed this up for him.
A few hours later I walked upstairs and heard giggling. I opened the door and saw Ryou scrambling in bed really quickly and tossing the covers over him.
I chuckled and walked over to him.
"It's time to go to school." I said.
"Aww, do I have to go?" He whined.
"I'll go with you." I smiled.
He still whined. Guess that didn't really cheer him up.
He got out of bed and dressed himself in his uniform. I always thought that uniform made him look thinner than what he already was and more intellectual. But Ryou was pretty bright for his age. Much brighter than all the other kids at school, but none of them had the love for learning as he did.
He brushed his hair and tossed the brush on the bed. He came up from behind me and messed up my hair running downstairs before I got him.
He sure was cheery this morning.
"Oooh cookies!" I heard him say from downstairs.
I walked down the steps watching him eat his breakfast and gather his books.
"Well…" I said.
"Well what?" He asked me.
"Those cookies didn't get them by themselves you know." I said giving him a hint.
"You're right! I must have put them there last night." He said swallowing and sticking another one in his mouth.
"No-o-o-o-o." I said smiling.
"No I'm pretty sure I did." He smiled.
"If you say so." I said getting my books.
"Thank you Bakura." He said hugging me and yet again messing up my hair and running outside.
I sighed and brushed my hair again.
We were walking to school in dead silence when he started humming a tune.
"You seem awfully happy today care to share?" I asked.
"Well today there's school. I can't wait to walk in there and get ready to learn and best of all you'll be there."
"You mumbled. What?" I asked.
"Nothing." He said smiling and blushing.
"Ryou…you look…
"I look?"
"You look c—
"My friends!" Marik said jumping in between us and putting his arms around us.
"What is up?"
"Bakura was about to tell me how I looked." Ryou said.
'Um…never mind." I said.
"No go ahead Bakura. Ryou looks--?"
"Well, ok. Ryou looks—
"Ryou you look great today! Did you lose any more weight because my god! You're going to have to come to my house so I can put some more pounds on you."
I sighed. He always cuts in what's wrong with him. Little bitch must die.
Ryou chuckled.
"Now I've just gotta say Ryou you are—
They walked on ahead leaving me behind all by myself. Grr! Marik pisses me off! I'm trying to talk to Ryou here trying to compliment him on how cool he looked today.
I walked inside and went to homeroom. I sat next to Ryou and I just sat there for a couple of minutes chewing on my wad of gum. Good old boring school again. I'll just slit my veins…and Marik's while I'm at it.
Ryou handed me a book.
"Reading is good for you." He said. "It keeps you entertained. Vividly enhances your imagination and uplifts your spirit."
Reading does all that to you? I thought it was some sort of torture form found back in the 1600's or something.
I grabbed the book and started reading. I tapped his shoulder.
"What does this word say and what does it mean?" I asked.
"It means—
"Ryou I need your help drastically." Marik said dragging Ryou away from me yet again. This was getting ridiculous.
"But I was going to help Bakura pronounce—
"I really need your help." Marik said.
I skipped the word and continued reading. Homeroom was over and we all went to science class.
"Great boring science." I sighed sadly.
"Science is exciting Bakura. It gives you a new view of the world and a new opinion about everything in it. It allows you to experiment with the elements and see a future much more differently than the one you pictured before."
Ryou has something for everything. It only keeps me interested in it when he explains it to me like that.
We where pouring chemicals together to make some sort of fusion. As always Ryou was my partner. Back then; I only used Ryou to do all my work…now I do it for the joy in working with one of my closest friends. Yes for the "joy". God dammit Tea getting me into the whole "joy" shit. Who even knew I'd get a friend…and someone like him. Guess I'm pretty lucky.
"Ryou how much of this do I pour?" I asked him.
"About—
"Ryou! My station! It's in critical condition!" Marik screamed dragging Ryou away from me yet again.
"But Ryou—
"Bakura—
"Station now. Bakura much later." Marik said.
I sighed and sat there waiting for Ryou to return. Ends up Ryou becoming Marik's partner in this assignment and I take an F for waiting for him.
So it's lunchtime now. You'd think all would go smooth with Ryou and I. Turns out that idiot Marik best known as the cock-blocker comes and ruins my lunch by taking Ryou again abandoning me and making me look like a fool eating by myself talking to no one.
If Ryou were my friend…or at least anything to me like I thought…he wouldn't be the whole time with Marik he'd come to me as well right? I guess he doesn't want to be with me as much as I thought he did.
I put my head down. I have critical reading class now. I wonder what Ryou has to say about that class.
:Critical reading class is meant not only for reading, but to slit your veins because it's boring as hell.:
I chuckled. Ryou came running over to me and sat by me.
"I'm really sorry Bakura. I was caught up in what Marik was doing I—
"Forget it. What's done is done. I don't care for your company anymore. I know Marik will just come and ruin it anyway." I said.
I silenced him.
"Are you…jealous?" He asked me.
I laughed loudly.
"Where'd you get that sense of humor?" I asked playfully. "No I'm not jealous. How can I be jealous of someone dumber than I?"
He looked at me strangely.
The lunch bell rang and he left without saying goodbye to me. I plan on skipping school and that's what I did.
I ran home locking myself in my comfortable abode locking my room door and shutting myself out from the world.
I lay in bed looking up at the ceiling. I'm utterly confused right now in this point of my life.
I don't know what to do. I don't know whether I should confront Ryou and just tell him already and finally finish screwing up my life when I hear he doesn't even like me and just wants to get away from me. I just don't know what to do.
I stayed wondering about that even when I took my long hot bath.
Ryou should be home by now…but he wasn't.
Chapter 13 only 6 more chapters to go. I might…and the might slightly leading more to the yes side add more. But, I might not get to even finish this story. I might ((I'm saying might a lot)) take it down forever. I'm having some technical difficulties with something going around the site and I don't need anything bad to happen. I'll keep posting stories….just not continue this one if that problem arises again. You guys better pray. Wow, 77 reviews. I didn't think I'd ever get that. My goal right now is to reach 100. I at least want it for this story and I hope I have it or at least get to see it if this story does have to come down since my Bakura's first are only famous for the people who read it in order. Now I need to ask this question. Is my chapter one boring? I mean…I have hits on that one like…wow! And it's like…did I start off too strong did I sound boring or what? No one seems to just want to read on….little….meanies. And once again…sorry for like changing the chapter process to Saturday. My computers acting gay…as usual. Well, bye now.