((Ryou's POV))
This just all came so sudden. Marik…liking me he must be joking.
"Are you serious Marik?"
"Of course I'm serious Ryou. You're like…you're Ryou. I don't want you getting hurt anymore by Bakura."
He sounded pretty serious to me. This isn't about the calculus anymore is it?
"Ryou if you love Bakura again who knows what you'll get yourself into again. Just think of all the times you mourned and he didn't care, how you were at his ever whim doing him favors and errands and how he did nothing for you. Don't you remember that feeling?" He asked me worried.
Of course I remembered that. I'll never forget that. Come to think of it, every time in his journal how he said cruel and mean things to me. I never once got to finish it. But towards the end…it started to get interesting, interesting to the fact I'm dying to know more.
"Yes Marik I remember." Was all I said.
"Then what's your deal Ryou?" He asked me.
"I need to help you study Marik." I said trying to change the subject.
"Studying later talking now! Ryou you—
"F(x)3x to the power of 2+6x-1 over x to the power of 2+x-3?"
"Ryou stop ignoring me! Fuck calculus! I don't even know how the hell I'm in this! I got in by a fluke so stop trying to help me! I'm trying to help you now! Ryou I like you. I like you too much to get hurt once again by that idiot Bakura!"
He was weirding me out. Did he like keep this too himself all along?
"F(x)3x to the power of 2+6x-1 over x to the power of 2+x-342. Is that right?"
Marik growled angrily and ripped the paper I was working on.
"That's all right I got several others." I said pulling out a pack.
He grabbed his head angrily and yanked at his hair.
"Stop ignoring me! I'm trying to help you!" He screamed loudly.
"I don't need your help I'm fine doing what I want to do!" I said loudly as well.
"You're being stupid now! Don't you understand it's all a lie! Bakura being nice to you is so he can get anything he wants from you! Chores, homework, services, errands, pleasure!" Marik screamed.
"You're lying." I said.
He yanked at his hair again and grabbed my neck. He shook me wildly and choked me.
Lucky for me, Yami Marik came in and shot Marik with an injection. Wow, who would know he had such a problem? Well, it was kind of obvious he was under some medication I mean…come on it's Marik. That's pretty mean I take that back.
He started tearing from the pain and held on to his Yami.
"What did you do to him!" Yami Marik asked angrily.
"I…I didn't do anything. He started yelling at me about not understanding anything about Bakura and he just threw himself on me." I explained. "I tried to get off the subject honestly I did."
Marik started twitching lightly in his Yami's arms still crying softly.
"Marik I know you're—
"Don't talk to him!" Yami Marik yelled at me.
"I'm…going to go home now." I said.
"N-no! Ryou wait." Marik said pushing his Yami away.
I stopped and looked at Marik.
"You know you have to stop eventually. Bakura won't always be there and most of the time he could give a damn about you! You're wasting your time, your life, your humanity!" Marik screamed at me some more.
"Shut up Marik! You don't know Bakura like I do. H-he's different! I don't care if you like me or not I like Bakura and you're not going to do anything about it!" I screamed at him.
"Stop being so fucking stupid you idiot! You're smarter than that! I know you are Ryou. Believe me. Look at me, you can tell I like you!"
"Yea, but I don't like you! Get away from me!" I screamed pushing him away from me.
It totally slipped my mind of the condition he was in. He hit the ground hard and laid there motionless.
Oh my god! Oh my god! What did I do!
I ran up to him and started shaking him.
"Marik? Marik?" I panicked.
"Fuck! This is your entire fault Ryou! If something happens to him, I'm not hesitating to press charges on you!" Yami Marik screamed at me picking up a phone.
Press charges? What…kind of charges?
Yami Marik picked up Marik and took him to the car.
"You better pray Ryou Bakura. You better pray." He said before leaving.
Oh I'm praying all right. I don't care about what he'll do to me I care about Marik's condition right now. I hope he'll be ok.
I started walking home with remorse. How could I do that? And to Marik too. Marik's been like the best person to me. I can rely on him for anything. He even liked me.
He cared about my condition and I never took any of it seriously. I just thought he was a hyper sugar high idiotic friend. I never knew he could be sensitive too. I never even knew he had a temper or any of that. He's just always so happy maybe so happy he uses his happiness not only to influence others, but also to hide his true feelings so no one has any concern about him. It's like…he takes care of himself.
All this thinking is making me feel guiltier than what I already am.
I opened my apartment door and shut it quietly.
"What am I going to do?" I said to myself.
"About what?" Bakura asked turning on the light.
"You stayed up for me."
"Of course I did." He smiled.
What if Marik's right? What if Bakura really is being a hypocrite like he intended to say? I'm not going to ask him straightforward "Oh. Bakura, do you love me?" That's plain insanity.
He cocked an eyebrow when he saw how deep in thought I was.
"What happened at Marik's house?" Bakura asked.
"N-n-n-n-n-"
Great there I go stuttering. Damn my stuttering.
"It was something." Bakura said sitting me on the couch.
"I…can't tell you." I said looking away from him.
"Ryou, you can tell me anything." He said turning my face to face his.
I kept remembering what Marik told me about Bakura and how he only wanted me for several things.
He patted my hand.
"Marik…likes me."
"What!" Bakura screamed in shock.
I nodded and he just laughed for a really long time.
"You're joking right? Is his brain so slow that he doesn't realize you'd pick me before him any day?" He laughed.
I sat up straight.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked upset.
"Ugh…uh…"
I had him. Does he honestly think my whole life revolves around him?
"Ha, nice going Bakura. But I'd pick him over you. He's less selfish, less cocky, thinks about me more and cares about me more and everything. Unlike you who only thinks about yourself and could careless about me because…you hate me."
I left him speechless.
"Ryou…do you…do you really think that?" He asked sadly.
"Yes, yes I do." I said walking away.
"But Ryou I don—
I slammed the door in his face before he even finished. I was so fed up with him. Marik was so right. Wow never thought I'd hear myself say that.
"Fuck you then Ryou." I heard Bakura grumble by my door.
Damn…I made him mad. I want to rush out there and just apologize to him. Of course I would never choose Marik before him. I was just so pissed I said that out of anger. Great! Now I've gone and injured Marik and pissed off my Yami. I couldn't possibly make anything any worse.
I shed a few tears and decided to just go and see Marik without my Yami knowing.
I shoved some pillows under the blanket so my bed didn't look so empty and went up stairs quietly. He was sleeping when I went up. Looks like he fell asleep just now.
I went up to him and ruffled his hair softly. I saw the time and gave him a kiss on the cheek before running out. I accidentally closed the door a bit hard, but I still ran out to the hospital.
((Bakura's POV))
I woke up to a forceful slam to the door and fell off my bed. Damn Ryou…always trying to wake me up. I heard the jingling of the keys and saw someone pass by my window.
Who was that? I got up from my bed and opened my window. They had left too quickly before I could see whom it was. I went down to Ryou's room and saw the lump in his bed. He must've been there.
I should apologize to Ryou…for saying what I said. I felt very dominant. I walked up to the bed and sat down on the opposite side of Ryou.
"Ryou, I know you're mad at me and all and…I…I just wanted to apolo-ap-apolog-apologize…for what I said earlier. You can like whomever you want to like…even though I thought you really liked me. Can you forgive me Ryou?"
It was quiet.
"Ryou?" I shook the lump.
Pillows!
I got up quickly and ran upstairs to put some clothes on. I had no idea what I picked out to wear all I knew was Ryou was wandering the streets with no protection.
I looked from balcony view to see if I could see Ryou walking. When I didn't I just took off running wherever.
I asked some hobo if he had seen someone that looked like me, but no one has.
I'm freaked out right about now. Why did he leave in the first place? Did he leave…because of me?
I saw a light turned on in the nearest coffee shop and I knew how much Ryou loved coffee so I went inside. I asked them and they said that he left only a couple of minutes ago. Do I know Ryou or do I know Ryou?
I got exhausted and just started walking quickly looking instead of running around. When I get a hold of Ryou grrr he's in for it.
I saw a thrown plastic coffee cup on the floor in front of any alley way followed by some blood. Oh-no. I ran in that direction. My god it was like some sort of maze.
When I finally reached the end I saw a figure slumped on the ground and ran up to it.
"Ryou?"
"Y-yep." He replied with difficulty.
"Oh my god Ryou what…what happened? Why did you leave home? Where were you going? What—
He put a hand to my mouth and started chuckling.
"I was mugged." He said smiling weakly at me.
"That's not a laughing matter. You could have been killed you're lucky you're alive."
"Why do you care? You never cared about me anyway." He said beginning to cry.
"Th-that's not true. I've always cared about you Ryou. You're my only friend. You're like…hmm…what's something I like? You're like a steak to me."
He smiled and chuckled.
"You were my only friend. I shut everyone from the world except you because…I really um…really…uh."
"Really?" Ryou asked.
I…I don't think I'm ready for this yet. What could I possibly be getting myself into if I tell him?
"I really care about you Ryou." I said.
Ryou sat up and embraced me closely.
"I'm sorry I ran away from home without telling you. I lost all my money…and my coffee and all my jewels. I can't ever get those back but I've also gained something just now."
"What's that?" I asked hugging him as well.
"I've gained your trust and care. I don't care if you like me. I don't care about any of that. As long as we can get along…that's fine with me." He said.
Oh Ryou, you have more than just my trust and care now. I'll tell you eventually.
I helped him get up and walked in the direction of the house. He stopped me.
"No. I need to go to the hospital." He said.
"Ryou you're ok no need for drastic measures."
"Just let me go and I'll take care of it from here. Please go home I can take care of myself."
I shook my head.
"You honestly think I can trust you out here now that they just mugged you?" I asked.
"I'll be fine. I have no valuable goods on me except the ring, but who cares about that."
"Um hello I do. Give it here. You're not going to the hospital. Why are you going anyway?" I asked.
"Marik's there. I…did something to him." He said putting his head down.
"Ryou what the hell did you do stab him?" I asked shocked.
It's not like Ryou to go and send one of his closest friends to the hospital.
"It's nothing." He said turning away from me.
"Ryou, I really hate it that you keep secrets from me."
I put my hand on his shoulder.
"I don't want to tell you. It's not that I don't want to tell it's that I can't." He said.
"But—
"Don't worry about it. I'll see you later." He said running off.
"Ryou…"
I sighed and began walking home.
"What is he hiding from me?"
I stopped walking. I'm going to find out. No more secrets Ryou.
I began running in the direction of the hospital. I will find out what secret Ryou is keeping from me even if it means ruining our friendship.
Dude what a gay ending! Lol! I must've had a gay moment just now lol. Oh my god how funny! RYOU GOT MUGGED! OH MY GOD! HAHAHA! I laughed my as off writing that part! …………………….lol. Sorry. I just thought that was the most hilarious image. Lol. Well, you got….I think 4 chaps left. Bum bum bum. School's awesome. I got a rocker math teacher lol! And I'm having David issues! Yay me! Go me! Go me for never having luck with cute boys because lesbians (( not literally though I just call them that because I hate them )) that used to be your friend decided to get in the freaking way and mess me up badly. If you live in Florida and you see the news about head decapitation and the name Melissa Mendoza following….yea. Just kidding I'm not a killer.
P.S Dudes, I dunno about you but this hit thing pisses me off soo much. I have 1,189 hits for this story….it's like what the hell if you read PLEASE review. It's stupid that you read and not review. It could be crap I don't care just leave something. A 90 reviewed story with 1,189 hits. That's like 1,099 people who didn't review. Oooh I did that big number in my head. Lol. Oh yea and stories are coming down so…be ready for that.