The Diary of Lily Audrey Potter
Chapter Thirty-nine: That's Hot
Author's Note: This has seriously been the hardest chapter to write. It took me four times to get it right, and I finally wrote something I was not only happy with, but I could build a decent-length chapter off of. There is only one more chapter left, and this is really sad to me. For over a year now, this story has been my baby. It has weathered so much with me, and any time I felt really crappy, I knew that this was here and I could become Lily and talk about all the insane things that happened at Hogwarts. And this has been an amazing journey. I am just in shock that there is only one chapter left. This fanfiction, for as long as I was writing it, I knew that I wanted to have the chapters be an even number. Forty chapters. That's a really long story, but I hope that on those rainy days when you have nothing to do that you come back and read this whole story.
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter and anything else you recognize.
Dedication: To one of my very dear friends, who while I was venting to him about friendships told me some amazing advice to put into relationships if I ever get into one. The advice: Relationships just aren't about being happy.
May 21st, 9:23 AM
Muggle Studies
Oh my goodness. You would never believe what the cover story is in the Daily Prophet. You seriously wouldn't.
POTTER CHILDREN ARE GROWING UP
A Special Report by Beverly Deshacker
LONDON—As Harry Potter did nearly twenty years ago, his three children, Remus, Lily, and Sirius Potter, are all about to graduate from Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. The three children are in a set of quadruplets, and were born on July 10th, eighteen years ago.
The Daily Prophet did an expose on their birth—and now, the children's entering of the magical world as adults. This monumental occasion will take place on June 21st, the Summer Solstice, at seven in the evening in the Hogwarts Quidditch Pitch.
But, as our older readers will remember, there were four Potter children. What about the fourth, you may ask? James Potter, one of Harry and Ginny Potter's three sons, was in a fateful accident this year on Valentine's Day, which resulted in his turning into a vampire. The family was quite shocked, as this event was a travesty to the Potter family. Ginny Potter has been known to speak out against vampires, and her son being turned into one was a great shame to her.
"She was crying all day…screaming in horror." A neighbor, who wished to remain anonymous stated when asked if Ginny Potter had any reaction to the news that her son was a vampire. Although it is unclear, several statements have been released, saying that James was turned by Count Vlad Dracula himself. Dracula was unavailable for comment.
The Potter's have always been infamous; Harry brought the defeat of the Dark Lord twice, and is an established auror, his wife, Ginny Potter, is a top healer at St. Mungo's Hospital, and his four children have a myriad of accomplishments among themselves. Despite all of these wonderful achievements, the Potter children have gotten themselves in a spot of trouble.
Sources inside Hogwarts have told this reporter that Lily Potter has a detention record to rival even the most troublesome student's in the school's history, she has set the Gryffindor Common room on fire, set up several pranks with disastrous results, and saved then-boyfriend, Daniel Malfoy, from a house-elf revolt that is rumored was started by Lily herself. Remus Potter has had his Head Boy title revoked due to his attack on a seventh-year student. James and Sirius Potter have remained quite tame through out their Hogwarts careers, although the two of them have had their fair share of mayhem.
The main question through out everything is: Is the world ready for a new generation of Potters? Nearly everyone remembers the horrible Christmas party hosted by Ginny Potter when Luna Lovegood-Longbottom had a magical malfunction which resulted in the destruction of Potter Manor. Will the Wizarding World be ready for the Potter children? Only time will tell, and frankly, this reporter wishes time would move much slower. (Turn to Pages 15-23 for a Look at the Potter's Through the Ages—Photo Memoirs.)
Can you believe that crap? My mother having a thing against vampires? She practically adopted Jay and Bray and they are half vampires! That article was a load of bull. They made me look like this kid with nothing going for her. That might be true, but I am not as bad as they made me sound! I did not start the house elf revolution; they did that on their own. That article…
Lily
Later, 12:46 PM
The Great Hall
Hermione just made an announcement to all the seventh years. We need to start thinking about what we want to put in the time capsule. Libby nearly cried because she couldn't decide—purple or pink eye liner? I swear, she is so materialistic, it makes me sick. Really, I sneezed in my chicken soup because of her overly-powerful spray she sprayed everywhere because "The room smelled odd. Like dead rodents."
How did I end up going to a school with these people?
There was a thumb under the table. My soup is moving because someone is bumping the table.
"What the hell is going on under there?" Sirius is saying. And now, he is looking under the table. And now, he just screamed.
"OH MY GOD! KEEP THAT TO YOURSELF!" Great, Sirius passed out on the floor.
"He's twitching!" A third year just yelled. Bray poked her head out from under the table, followed by Drew.
"Who's twitching?" She says, coming out from under the table fully, adjusting her robes.
"Dear Merlin…I don't have to put up with this." I'm going somewhere without moving soup.
Lily
Much Later
My Dorm
I tried to get down to the kitchens so I could get some food, but I wasn't able to get to the kitchens. No, because I now have stalkers. Yeah, STALKERS. Seriously, this whole thing is insane. They are convinced that I was going to do something delinquent, and that they would take pictures of it. Which is insane, as I was not going to make trouble, I wanted to get food, for Merlin's sake!
So I am trying to get rid of my stalkers, when Dan comes down the hallway, whistling. "Lily!" He says, "Have you gotten a new posse? Because if so, I would hope that you would notice that they are all shorter than you." I wanted to smack him.
"They are not my posse, you loser. They are stalking me because of what the Daily Prophet said about me!" I told him, attempting to save my robes from being torn to shreds from a drooling first year.
"Oh. Well then, let me help you." And he grabbed my arm, and started running with me, until he found a random door, and opened it and shoved us inside. Dan and I were in a broom closet, and a very small one at that. We were shoved up against each other, and he was breathing in my ear. "I hope this is okay…"
"Yeah…It's kinda cramped, but it's better than having crazy first years chasing me."
"Oh, we can move around a bit…here, you go there, and I'll move here…no, your other left…yeah…whoops! Sorry about your—"And halfway through moving around, somehow, by some weird occurrence, our lips met each other. It was totally unplanned, neither of us expected it. And we stayed like that for some time, until I brought myself to my senses.
"Uh…yeah, I n-n-need to go. I'll talk to you later? Yeah, later, later is good…um…bye." I opened the door, and ran away, until I got here.
The scary thing is, is that I kissed Dan. I know that we broke up a long time ago, and neither of us did anything wrong by kissing each other. But…still. That wasn't supposed to happen. I am supposed to be done with Dan Malfoy, and we should not be kissing each other in broom closets when I am running away from my stalkers. It just shouldn't happen.
I should be done with Dan Malfoy. Because if everything was right with the world, I wouldn't have felt anything when I kissed Dan. But I did. If felt a little shock when I kissed Dan. And I shouldn't feel that. Because I can't still be in love with Dan Malfoy. I can't.
May 22nd, 2:46 PM
The Lake
Today could possibly be the worst day of me entire life. Besides the fact that I might still be in love with Dan, I have also found out that my mother attacked the reporter who said that she does not like vampires. Said reporter is now in St. Mungo's bleeding profusely, while my mother has been taken to the ministry. And you want to know the worst of it?
I walked into the Great Hall this morning, and I saw Dan making out with a Ravenclaw. I know I have no claim over him, but it made me feel like what happened in the closet meant nothing to him. Nothing at all.
And the accidental kiss should mean nothing to me, too. But it did, and that's what really worries me. That kiss meant something to me because I could feel something. But could he?
Lily
May 23rd, 9:47 AM
Muggle Studies
Urg, NEWTS revisions. We have been doing these all week. I'm getting really bored of stating in six different ways the purpose of carbonation, and how to carbonate a product. And, it's begun raining, too.
I'm still freaking out over my kiss with Dan. Apparently, his current attachment has been with him for weeks. Now, I feel really bad, because I am the "other woman." I kissed Dan when he was going out with another girl. Even if it was accidental. My life SUCKS.
Lily
Later, 6:02 PM
Great Hall
I swear, my life just got even more horrible. I kissed Dan, again! This is getting insane.
I was sitting under the girl's staircase, waiting for the common room to clear out. I was crying a little, out of frustration because of the kiss Dan and I had, when Dan came over, and asked me what was wrong. I told him nothing, but he came over, and sat next to me under the stairs.
"If nothing was wrong, then you wouldn't be crying." He said, and started drying my tears. His face was really close to mine, and we got "caught up in the moment," and we…kissed. We kissed for a little while, until I realized what we were doing. I broke it off, and looked at the floor.
"This…isn't…I'm…going to go." And I grabbed my bag and left the common room.
What's even more confusing is that when Dan kissed me this time, I felt nothing.
Lily
May 30th, 5:56 PM
The Great Hall
I was sitting out by the lake today, when Bray came and sat down next to me.
"Lilykins, what's wrong deary? You look down." She said, picking up some daises.
"Oh, you know. The usual, NEWTS, my parents, my family…"
"A certain boy?"
"What? What are you talking about? What 'certain boy?'"
"Oh you know…that one boy…"
"WHAT BOY?"
"Jesus, you don't have to yell at me. I'm talking about that boy that is holding out a card to you."
"What? What card—"I turned around then. "Oh, hello Neptune!"
"Hi. My mom just owled me to give this to you…it's an invitation to her baby shower at the end of July…you know, for the baby she is going to have."
"Oh…yes, I remember Mum owling me about that. But, why didn't she just owl it to me?"
"She wanted to save on postage." He said, and ran away, tearing of his robes and flailing himself in the water.
"That's one wired family." Bray said, putting a crown of daises on my head and walking away.
Later
The Common Room
I was in the Library a little while ago, finishing up a potions essay on Truth Potions, watching my brothers and Jay and Bray play tag, when Jay suddenly stopped and Sirius ran into her.
"Hey! Why'd you stop? Remus is going to get us!" Sirius yelled at her. Jay fell to the ground with a shocked look on her face. She slowly turned to Sirius and grabbed his arm.
"Sirius?" She asked.
"Yeah, Jay?"
"We are going to be leaving Hogwarts soon, aren't we?"
"Yeah Jay, I reckon we are."
"We shouldn't be playing tag."
"Well, why not?"
"Yeah Jay, why not?" Remus said, coming up to the two.
"Ah! No touching! No touching!" Sirius screamed, jumping away from Remus. Remus sat next to her on the floor.
"In two months…we will be adults." Jay said in a mystical voice. "In real life, you can't play Tag or Hide-and-Seek in your cubicles. You'll get fired."
"Aww…no warnings?" Sirius said.
"Nope, no warnings, none at all." Jay said. "What are we going to do? We are leaving to be adults. We are growing up. We're not first years playing Tag in the Library anymore." Sirius looked around. He spotted a few first years and ran over to them. He came back a few minutes later wearing incredibly short robes with a seam in the shoulder splitting, carrying a few other robes.
"Here, put these on and we can be first years again." He said.
"Okay!" Remus said, tearing his own robe off, and tagging Sirius. "Tag! You're it!" And he ran off. Sirius threw a robe at Jay who was still sitting down and went to chase after Remus.
"Mr. Potter!" McHenry screamed towards the back of the Library. "Return that robe now!"
"Lily…this is it. It's all over. We have to be responsible now." Jay said faintly, got up, and left the Library.
The weird thing is, is that it's taken her seven years to figure out this is it. It's all or nothing.
Lily
June 1st, Noon
The Great Hall
Dan just left. And I think it was best that he left, because I don't know how much longer I could stand sitting next to him before I threw my corn at him and started yelling at him for being stupid. I am just so tired of feeling like I am in love with him, but not feeling anything. It can never be him and I. It just can't. There was nothing there. I might have been in love with him for half my life, but when we dated, nothing worked out. Nothing. We could do everything together, make out for hours, but when we were done, it still felt like he was my best friend and not my boyfriend. And maybe that's how it's supposed to stay. Dan should just be a really good friend, and not my boyfriend.
Well, I'm glad I worked that out.
Lily
Later, 1:03 PM
Charms
HOLY SHIT! NEWTS ARE IN TWO WEEKS!
AAAAAAHHHHHH!
June 2nd, 4:56 AM
The Common Room
I must have lost it. I haven't been studying! I was too worried about Dan and the whole deal with him and didn't realize how close NEWTS were. I am destined to fail the NEWTS! Three people in the past hour have already been taken to the Hospital Wing because they are so scared about these NEWTS, I am terrified! What happens if I can't remember anything? I might die! No!
Lily
June 2nd, 4:58 AM
The Common Room
No, I'm not going to forget anything. I will remember it all, and pass all my NEWTS! I must work a study schedule…let's see…
MONDAY: Potions
TUESDAY: Herbology
WENSDAY: Transfiguration
THURSDAY: Muggle Studies
FRIDAY: History of Magic
SATURDAY: Defense Against the Dark Arts
SUNDAY: Study all six subjects for one hour each.
That looks like a good study schedule. I'm not going to bother with Astronomy, because I don't plan on passing that class anyways. I'm not going to need it in whatever I decide to do. Which brings me to another topic—what should I do when I leave Hogwarts? Fred and George have offered me a store keeper position at their London store if I want it when I get out of Hogwarts. They have also offered me the flat above the shop because Fred and his family are moving to a house in the country side, close to the Burrow.
Talking about this seems so…final. Like everything is over, when it is just beginning.
Urg, I hate the end of the school year. It makes me get philosophical-like.
Lily
June 3rd, 11:23 AM
By the Lake
I feel…dead. I have been studying so hard, I have drained myself. I am forcing myself to study the cures to the Drought of Sleep (none). There aren't even any cures to the Drought of Death, its all antidotes. Antidotes are not cures, they are potions, and the antidote for the Drought of Sleep doesn't even work half the time.
See? I sound like Snape! Something needs to be done until I start naming all known canned Muggle foods.
Spam, chicken, tuna, baked beans, lima beans, green beans…
This is getting bad. I need to stop. Full stop. I need to take a break from this constant studying. All we are doing in class anymore is reviewing, and I am spending my days constantly reviewing. McGonagall put me in detention because I started screaming in class when she asked me for my homework. Apparently, saying that she did not give us Wednesday, my Transfiguration day, to do our homework so I spent the night studying Herbology instead of Transfiguration is not a viable excuse. Well, boo her.
Jay is running over here, so I better go.
Lily
June 13th, 5:52 PM
The Great Hall
HOGWARTS ANNOUNCEMENT
All seventh years are required to submit in writing to Professor Malfoy
the item that he/she is going to put in the 16th Annual Hogwarts Time Capsule.
All entries are due by 19 June at 11:00 PM for final examination.
Thank you,
Hogwarts Staff
When Libby saw this, she started screaming, because her purple eyeliner would not come in time for the Graduation Ceremony, and she was crying to her fake posse about how shimmery blue eyeliner just isn't the same. I about threw up, this time because she rammed her new hand bag into my stomach. I swear, I hate her so much.
But my problem is, is that I don't even have anything I can put in. Everything I have is so…insignificant. I have nothing really awesome from my time at Hogwarts except some old homework. This is frustrating me.
Lily
June 14th, 2:30 PM
The Front Lawn
My god…I just took my first NEWT…I thought I was about to die…it was so hard! Eek! I know I failed it…I did HORRIBLE. I couldn't find any moon stone, so my whole potion was a waste…it was a disaster…it was horrible…and I won't write in you again until all my NEWTS are over.
June 19th, 10:56 PM
Outside Hermione's Office
So, after days of studying and deciding I have finally come to a conclusion of what I should put in the time capsule: You. Yes. I am going to put you in the time capsule to be buried in the ground. It sounds weird, but that is what I am going to do. And that's it.
Lily
June 20th, 11:23 AM
The Common Room
I am graduating from Hogwarts tomorrow. All around me, seventh years are crying because this is it. We are on our own.
The sad thing is? I still haven't figured out what to do with my life. Jay is about to smack me, because she knows a job that would be perfect for me, but she won't tell me. I want to smack her. Grr!
I am really scared about graduating tomorrow. That's the end of my final year of Hogwarts, and the end of you. This is my last entry. I am about to cry. You have been my faithful diary. You have gone through everything with me. But I refuse to say goodbye. Because goodbye is for losers. I know that we, me and you, will be together once more. I know we will.
That sounds really stupid—saying all of this to a book. But you have really been my best friend this entire year, been through everything with me. And I will sincerely miss you. I think. I don't want to end this, but I have to. I must. We must part ways, and go on, me without my diary. You're cover is all beat up, and you are covered with bits of food and tear stains, but I will always remember the things I wrote in here, and maybe realize what an awesome year I had.
So, thanks for all the good times, and I'll end this without crying.
Lily
End Notes: Yes, that was her last entry. I know it kinda sucked, but there is one more chapter. It's a final chapter/epilogue type thing. It is. And it will be awesome. I hope you liked this chapter. I didn't proof read it, so I hope my grammer was okay. Toodles!
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