A Sparkle of Sunshine

A/N: Hey, well I hope you all enjoy this story as much as you have enjoyed Love Never Dies. I promise you I'm not gonna let you down!

Chapter 1

"A Life without you"

Slowly I open my eyes to find myself in a hospital bed, sore from the waist down, in an unbearable pain that exists in my own mind. I grunt and weakly press the button to allow more pain relief medicine to enter my vulnerable system.

I use all my strength possible to sit up onto my elbows, grunting in the process. I lift up my white cotton shirt to find a dark purple, pinkish scar that was neatly stitched. I slowly lay myself back down on the soft pillow, feeling the hot tears running down my cheeks.

Months ago I arrived in America to go through with my pregnancy, my band mates and Tohma were here for support…Yuki had no idea what was going on. If he would have known, he would leave me.

Our relationship seemed to be torn at the seams and I thought that by going to the best doctors in Japan to have a male pregnancy done that a child would bring us closer together. Yet I did it out of selfishness and I shouldn't be depending on an unborn life to save a relationship.

But the weeks went by and I received news on my cell phone that I was indeed pregnant. The doctors told me I was one of the few males in the world to ever undergo such a dangerous procedure. I was to be watched constantly like a hawk but when I went to tell Yuki, he thought I was joking, and he told me that if I was serious he would leave me.

So I went to Tohma, crying my heart out and he understood. That's when he offered to take me to America, that way I would be out of Eiri Yuki's unknown reach and I could fulfill the pregnancy. He knew why I wanted to do this in the first place and felt deep sorrow for me.

Tohma came to visit every three weeks or so, to keep me company and keep check on me. But I wasn't alone all the time, I had Hiro and Suguru, my loyal band mates who stood by me day and night, sacrificing their time to help me. You finally realize who you're true friends are.

But I realized about six months along I could not bring this child back with me to Japan. I knew America would be a wonderful country, full of opportunities for my child. I could give my baby to a good family, who would love her and provide her with everything she would need and more.

So I made the best decision for my baby…to give her up for adoption. That way, she wouldn't suffer a life where she would hear on the news that her blonde father didn't want her, having her life surrounded around fame, paparazzi, confusion, tears, and being alone. I knew I wouldn't be able to be there for her the majority of the time.

This decision wasn't an easy one. Nights I would cry on my best friend's shoulder, thinking what I was doing was wrong. I had a hard time deciding but instead of thinking of myself, I thought of my daughter. I wanted to make her life wonderful. Even if I wasn't in it.

I found a wonderful family, full blooded Japanese people who've wanted a child to call their own for so long. I smiled when the young woman of twenty four took my little Rose into her arms and cried for happiness. She told me how grateful she is for such a beautiful daughter.

I smiled and told her that I will always love my little Rose and I want the mother to tell her when she's older.

I gave her the name Rose because she was such a beauty in such a small form. She had big eyes like mine with Yuki's golden color and beautiful strawberry wisps of hair.

The mother nodded, turning to leave with her husband's arm around her shoulder. I saw Rose's golden eyes look into mine with sorrow, and softly starting to cry but the door closed and I reached my arm out and froze.

It didn't hit me till then… I would never look into my daughters eyes again.

My little girl was gone…I fell to the floor crying my heart out but knew I was doing the right thing.

The right thing…

I snapped back to reality when I saw Tohma's warm, smiling eyes looking down upon me, "How are you doing Shuichi?" he asked

"Horrible." I respond, turning over.

"You don't need that medicine anymore, you should of checked out three days ago, you're well enough to go back home to Japan." He said sadly, rubbing my back as I started to sit up.

"I just hope, I did the right thing Tohma, I don't want to regret what I did." I say, with tears in my eyes.

Tohma held me in his arms, "You did what any loving parent would do in a rough situation and besides, Eiri Yuki really misses you and can't wait for your return from your so called tour." Tohma smiled and so did I.

"I can't believe we told him Bad Luck had a tour in America when actually I was just here fulfilling my nine months."

"Shuichi…what did you do with those lyrics you were writing during your pregnancy?" Tohma asked, helping me out of my bed.

"I put them in a white envelope and gave them to the mother who adopted my child, someday I want my daughter to read them, knowing that I love her…but I didn't put my name on it for I don't know how I would react if she came to find me one day." I bowed my head while Tohma nodded.

The two of us, made our way down the hall and towards the glass doors, awaiting us was a taxi that was going to take us to the airport, then back to my beloved Yuki.

I looked out my window, looking at the midnight clouds that slept below me. I sigh, leaning back into my seat, looking over at Hiro and Suguru who are sound to sleep and Tohma reading a book to pass the time.

I close my eyes and slouch in my seat, thinking of those lyrics I wrote, I'll never forget them.

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along…

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...

The sprinkles of light snow followed by the springs and rains of the year have passed by a dawdling seventeen times as I watch the world spin slowly around me.

I look at my watch and then look at my husband, Yuki who was driving towards NG Productions.

Today was auditions for several new singers to enter the music industry, and I was chosen by Tohma Seguchi to be a judge which Yuki didn't understand why and still teases me about having zero talent but I just roll my eyes.

Yeah…today was going to be a long day.

And so the story begins….

Well what do you think? I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the next one will be up soon!

Ayaka Chan