Sparkle of Sunshine
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation but I do own Kari, Kin and the band Forbidden Rose, I also do not own any lyrics I put into this story.
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Chapter 9
"Little Rose"
(Kari's POV)
I lay on my bed, letting my body go limp as I stare blankly at the ceiling. Why does my life have to be so complicated? I'm so confused about who I truly am. Do I have a mother and father? Or two fathers? What are they like? Do we look a like? Would we share common interests? Why was I left behind… why…
Growing up I was a happy, normal little girl. I played with dolls, held tea parties with my stuffed animals, played dress up, took ballet, wore pink and had my hair is pig tails with bows. I thought my life was just like every other little child, till that one day… when I first started school.
I remember that day, most of the class members were Japanese. I was starting kinder garden and my mother hugged me good bye and I walked shyly into the room, afraid of the others. Through out the day, I started to make friends and got along with them great until one question came out.
"Hey, was that your mommy that brought you here?" A little Japanese boy looked at me as I set the block down, "Yes, that's my mommy!" I smiled and the boy looked at me funny, "You don't look like her." He said, placing his block on top of mine, "What do ya mean?" I asked, very confused, "You look like those kids over there." He pointed to the American kids, "Well mommy says I look special." I almost felt tears coming to my eyes and quickly got up and ran into the corner with stuffed animals and sat there alone till my mother came to get me.
Those memories haunt me so much, they are so attached to me, and I can't remove them even if I tried. They're buried deep within me. But I remember later that day when I was making cookies with my mother did I ask something that would change my view on life forever.
"Mommy?" I asked, eating some of the dough, "Yes sweetpea?" she asked smiling down at me. I guessed I looked pretty cute, wearing a pink dress that matched my hair color and my big eyes looking into hers while I had cookie dough covering my face, "Today, this boy said I looked different from you, do I look different?" I asked and saw my mother's smile fade and she got down on her knees and looked into my eyes. I felt a sharp pain of regret for asking such a question but she closed her eyes and placed a hand on my shoulder, "I thought this day would come that you would ask such a question." She said and I was confused. I didn't know what to think. I was just a child of six. "Now Kari, do you know that little boy, Paul next door? And how he's from a different family and he came to live with his new family because they love him so much?" she explained and my eyes lit up and I smiled, "Yes, he told me once." I said and saw her eyes fill with sadness, "The same thing happened with you, your real family gave you to us because we love you and can take care of you."
My heart stopped, "You mean, you're not my mommy?" I asked nicely and blankly and could see the tears forming in her eyes, "Not your real mommy, but I'm the one who's cared for you since you were a baby, so that makes me your mommy in that way." I nodded and looked down at my feet when my mother pulled my chin up to look into her eyes, "I think its time I showed you something." She said and took my hand and guided me upstairs into her room.
Ever since I saw the lyrics, they gave me hope that one day, just one day, I'll be reunited with them. Those lyrics were written for my eyes only, so I know somewhere out there, they must have loved me.
I closed my eyes and felt the hot tears stream down my face. I lived six years of my life not knowing the truth. What have my real parents done in those six years I was gone and didn't know they even existed? What have they done for seventeen years? Do they miss me? Do they think of me? Do they remember what I look like?
I just wanna cry in my parent's arms, someone who shares the same blood as I do. I want to know them, I wish I could have grown up with them and lived with the people who have the same family history as me. I want to know my real grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins. What would my life have been like if I grew up with them? Would I still be a devoted singer and writer?
There was a knock that came to my door and I jumped out of my thoughts and wiped my eyes, "Yes?" I called out weakly and I heard Yuki's deep voice, "Dinner's ready."
(End of POV)
Later that evening, Shuichi sat alone in the bedroom, Yuki was busy on his last novel in the office, planning on retiring by the end of the year. Kari was busy with lyrics in the living room, and seemed to be bothered by something lately.
(Shuichi's POV)
I look down at both pictures, both backs are blank and they are identical. How did this happen? Did I have two and not know it? Hmm… but as I look at this girl of mine, I remember and feel how much I miss her so. Those eyes would bring anyone to their knees and take control of even the coldest people. The way she felt in my arms, it was like heaven and she lay there so perfectly, she was my angel, my everything.
Was…
It hurts to think of it that way. To know she's off in a different country right now… I wonder every day if she knows she's adopted, if she ever got my lyrics, what she looks like, what her interests are and what her dislikes are. Does she have a beautiful singing voice like myself? Or does she hate celery like Yuki? Thoughts like this never leave me.
Everyday is getting worse, I don't know if someday I'll crack. But I would do anything to stay with Yuki and I didn't want to sacrifice a perfect little girl who could be anything she wanted… all she needed was the right family.
And no matter how much that hurts me, I wasn't what she needed.
(End of POV)
With that thought in mind, Shuichi crawled into bed and cried himself to sleep, but before he dozed off, he looked at her picture once more, kissed it, and slid it into his side pocket.
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(Tohma's POV)
Sitting at my desk, I look upon the documents I came across for the person Kari R. Morioka. I smile as I look upon her infant picture on the page. She sure has changed over the past seventeen years and she was my favorite little niece even if I only knew her for a sort amount of time. Those eyes of hers were so innocent and pure; it was like looking to heaven's eyes.
Oh how I would do anything for her, I truly would. I would love to reunite her with the family she's longed to be with. But things aren't as easy as that.
I worry for Shuichi and Yuki's relationship. How will Yuki react to this lie Shuichi's pulled off for so long? I knew the true reason why Yuki didn't want children at the time, which broke Shuichi's heart and he made a drastic move by doing a male pregnancy behind Yuki's back.
It shocked me more that Yuki thought this was a complete joke. How could another life be a complete joke? So the only way to save them both was my suggestion of Shuichi going to America and then on his own, he decided to give the child up for adoption. I was heart broken when I heard the news that the little girl was given to a family, but it was Shuichi's choice and I was there to support him.
But I'll never forget the fight between Shuichi and Yuki, the fight I thought would break the two apart.
I just happened to becoming over that I heard the whole conversation through the door.
"But Yuki-"Shuichi cried and Yuki yelled, "How many times will I have to tell you? No! You know my reason for not wanting a child, its way too much responsibility for me! Besides we're only dating for heaven's sake! You want to get too attached to me and tie me down, I won't have it! If you dare bring a child into this home I will leave you!"
After that I left, only to hear Shuichi's cries and I walked down the hall.
But the day we arrived home from America, Yuki looked like he hadn't slept or anything, he was so pathetic without Shuichi, he admitted to loving him more than anything and wanted to be with him. The nine months he was gone was complete torture for Yuki, it really showed him his true feelings about the young boy. I was so happy to hear they were engaged, Shuichi was the happiest…. At least on the outside.
I wonder if Yuki would be man enough to except the truth. The truth he needs to know and live up to. The pain and misery he put Shuichi through is unheard of. If only he knew… if only…
(End of POV)
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The next day…
It was now late into the evening; a cool breeze blew through the city and traffic horns played as the music of the night. A group of three stood outside of NG Productions, leaving for home.
"I still have no information to share with you Kari." K said, looking into the horrid faces of both Kari and Star.
"What? What do you mean nothing still?" Kari exclaimed and Star put a hand on her friend's shoulder, looking with a saddened expression towards her friend, "Kari calm down, it's going to be okay."
Just then, Hiro emerged from the building, seeming to have heard everything and looked over at Kari.
Kari felt a deep chill run down her spine, what was going on? "Kari, if K says there's nothing them you must trust him." Hiro said blankly and Kari only glared at him, "I know he's hiding something from me, I can feel it, and how come I get the feeling I'm the only one here who doesn't know what's going on!" Kari yelled and tears started to form in her eyes.
"Hey Kari, things seems to be getting out of control, why don't we go grab a coffee?" Star suggested, giving a weak smile towards her friend.
"Kari, I'll see what I can do." K said sadly and turned and walked into the night. Star watched her uncle walk off and then turned to look at Kari whose tears were falling freely down her face.
Hiro's expression softened, looking at someone he knew so long ago and now is seeing for the first time, all grown up, is scary as hell. "She's got a temper like Yuki but is so emotional like Shuichi…" Hiro thought, leaving unnoticed.
Star looked up into the night sky and wondered, "Now who could of K talked to… the only place he's been lately is-"
Kari noticed the shocked look on her friend's face, "What's going on?" she asked when Star smiled, "K's only been at NG lately right? K and Tohma are good friends, I wonder if Mr. Seguchi knows anything!" Star exclaimed and the two of them looked at the NG doors and ran inside and over to the elevator.
The two of them stayed quiet, while Star hit the button for the third floor. Kari looked at her friend's actions and whispered, "But Mr. Seguchi office is on the tenth floor!" Star smiled at Kari who gave off a confused look and was taken back, "Yeah but the security station is on the third floor." Star teased and Kari knew where this was going.
"Star, are you out of your mind! If we get caught we're dead! And I mean literally!" Kari exclaiming, barely keeping a whisper, "Oh where's your sense of adventure? This could be fun!" Star smiled while Kari hung her head low, "I just don't get you." Kari said bluntly and followed her friend out the door.
Star and Kari looked both ways and hurried to the security room. Just as they were about to open the door, a man with a box in his hands came down the hall.
"What now?" Star asked panicking.
"Hide!" Kari whispered and hid behind the hallway couch and Star hid behind a random fake tree.
The man walked on by, whistling and the girls snuck into the security room. Kari flicked on the lights and the two of them walked over to the tapes. Star looked through them and found a few tapes labeled Seguchi's office.
Kari kept looking back at the door, since it had a window in it, fearing they would be seen, "Hey Star, not to feel the pressure that we might lose our jobs, but COULD YOU HURRY UP?" Kari roared while Star winced, "Okay, okay, hold on."
Star put a tape in the VCR and played it, fast forwarding through most of it and played the tape, "Hey, here's Mr. K and Seguchi, damn tapes for now having audio!" Star cried and ejected the tape, "I think its time we pay a little visit to our favorite boss!" Star smiled, and gave Kari the peace sign.
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Tohma was in deep thought when a soft knock came to the door. Tohma looked up and sighed, reaching over he pressed his intercom button, "May I help you?" he asked in a calm tone, then a soft female voice came over the speaker, "I'm sorry to be bothering you Mr. Seguchi, but this is Star and Kari, we would like to speak with you." Star said, waiting for a response, "Come on in ladies." He said and Kari clicked open the door and the two walked in, silence killing the both of them, only keeping their gaze on the blonde ahead.
"What could I help you with?" Tohma faked a smile and sat up in his chair while Star and Kari took a seat, "Oh we just have a silly question to ask you." Star giggled while Kari huffed, "I doubt it a silly question."
Tohma looked back and forth between the two and spoke up, "Well what kind of question is this?" he asked.
"Well…"Star started but Kari interrupted, "Has K discussed anything with you about me?" she asked, looking into the eyes of the most powerful man she knew.
For some weird reason, she feels unafraid… and as if she's gazed into his eyes at one point in time… must be a coincidence.
Tohma's facial expressions turned seriously as he stood up, "That sort of information miss, if confidential." He said smoothly while Kari jumped up and slammed her hands on the desk, "You know something don't you…" she hissed while Tohma glared at her, "Ms. Morioka I would appreciate you watch your tone." He ordered and Kari relaxed her body a bit, "I'm sorry for my friend's actions Mr. Seguchi." Star stood up and bowed.
"That's alright." Tohma said and looked back at the death glare from Kari, "As far as anything concerning you, there's nothing to worry about." Tohma said which just raised Kari's anger level once again, "Mr. Seguchi! This is my life I'm talking about-
"And it's the life of others I'm trying to protect." He barked causing Kari to stop, looking confused.
"Now if you two will be so kind to leave." Tohma asked, trying to keep his cool.
Kari knew this wouldn't get any farther.
At least right now.
Star and Kari turned for the doors and softly clicked the doors shut.
Tohma spun in his chair and looked out the window, "I'm doing my best here… this is something harder than I would ever expect."
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Star made sure Kari got home safe before saying good bye. Kari walked through the door and tears started to flow down her rosy cheeks. She had a hard time containing it, thinking she could cry it out tonight in her pillow but was stopped by a figure in the hallway.
"What's wrong?" Yuki asked, crossing his arms, looking down at the crying Kari. "Well- I- I-" Kari couldn't talk anymore; she just latched onto Yuki and cried into his chest. Yuki wrapped his arms around her and tried calming her down when he saw Shuichi come from behind Kari and mouthed, "What's wrong?"
Yuki did his best to shrug and Shuichi came over and pulled her away from him and looked into her golden eyes.
"Aww her eyes look just like Yuki's! So innocent and pure!" Shuichi said, looking upon his new born baby.
Shuichi shook his head and lead the two into the living room and had Kari sit in the middle of them.
"Thanks guys, for com- comforting me, it-it means a-a lot." Kari tried to say, but was choking on too much air.
"It's alright hun, you're here now and nothing bad is going to happen." Shuichi reassured her and she nodded, leaning back into the couch.
"You guys are like family to me, thanks so much." Kari whispered, closing her eyes but didn't see the smile from the two males in the room.
"We're always were for you." Yuki said while Kari opened her eyes and smiled, "It's just been so hard, no one's telling me anything." Kari said leaving the two confused.
"About your parents?" Yuki asked and now Shuichi looked between the two, feeling left out, "Mind filling me in?" he asked and Kari explained her situation.
Shuichi fell silent.
"Poor girl… looking for her parents… I hope she finds them soon." Shuichi thought, giving Kari a hug.
"Well guys, I think I'm off to bed-" Kari stared at the falling object from Shuichi's pocket.
"What's this…?" Kari trailed off, picking up the photo.
Shuichi was at a loss for words and Yuki stared at the photo, wondering who the baby was.
Kari looked into Shuichi's deep dark lavender eyes.
"Why do you have my baby picture?"
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Yeah… that's seriously the end of the chapter…. Oooooooooh what's gonna happen NOW? Gee I wonder…. Well please I'll love you for the reviews! They help a lot! Thanks!
Ayaka Chan