A Sparkle of Sunshine Chapter 12: Crying Eyes, a gravitation fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation but I do own Kari, Kin and the band Forbidden Rose, but I do not own any lyrics I put into this story.

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Chapter 12

Crying eyes

Yuki's POV

I sit here on the end of the bed, hunched over, black pants wrinkled, light blue button up shirt undone and the long sleeves are rolled up to my elbows. With my hair in a mess and a cigarette in my right hand I sit here thinking… about my life… about the people I love most in my life…

Its amazing how one moment can change your whole perspective on life… even on one person... and that would be Shuichi.

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark

What am I going to do? How can I face him? So many questions are within me yet I can't bring myself to ask him… instead, I push him away, just like I did so long ago… I don't want to… but I'm afraid… I'm afraid of him…

My cell phone rings… for the twenty fifth time today… its Shuichi…

I hold the phone in my hand and listen to the ring tone… and press ignore…

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you
Listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

Putting out my cigarette in the ash tray on the floor, I stand up and walk over to the hotel window and look out past the blinds and face the bright sunny day… today was a day to enjoy… but not for me, instead I sit here suffering and I'm still trying to figure out the reason why I'm like this…

I just can't believe Shuichi did this and I never knew…everyone around me did… did they think I was some sort of fool?

They wanted me to live my life… not knowing that a special girl, my daughter… was out in the world, living and breathing… and gazing at the same moon I see every night…

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

I shouldn't be running from my problems… I should be at my home, with my family…

Family… I smile at the thought; I have a family… a husband I love and a beautiful daughter…

Then why… why am I hiding from him… why…

I turn and stumble a bit over a chair in the room, cursing from the pain in my foot and shove the chair in the wall, leaving a mark.

My cell phone rings yet again and I look at who's calling… I'm getting tired of this phone… but I see its Tohma and I don't know why but I pressed accept and said hello.

"Eiri, where are you? I need to talk to you in person… I promise to come alone."

I gave Tohma the name of the hotel, my room number and he was on his way.

Tohma has always been like the sibling I never had… I could always talk to him and tell him anything, even though I push him away so much… I have been nicer to him ever since I married Shuichi, it's probably because I was so happy with my life and I was changing as a person… to treat people like I wanted to be treated…

And there were voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
His scent of magic the beauty that's been
Well I was wilder than the wind

Before I knew it, there was a knock at the door and I get up to answer it and it was Tohma, he looked pretty shocked by my appearance, "Hey Tohma… come in." I say blankly, letting him in.

He looks around the room, and noticed the distinct smell of cigarette smoke and notices all the beer and vodka bottles sprawled around the room, "Eiri what are you doing with yourself? Snap out of it!" Tohma said sternly, "I shouldn't have to be like your mother and be watching over you, stop being a drama queen and come home." Tohma took a seat on the end of the bed and I just stood staring at him.

"Well how would you deal with my situation if you were me?" I yell and Tohma immediately stood, trying to calm me down.

I can't help but let my tears flow freely down my face, "Don't look at me Tohma… please." I turn away, hiding my face, I shouldn't be like this… but I can't help it…

"Well… while you've been here, Shuichi and Kari have been very worried about you… Shuichi's been crying out for you and having horrible nightmares, constantly saying your name in his sleep and he's been running a fever… I've been watching him all this time." I remained silence and Tohma let out a huff, "Because you guys are my family… and I would do anything for you, Shuichi and Kari… I love you all." Tohma smiled and so did I.

I turn around take off Tohma's hat and ruffle his hair, "Ehh, I love you too even if your being mother hen right now and this is a total after school special." I laugh a little and so does he.

"Yuki…" Tohma starts and I look into his eyes, "Yeah?" I ask

"Could the reason be why your running… is the fact that you think Shuichi is afraid of you? I mean… he didn't want to tell you… he must have been afraid… you don't want him to fear you, don't you?" Tohma asked and with him saying that, it clicked inside my mind…

That's why I ran…

Listen to your heart
I don't know where your going and I don't know why
Listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

It's about time I went home… to show Shuichi I'm not afraid of him… and he shouldn't be afraid of me… I want to tell him I love him… and we can work out this situation together… I mean the only way we can get answers is by communication instead of making of excuses in our minds.

"Besides Eiri… it's been about a week… its time you go home and talk with your husband… and daughter." Tohma stated and turned for the door, "Get your things together, I'll be waiting in the car downstairs." After that was said, Tohma left the room and left me standing there… thinking… and soon I was packing and getting out of there, just wanting to go home.

End of POV

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Kari's POV

I smile faintly as I close the door, looking at my poor father, sick, worried for my other father. They must love each other very much.

Now that my excitement is over… I now have time to think… and I want to know why Yuki didn't want me… why would Shuichi have a pregnancy and know that he would probably have to give me up? Was it easy for him to give me up?

Sure he says he loves me… now… but has he really all this time? Wouldn't he try to secretly contact me? Why didn't he bring me back to Japan and give me to a Japanese family here? Sure I loved my life and family in America, but I knew Japan was my home and I wanted to live here more than anything.

It makes me angry that he gave me up just so he could be with Yuki… I know he loves him, but that just shows how little love he had for me… wasn't I important? I'm his daughter!

How can you love someone…. Whose child you carried yet your love doesn't want their own child in their life? So in order to be with them… you had to give up someone you love, just for your own selfish needs.

Shuichi Shindo… is the most selfish man I have ever met.

End of POV

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Shuichi's POV

I feel the shadows around me as I open my eyes to the darken room. All that could be heard was the clock ticking in the other room and Mr. Joe cleaning himself on the end of the bed.

I rise slowly, my head pounding but not as much from what it was a few days ago… my body aches… but I force myself to swing my legs over the side of the mattress and use the energy I have to get myself out of bed, sensing something is not right.

For the past couple of days, Kari was hovering over me, making sure I was fine, and now she's no where to be found.

I walk into the living room, seeing one lamp turned on that was placed on the corner table and someone hunched over, sitting on the couch.

"Yuki?" I ask weakly, not believing he was really here.

He looked up, happy to see me yet has the look of melancholy in his eyes. I walk over and sit next to him and he wrapped his arm around me, bringing me close to him and he kisses me softly.

"I'm sorry for ever leaving Shuichi." He whispers in my ear and I feel an utter happiness rise within me.

"I forgive you Yuki, but then again I understand why…" I become distant, looking around the dim room.

"Where's Kari? Have you seen her?" I ask and feel my husband become tense so I met his gaze, to try and get answers from him.

"She's…gone." Yuki said, as if confused by his own words.

"Gone? What do you mean by gone?" My voice is still calm but starting to rise.

"I found a note when I came home, I didn't want to wake you, but the note said that we need not to worry and she just needs space from us." Yuki sighs but still I don't know where she is.

Anything could have happened to her.

Where did she go?

Who did she go to?

She didn't know very many people in Japan… so by calling the people it would be easy to pin point where she is.

"I'm going to make a few phone calls and find out where our daughter went." I get half way up and stop, realizing what I said and turn to look at Yuki.

We just looked into each others eyes until I saw Yuki smirk and close his eyes, "I'll go put on some soup, and you make the phone calls." Yuki said simply and got up from the couch.

I watch him walk out of the room and smile to myself.

End of POV

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Kari's POV

Running…

That's all I think about as I run through the dark streets of Tokyo… I have no where to run, don't know where to go, don't know how far I've gotten, but I just want to leave and crawl to someone…

Star was away at a family house and I'm not really close with my other band members, only on a business level.

I take a breather, leaning my arm and slouch over on a bus bench, look ahead of me and narrow my eyebrows and make a dash down the sidewalk once again.

I start to feel tears streaming down my cheeks, I'm so scared… Who knows what kind of people are out this late? It's cold, windy and my throat hurts a little already.

I suddenly stop and collapse on the sidewalk and bring my knees to my chest and begin sobbing.

I'm so pathetic, what am I doing? But I can't go back to those people… I just can't right now…

I hear a motorcycle coming down the street but ignore it; I don't care what happens anymore.

End of POV

Kin was riding through the night, in a hurry to get home to his parents who were worried sick about him. Sitting a stoplight he takes some time to look around till he notices a young girl crying on the side of road, so naturally he pulls off to the side and wants to know if she's alright.

"Miss, don't be frightened but are you alright?" Kin asks and the girl raises her head and Kin blushes, it was none other that Kari.

Kari jumps up and wraps her around Kin's neck and sobs even more, "Oh Kin, what have I done? What will I do? Please help me…" Kari couldn't speak anymore, as she choked on her tears.

Kin relaxed and puts his hands on her waist, holding her as she cried, "Kari, would you like me to take you home?" he asks and Kari shakes her head in a no, "I can't go back." She muffles into Kin's jacket.

"Well I'm on my way home, my parents are worried about me, and would you just like to come back with me?" Kin asks and Kari nods.

"Well then, get on and hold on tight." Kin said putting his helmet back on and hands Kari a spare that he carried for his passengers and takes off down the rode.

Once they reach home, Kari felt very fatigued and could barely walk. So Kin picked her up bridal style, both of them blushing but neither could tell in the dark atmosphere.

Kin opens the door, to see his mother stand up, looking worried and Hiro walking into the room with an angry expression.

"Kin, where the hell have you been?" Hiro asked when he noticed the girl Kin carried.

"Oh my gosh! Kin what happened!" Ayaka asked walking up to her son, "Well, as I was riding home, I found Kari crying and she refused for me to take her home, so I brought her here for the night at least." Kin said, walking over to the couch, setting the girl down.

"I'm sorry for intruding Mrs. Nakano, Mr. Nakano." Kari said sadly, looking at the both of them.

Hiro smiled, "It's perfectly alright, you can stay the night here, and we'll contact you parents in the morning." He said and sighed.

"Kari, darling, I'll show you to the guest room." Ayaka said and Kari got up and followed with Kin behind her just in case anything happened.

Ayaka turned on the light and moved so Kari could enter.

"Thanks so much." Kari smiled and Ayaka closed her eyes, "Well if there is anything you need, let us know." She said and walked down the hall.

Kin was about to follow when he felt Kari touch his arm and he looked at her, "Kin… could you stay and talk with me? " Kari asked and Kin nodded and entered the room, leaving the door open a little, just so their conversation wouldn't disturb Kin's parents.

They sat on the edge of the bed, Kari looked into her lap and Kin looked over at her.

"Its just… ever since I found out Shuichi and Yuki were my real parents… it upsets me that I was given up to save their relationship… it makes me feel awful… like they didn't really want me… they never loved me…" Kari started crying again and Kin reacted by wrapping his around her waist and brought her to him.

"Don't be upset… I know you must feel awful, but you have two loving parents in America… and as far as you should be concerned, they are your real parents, they love you very much… but maybe you should sit Yuki and Shuichi down, tell them how you feel and maybe you'll get some answers, even if the truth hurts." Kin said and Kari agreed, nodding her head.

"Oh Kin, thank you… so much… you're a great person…" Kari smiled, looking into Kin's eyes.

Kin looked at Kari… her eyes sparkled, they were so beautiful, the twinkle in her eyes looked like diamonds, so rare and precious… and ever lasting.

Kin didn't know what force of nature hit him, but the next thing he knew, he was giving Kari a soft kiss on the lips.

Kin was about to pull back and apologize when he felt Kari wrap her arms around his neck and deepen the kiss, full of passion.

Kin had never felt this way before, but he knew he was deeply in love with Kari… and kissing her took weights on his shoulders.

Kari broke the kiss, both had a blush on their faces but smiled at each other, "Kin, um, wow." Was all Kari could say and the two of them laughed a little, "Yeah well, I feel better now… but I just want you to know, I really like you Kin." Kari blushed.

Kin felt his inner self scream with joy, "Well, at least the feeling goes both ways." Kari looked at him shocked and then smiled.

"Well that's a good thing." Kari said and kissed Kin again.

Cough

The two broke the kiss and saw Hiro standing in the doorway.

How embarrassing!

Kin felt stupid and so did Kari but she just giggled, "Kin, get to your room, its late." Hiro said calmly and waited for his son to leave the room.

"See you in the morning Kari, goodnight." He said, getting up and leaving the room, "Goodnight." Kari called out and turned off the lights and crawled into bed, falling instantly asleep.

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Yay! I thought I would add a lil romance between the two… hehe well this is it for now, I'll start on chapter 13, its just I start school Wednesday… so yeah…. Review!

Ayaka Chan