Chapter 7: Telling the Truth

The Past
Simon paced back and forth, waiting for his brother to come back from the kitchen with Lucy and Mary. He didn't know what to do… tell the truth and possibly destroy his family or keep the terrible secret to himself.

He heard someone come up the steps and opened his door slowly and saw it was just Ruthie. He closed the door quickly but Ruthie saw and barged in his room.

"Haven't you ever heard of knocking?" Simon said.

"Yup, but I don't like it, you find out more stuff this way." Ruthie answered.

Simon said, "It was a rhetorical question."

"What's that?" She asked. "Never mind. Can you please leave? I really don't feel like talking right now." Simon told her.

"What's wrong with you, you've been mean all day!" Ruthie exclaimed.

"Nothing, can you just leave me alone?" Simon asked as he flopped on his bed.

"Fine, be that way!" Ruthie said huffily as she stormed out of his room.

'She can be such a pest… but at least she's loyal.' Simon thought, thinking of his father. He got up and turned on one of his favorite songs "Welcome To My Life" by Simple Plan. As the lyrics started to play he started to feel better as the words, so much like he felt, started to wash over him.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you"
As the song blared he really did feel better. The song fit him so well.
"Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming"

He felt the worry of telling the truth melt away a little bit.

"No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me"

For a while now he had felt so alone and like nothing was going right.

"To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life"

He felt like no one understood him and like something was wrong with him.

"Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding"

He was tired of feeling like he had to be "perfect" like his family was.

"No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me"

He could just be himself, Simon Camden, and he would have the strength to do anything. By the time the song ended he knew it would be okay no matter what happened. No matter what happened he knew everything would be okay. He knew he could deal with telling the truth.

I love that song and it popped into my head while writing and I was like what the heck. I decided to end right here because it just felt right but I'll put him telling Matt in the next chapter. Also, as for the questions about Lucy's baby that will be in the next chapter as well. I have the next chapter started so it should be up sometime this week. Thanks to the people that reviewed! I really appreciate all the reviews! PLEASE REVIEW!

Jasmine