Warning: Shonen-ai

Pairings: Dark x Riku, Dark x Daisuke

Disclaimer: I do not own D.N.Angel.

"Speech"

Flashbacks

This fic has point of view changes and all flashbacks are in third person point of view.

Japanese Terms:

Itsumo – Always.

Together Itsumo: Chapter Three

(Dark's P.O.V.)

My plans to spend time with Daisuke all went down the drain when Riku asked me to hang out with her all week; I couldn't say no. I decided to ask Daisuke to come to the party with Riku and me. All I had to do now was find him. I hadn't noticed before, but we hadn't said a word to each other all week. In art class, we didn't sit together and after school, I was always with Riku. I hadn't made any time for him.

I felt bad now for ignoring him. I decided I'd ask him about the party during art class, since it's the only class we share. I didn't see him all period. When I asked the teacher, she said Daisuke had had his schedule changed. That was a surprise. Daisuke would never do something like that without talking to me first. He knew I sucked at art and that I would fail if he wasn't there to help me, so why had he done it?

Why hadn't I noticed he wasn't there? Oh, that's right. I've been busy with Riku. It's kind of hard to think about anything, or anyone, else when I'm with Riku. Daisuke's probably feeling really crappy right now.

I was determined to find Daisuke after school, but the thing was, I had no idea where to start looking; I had no clue as to where Daisuke hung out. I asked his foster mother, but all she said was that Daisuke went out. The party was tonight, so I needed to find Daisuke fast. I never had to look for Daisuke before.

Usually we'd always be together. Wherever I went, Daisuke went. People thought it was weird how close we were, but I never thought that. I pitied people who didn't have a friend as awesome as Daisuke. I asked everyone I knew if they had seen Daisuke around; they all said no. I was starting to get worried about him. I hope he didn't get himself into any kind of trouble.

I was starting to get tired. I had asked all around town and no one had seen Daisuke. I decided to take a little break. There was that park…the one where Riku become my girlfriend. I decided to sit under the shade of one of the trees. There was a person sitting next to me, but I didn't mind. I turned to the person next to me to ask for the time. I realized that person sitting next to me was none other than Daisuke.

(Daisuke's P.OV.)

I saw Dark heading towards the tree I was sitting under. He looked surprised when he noticed me. I doubt he noticed I'd been avoiding him all week. I had the counselor change my art period, that way I have no classes with Dark. Dark is probably going to fail that course now; he sucks at art. I've been going to several different places all week. Today I chose the park; yesterday it was the art gallery.

If I don't keep myself busy, I start to think about Dark. This is the park where Dark made Riku his girlfriend. I don't know why I chose to come here, I just did.

"Hey Daisuke…" I heard Dark say. "Do you…want to go to a party with me tonight?"

"Okay," I answered.

"Alright then, I'll pick you up tonight!" He cheerfully said.

I just nodded and watched him walk away. I should have said no, but I didn't. I tried to cut him out of my life, but instead I'm going to hang out with him tonight. I knew why I had said yes. I wanted to be with him, just the two of us. When he asked me, I just couldn't say no.

He didn't even notice there was anything wrong with me. He looked so cheerful and happy. He probably spent the day with Riku, like every day this week. I still don't hate Riku. She makes Dark happy, and in the end, that's all that matters to me.

(Dark's P.O.V.)

I'm glad Daisuke isn't mad at me. Oh! I forgot to tell Daisuke that Riku's going with us to the party. Oh well, he won't mind. As soon as I got home, I ran to my room to pick out what to wear. I had to look perfect for Riku. I spent the next two hours picking out the right clothes to wear.

When I was done, I looked hot. I hope Riku will like my clothes. I wander what she'll be wearing. It doesn't matter, she looks good in anything. I'm really looking forward to this party. I get to spend time with my best friend and my girlfriend.

I looked at my clock. It was about time to pick up Riku and Daisuke. I grabbed my keys and walked out the door.

(Daisuke's P.O.V.)

I didn't tell Emiko-san where I was going. I didn't want her to make a fuss about my clothes so I told her I was just going to hang out with Dark. When I saw Dark's car in the driveway, my heart sank. I saw Riku sitting next to him in the passenger seat. I should have known she was coming along.

"Ready to go?" Dark asked me.

"Sure," I replied, with a fake smile on my face.

I was silent the entire drive, but Dark was too busy with Riku to notice. They made such a perfect couple. It was a mistake to come. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up, but I did anyway.

When we got to the party, all everyone could talk about was Dark and Riku. I just found a chair to sit in and watched the people around me. No one noticed me, no one cared. Even though Dark was the one that invited me to this stupid party, he ignored me all night long. All he could think about was Riku. Every conversation he had was about Riku. I finally got sick of it and left.

(Dark's P.O.V.)

After a while, I noticed Daisuke wasn't here with me.

"Hey Riku, where's Daisuke?" I asked my girlfriend.

"Daisuke? I saw him leave a little while ago," she told me.

"I'm going to go look for him, okay?"

"Sure."

I ran out of the house in search of Daisuke. I saw him slowly walking in the direction of his house. Why did he leave? Maybe I shouldn't have ignored him again…

"Daisuke!" I called out.

He either didn't heart me, or he was ignoring me. I'm pretty sure it was the later, he looked upset over something.

"Daisuke!"

"DAISUKE!"

"Go away!" He shouted at me.

Daisuke had never raised his voice to me. He started to run, so I followed him. I almost lost him a couple of times, but I was finally able to corner him in an alley. He looked angry and hurt, but I couldn't understand why.

"Why don't you go back to the party and have fun with Riku!" Snapped Daisuke.

I had never seen him this angry before. Scratch that, I'd never seen Daisuke ever get mad before. Daisuke was always very clam and collected. He did not have outbursts like the one he was having now. Maybe…maybe Daisuke likes Riku? That must be it! Daisuke must be jealous!

"Are you…are you jealous, Daisuke?" I asked softly.

"Yes…" he whispered.

I was right! Daisuke likes Riku. Why didn't he ever tell me? I never knew Daisuke was into older women. They have a two-year difference! Besides, Riku just sees him as an annoying little kid.

"You should have told me you had a crush on Riku…" I told him calmly.

"W-what? I don't have a crush on Riku!" He exclaimed, with a look of surprise on his face.

"Then why have you been acting this way!" I angrily asked.

"Me! You've been ignoring me ever since you got together with Riku!" He shot back with fury.

"WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM!" I screamed.

"I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU, MORON!" Daisuke screamed at the top of his lungs.

I tried to speak, but the words just wouldn't come out. I certainly wasn't expecting him to say that. A lot of things made sense now. The way he was acting…me dating Riku probably tore him apart. Why hadn't I noticed his feelings before? How could I have been so blind? However, Daisuke was a boy…and so was I. It would be wrong for us to be together. We stared at each other for a few moments before I was able to speak again.

"I-I'm sorry Daisuke, but I can't…I love Riku…I can never love you," I whispered.

I didn't want to see his reaction, so I ran. I ran as fast as I could, away from Daisuke. I didn't even know where I was going; I just had to get away.

(Daisuke's P.O.V.)

I watched Dark run away from me. Why was he running? Was he that disgusted by me? Please, come back. Don't leave. I can't seem to be able to talk at the moment and my brain seems to have shut down. I'm still in shock, I guess.

I can't believe I actually told him I love him; I screwed up big time. My legs couldn't seem to support my weight anymore, so I fell down. I didn't feel anything though. I think I just cut my hand on a piece of broken glass, but I couldn't feel that either. My entire body feels like it's gone numb. I can't feel anything, at all.

Dark just rejected me; it had really happened. Can you believe I actually had a shrewd of hope that he would return me feelings? He ripped that away as he said those hurtful words, though.

Ha ha ha. Isn't it funny how pathetic I am? I can't believe I thought I meant something to him. Huh? My cheeks…they're wet. I'm crying? I was sure I'd run out of tears, yet here I am, crying like a big baby. Ha ha ha. This is the first time I've cried in such a long time. I promised myself I wouldn't cry again; I promised never to let anyone break me again. Yet Dark had just shattered my heart into a billion pieces with just a few words.

I'm sitting in a dark alley, crying over a boy. I'm such a loser, a pathetic loser. It's raining. I'm getting soaked, but I don't care. People pass by the alley I'm in, they look at me, yet they don't offer me help. I must look so stupid to them. They don't care, just like Dark. I feel so alone; I have nothing left now.

I should have known I couldn't compete with Riku. Everyone at school loves Riku. She makes perfect grades, she's athletic, she's nice, and the perfect person. Me? I'm shy, awkward, quiet, friendless, and considered an outcast. Besides, she's Dark's age, she has a family, and she's a girl. I'm two years younger than Dark, no one wants me, and I'm a BOY. I have nothing to offer Dark, not like Riku.

She can make him happy. He smiles when he's around her and they look so good together. I can't make Dark happy. I'll probably make him miserable. Dark deserves happiness. I should have settled with watching Dark from afar. Even if it hurt that he didn't return my feelings, at least I could be around him.

I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I wish I had never met Dark. Then I wouldn't have fallen in love. I'm sorry Dark. I'm sorry to have burdened you with my feelings. I'm sorry if I troubled you. I'm sorry I wasn't a good enough person. I'm sorry. I'm sorry! Maybe…maybe if I had tried harder…and had been a better person…then Dark could have loved me back. I want to disappear forever, to just fade away.

Just fade away…

(Dark's P.O.V.)

I ended up back at the party. I shouldn't have left Daisuke in the middle of that alley, but I didn't know what to do. What was this feeling? Guilt? Yes, it was guilt. I had broken Daisuke's fragile heart. I was supposed to be his best friend, yet I had abandoned him and caused him unimaginable pain.

I saw Riku hanging out with her friends, but I didn't want to go to her. I had to go find Daisuke. I ran out of the house and back to the ally where I had left Daisuke. Was I in love with Daisuke? No! I loved Riku…didn't I? Yes! Daisuke's just a friend, well he was. He probably never wants to see me again.

I'm so confused and lost. What does Daisuke mean to me? I'd never thought about my life without Daisuke. He had always been there for me, so I figured he'd always be there. That was stupid. I couldn't have Daisuke always be with me, he had his own life. God, I'd been so selfish. I took him for granted. How long had he loved me? He probably suffered a lot because of his love. It's all my fault.

Daisuke probably hates me now. But…I could never love Daisuke as more than a friend, right? No. I couldn't see Daisuke as more than a friend. I had Riku; there was no room for Daisuke.

When I reached the ally, Daisuke was gone.

(Daisuke's P.O.V.)

I started walking. My legs just started moving and I couldn't stop them. I wandered the streets with no destination in mind. I know I looked awful. My eyes were probably puffy and red from crying, I was soaked from the rain, I was covered in blood and dirt, my clothes were torn, and my hair was flattened because it was soaked.

As I walked, I limped a little. I think I may have hurt my leg somehow. Oh well, it didn't matter. Nothing mattered. I just continued walking. Dark had ripened my heart out, stomped all over it, and handed it back in pieces. I knew I'd never be able to love again; Dark would always be my most precious person. There was no more room for anyone else in my shattered heart.

When I reached a street that looked familiar, I decided it would be best to head home. Emiko-san was already asleep when I got home. I had told her I would be home very late. She let me stay out late since it was Friday. I wish I'd never gone to that party.

I went into the bathroom and saw my reflection in the mirror. I had been right; I did look awful. I had to hide this. I couldn't let Emiko-san find out what happened. She would worry and I'd trouble her. I took off all my clothes and got into the shower.

I got cleaned up and headed towards my room. I got ready for bed, but I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. I decided to paint. Painting was the only thing that kept me from breaking down and crying again. I started painting and couldn't stop. I just let every emotion that was inside of me become a part of my art. When I was finished, I was exhausted. Sleep finally claimed me.

TBC…………..

Don't hurt me! I had to do it! I, myself, cried when I was writing this, but I had to do it. Oh! Satoshi and Krad will come in soon. If they don't show up in the next chapter, they'll be in the one after it.