Warning: Shonen-ai
Pairings: Dark x Riku, Dark x Daisuke
Disclaimer: I do not own D.N.Angel.
"Speech"
Flashbacks
This fic has point of view changes and all flashbacks are in third person point of view.
Japanese Terms:
Itsumo – Always.
Together Itsumo: Chapter Four
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
I decided to call the painting Broken Promise. That's what it was, a broken promise. A promise Dark made to me years ago. I shouldn't have believed him; I should have realized he was lying. We weren't always going to be together, like I had thought. Dark proved to me last night just how little my friendship meant to him.
I didn't want to go to school, but my foster mother made me. I even tried to make myself throw up so that she'd think I was sick, but it didn't work. I think she believes I'm bulimic now… She said I need a psychologist, the nerve! I'm fine. I tried to tell her that, but she made an appointment to see Dr. Aizawa anyway.
What makes her think I need a psychologist anyway? She said I have sad eyes, though. I don't understand what that means, but that's what Emiko-san said. I've been told that by many people, yet I've never understand the meaning. My foster mother believes I need someone to talk to.
I really don't need anyone to help me with my problems. I've never needed anyone before, and I don't need anyone now. Not even Dark…
(Dark's P.O.V.)
I was trying to find ways to avoid Daisuke in the halls, but it turns out I didn't need to. I guess Daisuke was also avoiding me because I didn't see him once at school. I don't know whether this was a good or bad thing.
Riku was talking to me about something, but I wasn't paying attention. Daisuke doesn't talk this much…I did it again! Ever since Daisuke confessed his feelings, I can't stop comparing Riku to Daisuke. I see flaws in Riku that I never saw before. For instance, I used to think Riku's laugh was cute, but I now I think it's annoying. Daisuke's laugh is clear like a bell and sincere…argh! Why can't I stop! This is starting to get frustrating.
Why did Daisuke's confession affect me so much? I'm so confused…and I wish Riku would shut up. What is with me? I love listening to Riku talk! Why did everything change? Why couldn't everything have stayed the same? I liked it, when it was just Daisuke and me.
We had each other and we didn't need anyone else. When did things start to get so complicated? I wish we could go back to the old days…
(Daisuke's P.OV.)
I sat in the middle of English class, listening to my classmates have a discussion over Romeo and Juliet. Yumi-sensei placed us in groups again. I got stuck with the same three kids from last time. I watched Yumi-sensei leave the classroom; an office aid informed her she had an important phone call in the office.
She told us to quietly discuss the play while she was gone. Who was she kidding? She was leaving a bunch of teenagers unsupervised; there was no way the class was going to behave and I was right. As soon as she shut the door, everyone started talking.
"So Daisuke, I hear you told Dark you were in love with him," Kyou said, with a smug smile.
What! How did he know…?
"You're so disgusting, Daisuke," sneered Himeko.
I know I am…
"I knew you were a fag all along. I guess Dark finally realized you weren't worth his time and finally ditched you," chuckled Kyou.
Yeah…I guess he's right…
That girl, Sakura, hasn't said anything yet. I guess she just wants to watch the show. The other students have stopped talking amongst themselves. They're all looking at me. Why won't they stop? Go away!
"You're such a loser!" A boy yelled.
"Just leave Dark alone!" Screamed a girl.
I guess everyone decided to join in, because they all started to yell at me.
"Fag!"
"Loser!"
"Piece of shit!"
"Slut!"
"Whore!"
"Why don't you just crawl into a hole and die!"
"You're just a burden to Dark, just leave him alone!"
I couldn't take their insults anymore, so I ran. I didn't care that I'd get in trouble, I ran out of the classroom as fast as I could. I ended up in the boy's bathroom. I sat inside one of the stalls. The floor was probably filthy, but that didn't matter right now.
I will not cry.
I will not cry.
I will not cry.
You know, it's easier to say you aren't going to do something than to actually go through with it. I started to cry. I felt so weak for giving in and crying. Maybe that's why Dark didn't love me…because…I'm weak. No! Don't think of him. You don't need him. Come on Daisuke!
I stepped out of the stall. I looked at the watch and realized that I'd been in here for twenty minutes. I found it strange that no one had come looking for me. Yumi-sensei probably hasn't noticed I'm gone yet…
I noticed a window next to the sink in the bathroom. If I climb on to that sink, then I can reach the window… All right then, I'm getting out of here. I climbed onto the sink and grabbed the window ledge. I climbed out the window and landed in some bushes. I cut myself a little, but otherwise, I was fine. I looked around for some teachers, when I saw none, I ran.
(Dark's P.O.V.)
Riku slapped me when she found out I wasn't listening. To be honest, I'm just glad she stopped talking. I should be very upset that she's angry with me, but I'm not. I wonder what class I'm in right now… There are still four hours until school is over. Damn!
BRRRIIING
Finally, the teacher was boring me. I kind of wish Daisuke was with me. We always walked to class together, just seeing him smile at me made my day so much better… I did not just think that! But still, why didn't I realize how much he meant to me before? I always took advantage of him…
He always did favors for me, no questions asked. He used to help me study for tests and remind me that I had homework. In fact, Daisuke memorized my schedule for me, my I.D. number, my locker combination, and the passwords to all my e-mail accounts. I have trouble remembering stuff, so Daisuke did it for me. He was like my planner.
I never thanked him for that. He used to cancel any sort of plans he had just so he could be with me. If I had plans with friends, I ditched Daisuke to be with them. I never invited him to come along… Sure he's my best friend, but sometimes, I treated him really badly.
No matter what I did to him, he always smiled at me and said, "It's all right." It was like it didn't even bother him, so I never thought much of it. I never noticed that beneath all those smiles, Daisuke was really hurting inside.
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
What now? Maybe I should have come up with some sort of plan… I can't go home; the neighbor's would notice me. I can't go to any of my usual hangouts either; someone might tell my foster mother that I wasn't in school. I don't want to cause any more problems; she already thinks I have an eating disorder…
I can't believe Dark told everyone about what happened the night of the party! He probably laughed about it with all his friends. Yeah…they all probably had a good laugh. I can't believe how stupid I'd been. I should have stopped hanging around Dark years ago. He's nothing but a liar.
We aren't going to be together forever like he said…no. He has Riku. But who can blame him? She's a much better person than me. Maybe that's why mom left me…yes that's it. I wasn't a good person… I probably don't deserve happiness anyway…
Huh. I have no clue where I am right now. I've never been to this neighborhood before. All the houses look so big and pretty. Wow! There are roses everywhere. Hey, what's that noise?
VROOOM
It sounds like…A MOTORCYCLE. I turned around to see a black motorcycle coming strait at me.
(Krad's P.O.V.)
Shit!
I was riding my bike, when all of a sudden, this kid runs into the middle of the street. Okay, so maybe that wasn't exactly true, but that's what I was going to say if the cops questioned me about why I had run over the kid. Luckily, the kid moved out of the way. Being the good citizen I am, I went to see if the little guy was alright.
"You almost ran me over!" He screamed.
This kid's got some nerve! How dare he talk to me that way?
"You're the idiot who was standing in the middle of the road!" I shouted back.
"You should have watched where you were going!"
"I WAS!"
"Were not!"
"I'm not going to argue with some kid who doesn't even have enough common sense to walk on the SIDEWALK!"
I walked away. Stupid kid! If I wasn't so late, I'd beat the crap out of him. I looked back and noticed he was having trouble standing up. I guess I can't just leave him there…even if he did piss me off. I walked back over to the kid.
"Need some help?" I asked.
"I guess…" he answered.
"I'll give you a lift home on my bike," I told him.
"Okay," he answered.
"Hold tight," I said, before we drove off.
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
I'd never said such mean things to someone before. I'd always been polite and nice to everyone, even people I didn't like. I had never raised my voice before; it felt good. I liked letting the other person know how mad I was and letting all my feelings out. I should do it more often.
I was sick of everything. I was sick of always getting left behind. I was sick of being ignored. I was sick of being pushed around. I was sick of everyone walking all over me. No more. This ends today. From now on, I would become someone else.
I'd never let anyone make me feel inferior again.
(Dark's P.O.V.)
It felt weird, not walking home with Daisuke. I hadn't seen him all day. I was told he hadn't shown up for his last few classes. I was worried. Daisuke had never skipped school and no one mentioned his foster mother coming to pick him up early. I hope he's alright…
VROOOM
I looked over on the street. Holy shit! It's Daisuke…on a motorcycle… NO WAY! There's a blond guy driving. Could he cling any tighter to that guy's waist? They sure are sitting very close together. Why do I care? Daisuke can be around whoever he wants; this shouldn't bother me. IT DOESN"T BOTHER ME!
Okay, so maybe I want to tear that blond guy to shreds right now, but it's only because I'm worried about Daisuke. The guy could be…kidnapping him…or something… That sounded so lame…
I'd never seen Daisuke physically close to anyone other than me. I guess it was a bit of a shock. What am I feeling? Am I jealous?
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
I thanked Krad for the ride home. I was right; no one noticed I skipped school. If someone had noticed, they would have called my foster mother. Tomorrow I have that appointment with Dr. Aizawa… I'm not looking forward to that. Oh well, maybe things will be better tomorrow. I headed to my room and lay down. As soon as I closed my eyes, I fell asleep.
TBC…………
I nearly had a heart attack today. This office aid came and gave me a note. It said I had to go to room 112. I was nervous and scared. I had never been called out of class except for when my mom comes to pick me up early and that only happens rarely. I also always know when I'm going to leave school early and I just go to the office, not a classroom. Everyone was like "OH! She's in trouble!" That didn't help my nerves. When I got to room 112, it turns out that it was the vice-principle's office. I'd never gotten in trouble before. I'd never been inside the office of the principle or the vice-principle. I'd never gotten detention before or gotten my citizenship grade lowered. I was so scared. I kept thinking "What did I do?" It turns out that since I had such a high GPA, I get an award. I get to choose between a blanket, a plaque, or a jacket. I chose the jacket, of course. It looks just like the jackets football players wear. The only difference is the patches. I'm really excited! Anyway, just felt like sharing that mini story.