Warning: Shonen-ai and strong language
Pairings: Dark x Riku, Dark x Daisuke, Krad x Satoshi
"Speech"
Flashback
This fic has point of view changes and all flashbacks are in third person point of view.
Disclaimer: I do not own D.N.Angel. I'm very poor…
Japanese Terms:
Itsumo – Always.
Together Itsumo: Chapter Seven
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
Where am I? Is this someone's bedroom? Why am I in someone's bedroom? This room…it looks familiar. What's going on?
THUMP
I tried to stand, but I couldn't. I fell down. I can't remember anything that happened last night… Calm down Daisuke. Take a deep breath and calm down. There's a logical explanation for everything. Maybe…someone brought me home after I started feeling sick. But…why can't I stand up? Maybe I got really drunk and fell down somewhere… Everything's so confusing.
OH MY GOD!
I'M COMPLETELY NAKED!
Where are my clothes? Where the hell are my clothes! I think I know why I can't stand up. I'm bleeding…down there. Breathe Daisuke, breathe. Don't start to panic! Oh god! I'm starting to remember what I did last night. I…I…I lost my virginity! NOOO! I guess that explain why I'm bleeding and why I'm sore all over… The question is; who was the man?
What was that noise? Oh god! He's still here! What do I do? Should I leave? I try to stand again, but I fell down. I can't seem to make my legs work. I'm covered in sweat, blood, and…I don't want to think about it. I want a shower. I feel dirty. I want to forget last night. Maybe if I close my eyes, it'll all go away.
Wait a second; I know whose room this is! I've been here a million times. It's…it's Dark's room! Why am I in Dark's room? Unless…I…we…Dark and I…I HAD SEX WITH DARK! I think I'm going to pass out…
(Dark's P.O.V.)
I woke up to a wonderful sight. Daisuke was standing in front of me completely naked. It didn't matter if this was a dream or not. I reached out and put my arm around his waist. If this was another dream or reality, I didn't care. He stiffened and his eyes bulged out. He never does that in my dream…unless…this isn't a dream.
SLAP
He…he slapped me! I wasn't even going to molest him…much. Maybe it was a bad idea to try something like that. To my disappointment, he put some pants on. I don't think he noticed they weren't his. I found my boxers and put them on. Daisuke's underwear was under my pillow. I was thinking of keeping it. Maybe I shouldn't be thinking about this kind of thing right now…
"What happened last night!" He asked fearfully.
His eyes were huge and he looked terrified.
"WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED! He screamed.
"Don't you remember anything from last night?" I asked.
"N-no," Daisuke stuttered.
Wait, I don't remember last night either. It's not hard to guess what happened. I mean, come one. We both wake up naked in bed together. Daisuke's starting to freak out now…
"YOU RAPED ME!" Daisuke screamed.
What! I did no such thing!
"I DIDN'T RAPE YOU!" I replied, rather loudly.
"YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME WHILE I WAS DRUNK!" He shouted at me.
"I WAS DRUNK TOO!" I countered.
THUMP
Daisuke fell down, rather ungracefully, I might add. It looked like he was having trouble standing and walking. Oh. OH! I…well.
"I guess now we know who the uke was," I muttered.
Daisuke obviously didn't appreciate my comment. He looked like he was about to murder me. I should be more upset over the situation, but I wasn't. Most of what happened last night is coming back to me. I didn't regret any of it. I remember seeing Daisuke and wanting him so badly.
He was just standing there, so I kissed him. I couldn't help myself, so I brought him to my house and I… I guess it may have been mostly my fault… But…he looked so irresistible and I had waited so long to make him mine… Ever since I realized I had feelings for him, I wanted him badly.
SOB
Daisuke was crying now. I had never seen Daisuke cry before. I felt horrible now. What can I do to make him happy? Should I apologize? I'm not sorry I lost my virginity to Daisuke, though. It wouldn't be a sincere apology.
"I hate you. You took advantage of me…I'll never forgive you," Daisuke muttered.
WHAT!
"You weren't exactly struggling!" I snapped.
"I WAS TOO DRUNK!" He sobbed.
"THAT DIDN'T STOP YOU FROM SCREAMING MY NAME ALL NIGHT LONG!"
Shit! I had done it. Daisuke was looking at me as if I was the most disgusting thing in the universe. I didn't even see it coming.
THWACK
Daisuke had punched me in the face. Who knew he could hit so hard? Daisuke had started to cry again.
"I-I want to leave," Daisuke said, tears were falling from his face.
"Do you want me to take you home?" I quietly asked.
"N-no…hic… take me…hic…to Satoshi's house. I was supposed to…hic…spend the weekend at his place," Daisuke stated between his sobs.
I felt myself get angry. Lately, Daisuke had been spending all his time with Krad and Satoshi. There were rumors that he was dating one of them, or both. I didn't believe any of that crap, but I still got jealous.
"You can borrow some clothes," I muttered.
I looked in my drawers for something that would fit Daisuke. When I found some, I handed them to him and left the room. I doubt he'd want to change in front of me, though I wouldn't have minded. When Daisuke steeped out of the bedroom, he wouldn't look me in the eye. We stood there in an awkward silence.
"I have to get dressed," I told him.
Daisuke just nodded. I got dressed as quickly as I could and then stepped out of the room. Daisuke hadn't moved an inch and he was crying again.
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
What have I done! Oww. I still can't walk very well. I can't remember everything that happened last night. I get bits and pieces, but that's about it. I was too drunk. Who was the genius that spiked the punch! I'm going to kill that person!
Oh god. I can't seem to stop crying. I want to stop, but they just won't stop falling from my eyes. I feel horrible. I feel so…violated and dirty. I feel disgusting and I all I want is a shower. Dark's looking at me, he's got a bruise on his cheek because of me…
"Can you stand?" Dark asks his voice full of concern.
"No," I angrily state.
It's all his fault.
Dark picks me up and puts me in the passenger seat of the car. I give him directions to Satoshi's house. We drive in an awkward silence. All of a sudden, Dark pulls over.
"Do you regret it?" He softly asks.
"Regret what?" I ask.
"What we did…do you regret it?" Dark asks again.
Do I regret it? Sure, I always wanted this…but I expected it to happen when Dark and I were in love, which we are not. He's probably still too much in love with Riku… What was this to him? Was I just a convenient screw? Had Dark been looking for something to help him forget Riku? Was this all a game to him?
"Do you?" I ask.
Dark paused for a moment then, then he smiles at me.
"No," he stated.
Should I believe him? He's lied to me before. People that do something once will do it again.
"Why me?" I mumbled. "You could have had anyone there, so why me?"
Dark stared at me for a moment. He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly.
"Because I love you," he whispered.
(Riku's P.O.V.)
I couldn't stop thinking about the things Dark said last night. I started crying every time I thought about them. Risa tried to cheer me up, but she was just as upset as I was. Dark was also her first love. She tried to deny it, but I knew.
I think she may have secretly hated me for dating Dark. None of that mattered right now, though. Dark had chosen Daisuke over Risa and me. Who knew he was into guys…I sure didn't! How could he have lied to me like that?
I never want to talk to that bastard ever again! I hope he rots in hell. That big jerk! But…even though he's lied to me and treated me like I wasn't even worth his time…I still love him, and I always will.
I decided a walk would do me some good. You know, get some fresh air and crap like that. It didn't help, though. I felt lonelier and more depressed by the minute. Hey, isn't that Dark's car! What do I do? What do I do? I wish I had worn something fancier or put some make up on. Hey…is that…Daisuke?
Calm down Riku. He's just giving him a ride…in a parked car… Dark was probably too drunk to know what he was saying. He's not really in love with Daisuke…right? He's hugging Daisuke! I shouldn't watch this! I have to go, but I can't move.
(Daisuke's P.O.V.)
He loves me? What a joke! I shoved him away roughly; he looked disappointed and hurt. I don't care though.
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!" I screamed.
He looked at me kind of funny.
"You reject me and now you want to be with me!" I exclaimed. "So you only accept my feelings when it's convenient for you!"
"Daisuke I-I was confused before…" Dark muttered.
I didn't want to hear any of his crap. He's hurt me too much.
"I want to go," I stated.
"Daisuke…"
"I said I want to go."
He looked so defeated and sad, but I don't care. I could care less about Dark and his stupid problems. What made him think I wanted to be with him anymore? I've moved on, I don't need him anymore.
"No," Dark sated softly.
"Huh?" I asked .
"We're sitting here until we work things out," Dark stated fiercely.
"THERE'S NOTHING TO WORK OUT!" I shouted. "I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN! I HATE YOU!"
By this time, I had gotten out of the car. So what if I was in pain, I'm not spending another minute with that asshole. Satoshi's house wasn't that far from here, so I started to walk. Dark got out of the car too and started to follow me. That bastard!
"Why are you so mad at me? What can I do to make everything better?" Dark asked softly.
"Can you give me my virginity back?" I asked him.
"Um…I don't think so…" he muttered.
I didn't think so either…
"Why now? Why didn't you tell me you loved me that day…? Why did you leave me in that ally all alone?" I asked quietly.
"I-I was confused Daisuke…I didn't know what my feelings towards you were…I was scared. I'm sorry," Dark said as he wrapped his arms around me.
(Dark's P.O.V.)
It felt good to have Daisuke in my arms. I wanted Daisuke to smile. I never wanted to see him cry again. It was funny, he'd cried more times today than he had in his entire life. He'd also hit me and even raised his voice. Daisuke was changing. I didn't mind, though. It's good for Daisuke to let his emotions out…even if it hurts. I never knew Daisuke had such a good punch.
We stood there for about ten minutes before Daisuke told me to take him to Satoshi's house. I still don't like that guy. When we got there, I had to help Daisuke walk to the front door…I wish I had a clearer memory of what I did to make him limp like this…
Daisuke had the key, so we just went inside. The house was gorgeous. Satoshi must be filthy rich if he can afford all of this.
"DAISUKE!"
I saw Daisuke being glomped by the blond idiot. Krad. Did I mention how much I despise that guy?
"We looked everywhere for you! We were about to call your foster mother! I was so worried!" Krad franticly exclaimed.
I did NOT like the way he was cuddling MY Daisuke. Yup, he's all mine…I made sure of that last night. If Daisuke could hear my thoughts, he'd probably hit me again.
"What happened to you?" Asked Krad.
Well, let's see, Krad. I slept with Daisuke who, was drunk at the time. Yup, that about covers it.
"I'll tell you later," answered Daisuke. "Where's Satoshi?"
"Well…he's asleep…kind of…" Krad answered.
"What are you talking about?" Daisuke asked, clearly confused.
"Well…I kind of…got him drunk… It was an accident! I didn't know what was in the punch…okay so maybe I did. I didn't think Satoshi could get drunk that fast. I just wanted him to…loosen up. He passed out and I took him home. I looked for you, but they told me a friend had already taken you home," Krad told Daisuke.
Oh yeah. I remember seeing Satoshi pass out; it was the highlight of my day…besides what I did with Daisuke. I kind of remember saying that I was taking Daisuke home…which I wasn't.
"DO YOU PEOPLE HAVE TO BE SO LOUD!" A voice from upstairs shouted.
I guess Satoshi has a major hangover.
"What do you want to do?" Asked Krad. "I'm boooooored! Hey…who's that guy?"
Krad was pointing to me. How can he not know me? Everyone knows me! I'm the most popular guy in the entire school!
"I'm Dark Mousey," I introduced myself.
This guy is pissing me off!
"I'm Krad!" He cheerfully exclaimed.
You wouldn't suspect that someone so nice could be the most feared student. The guy's a joke! I ended up spending the entire afternoon with Daisuke and the dunce. I have so many things I want to tell Daisuke. What are we? Will Daisuke be my boyfriend, or does he just want to forget what happened? I'm confused.
(Riku's P.O.V.)
Dark and Daisuke they… I can't believe it! How could Dark do something like that? He's sick and so is Daisuke. They're both boys…and it's wrong! Eww… I wonder what would happen if the whole school found out? Good thing I had my video camera.
Dark made a fool out of me and I will never forgive him! Dark told me he loved me and even asked me to be his girlfriend, yet he tossed me aside like I was nothing! Now he's with…that boy! I want Dark to suffer for everything he's done to me. Dark will suffer. Just wait and see what I have in store for you Dark.
TBC………………
I'd like to dedicate the chapter to Totally-Out-Of-It and kyo's little koneko. You guys are the best!