Title: Old Flames, New Sparks
Authors: JENTWCSINYFAN and THESDA
Rated: PG-13(minor cursing)
Summary: DK's old flame, Kerrigan Doherty returns to his life with secrets and new sparks rekindle old flames. What will happen?
DISCLAIMER: We do not own anyone except Kerrigan.
Author's Notes: Jen and I have been RPing Kerri and DK for about 4 years now so this has been coming for a while we finally got together on things. Enjoy please read and review.
Chapter 2
New Sparks
Tears streamed heavily down Kerri's face, taking everything in her power not to break down until she got upstairs. She laid her now calmly crying daughter on her bed and covered her so she could sleep. She walked out to the roof and her composure crumbled. She fell against the building sobbing hysterically.
Jimmy saw his niece asleep again peacefully on the bunk and then went searching for his sister. He heard her outside. "Hey come here." He just knelt and wrapped her in a huge brotherly hug. "Shah it's all right getting it out honey. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere, lean on me."
His hug only brought her tears more to the surface as she wrapped her arms around him. Her body was racked in sobs, "I'm sorry Jimmy. I'm sorry" she said, "I'm sorry for getting you in trouble with DK. I'm sorry for everything, Maybe I should take KayLeigh and leave and get away, Get a transfer," she said with sobs.
Jimmy said, "Hey don't worry about DK and me right now. And give him the satisfaction of pushing you out of my life, hell no that's not the sister I know. "He hugged her again. "You have nothing to apologize for, he was wrong hon. Stay here for me ."
She continued to sob. She held onto him, "I just wish that I wasn't so stupid when he wanted to marry me and I ran the other way, I can't even use the excuse I was as young. I was 28," she said, "I was stupid yes, but now I'm a single mother who Is living with the ghost of her ex and without the only man I've ever loved"
Jimmy said, "You weren't ready at the time. But If he wanted to work it out now would you go back to him? I think when he cools off and gets himself together he will still want you. He will want in his daughter's life that much I know so you have to be prepared for that."
"He's never gotten over you either, sure he's had casual dates since but only to a point. When they got serious he cut it off. I just wonder If he'll ever be my friend again."
"I'm sorry Jimmy that I asked you to lie to him" she said, "I cost you your friendship." She took a long deep breath still in her brothers arms. "I'd love to go back to him. I don't think that I'm deserving of him now" she said
"You were scared, of how he'd react or what he felt. And I did it to protect my sister, he has two of them so he should understand that. I thought of telling him many times but I also made a promise to you that I wouldn't." He sighed. "It will work itself out."
"And bull if he loves you like I think he does deep down you still deserve him, anger or not."
Kerri was glad that she was with Jimmy in his firehouse and not somewhere else. She nodded, "I hurt him bad" she said.
"HEY LIEU DOWNTOWN IS ON THE PHONE, IT'S URGENT," one of the guys called, thought the bunkroom
Jimmy said, "Well yeah you did but to be fairy he wasn't the nicest to you either today."
"And I have to go get that I hate downtown phone calls on Mondays." He patted his sister's shoulder gently.
Billy came up the stairs. He looked at the little girl sleeping on the bunk. "Cute kid." Then he looked at Kerri. "Some day huh," He touched her arm gently.
With the tension of the day when he touched her arm, she stiffened and flinched slightly. "Thank you" she said, "She looks like her father." A constant everyday reminder of the man she loved and hurt. "Yeah some day." she said still sitting on the ground on the roof.
"Funny I was thinking she looked somewhat like you." Billy smiled. "If you need an ear anytime I'm around all right. Just keep that in mind. I'm a pretty good listener around this place and I don't judge anyone about anything."
She looked at him her eyes obvious that she had been crying. "You just met me. You've known him for what 10 years easy. And the first impression of me Is how could she rip out his heart, stomp on it and then show up five years later with his daughter in tow" she said, "It's a wonder any one but Jimmy is speaking to me"
"Hey now wait just one minute. First of all, yes I have known DK for a long time, second of all he's been on the edge of burnout for a while which had nothing to do with you and third, I prefer to know someone first before I make any opinions, good or bad. So shall we do this over?" He held out his hand "Billy Walsh, nice to meet you Kerri ."
"Kerrigan Doherty, and that's my daughter KayLeigh Marissa." she said. She heard the all too familiar alarms, "Be careful out there," she said
She watched the engine and all leave and went down to her office after checking on KayLeigh. She removed her contacts and put her glasses on. Her eyes hurt from crying. She pulled her hair up into ponytail as she sat in her office. She couldn't focus.
Meanwhile in the Bus and At Mercy
DK just sat there still and he was beginning to feel the pain in his hand after the first shock of cutting it. He had his head down a little bit and just felt Alex and whoever try to clean his hand or get the shards of glass out of it . Tears began falling down his face that he wasn't even aware of. He just felt so alone and empty. He looked at Alex and started to say something but then was quiet.
Alex slammed the doors to the ambulance and climbed up, next to him. "What is it DK" she said after she wrapped his hand. She put an arm over his shoulder.
"I messed everything up. I don't even know how you can be around me right now." He ran his hand through his hair and put his head down to face the floor. "I'm just so tired Alex too damn tired. "
"Come on tell me DK" she said, "You're my friend I'm willing to listen."
"How can you say that after what I did today? I find out about my kid and I go over the edge. I scare her and her mother and I didn't even meet her yet." he sighed. "I just don't like myself all that much right now."
"DK, she ripped out your heart 5 years ago, and did a Mexican hat dance on it. She nearly killed you." she said, "You don't have to give her any credit at all. She kept your daughter from you, why do you want someone like that"
"Well we have a kid together for one thing and I would in spite of what I did today like to know my daughter since it's been five years without that. I never got over her I guess." He sighed.
Alex sighed and left her arm over his shoulder. "You have every right to see your daughter. You could sue for visitation rights"
"I know that I have rights to see my daughter . I wouldn't put an innocent kid through a fight in court. That just hurts the kid later on in life."
"When you're up to it you could go talk to her ask to see her." she said all Alex wanted to do was go give Kerri a black eye. She said as they walked into the ER and placed in a room.
"Yeah we'll see when that is, it isn't going to be today I said enough to her earlier."
Then the doctor came and said "Come on back DK what was it today?" He saw his hand then. "Hmm looks like you need some stitches for one thing."
DK went with him then. "Yeah can you just get it over with so I can go home to bed."
The doctor said, "I've been meaning to ask how much sleep you're getting , doesn't look like nearly enough and I know you're underweight right now. You're going on light duty for a while after you have a three week vacation." He stitched his hand as he talked to him.
Alex stood with him, "Maybe he'll listen to you Doc, because he sure doesn't listen to us" she said.
"Well he has no choice here. If I have to I'll go over his head and tell the department he's at risk of hurting himself or others If he doesn't follow these orders."
DK said, "Fine I'll go home and I'll do light duty right now the firehouse is the last place I want to be."
The doctor raised an eyebrow, "Hmm then this vacation will be a good thing for you. You're free to go, here are your medical papers and let me put that in a splint for you to keep it elevated and dry for the first week."
Alex sighed, "You want me to talk to Uncle Joe and see if I can get him to get Kerri transferred," she said
"Thank you but no hon. I'm off for a while and when I get back I'll figure out how to peacefully coexist with her. Right now I just want to go back and drop this medical stuff off for Jimmy and then go shut this day off for a while."
"Sounds good" she said, "Come on lets go." She stood slowly.
"Yeah and can we get a Coke on the way I suddenly feel thirsty for one for some reason." He stood and said, "Look at this thing I look like a mummy with these bandages and the splint on."
"The joys of breaking glass with out a glove on," she said stopping at a soda Machine. "Here you go" she said opening it for him.
"Thanks." He took it awkwardly and sipped slowly. "Yeah kids don't try this at home believe me."
She smiled, and opened the door to the bus for him. The ride was quiet and Alex was taking everything in her power not to punch Kerri. They arrived at the station leaving him outside and the bus headed to a call.
DK returned and found the firehouse quiet. Alex was downstairs and had offered to take him home but he said he'd walked in and figured he could manage.
He went to Jimmy's office and just put the medical forms on his desk figuring the squad was out on a call at the moment. Then he was turning to leave quietly and he heard footsteps. He turned and thought please not anymore today.
She hadn't heard him come in. She got up and went to get coffee. She stopped on the first stair, "What came back for round two with my door" she said, cold tones filled her voice as she walked passed him to pour coffee. She sighed when she realized what she said, "I'm sorry," she whispered.
DK said, "No I just came to drop off some papers for Lieutenant Doherty before I went home." He exhaled slowly. "God everything I do bites me or kicks me right in the stomach, maybe I should use the next three weeks to figure out what firehouse I want to work in and get a transfer set up. " He sort of slid down the wall slowly to the floor. "Whoa must be feeling funny from losing that blood earlier." He tucked his head down near his knees untIl the faint feeling passed.
She placed her cup down and looked over at him. She saw him slide down the wall. And her feelings of love or whatever took over and she knelt next to him. "Der..DK...I'm sorry" she said, "I didn't mean it" she said, "Please don't transfer" she said. "Stay we can work things out."
"Kerri, right now I just need to go home and shut it off right now. I can't make any decisions about anything at this moment. Other than at some point I'd like to possibly try and see my daughter without scaring her to death." He felt like he could stand up again and did so slowly. "I'll probably talk to everybody here in about three weeks but I think my cell phone number is around here in Jimmy's office."
He picked up his duffel bag of spare clothes and then started walking out the door slowly. He had wanted to put his arms around her for a moment but he knew it wasn't right.
"DK wait," she said going after him. She waited for him to turn and threw her arms around him. She had wanted to do that from the moment she had walked in, "I'm sorry" she said, not releasing her grip from around him
DK just stood there and for a moment let her hold him. Then he hugged her back for a little while. He sighed. "I'm sorry this is nice and all but I need to get out of here. Tell Jimmy I dropped off my medical stuff and if he has any questions he can call me later. Right now, I'm going home to see what my apartment and bed look like for the next eight to ten hours."
"Do you want to meet her before you go" she asked. Letting him go reluctantly.
"Well uh sure if you think she won't be scared since I did what I did before." He went with her to her office to see KayLeigh even if it was to just look at her.
Kerri picked up their daughter, "KayLeigh, I have someone for you to meet. " she said, "KayLeigh this is your father" she said simply.
Even though the girl was scared before she smiled at DK, "Daddy" she said simply, shock on her face.
Kerri still held her walking over to Dk
DK said, "Hi honey, I'm sorry about before. I got angry and I did something I shouldn't have. But I promise that I will never hurt you in anyway ." He gently touched her hair and then her small face. "Daddy isn't well feeling too good today but when I feel better I'll spend more time with you." His hand throbbed and he inhaled slowly
She got down and walked over to him, and put her arms round his leg, "It's ok. I'm sorry you don't feel well. I want to see you again Daddy," the wide-eyed five your old said.
DK looked down at her. "You will a lot. " He smoothed her hair gently. "You're a sweet girl KayLeigh. Now daddy is going to go home and go to sleep for a while before your Uncle Jimmy gets back. But your mom can call me anytime and I am pretty sure she still knows where I live." He kissed the small girls forehead gently. "I'm glad we finally met angel."
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