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A/N: The little bit longer chapter.

Chapter Twenty:

' Would you let me examine you? '

The older man shook his head, nursing his bottle all in the same instance.

McCoy's eyebrows quirked at Logan's drive to drink in hopes to be rid of the pain. Obviously, it wasn't working, because the wolverine was now drunk and his headache had gotten worse. The doctor had hopes of convincing the other man to allow an examination due to dull mind, however, he was still just as stubborn.

' You've been having the headaches quite frequently and no medication seems to be the cure. Logan, I think it would be- '

' Its because I hurt her. '

The drink had not crumbled his stubborn wall but it had loosened his tongue.

' What? '

' Its because I hurt her. Because I did those things...I didn't want to. Couldn't control it, damn recessive... ' he trailed off as he took another drink.

' What did you do? Who did you hurt? ' McCoy was sounding worried, the emotion creeping slightly into his voice and he tried to supress it. Logan didn't speak this way.

' She loves me now. Don't know why, the half-pint. So...so beautiful. So damn beautiful. '

Something turned in the doctors stomach, ' Katherine? '

Logan gave a small nod, eyes glazed staring at his bottle. ' That's why I get these headaches. My mutation...natural instincts caused me to fully become the wolverine. And my animal instincts made me take her. I raped her. I would have never...I would have never hurt her. I didn't want to. I left the decision up to her. If she wanted me dead, I would have done it for her. I would have done anything for her. Chuck put this chip in my head to supress that part of the mutation. My headaches...their hardly what I deserve. '

Hanks jaw dropped and rolled to a distant planet. Shock beyond shock. But something was amiss.

' Your natural instincts that developed with your mutation is understandable. But why would it have committed you to rape when it kicked in? '

' I wanted her. Before the incident, I wanted her. I loved her. And she would have never known if... '

Silence consumed the room, Hank starring incredously. Logan in love ? In love with Kitty? And beyond that, rape? He remembered the chip, he had placed it in! Yet Xavier had demanded no questions and grateful for his past kindnesses, he had followed through. Many mutants made blunders with their mutations, it was a norm. He knew he had had his own. But this was another matter.

Yet, he needed to understand one more thing, ' You said she loves you now? '

' I thought she's go off the deep end. She was loosing it. I challenged her, she fought back. She forgave me. Don't know why. Small feet...the prettiest eyes. Makes me get her strawberry cheesecake ice cream at three in the morning, damn girl. I love her. '

' And Xavier knows? He approves? '

Another nod.

Oh boy.

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His hand raked against his neck and he shuddered, his teeth grazing his lips.

Bile rose to his throat as the man languidly dragged his lips to his neck. The stench, the skeletal complaxion, the hollow eyes...if he didn't get away, he was going to loose his insides. The man was disease and dead things piled into one and the mere sight of him was disgusting.

' You;ve made everything that much harder, ' Garren whispered, raising his lips from Kurt, smiling down at the man.

' It happens, ' the German tried for non-chalance but failed, ' Why are you doing this? Why not kill me? '

' Because, your like everyone else. You see but you don't see, and you stomach learns tricks, and runs away all on it's own. Everyone, always disgusted by me. I see it in your eyes. Touching you is more torture than you've ever undertook. '

Not true but he had a point. And the intimate manner in which he was going about made him feel even more trapt and helpless.

' Marie would understand. She's been an outcast among her own kind. We would do well together. '

' She has Gambit. '

' Not forever. '

Kurt writhed against his bounds, frustrated at his inability to kill and his ability to get caught.

Garren laughed and laughed so hard, he had to hurt himself to stop. Kurt was silent and still as he watched the man slip out a blade form his pocket and clech his fist around the sharp, shiny metal, until the blood and the pain brought him to reality, a gush of breath escaping his lips. Once the laughter stilled, he shoved the blade back into his pocket, turning to focus on Kurt.

' So, what would you like to do today? '

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' You've been drinking. Headaches? '

A nod.

' Sit. '

The man plopped down upon the bed, a groan escaping his lips. Slender fingers immediately found his temples and began massaging lightly.

' Kitty? '

' Hmm? '

' Thank you. '