Bad Feelings

8 hours later . . .

The rebels were sitting around the fire in the building that they had been in while Holly was making dinner. No one had said a word since Genki ran off all thinking about what had happened by to them selves and Tiger was the only one who sat outside. Reluctantly Holly had agreed not to go look for him and was now very worried about Genki. Why did I hurt him Holly thought, I promised I wouldn't and I did! He must have been really mad at us to take off like that. I have to go find him and apologize I just can't take it, with this betrayal on my conscience. He's part of this team why didn't I go after him?

Why you leave chi? We need you Genki chi. Mocchi sadly though by him self. I need you chi; I should have gone with you Genki. Just then Tiger came in.

"Any sign of him?" Hare asked.

"No, I don't think he's coming back. We did go against our promise to be his friends. I wouldn't blame him, if he didn't want to be around us any more. If someone did this to me, I'd never want to be around them again either. The only reason he told us his secret was because he trusted us. We broke that trust by not being true friends." Everyone really felt guilty after that speech.

"I think we should go after him, he probably needs some true friends right now." Holly said.

"Yeah, but from my point of view, we aren't true friends. There was no excuse for the way we behaved. True friends aren't just there in good times and times they feel sorry for that person. They're always there no matter what." Greywolf commented. Everyone felt even guiltier as they all knew he was right.

"But we have to try, besides I want to apologize to him, even if no one else does." Holly said determined.

"Ok, we'll try to find him tomorrow." They ate dinner and went to sleep in silence.

In a cave . . .

Genki had caught a deer and was eating it raw. He did have a blood lust but that wasn't the only thing he desired, sexual desires reigned heavily in his mind, but he suppressed it. He sat in the darkness of the wet cave ripping the flesh of the deer and viscously eating it. He even cracked the bones to eat the marrow. Genki thought back on what had happened. He couldn't believe his friends would act like that. Especially Holly, the one he loved, he had trusted her and she had betrayed him.

I'm tired of being hurt. If I stay a loner, at least I'll never be hurt again. pause But I'll never feel friendship, love, passion, or completed either. Why did they act like that, I trusted them and they were hypocrites. Genki thought. Then he began to hit the wall in frustration. He soon became tired and fell asleep.

In the morning….

The others got up quickly and ate breakfast, so they would have an early start on finding Genki. Tiger got Genki's scent and lead the way, with his brother Greywolf.

3 hours later . . . .

"How far did he get yesterday? We must have walked seven miles already." Suezo complained.

"Have you forgotten he's riding a machine that isn't going to tire? Who knows how far ahead he got." Hare said.

"Shut up both of you!" Tiger growled, "He's close by." Finally they came upon the cave Genki was in. "He's in there."

"Let's go then," Holly said sternly.

They walked in after lighting a torch noticing how wet it was. "Can you still find him Tiger?"

"Yes, only because he's so close." They kept walking until they came to a small passage way. "He went that way," Tiger informed. Then they saw Genki's bike come into view, a half hour later. But they didn't see Genki anywhere. He had noticed them approach and jumped up to a ledge above them. Now what do they want. Genki growled softly to himself.

"Genki, where are you?" Holly called. They all heard a low growl from above.

"What do you want" Genki replied looking down at them.

"Genki I know you're mad, but a least let us apologize and explain."

"Why should I? I have already heard enough excuses and apologies to write a book!" Genki said looking away.

"Would you chill and listen!" Suezo yelled.

"No I won't! Why should I? You're the one who thinks I'm in league with Satan! I have never been so insulted in all my life. Right now you remind me of one of the eyeballs in Curse of the Catacombs. I had a lot of fun killing them in that game, don't tempt me now!" Genki said infuriated jumping down in front of Suezo.

"Please just calm down, Genki. Suezo, shut up and butt out." Holly said and put her hand on Genki's shoulder, but he moved away.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you acting this way?" Genki ignored her, and put his jacket and vest in the compartment on the back of his bike. "Genki, answer me! Damn it!" Holly yelled frustrated. All the monsters were shocked that she cursed.

"Here's your answer then, Holly. I'm tired of fair weather friends! I don't need anyone, and I don't want your pity! If I wanted pity I could go to a church! I also don't want to be called a demon, something from hell, or be linked to Satan in any way! I'm a Christian; the only people I'm in league with are God and Jesus, that's all! Genki shouted rudely. Then he turned and walked back over to his bike. When he got on his bike he noticed the keys were missing from the ignition.

"Looking for these hot head?! You're going to hear me out, or you're not getting them back." Holly said holding up the keys that she had secretly stolen.

"Don't have to do anything! You either give those back you thief, or you're going to get it! Since you broke your promise, I won't keep my promise about not hurting you!"

"I rather doubt you'd hurt me."

"Don't tempt my, girl"

"Girl?! I have a name."

"I don't FRICKING care! Now give those back, or you'll really be up shit creek!"

"Try and make me!"

"Fine I will!" Genki ran at her but she took off. The monsters stood by their decision to just keep out of it, and stayed where they were.

Deeper in the woods. . . .

He chased her through the woods, until she couldn't run anymore. He wasn't tired at all. "Now give those back, damn it!" He walked over and growled.

"Fine take them! You're an idiot, if you think you can handle it alone." Genki grabbed the keys and ignored her comment. He turned and walked back. He had about 15 ft away when he heard something. It was Holly; she was crying, pretty hard too. His conscience wouldn't let him go any further, he hated making her cry. Then he felt even worse, when the realization of what he had said, hit him. He turned around and went back. Holly was leaning against a tree, crying. Her back was to him. He walked over to her, but didn't know what to say. She hadn't heard him come up behind her. He knelt down and put his hand on her shoulder. She jumped in surprise, but told him to go away. He now realized, that he had been an idiot.

"I'm sorry. You were right, I was being an idiot. It's just you hurt me so much that I just couldn't let it go. pause That doesn't mean, I don't care for you anymore. I could never stop loving you. No matter how much pain you caused me. What Suezo said, was what really bothered me. I'm quite religious, so that really hurt." Holly looked up in surprise.

"You are?" Holly asked in a hoarse voice.

"Yes"

"I had no idea, I'm sorry I hurt you! I didn't mean to! I just didn't know how to deal with you, killing like that. I thought the shift had turned you evil." Holly buried her face in Genki's chest. "I'm so sorry…I'm sorry Genki" she began to cry again. Genki pulled her into his arms and held her close. He rubbed her back and said in a soft tone.

"It's alright Holly, it's alright. I forgive you, but you'll have to earn my trust back, if you want it. I'm sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it, I was just mad and scared. I love you and I'd be honored if you would still be my girlfriend." Holly looked up at him. His eyes were full of compassion and love, he wasn't evil.

"I love you too. Of course I'll still be your girlfriend." She reached up and caressed his face gently with her hand. Then suddenly pulled him into a short kiss and when she let go Genki was in shock.

"What's wrong?"

"It's just I didn't think you'd kiss me, in this form. I'm more of a monster than our friends are."

"No you're not! Of course I'll kiss you in this form. If I accept you in your human form, I have to accept you in this form, too."

"Thank you, Holly." Genki looked at his watch, "We should get back, it's late."

"No. I want to stay here for the night. I don't feel like dealing with the others right now."

"If that's what you want."

"Are you hiding anything else, about your Kareen form I should know?"

"As you know I'm immortal. I have more power than Mu had. I have scars all over my body from when I was tortured. It's hard for me to control my blood and sex lust sometimes. Especially around you, I constantly have to fight to stay in control. I'm so afraid I'm going to hurt you or worse……….. " He trailed off.

"Genki you mean rape me?" she stuttered.

"Unfortunately, yes. I've done it before, at times I can't control it." He looked down in shame. "When I was under General Blazer's command. He made everyone in our troop rape these village women. We didn't have a choice; he shot us with a powerful drug that released all the beast soldiers' lusts. There were a total of 154 women and young women that we raped. I remember raping 5, but after that all I remember is a lusting beast rage of pleasure. That bastard even kept score telling me after the fact that I raped 24 women. I was surprised to see him because he was executed for it, I didn't know he was Kareen." A tear ran down his cheek. "I never wanted to rape anyone. We paid them back the best we could later, but we knew we couldn't give back what we stole."

"It's ok Genki. I wasn't your fault. You tried to stop it didn't you?"

"I did at first but after he gave me the drug, it was like I wanted it." He closed his eyes trying not to shed any more tears.

"Come here." she pulled Genki toward her and laid his head on her breast. Genki let her, but was surprised that she would do such a thing. She caressed his face and stroked his mane. After a few minutes she said, "I'm afraid to be raped, but I'm more afraid of losing you. I want to be with you Genki, I love you." She closed her eyes; "if you can't control it and you do rape me I won't leave you for it. I know that you don't want to and I know it's hard for you, so I'll always be here for you."

"Holly, I don't deserve you."

"Yes, you do Genki. It's not like you want to rape me or force me to do something like that. I really want to be with you.

"Thanks, Holly"

"Anytime, Genki"

"Can we go to sleep now? I'm really tired."

"Yes, of course we can." She and Genki lay down together. He pulled her into his arms, making her blush. He kissed her once then snuggled with her, purring in contentment. "Good night, Holly. I Love You."

"Good night, Genki. I Love You Too." Then they both fell asleep curled up together.