Memories Lost and Crushed

Continued…

He opened it looking over the table of contents, his eyes widened and he gasped. He looked like he was in shock, as his mind raced fighting what he read and what he thought he knew. Holly could see pain and fear was over his face as it turned pale, but he read on. Holly instinctually wrapped her arms around him, supporting him as he felt like fainting. He finally closed the folder and spoke quietly to them.

"Thank you Dianna, Hasuka. For now I need some time alone to deal with the contents of these folders." He then walked down the hall to the bedroom and closed the door. Holly was about to go after him when she felt a hand on her arm stopping her. Looking to see Dianna's stern yet concerned face she looked down.

"Give him some time girl. He has a lot of thinking and reading to do. Take him is dinner later by then he should be alright." She looked towards the room a reluctantly followed them, the hand still present on her arm.

"Holly I won't lie to you. The information in those folders will change him, it'll be very hard on him but he deserved to know the truth." She looked to Hasuka somewhat unsure of what to say.

"Go eat girl. Then you can go see him." Dianna hugged her comfortingly. "He'll be alright after awhile." She nodded and took the food that Sky offered to her. She walked over to sit alone making the monsters worry about her. "She is worried about Genki." Tiger growled,

"And where is he?"

"In the general's bedroom reading over some troubling information." Tiger noticed the look in Dianna's eyes and lay down. Pixie came to sit with Holly, rubbing her friend's back in a comforting manner.

"He'll be alright." Holly didn't answer she was too lost in though. * What could make him change suddenly…oh Genki please let me help you. I don't want to lose you especially not now. Our daughter will need you. * She slowly ate the stew Sky made not even noticing the hot peppers for once; no she was far too concerned about her love and in to deep of though to notice such things. When she finished she looked to sky.

"I'll take Genki his meal" Sky nodded and went to get his. Handing it to Holly she whispered. "He'll need you more then ever now." Holly stared at her a moment feeling left out since everyone else but her seemed to know what was going on.

She nodded then proceeded to walk to the room careful not to spill the stew as she went. She hear a sound through the door that she didn't want to hear, opening it she saw Genki with his fists clenched out right sobbing. Setting the bowl on the dresser she closed the door and went to him. Sitting next to him she placed her hand on his shoulder. He flinched at her touch; pain, grief, and sorrow written all over his face. * Has he cracked entirely? I have never seen him cry like this. Something must be terribly wrong. * She wrapped her arms around him urging him to come to her. He obeys pulling her into a strong hug, she just held him gently rubbing his back in a comforting manner. "Shh…it's alright Genki…. I'm here for you and I always will be love" he buried his face into her shoulder sobbing. Looking over at the folder Holly began to read. * Log 5 after careful tracking and consideration I have chosen Genki Sakura as my target. His sister is prohibiting his ability to become the best beast soldier alive. Log 7 I have taken Nicki, my targets sister to bed many times, helping her to get drunk and get high. I have made sure to put the agent in her drinks and syringes. I must say she makes a great bed warmer. Log 9 Oh god sleeping with her is the best thing I have ever felt. Too bad she has to be removed, I'd love to become more sexually involved with this bitch. Log 18 she has been diagnosed with cancer, the agent worked perfectly. She came to me this night in tears. We again made love and out of consideration for the pleasure she has given to me I have become her comforter. I really don't wish her to die in pain or fear. Log 21 Nicki died 3 days ago. Genki is in much distress. He's fallen into a deep depression like trance. He speaks to no one and prefers to be alone. He has been sent to a psychologist but they can do nothing for him as he refuses to take the medication. Seems we miscalculated his persona and relationship with Nicki. He is further from becoming what we want now then he was before at this time. We do not know where he is as he has up and disappeared. *She gasped and pulled him closer, "Genki I'm sorry for what they did. Please calm down love." she kissed his cheek and continued to comfort him.

After a little over a half an hour passed he finally calmed though he still clung to her. His eyes finally met her worried, concerned, and compassionate ones.

"Holly, did you read the log?" His voice horse and soft,

"Yes, Hun I did." he shook slightly until her hand caressed over his back again. "I'm very sorry for what he did to her Genki. I wish I could change it for you." He nodded solemnly. "If you didn't want me to read it…"

"No its fine…. you deserve to know…." His voice a whispered, Holly could hear the pain in it.

"Genki please let me help you…. remember I'm here for you to take your burdens."

"I know love...I just can't…."

"Shh…yes you can…don't break your promise Genki." He looked into her eyes a moment then away again.

"I need time…"

"I know you do love. Please let me help when you're ready alright?" he nodded, "you want to eat your soup?"

"Yes please…" she kissed his forehead and retrieved it for him. He used his phoenix powers to re-warm it. He slowly ate as he began to read again. Holly thought he was only torturing himself with this but wrapped her arms around him from behind. Then rested her chin on his left shoulder reading along with him, becoming his silent comfort.

Hours passed as he continued to look through the folders' contents. More tears had fallen but Holly stayed with him the whole time comforting him and helping him through the information. By this time he had gotten to his enemies folders and away from most of the pain. He studied the information with his fiancé carefully devising plans to intercede at a moments notice. Knowing their enemies in this way made it so much easier. Holly had pushed him into strategic thinking to keep his mind off his pain.

"Genki I think Steve will be easier if we can keep him on the ground."

"I know love but I'm not sure how."

"Target his wings or use a net of some sort." He thought a moment.

"That will only work if someone can get him with out his previous knowledge."

"True…I guess we need a sneaky person…. what about Lopez? His fire abilities shouldn't bother either of us…especially not you."

"He has built in armor he'll be harder to damage and decapitate."

"How can we get passed it?"

"There are major weak points even in armor. Places that can't be armored that well. But decapitating him will take a lot of force. Not sure if I can do it or not."

"If you can't…"

"We will cross that bridge when we come to it love."

"Alright Genki." He looked her in the eye and tossed all the folders on the floor pulling her close to him he sighed.

"Thank you love, your support is always comforting."

"I'm glad I can help." She nuzzled him enjoying being in his arms once again.

"This pain may never totally leave me…"

"I know love but I'll always be hear to counter balance it." she smiled kissing his cheek.

"I have no doubt sweetheart." His eyes met hers.

"Are you ready?"

"Yes, I think I am."

Dianna sat among the others trying to calm the fighting.

"LISTEN YOU IMBOSILES, GENKI HAS A LOT TO DEAL WITH AND WE WILL WAIT FOR HIM HERE UNTIL HE FEELS HE CAN MOVE ON!!!" she finally yelled at them all silencing everyone instantly.

"What if he can never move on?" Hare asked.

"He will be able to but only with our support and most of all Holly's. She can do much more for him then we can't."

"How chi?"

"He trusts her more. And because she loves him she can understand things better then we can." The younger monster titled his head looking at her. "Their hearts are closer together"

"Oh…ok chi" she sat down with Pixie happily.

"How long will it take?" pixie inquired.

"Not sure girl, depends on Genki." They all nodded understanding.

"Well its time to hit the sack." Jax announced. They all rose taking their stuff to the rooms they had picked out for the night.

Holly laid with Genki comforting him again, his face stained with tears of pain and remorse.

"Its not your fault Genki… you didn't know."

"But I had a bad feeling about him…"

"You couldn't have known for sure." His grip tightened crushing her against him. Knowing his pain she gently soothed him ignoring her shortness of breath. Her hands stroked his back her lips on his neck. "Just relax love."

"How can I? I have nothing that can…" she cut him off with a kiss. His body tensed a moment then slowly relaxed.

"You have me. I know I can't replace your family. But I can be your new family." Her hand took his and placed it over her womb, his eyes met hers. "You have a new family that needs you Genki."

"But I failed…"

"Doesn't mean you'll fail us. Trust me love I failed mine too." His eyes widened a moment, and then he finally nodded. His hand caressing over her womb softly, she smiled and nipped his ear.

"You can always make me feel needed baby."

"I know Hun and you always make me feel safe and worth while." She pulled him into a deep and loving kiss. He returned it adding more passion and love to it, his hand still caressing over her womb softly. She finally broke the kiss having to come up for air. "I will never tire of our love and passion." She huffed out of breath.

"Nether will I love" She smiled,

"Your hands are so soothing."

"Are they?" His other hand slipped lower making her blush a beet red; he chuckled.

"You always make me blush some how. You like it don't you?"

"I like to know that I can still catch you off guard. Makes it more interesting."

"You trying to visit our daughter again?" she raised a brow giving him a serious look.

"No, love only to please you. Not my self." She smiled kissing him once again.

"All I want is you at my side always Genki and your love."

"You will always have that love." he pulled her close now removing his hands from sensitive areas in favor of her back.

"Can you handle this Genki, with all that's happened can you handle what's ahead?"

"Yes, as long as you are always here Hol I can go through hell and back." She smiled nuzzling against him as he pulled the blankets over them.

"I'm glad I can help you so Hun." She relaxed with him closing her eyes.

"Night babe."

"Night" he joined her soon after in a peaceful sleep.

When morning came Holly woke in his strong, warm arms smiling as she noticed he was still sound asleep. Not wanting to wake him she lay there silently thinking over what he had gone through and what lie ahead of them. She smiled thinking of her marriage to him that would come very soon. It had been a dream of hers to marry him and have a daughter with him. He stirred slightly smiling as he saw her.

"Morning Holly."

"You feeling better love?"

"Much dear." His hand went to her womb causing her to gasp. "You were thinking about our life together again huh?"

"Yes but how…"

"The Blue Phoenix told me." She smiled.

"I'll have to have a word with her." She joked, "I was, I'm just so happy that my dream is coming true with you Genki."

"And I'm overjoyed that mine can come true with you." He kissed her softly; her hand came up to hold him there as she began to make out with him gently and lovingly. Stopping after a few moments. "And how is our little girl?"

"She's just fine Genki. You know I'd tell you if she wasn't."

"I know babe."

"I do enjoy your asking though." Her hand rested on his that remained on her womb.

"It's been 4 months now I promise I will end this before you are due."

"Thank you Genki. That would be a relief."

"Hol I want you to be careful in our fights so our child isn't…"

"I know love. I knew you'd ask me to do that and I will. I have the same fears as you Genki." She pulled him into an embrace. He sighed holding her close.

"I know I'm just afraid for your and our little girls safety." His fingers moved over her scar sending a shiver through her.

"Well I'm not going anywhere love." she smiled her hand slipping down on him causing him to look at her. She giggled causing him to blush. "I can still get you too dear."

"I guess you can. I'm going to get you later for this."

"I know bad boy." He smirked kissing and nipping her neck softly. Then he finally rose pulling her to her feet.

"Lets tell the others, we need to get moving if we are to beat them before our daughters birth."

"Then lets go." He stopped her a moment giving her a longing and loving kiss.

"I'll do something special for you later love." he quirked a brow but said nothing following her to the kitchen.

In the kitchen the others looked shocked to see Genki walk in with Holly.

"You alright Genki?" Dianna carefully asked.

"Yes I'm fine now. It hurt to read though that folder you gave me but with Holly's help I can handle it now."

"And the other folders?" Hasuka inquired.

"They were very helpful as well. I know the weak points now and we must keep Steve on the ground if possible."

"Alright" Siren brought them their breakfast and they ate side by side. All seeing a change in them both a stronger bond then even before. After they finished Genki stood with his love.

"We have to go now. If we wait too long Mu may figure things out. And we don't need that." They nodded.

"Can you handle this now Genki?" Greywolf asked.

"Yes I can. I worked through that."

"Alright" Genki went and got his and Holly's stuff as the others got their packed they bundled up. Genki put on the visor and turned it on as he mounted his snowmobile. With a roar it took off as he headed northeast.