Authors Note: ... I won't write the script out cause that is a waste of time. We all know what the fight is between Alex and Olympias, and it's a beautiful piece anyway so I won't add anything to it. Just in case you are wondering why I skipped the fight
Also, you guys (like the author) have waited for some compassion in Alexander, so here it is.
Alexander felt defeated and deflated after his encounter with his mother. Again she wouldn't tell the truth, again he felt forced to abandon her. The men doubted his leadership; he couldn't have this.
For long he wanted to be a strong and courageous leader, one that was ambitious and strong willed. He wasn't achieving this at all, as he slinked past the other men standing around, hiding his tear stained face from them all.
Again he was crying. He felt so useless. He couldn't go to Hephaistion; why was Hephaistion the strong one in their relationship? It made no sense, he was King not Hephaistion. He was the leader, not Hephaistion. Yet as he closed the door to his bathroom, collapsing to the ground; so much heartache and pained coursed from his body through his tears, he felt rejected, abandoned and nothing like the leader that he was born to be.
"Alexander?" a soft voice called in through his locked door, Alexander pondered who it was for a moment, and then he realised who he had left in his room a few hours before hand,
"Hephaistion" he coughed, trying to stifle his tears.
"... Are you all right?" Hephaistion asked him, pressing his hand up against the door, "I saw you coming in, you are crying..."
"Aren't I always?" Alexander said bitterly, "I thought you would've left? Haven't I done enough to deter you?"
"No, Alexander" Hephaistion said gently, Alexander sighed deeply, closing his eyes for a moment,
"... How could you defend me, defend what I've become?" Alexander questioned, "It doesn't seem right... I bring you down, I have hurt you, and I have caused you to hurt yourself..."
"All in the name of love" Hephaistion assured him, "I wouldn't have done so otherwise"
"I am a horrid fiend, Hephaistion. I want you to understand that you are never the cause of my grievances... I am sorry about what happened..."
"Your apologies are from the heart, Alexander. That is certain; but I don't want an apology... all I want is you" Hephaistion said into the door, as Alexander glanced up at it. He stood up and opened the door a little to him; Hephaistion stared straight at his face, like he was searching his soul all over again.
"How is it you don't judge, when so many others do?" he asked, tenderly stroking the side of Hephaistion's face, he reciprocated by doing the same.
"It's not my place to judge you Alexander; it is but to love you" Hephaistion pulled Alexander tightly against him, lifting Alexander's chin to meet his, kissing him softly. Alexander closed his eyes and delved deeper, pulling a little at Hephaistion's hair, massaging his fingers through the blonde tuffs, before releasing.
"I've wanted a kiss like that for so long..." Alexander smiled, his eyes still closed a little,
"I've waited to give you such" Hephaistion was also smiling, and there he saw the young Alexander. Not King, not noble blood, just humble, beautiful Alexander.
"We are leaving for Persia tomorrow, Hephaistion and I want you to come with me" Alexander insisted, scanning over Hephaistion's face,
"Would it be worth it? Wouldn't I just interfere with what you have to do...?" Hephaisiton asked,
"You are a soldier, yes?" Alexander asked him, he nodded.
"Then your place is with the army... just not with the army" Alexander laughed, Hephaistion's face broke into a smile. He loved the way Alexander laughed; his whole face glowed like the colour of his hair, shimmering across the edges of his jaw to his lips.
"You have made me worry... I thought that it was over between us" Hephaistion admitted, as Alexander shook his head,
"Never Hephaistion" Alexander shook his head, hugging him tightly again, his arms wrapped around his body like a shield,
"... I'm glad to hear it" Hephaistion felt as if he could breathe again, as Alexander kissed the top of his forehead,
"Now... I know you hate it when I leave, but..."
"I know Alexander, but now ... You'll come back quickly" Hephaistion smiled, and kissed the corners of Alexander's eyes, Alexander smiled, and rested his cupped hands against Hephaistion's cheeks,
"You are so wonderful" Alexander gushed, as Hephaistion's face turned red from the flattery. Alexander laughed again, for the second time Hephaistion could see happiness in his Kings eyes and knew, just knew if he said anything about Cassander that it would all begin again. All though Hephaistion was still in pain, the smile on Alexander's face was worth more. He watched Alexander walk away with a spring in his step and immediately felt enlightened, that he didn't want or need to know the rest of the troubles plaguing the Kingdom; but he could hear a soft and desperate cry creep out from another room, a woman's sad and desperate sobs, and he would only need one guess to know who it was. Heartache like no other, a woman scorned and tears only a mother would shed.
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