Chapter 2 Exiled
I had made my way back to Coruscant from Malachor V. I thought the Council would help me, but instead they just turned their backs on me.
When I first woke up after the final battle on the surface of Malachor V, I realized that something was very wrong with me. I could no longer feel the force. I returned to Coruscant hoping for the Councils guidance and help. They exiled me instead, for disobeying them and joining the Republic in the Mandalorian Wars. Did they cut me from the force? I do not know, but it would make sense.
I wonder what happened to the rest of the Jedi who went into the Mandalorian Wars. I wonder if I will ever see my friends again. This morning while I was packing my stuff at the temple, I had heard some people talking about Revan. Apparently she has taken her fleet to take care of some Mandalorians who fled Malachor. I hope she is all right.
I do not know what will become of me now. All I have known in my entire life is being a Jedi, and no I do not even have that. The force has been severed from me and it feels like I have lost a large part of myself. I feel broken. I whisper the Jedi Code but it does not comfort me the way it did during the war.
As I left the Temple this afternoon, several Jedi and Padawans watched me and whispered quietly to each other. They think because I went to war, that I have fallen to the Dark Side. They do not understand. All I wanted to do was protect the innocent civilians from the brutal Mandalorians. I have not fallen, and it hurts that they think so.
I wandered several docks today, trying to figure out what I will do. There are many worlds I have never seen. I think I might travel to as many of them as I can. Even though the Jedi exiled me I still want to help the people who need it.
A young man says the ship he works on is going to Tatooine to drop off a delivery. He can get me passage with them for cheap. I think I may take them up on the offer. They are smugglers but I do not care. I do not have many credits right now so I cannot be picky.
He told me that if I go to Tatooine and travel the Outer Rim I should go and buy some weapons. It can be a dangerous place since the Republic is not in charge out there. When he said that I looked at my belt and remembered that the Council had taken my lightsaber.
At a weapons shop, I buy myself two vibroblades and a blaster pistol. They are cheap but they will have to do until I find a way to earn more credits. The young man, Padres, said he would teach me to play peak on the way to Tatooine. Maybe if I get good enough I will be able to make some credits that way.
As I step onto the smugglers ship, I turn and look back at the city I am leaving. Will I ever return? Will I ever see all the people I am leaving behind? I do not know, but I hope so. I continue onto the ship and wonder what the future will bring me.