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Alexander froze, he felt himself grow weaker in the knees as he stood at the end of Hephaistion's bed.
"Phai?" he said softly, his eyes trailing up and down his lovers body, sadness etched across his face.
"Alexander…" the crackly, dry voice of Hephaistion responded, his distant blue eyes staring away from Alexander. Alexander sat down on his bed, forming a crease in the sheets.
"Why, Hephaistion?" he asked softly, numbly reaching for Hephaistion's hand.
"…. I didn't want to upset you" Hephaistion muttered, "I didn't want…"
"What are you doing to me now?" Alexander asked him, his bright brown eyes forcing back their tears.
"I'm sorry… I'm" Hephaistion coughed, jerking forward, Alexander grabbed a hold of him tightly, pulling him towards him.
"…. What am I going to do without you?" Alexander asked him despairingly, looking into Hephaistion's eyes, their brightness surely fading.
"…. You live" Hephaistion breathed, "You live because there's nothing else you can do"
"…. I can't" Alexander choked, "I can't…"
Hephaistion sighed drearily as Alexander looked at him, searching for answers. He got up from the bed, staring out the balcony window. He was speaking rubbish, he knew it. He saw himself at an old age and old age with Hephaistion by his side and nothing else.
"Hephaistion?" Alexander asked softly, turning around he looked to the bed.
"No…" Alexander's eyes widened, "No… Gods, Hephaistion!" he yelled out, throwing himself onto Hephaistion's chest, burying himself deep into Hephaistion's hair.
"All I wanted was you!" Alexander screamed into the darkness that he felt was caving around him.
"That's all…" he muttered, his face buried in his Hephaistion's chest.
"Dionysius, have mercy" Alexander whispered, tangling his hands in Hephaistion's hair.
"Please… please" his scared voice rang through the hallways and alerted the attention of the others, as Alexander continued to cry.
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