:The Eternity You Desire:
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Chapter Five
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Tomoyo allowed herself to be picked up by strong arms. "What have you been doing Moyo?" she heard a soft voice whisper in her ear. "S-S-Syao-kun doesn't love me…he doesn't love me," Tomoyo stuttered out as tears fell down her milky white skin. She felt the hold on her tighten, "Never say that," a gruff voice replied carrying her into one of the hotel rooms.
She felt herself placed softly on the bed. She looked up at her savor trying to place who he was. But instead her eyes started throbbing from all the drinks she had earlier. The man looked worriedly at her, "Moyo…you okay? Moyo?" Tomoyo looked up forcing a smile, "Who are you?" The man frowned, "It's Eriol."
Tomoyo allowed the tears trail down her face again, "Oh Eriol! Sakura woke up!" She felt his body stiffen, "She woke up? After three years?" Tomoyo nodded looking far off in the distance, "She's stealing everyone away from me! S-S-She everyone always love her! Just because she's so sweet and innocent! If it wasn't for me she wouldn't have been able to meet Syaoran…if it wasn't for me…"
Eriol's heart broke as he watched her sob into his chest. Eriol held her closer to him, "Shh, Tomoyo…it'll be okay." Tomoyo shook her head, "You don't understand…I love Syaoran so much…a-a-and she's just going to take him from me after all these years." Eriol held her tighter, "No, I do understand what it feels like to not have the one you love."
Tomoyo slowly looked up at him, "You understand?" Eriol nodded kissing her forehead, "Yeah, it's okay Tomoyo, you just learn to live without the person." He noticed her amethyst eyes shine from the tears, "Who do you love Eriol?" Eriol looked away, "It doesn't matter." Tomoyo used her hand to make him face her; slowly she raised her head up and placed her lips over top of his.
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Syaoran laid down on the bed. He looked over at the clock, it was already 12; Tomoyo wasn't going to come over. Syaoran sighed, sure he was relieved but he was going to have to face her sooner or later. Honestly though, he didn't know who he loved. No, who he wanted.
He knew in his heart that he loved both of them. Sakura…his first love…the one who taught him to be afraid. Getting up he took out the book, their book. The book he had meant to get her that day. That day. He shut his eyes tightly not willing the tears to fall, he quickly placed the book back down. What about Tomoyo? Tomoyo was his light in the dark. She helped him when he needed her the most. She had helped him out of the dark and back into the light called life.
Looking up towards the sky he remembered the conversation he had with Terada. Maybe…maybe it was time for a change. Just…just once chance to escape, to start anew. A single tear made its way down his cheek; the moon was shining brightly that night. 'Sakura…' he whispered off into the wind, 'gomen…gomen.'
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Sakura sat up and looked out the window not noticing the world around her. "He'll come," she whispered softly, "he promised." Miaka watched her sister sadly, she was never going to be able to move on if everything just continued like this. Hearing some noise she looked behind here. There was Mei Lin jumping up and down towards her. "Congratulations!" Miaka looked startled, "What do you mean?" Mei Lin giggled cutely, "Aww, you don't have to be shy. Your mom told us you won the swim competition and that you're going to go to regionals?" Miaka smiled, "Yeah…but…" she turned her head back to Sakura.
Mei Lin looked at Miaka's sad smile, "You shouldn't worry! There's always the boyfriend right?" Miaka looked down at the young girl, "That's what I'm afraid of." Mei Lin looked at the girl confused, "Nani?" Miaka forced a smile, "Nothing Mei-chan. I think I'm going to go to my sister now. Ja ne!" Mei Lin nodded, smiling brightly, "Okay! I better go back to Kay-san before she gets mad at me."
Miaka walked into the white filled room. She sat down in one of the chairs at the far back, just watching her sister's every movement. Sakura sat there, staring out the window, she didn't even realize that Miaka had walked into the room. "He promised…he promised…" she kept whispering in the night air. Miaka clenched her fists tightly, the one time Sakura actually remembers something, and it's the one thing that would end up hurting her.
Next Morning
Tomoyo awoke the sunlight hitting her face. She turned over and saw his face. 'Shit!' she screamed in her mind. She quickly checked under the covers. 'Damnit!' she thought again, 'What did I do last night?' She turned to look at the man, she touched his cheek gently. He was handsome, she wasn't afraid to admit. But he wasn't Syaoran. She quickly turned away ashamed of herself. How could she cause herself to lose control like that?
She quickly got up and dressed swiftly, it was best that she leave before a confrontation. Once she was finished she took one last look at him, "Gomen, but I can't love you that way," was all she said before swiftly running out of the room.
Eriol's eyes quickly opened once she was gone. In truth he had been awake since Tomoyo woke up. Her stirring had awakened him. He had just wanted to see what she was going to do. He took a deep breath, he didn't regret what happened. At least now he knew. He knew now she could never love him. Sitting up he vowed to the world, 'I will finally move on, no more waiting…I will now move on.'
The phone rang interrupting his thoughts. "Moshi, moshi?" he said. "Hey Eriol…can we talk?" Syaoran's voice rang through. Eriol nodded, "Meet me at the tree."
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By the time Tomoyo reached Syaoran's apartment he was already gone. Frustrated she laid on the bed yelling into the white pillow. How could things turn out this way! She hadn't meant for things between her and Eriol get out of control. And what could she do now? Could she tell him? The guilt rushed over her. She was always accusing Syaoran of doing stuff behind her back with Sakura…and her she was doing stuff with Eriol.
"I'll let Eriol decide," she thought to herself. If Eriol mentions it to Syaoran she'll just explain to him everything that happened. If he doesn't…than there isn't a point of causing a commotion over nothing is there?
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Syaoran had left for work early. He decided that he'll start his shift early and than take a longer break to go and talk with Eriol. He felt uneasy in his stomach. Tomoyo wasn't at home when he called to check up on her. Also, Miaka had called him this morning. He was too scared to answer the phone, so he just allowed the machine to pick it up. But in truth, he needed someone to talk to. To confine in.
Walking up the path towards the large cherry blossom tree he didn't even bother looking at the scenery. What would be the point? It just held too many memories. He noticed Eriol sitting at the top.
Eriol turned hearing him, "Syao." "Eriol," Syaoran said swiftly back. Syaoran sat down beside him, "How's life been treating you?" Eriol smiled softly, "You know that girl I told you about?" Syaoran nodded, "The one you like?" Eriol nodded and continued, "Yeah, I finally told her how I felt." Syaoran looked at Eriol surprised, "How did that go?" Eriol grinned, "We have a date tonight."
Syaoran smiled, "I'm glad." Eriol nodded, "How about you and Moyo?" Syaoran let out a big sigh, "I don't know." "You can't keep playing games," Eriol said calmly. "What do you mean?" Syaoran questioned looking at his friend. "You know, she won't for you forever," Eriol continued ignoring Syaoran. "I know she won't…" Syaoran mumbled softly.
Eriol grabbed Syaoran's shirt, "Than what are you going to do! If you don't tell her how you feel, she'll just walk out of your life Syaoran! You can't keep living this lie!" Syaoran grabbed Eriol's hand, "I know damnit! But…but I don't know who I like!" Eriol froze, "What?" Syaoran took a deep breathe before continuing, "I don't know who I like more." Eriol looked at him, "Well you better decide soon. A person will only wait so long before giving up and moving on Syaoran."
Syaoran looked up and nodded, "I know, I know." "Have you talked with Miaka lately?" Eriol asked changing the subject. "No…why?" Syaoran asked looking at his friend. Eriol raised a brow, "I don't know, but she's looking for you and she says it's an emergency. Something about Sakura."
Syaoran froze, what happened to Sakura? He quickly grabbed his phone and dialed Miaka's cell phone. "Moshi moshi?" he heard her tired voice. "Mia-chan…what's wrong with Sakura?" "Onii-chan?" she heard Miaka's sad filled voice. "What's wrong!" Syaoran screamed into the phone. He could hear her breathing silently, "Nothing is wrong with Sakura." Syaoran slowly breathed out, "So she's fine?" Miaka sighed, "You have to tell her the truth before it's too late," she said and hung up the phone. "Too late?" Syaoran mouthed out.
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Sakura looked at her hands. No, she was staring at them. When had she become so skinny. When had her hair been this long. She was unsure. She looked outside, maybe it was just her imagination. She saw her parents smiling happily at her, "Can I get the book?" Her parents looked at her, "Saku…we couldn't find the book you wanted." Sakura looked at them surprised, "But it's such a popular book…" Her mom smiled forcefully, "Okay we'll look for the book again tomorrow." Sakura nodded, smiling softly, "It's my book with Syaoran."
Her mother and father walked out. "What are we going to do Fujitaka?" Fujitaka sighed, "I'll call Syaoran."
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Syaoran sighed. The book, Mayauru no Okurimono, he had to get it for her. If he could do this one thing for her his life would be satisfied. He had finally decided what he wanted to do. No…he had decided what he was going to do.
Bayb-Munki: Well…the chapter is sort of longer? Hehehe…hey at least I updated right?…I mean….you didn't have to wait like three weeks this time. Has to be an improvement. Please review…I want to know how everyone feels about my story…and also…I haven't updated moonlight kiss…because well…more people seem to be reading this story…and enjoying it…so yea. Lmao…geeze if it weren't for your reviews I unno how long it wud take me to update. So…enjoy.