Okay I just wanted to let you know that this is the last chapter on this storyline and this chapter is rated PG13 or a very mild R, but its not too bad well at least I don't think so.

The next post will be next Wednesday because I have a massive essay due in on Wednesday so I won't have time to post before

Firewalker32 I hope you don't think that I was having a go it was just I thought I'd try to explain it as best I can, and I'm glad you understand it now.

Thanks to my lovely Beta Annie, and well enjoy

Year 3: Chapter 5

Amanda sat on the floor with her legs crossed. She sat in silence, calming herself and waiting until she was ready to speak. She didn't look at Sirius as she stated to talk

"It started at the end of last term, that's why I came to you. You know my family, their ways and reasons, and none of my other friends do."

"I was in the corridor coming back from the library, when I bumped into somebody. I fell hard on the floor and snapped my bag. Everything just went everywhere. Whoever I'd bumped into had muttered something and stormed passed."

Amanda smiled to herself

"This boy came around the corner and saw me lying on the floor; he came over and offered his hand to me. Of course I took it and when I looked up guess who the hand had belonged to, Billy Morgan..."

"Billy Morgan... wait, isn't he that fifth year that plays Keeper for the Ravenclaws?"

She looked up at Sirius and met his gaze.

"Yes, and he's the Ravenclaw Prefect. Now let me finish."

Again Amanda looked away from Sirius, too afraid to look at him while she spoke.

"Anyway Billy helped me pick up my things. He walked with me to the stairs, you know, the one where the Ravenclaws go up and we go across. He said that it had been nice talking together. Then he looked at the ground."

"He said that he'd seen me around the castle with the girls and that even though we're only second years, most of the guys in the school wanted to go out with at least one of us."

Amanda looked up and laughed.

"Si, I was shocked. I never knew that about us! I knew we got attention from a lot of the third years down but fifth years, I was so surprised I didn't know what to say. He smiled at me and leaned down, and whispered in my ear."

"He said, and I quote, 'You're the one that I always wanted to kiss' and then he did, he pulled me towards him and kissed me."

"HE WHAT!! HE'S TOO OLD HE SHOULD GET SOMEONE HIS OWN AGE!"

"SIRIUS!!"

He looked at her and remembered he had promised not to interrupt.

"Sorry."

"Well it was amazing once I realised what was happening, I dropped my things and kissed him back, he's a great kisser, Si. Anyway, he asked me out and I said yes of course. He was my boyfriend."

"I picked up my things and headed back to Gryffindor Tower, I told him to go because he had an exam to revise for, his potion OWL was the next day. Anyway on my way up, who would I bump into but Lucius."

"He'd seen what had happened and he told me I had better break up with Billy otherwise there'd be trouble. I told him to 'go to hell' and he said hell was reserved for Mudbloods and mudblood lovers."

"Amanda, are you telling me that Billy is a muggle born?"

"Yeah, that's the trouble. That's why I came to find you; I needed to talk to someone but you told me basically to get lost because I'm not good enough for your new friends."

"I went up to my dorm that day and cried Si, not because of what Lucius said but because of what you had said. Of course the next two weeks went by and Billy and I kept meeting up in secret. I finished it though when he tried to...ummm...you know."

"WHAT, you wait till I see him again, I'll hex him so much that he'll, he'll..."

"No point, Branwen already cursed him with bad breath for six months and Ginny put a spell on him so that whenever he lies his nose turns green."

Amanda laughed. This bit was the funny bit, but it would soon get worse and she didn't want Sirius to know the rest, but after what he had seen he needed to know.

Sirius watched her closely he could tell she was okay about this bit, he knew that whatever was coming though must be bad.

"So we came home from Hogwarts with another year ended. Everything was fine for the first three weeks, and then three days ago I had an argument with Lucius; it was over something stupid, I don't even remember what."

Amanda cupped her hands together and looked pass Sirius' head at the window, her eyes were already refilling with tears. She knew that her voice would turn now to barely above a whisper as she started talking again.

"Last night after everyone went to bed, it must have been about midnight father came into here to 'talk' to me."

Amanda took a deep breath, remembering what had happened. She couldn't bear to repeat what had taken place; instead you picked up the spare wand that was lying on her desk, belonging to her sister. She had gotten it last night and put it there.

She pointed the wand at her forehead and whispered

"Memorio"

Sirius watched as Amanda's memory of the night before played for them both to see

Amanda pulled her nightdress over her head. She looked in the mirror and smiled, she must have grown since the last time she wore this, once it fell to her knees and now it barely came past her upper thigh.

She turned to go to bed when her door opened. She watched as her father shut it tight and pointed his wand at the door

"Silencio."

Then as he turned Amanda caught sight of the anger in his face, his eyes were narrow as he stared down at her.

"How dare you! A MUDBLOOD!"

Amanda looked hard at him. She thought he was going to argue about Lily again, he didn't seem to understand that even though Lily was muggle born she was still a brilliant witch. She wondered what the problem with Lily was today.

"Daddy, what are you talking about?"

Amanda put her innocent face on, she had always been a daddy's girl and had him wrapped around her little finger. Opening her eyes as wide as possible she coyly smiled up at him.

"A mudblood and a Ravenclaw at that! He's below you; you need a Pureblood Slytherin like Rabastan Lestrange."

Amanda's jaw dropped, she thought he didn't know about Billy. Lucius had said he wouldn't tell, but then she remembered the argument from two days prior. Quickly Amanda used a technique she had discovered over the years, distraction.

"Daddy I will not marry Lestrange, he's horrible. I hate him I'd rather marry the squid in the lake than him."

This had the desired effect on her father

"You will marry whomever I see fit! You will have no say in that matter and if I say you're to marry a Lestrange then you will, they are a pure family after all."

"But daddy I want to marry for love not money, I don't care if I don't have a Knut to me name."

"Amanda Dixon don't you speak like that, and don't think I've forgotten why I'm here. You're bringing disrespect on the family, going around kissing Mudbloods."

Amanda could feel the tears start in her eyes. She knew punishment was on its way.

"Daddy all I did was kiss him, it doesn't mean anything, it only happened once."

"ONCE! ONCE! Lucius told me that he'd seen you with him more than once."

"Lucius! He's lying!"

"How dare you slander you're cousins name like that!"

The pupils of his eyes were narrower now and steam should have been coming from his ears. He stormed closer to Amanda; she could see the sweat drops on his red face.

"You'll never do this again Amanda."

He grabbed her upper arm, squeezing all the blood out as he flung her to his chest.

""I'll teach you to disgrace the family name."

She saw the wall grow closer, felt the coldness against her body seconds before hitting the floor.

She saw him stand over her as he reached for his belt, unbuckling it as he drew closer. He lifted her from the floor and held her tight against the wall, she felt his mouth touch her with force as he forced himself entry.

His rough hand ran up her leg getting closer and closer to her. Amanda's eyes grew wide as silent tears fell across her face.

The memory ended there cutting before the incident, but it left Sirius with no doubt about what had taken place. He felt the tears flow from his own eyes as he met Amanda's. The fear now replaced by hurt.

"You see Si, death was the best thing that could be done."

He got up from his seat and grabbed Amanda close. He felt her sharp intake of air as he held her close. He couldn't leave her, he didn't want to. He took a breath and spoke quietly close to her ear.

"I won't let him do that to you ever again Mand, I promise."