The next morning Jay woke up and instantly remembered his dream and that song...where had he heard that song before? He got up took a shower and got dressed and went to get Emma. He knew he was an ass last night but...he wasn't thinking and he's haveing really mixed feelings. He knew Emma had gone to the hotel, because he knew she wasn't ready to go home.
When he pulled up to the motel already saw a bunch of prostitutes climbing out of a van. "This isn't the place for Emma." He went to the front desk and told them he was looking for Emma Nelson. They said there was noone under that name here. So he tried Simpson, no dice. "What would Emma go by!" Then he heard her say, Smith.
"Duh everyone uses Smith. Now what do you want?"
"Emma I am sorry for being an asshole last night I was drunk now please come back to my house or go home."
"You're serious? Because there's no way in hell, I'm ever speaking to you again. You have no respect and are completely oblivious to any facts!"
"Oblivious? Emma I don't even know why you are at my house! What is so 'obvious' that I should know already!"
"Don't try and get anything out of me, you are MR. Top Secret over there! You got so mad at me just for wanting to meet your mom and you are so freaked out about people coming over! I can't stand you and your 'don't worry about it' bullshit! So just leave me be."
She was walking to her room and Jay was following her.
"Emma let's talk, we need to. I haven't been honest, and even if I leave her with you still mad at me, you have to fucking talk to me and we need to work things out!"
She went in her room and left the door open for him to come in. The motel room was small and smelly. It was horrible in there, he couldn't believe he stayed the night there!
"Talk asshole."
Jay got kinda mad at that but he talked anyways. "I drink. I drink every night. Call me an alcoholic, whatever. I'm not the first person to pick up drinking as a habit."
"Well I hate people that drink!"
"Either you talk without getting all riled up, or.."
"No, I can talk anyway I want to, since I am the one giving you the chance!"
"Whatever, okay first off, I need to get this off my chest. My dad was arrested, for selling drugs about a year ago, well he escaped and hates my mom and I with a passion, we were fed up with his friends and the police here nonstop so we teamed up with the FBI and they busted him. Well the FBI tried to put us in the Witness Protection crap but we said no, that'll interfere with our lives too much, we will be okay. So here we are living day to day in fear that he'll show up and be mad as hell and kill us, or take over our house like he did before. It's all bad, that's why we don't answer the door to strangers and we rarely answer the phone even though we've changed out number tons. I know it sounds far fetched, but my life is pretty far fetched. It's crazy stuff, I just hope to God the bastard never comes back. He always beat my mom and I and we were defenseless. And my mom works nonstop because she doesn't want to be home when he comes back, so that explains our nice stuff and her gone all the time. And..my drinking..I started drinking when my dad lived here, it helped me get to sleep at night, killed the pain you know? Alright I've said enough. You understand? Now you better spill Emma, trust me, hell I trusted you enough to tell you this much!"
Emma was shocked. She had no clue what a rough life Jay had lived, she thought his life was rough before, but because he made it rough, she had no idea he grew up with an asshole drug lord of a father and no mom.
"Yeah..I understand, wow Jay that's a lot to say...I..I had no clue, I mean if I hadda known-"
"How could you know? Noone knows. I mean, I deal, because that's what you have to do...actually I can't say I deal..when I drink everynight and..."
Emma got up and sat beside him on the disgusting bed. She took his hand and was ready to tell him her story.
"So it's my turn I guess..."
"Yes. Why can't you go home, and why were you crying your eyes out at the ravine?"
"Ok..well it all started with Chester telling me he cheated on me, and me forgiving him, like a fool, and then me remember that...I had cheated on him...with you. I immediatly felt like shit and guilty becuase Chester had been a great boyfriend, but he did cheat on me, I don't know why I let that pass..anyways, I had shunned you because I knew I like you more than Chester, but I figured you'd toss me out like a rag doll and Chester would love me forever. Well anyways two nights ago I went to the ravine, hopeing I'd find you there, but then again hopeing I wouldn't because I didn't want to see you with another girl, and you weren't there and I got a sense of relief but then Chester saw me there and immediatly got on my case about why I was there. I started to tell him I was just going on a walk when...he got me in his car and.."
Emma started to cry, Jay got an angry feeling and his fist got tight. He knew Emma was going to say that Chester raped her. Emma coughed out the words.
"And then..he raped me, he humilated me, and made me sick to death with myself. And it was too embaressing to tell anybody about to I tried to live with it and keep my mouth shut, and I wanted to leave home because he is my neighbor and..and I thought being at your house would be nice but you were a complete jerk, I know I can't blame you because you didn't know but what the hell! I hadn't done anything wrong to you Jay!"
She stood up and was crying a lot. Jay stood and they started to argue.
"Emma all you had to do was tell me what happened! I would have kicked his ass in a second! God! That motherfucker!"
"It's embaressing JAY! I got raped! He was horrible to me! He was disgusting and never in my life have I ever thought that would happen to me! Besides...I...I"
"Shut up. You didn't deserve that! So let me play nice guy and kick his fucking ass! Emma as much as I hate to say it, I care about you. Okay! Happy now? I fucking care about you and these kinds of feelings are new for me. I don't usually play the prince charming role.."
She laughed, "Prince charming? Yeah right! Like you are my big hero, you think that being with me is being Prince Charming. Jay I went out with Sean! You are still Jay to me, except for..I like you and you like me." She laughed again. "That sounds so grade 7."
"Yeah it does, stop with your labels. You know how we do."
He kissed her. Like at her house they just click, no labels. They are together when they feel it. Jay and Emma stopped kissing and he held Emma close.
"Let's get out of here." He said with a smirk.
He grabbed her bag that was unpacked and they went back to his house.
Jays POV
Coming clean to Emma wasn't that bad. But that doesn't make him prince charming and he's glad. He still will drink...because there's not stopping now. And he still will keep his distance from love. He's not ready for that.
Emmas POV
I love him so much. After today I won't let him leave me. I won't mess this up. And I hope he doesn't try and hurt Chester even though he deserves it, violence isn't the answer, just talk to Rick about that one.
Things seem alright now huh? Psh. This is Degrassi. Stable doesn't mean a thing, nor does it last long.