Year 3: Chapter 33

"Headmaster the story starts before we came back from summer. You know that my father is close to Amanda's. Well this summer our house was being done out so we went and stayed with Amanda and her family."

"Well something happened that changed everything you see –"

"You're wrong Si. This all started last year. You see before the exams last year I started dating Billy Morgan."

"What! But he's the Ravenclaw Keeper and a sixth year!"

"Yes James and last year he was a fifth year, and before you say he's too old for me Sirius has beaten you to it."

"Anyway we only lasted a few weeks and it was over only, Lucius had known about us and the fact that Billy is a muggle born wasn't in my favour."

Amanda's voice failed her at this point as she dug her head back into Sirius' top. She knew they had expected her to continue with the story but she was unable to.

She heard Sirius mutter a small word and tears flew from her eyes as the memory of her father touching her came to her mind. She knew that the vision was being shown to all watching. She could fell his mouth on hers, his hand on her leg.

She screamed and knew that the room heard it; she felt the hand tighten against her mouth as he lifted her from the floor slightly. She gasped with the pain that hit her at the moment her father started the real abuse.

Her heart told her this wasn't real and that it was only a memory however her mind wouldn't let her forget. She knew that she had no control over what they saw and that if Sirius didn't end the spell they'd see everything.

She could fell the coldness of the hard wall behind her back as she felt shooting pains in her arm where her father had hold of her. Then she felt her back hit the floor as she yelped with pain. Then the pain ended and she could see the man through watery eyes.

Sirius looked at the image in front of him. He couldn't work out how they were seeing so much. He watched as she hit the floor her father standing above her. For the first time he realised what she had really been through and why she had believed that death was the only way out.

He heard a low moan from his lap and saw the fear in her eyes, he knew she was reliving the experience and then it hit him, she couldn't stop it. This was more than she wanted them to see, he had to finish it. Quickly he said the spell and she began to whimper as she buried her head further into his shirt.

He saw the fear in Dumbledore's eyes, the pain to witness this and the anger that this had happened to her. Carefully he met the old man's eyes as he said the spell again this time on himself. The image of him stumbling into Amanda's room showed.

He could fell the sickness hit him again as he saw her there on the banister. He felt the same panic of the night although he knew deep down she had her head buried in him. He felt his knees weaken as he hit the floor and was violently sick.

He saw her and moved to touch her and remove her from her situation. He felt his lips touch hers as he gave her breathe and then he lifted the curse. He realised what he had just put her through as he saw the colour on James face. He was whiter than any of the ghosts floating around the castle.

He moved slightly and saw the horror on Amanda's face. She threw her arms around him as for the first time she knew what he had really seen that night. He had thought she was dead she had done that to him.

Sirius saw the terror on Dumbledore's face as he waved for them to go back to their common room. The three got up, Sirius still holding Amanda who had become weak due to reliving her nightmare.

Albus watched as his door closed and tears flew freely from his face. He had no idea that Lestrange had not been the first time that Amanda had been forced on. He knew she still feared her father and the pain that must reside in her.

He had never felt or seen anything like that. He knew that she had not wanted them to see more than the start of it but she had had no control on the spell and it seemed that Sirius was unaware of the power he had on it.

The look on his face as he relived finding her was enough to reduce a grown wizard to tears. He knew their destiny if it was left to their parents, knew they should one day be the two to unite the family of Black and Dixon. He thought that maybe that would be the one decent thing that Amanda's parents could ever do to her.

Okay so I know that it's been a while but I've had some problems with my internet and emails and I can't get hold of my beta who is probably out enjoying herself since she's on holiday but the chapter is ready now, and here it is.

Jessie yeah Liverpool probably isn't all that safe but lets face it there aren't many safe places in this world look at that woman who got stabbed when she was talking her son out for a walk, that was a rural place.

Taylin okay so you brought up a few points that I feel that I must answer so bear with me for a minute.

Okay so you don't think this year is going anywhere well your almost right. This year is a filler or almost because this year is very important for later on. So at the moment it doesn't seem like much but the final chapters are the most important in the entire story and the plot is actually important for later years not for this year.

As for Amanda, she isn't actually clingy for the beginning she was and she is at this bit because she is being made to remember the worst thing that has happened to her. I don't know about you but I've actually looked into rape and I found that the woman normally finds somebody she trusts more than anybody and relies on them and that is what Amanda is doing with Sirius.

As for everyone is poor Amanda that isn't the case, because most people don't know what happened. Those that do know feel sorry for her but people normally do when rape is concerned. As for not telling everyone else, why would she? Would you want everybody to know that you had been raped? No, she feels that she had it coming that it was something she deserved for the things she had done and admitting it to the others will just make it more real.

So I hope that answers your questions and helps you to understand why this is happening.

Firewalker Okay you bring up a good point about the relationship with James and Sirius. Now that relationship is there and we've seen hints of it, maybe not in this year because I'm trying to focus on Amanda and Sirius and what happens when family don't like your beliefs.

However year four is completely different there is a turn around and we shall see only two relationships in depth. Those are Branwen and Lily, and Sirius and James. I want to show true friendship with these and it actually brings them into the story.

As for the lack of them in earlier years it's because I wanted to keep it for the fourth year due to some major storylines that are coming up. You will still see the other relationships such as Ginny/Joe and Alice/Frank plus Remus will be there making things difficult and you will see Amanda although she will be back seat. I hope when you read year four you'll see where this is all going.

Smart gurl I know that the whole sir name thing is wrong, but I actually need them to be sisters and nothing else. Like I said I know that the surname is wrong but I don't think it really matters that much in the whole scheme of things. I am trying to make this compatible with the information that JK has given us but since I started this so long ago some of the information became available after I had started posting and therefore isn't correct.

So now that you've read all this please review and I'll try to get more up soon but exams start in two weeks so bear with me.

Kris