Have you got size fat? #6

Raabs POV
I decided I was sorting all this mess out with Toni. Right now. No chickening out. Eventually I knocked on the door. When she answered her eyes were all red like she had been crying. "Can I come in?" I asked hopefully. She stepped aside and I closed the door behind me. "I am SO sorry." "Why didn't you tell me before? Then I wouldn't have had to find out that way. I am really upset Raab, sorry isn't gonna make it go away." she said. "I know, I just don't know what else to say! I wanted to talk to you about it, but didn't have time. I feel really bad, it's not like I don't care or anything." Toni said down on the bed. "So, in London, did you really feel that way?" I sat down next to her and took her hands. "Yeah, I...I think I still do, but-" When I said but, oh my god, she looked crushed. "-but I love Jessi.
I'm sorry but we cant happen." Why the fuck did I say that so bluntly?
"Oh, ok. I understand, I guess." she sounded choked up, which made me want to cry myself. I hugged her, and she started crying. How lousy do I feel?
"I'll still be your friend." I said. I could feel her nodding. She stopped crying and pulled away. "Ok?" I said. "It'll have to be." I smiled sorry and walked back out the room. I must have looked upset, because Jessi asked me what was wrong. "Nothing." I smiled and she kissed me.

Things between Toni and me have started to get a bit better. I was trying my hardest to act normal. Jessi had gone out to visit her friend; everyone else was just out on the patio, talking and stuff. I went inside to get a beer, and when I walked back out Jessi was there. She was standing in front of Toni and everyone was looking at them with confused/shocked expressions on their faces. Uh oh, what's going on? Bam and a few others looked up at me for an answer, but Jessi didn't even realise I was there. "What the fuck were you doing with Raab?" I heard her say to Toni.
"Huh? When?" "London"
"Ehhhhhh"
Oh dear god. If Jessi starts on Toni she goes fucking mental. All of a sudden she pulled Toni up and kneed her in the stomach. No leave her alone! I ran over there, all the while Jessi was kicking and screaming at Toni on the floor. When Jessi finally stopped, Toni jumped up and punched Jessi in the jaw. Jessi grabbed Toni's hair when I finally reached them. She hadn't let go of her.
"Get off her!" I shouted.
She just looked at me but didn't let go.
"Get. Off. Her"
"You can shut up"
"Jessi, please just let go! Get off her now!" I shouted. She eventually let Toni go and I pulled her away. I led her inside to talk to her. "Why did you do that"
"Because you fucking cheated on me with her!" she was about to cry.
"We didn't kiss or anything- wait how do you know?" I wondered.
"My friend was in the same park as you, she was on holiday, and they were videoing and saw this couple on the grass, they realised it was you and told me." Oh crap.
"Oh, um. Yeah, well, we were hugging and stuff, but I swear on my life we didn't go further." I said. I didn't know what to say, that sounded so lame.
"But you forgot about me, right?" I just coughed and looked down.
"Oh my god, I can't believe you!" she shouted. This went on for god knows how long. I tried so hard to get her back, but...well nothing I said worked. That was it. It's over.

Toni's POV
I went up to my room and sulked. I didn't cry, I was just so angry. I didn't even know he had a girlfriend while we were in London. I hope he told her that! I eventually calmed down and just laid on my bed, listening to CKY. A couple of hours later someone knocked on the door. "What"
Raab peeked around the door. "Is it ok if I come in?" I nodded. He came and sat on the end of my bed. "Are you ok?" he asked.
"Well, my head fucking hurts, I got bruises all over me from where she was kicking me, so no"
"It's not your fault- oh wait, yes it is." Why did I just say that? I know it is his fault but he must be upset too. Actually, he does look pretty upset. He didn't say anything, just sighed. "Sorry Raab. What happened with you and Jessi?" "Well, she dumped me." He leant his head against the wall and closed his eyes.
"Oh that sucks, I'm sorry." I gave him a hug. "Thanks Tone. It's gonna take me a while to get over her, but when I do, I'll let you know"
My stomach flipped. What did he mean by that? Does he still like me?
"What if you get back with her?" I thought out loud. He let go of me.
"I doubt we will"
"If you had the chance, would you?" I asked. Raab shook his head and shrugged.
"I don't know. You know, I don't think you or her know how upset this whole thing is making me, you lot aren't the only ones with feelings." As soon as he said that he stormed out. I slammed my head back on the pillow and screamed in frustration.