A/N: I think this is like FMA blasphemy, but… it was one of those insomnia-induced 1am drabble ideas that decided to come to me in a vision. Oddly enough, I started crying right after I thought of it… But I figured I would just do it anyway. :sigh: Read and review… if you dare… O.o; Post-Episode-25…

39. Envy x Hughes – I Didn't Do It

I… I faltered. I couldn't do it. I didn't do it. I just didn't see the point.

Maes Hughes, was that his name? I don't remember. The entire night was such a blur. Conning people takes so much energy out of me. Personally, I don't give a damn what the guy's name was. It doesn't matter. Not anymore.

It wasn't really me that killed him. It was his wife, Gracia, isn't that right? Not me. Certainly not me. I, Envy, could not kill a man so charming and fine. No. Never.

Red is a funny color. It's very pretty – looks good on the FullMetal pipsqueak – but it also has a dark side. That metallic, ugly side that spurts up from the chest of the one you – no, not you - just killed. I'll bet it was a pain in the ass to wash out of his uniform.

Am I guilty for what I did? No. Because it wasn't me that did it! How many times do I have to tell you? I'm not even telling anybody; I'm telling myself. Sheesh. This is lame. I have to tell myself things. What am I, crazy?

No. I'm not crazy. Just in love. I'm in love with the same goddamn man I didn't murder!

Maybe I am crazy.

He's dead.

But I didn't kill him. That's not my damage burning a hole in his chest. That's not the body of the man I killed lying in that casket in that grave. That girl crying. I didn't kill her father. No, not me. Her mother killed him. Doesn't she see that? Doesn't she understand?

No. Nobody understands. I don't understand. Why did I kill him?

No. I told you. I didn't do it. I didn't kill him.

Killing the one I love is totally against my nature.

Not it isn't.

But I didn't do it.

Reviewer Responses!

Chris 'n' Blonde: Thanks for the review!

K. A. Maples: Hey, the suggestion of Scieszka x Fuery was just TOO KYOOT! n.n Thanks for the review!

writerauthorguy: Aw, thank you so much. And double thanks for suggesting the pairing. Well, sometimes I try to show off and write in different verb tenses, and I usually switch off and… it just isn't goodly. :-P Thanks for the review!

Wing Omega: You know what? I just realized. I've been spelling your name wrong for like… a long time. I'm so sorry about that! But anyway, wow, I guess there are more Scieszka fics than I thought… Then again, I don't regularly scour the FMA section here, so I probably miss out on a lot… Oh well. Thanks for the review!

MetalWing Alchemist: T.T Me sad AS bumped back FMA's new episodes… I was looking so forward to watching them in September – a welcome break from school, you know – and then it's pushed all the way into October. How depressing. T.T My September will be absolutely dismal now… :goes off on long, wangsty tangent:recovers: Anyway, yes, Scieszka x Fuery is ADORABLE! Maybe because I just really love Fuery… Almost as much as I love Roy, but not quite… ;) I um… hope you found this new pairing um… enjoyable? Awkward? Downright wrong? So wrong that I should be hung from my toenails and banished to the land of badfic authors? O.O … Thanks for the review!

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