Is it over?

Disclaimer: No, I sadly do not own Degrassi or any of the people in this fic. I do however own the plot and the ideas that are in this fic.

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It hurts so much to think about how it ended, the way we had to finish wasn't the best, but I couldn't change it. As we pass each other in the hall way I know to ignore him, to pretend he doesn't exist even though my heart aches for his simple touch. I turn and continue chatting as I feel his eyes burn into my back, 'Don't turn around.' I told myself over and over before I felt his gaze lift itself from me to another. I sighed, it was so hard to pretend, although I didn't think he had as much of a problem as I did. He walked down the hall and ran into Ashley. She beamed at him, know that if she tried hard enough she could win him back, she knew she could do it. When we went out she was so jealous, she couldn't stand it so she started rumors, lies, anything that would keep us apart.

I watched the walls around me crumble

After a while it worked...we couldn't stand the rumors...they got so bad that it left me crying everyday. I didn't know what to believe anymore, so I ended it for the best. I knew he didn't want it to happen...the look in his eyes gave it all away. I loved him more than I could ever love anybody...to sit there and tell him that I didn't crushed us both. I didn't want him to cry, it was bad enough that I was already on the brink of an ocean, but as soon as the first tear slid down his cheek I couldn't hold it in anymore. I remember crying even when I knew there were no tears left and running...just running as far away as I could hoping that he wouldn't follow...hoping that things could go back to normal and they did just that.

But its not like I won't build em up again

She turned to him and he smirked...that famous smirk that he use to flash to me before any of this started. The good old days before we got together, long before I got pregnant again.

They exchanged several words, hugged and waved goodbye as she collapsed in front of her locker, I could tell she was ecstatic about what he had said. No matter what happened between them I knew it meant nothing compared to what we had. It was a well kept secret for a while, but like all good secrets, it was exposed.

Ashley stood up and ran to Ellie, her little pet, and told her the news. She never really cared about what Ashley did or thought, but this time she had something to say. From where I was it seemed like she was yelling at her. I began to giggle even though no one was around. Just seeing Ellie freak out over something like Ashley and Craig just seemed so hilarious to me for some reason. She must be yelling about whatever is going on between them, oh well...I shouldn't care...should I?

Ashley left Ellie mid conversation and walked passed me, she sent me a cold glare and then a huge smile. She thinks that she won, well I'll show her. She doesn't realize that I could have Craig back if I wanted, it wouldn't be hard at all. He was one inch from my grasp, somewhere in her thick skull she thinks he rejected me...little does she know. If she knew the real story she would be crushed to know that he could be lifted from her so quickly.

Lately I've wondered if I should give it another chance...maybe try and make things work between me and Craig. Before I could make my decision my feet were already walking toward his locker. I couldn't stop myself, but I knew I might be making the biggest mistake of my life.

I approached his locker and smiled.

"Hey Craig, what's up?"

He turned to me very surprised to see that it was me...ME talking to him.

"H-hey Manny, long time no see. What's been going on?" He flashed his brilliant smile that made my heart skip a beat, I was always putty in his hands.

"Not to much...haven't seen you really since last year and a little bit of summer. So...you and Ash...you guys back together? Cuz I saw you talking to her and-"

"Me...back with Ash? Manny I thought you knew me better than that, you know I only have eyes for one person and if I can't have her then I'm fine alone. I don't want anything, but friendship with Ash, I'm in love with someone else...not her."

I sighed, I knew exactly who he was talking about...over summer he came to my house and declared his love...he sang me a beautiful song outside my house at 2 in the morning. It was the most romantic thing ever, it hurt so much to tell him to leave.

"Oh Craig..I wish things were so easy...I wish people wouldn't get into our lives."

So here's your last chance for redemption

"Manny, I want to make this work please...just give me one more chance...please?"

I looked into his eyes and I knew I couldn't say no...I am in love with Craig and nothing will ever change it, but...I don't want what happened last time.

So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end

"Craig...I want this to work too, but I don't want a repeat of last year. I'm a junior now and I'm a lot older and wiser then I was last year. I now know how people work. I want this to be the best relationship without the interferences of others okay."

"So does that mean you'll go back out with me?"

I put my hand under my chin and pondered, "HmmmMMMmmm what do you think?"

He smiled brightly and gave me a gigantic hug, "Manny, I promise you this will work and nothing...I mean NOTHING...will stop this from working...not Ash...not anyone."

I smiled and walked over to my locker before I realized what I had just gotten myself into...another year of tears...another year of rumors and lies. Just the thought had me on the brink of tears, I didn't want to hurt anymore...I just wanted to be with Craig and nothing else.

And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I pushed back my tears and walked into class. Ashley could tell that I looked upset and just wanted to rub it in my face.

"Manny...promise not to get mad if I'm running in on your territory?"

"What do you mean?"

"Craig...I'm sure you've already left him with a mark to see he's yours. I just hope you won't get mad if I have him this year."

I smirked, "Yea Ash...don't worry I won't get mad. Why are you guys going out now or something?" Even though I know they weren't.

"Well...no...not yet...but I am meeting him at the theater tomorrow. We're going to see Boogeyman. A nice horror movie that I can cling to him and watch."

"Oh that's great! I hope you guys have a lot of fun."

She eyed me strange, she couldn't understand why I wasn't getting upset.

"I will!"

"Okay students lets look at our monitors now and stop the talking!" Mr. Simpson said.

We all turned to our computers and started typing. Minutes went by and Ashley kept on sending me glares as I tried to focus on my work. Why did she always try to bother me? Suddenly a window popped up on my computer. I made sure Mr. Simpson wasn't near my computer while I opened the note.

Hey Manny, what's up? Why didn't you explode on Ash-Em.

I rolled my eyes, typical Emma...always wanting to know why I do what I do. Will she ever realize that I am who I am and I'm secretive and of course I won't tell her everything, but maybe just this once I'll tell her.

Em...Ash doesn't have anything...especially Craig. He's mine again and I'm so happy...I think. -Manny

I heard frantic typing and knew it was her freaking out, no sooner did I get another message.

Omg! U serious? U guys R back? Wow...and Ash doesn't know? Are you gunna tell her-
Em.

Em, of course I'm not! I'll let Craig do that. I can't wait 2 see the look on her face though...priceless. -Manny.

After I sent her the last message the bell rang. I walked into the crowded hallway and walked past Craig, he turned around and pushed me into the door of an empty classroom.

"Craig...what the hell are you doing!" I yelled.

He smiled as he approached me, "Well, since we are back together I thought we would get back into our own routine."

Quickly he began to kiss me hungrily as if without my kiss he was nothing.


I cant live without you

I kissed him back, wanting them just as bad as he did. No matter what we were always together, even in our minds.

As he began to kiss down my neck I felt the breath being taken from my body, he always knew how to render me breathless.
Can't breathe without you I'm dreamin' bout you honestly

I wrapped my arms around him and began to think about everything. Back when we weren't together and began to sneak around. When all that was over nothing was the same, I missed it, but now that I have it back it seems strange...as if something was missing.

Tell me that its over
Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living

Suddenly the door knob began to jiggle and Spinner opened the door. Quickly we jumped and looked at him...he was laughing hysterically as he closed the door.

I looked at Craig and we both broke out into loud laughter.

It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

Craig gave me one more kiss before he walked out of the room and I heard the bell ring. I found what was missing.

And I'll be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know

As I walked through the hall, clearly several minutes late to class I smiled as I walked into the room. Mrs. Hatsilakos gave me an evil glare as I just sat down and opened my book.

Ashley looked over to me and whispered something to Ellie as Craig burst into the room.

"SO sorry I'm late Mrs. H. I didn't mean it!"

Everyone began to giggle as she pointed to his desk for him to sit. I watched him as he moved over to his desk and looked my way. I smiled before turning to my book.

I wont be the one to chase you

I watched Ashley pass Craig a small note with a heart on it and smile as he read it. She wanted him back soooo bad, but I knew the truth.

When class was over I walked to my locker and started to take out my books. I watched Craig as he began to approach me, but was stopped by Ashley. I could hear them from where I was so I secretly eavesdropped on their conversation.

"Hey Craig...can we talk?"

He fidgeted, "Um, I guess so."

She took a deep breath, "Look Craig. I've made so many mistakes with us and I was so afraid to give anything up to you because who knew how you would take it? I was afraid to talk to you about some things because of the way you acted. I love you...I always have, but I'm so scared. I wanna try again...what do you say?"

There was a period of silence before he spoke, " Um...well I'm kind of not sure if I'm ready for that right now."

"Well will you think about it?" She looked at him with hopeful eyes.

"I...guess."

She squealed for joy as she gave him a giant hug.

But at the same time you're the heart that I call home

I'm always stuck with these emotions

The pencil that I was previously holding snapped in my hand. I couldn't help, but get jealous even though I knew Craig was mine. It was a problem I had, I loved him so much that even when I had him I was jealous of other people.

And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole

Ashley skipped off with Ellie while Craig came over to my locker.

"Hey," he said while planting a kiss on my cheek.

I didn't say anything...I just kept taking the books out of my locker.

My tears are turning into time

"Manny, what's wrong?"

I still stood silent while trying to fight back tears. I knew Craig was mine, but I was always jealous.

He tilted my chin up to face him while a single tear trailed down my cheek.

He wiped the tear, "Manny, come on you know you can talk to me...what's wrong?"

I turned away, "Craig...I...just don't know okay. I'm so confused right now," my voice began to crack, "I just need some time."

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I closed my locker and began to walk down the hall. I heard his footstep begin to follow me and I knew I couldn't get away.

I turned around biting my lip so the tears would stay back, "Craig...please...I love you I just...need a little space right now.

I cant live without you

"Manny...I-" before he could finish his sentence I walked away. I knew he wanted to follow, but it wouldn't be right.

"I'll call you later!" he yelled from the distance as I just kept walking.

Can't breathe without you I'm dreamin' bout you honestly

As I turned the corner I collapsed against the wall and cried, I just let the tears fall.

Tell me that its over

I loved Craig so much, but right now I couldn't take it...all over again with Ashley...always questioning where he was...if she'd be there...I hated it, but ever since we first hooked up I couldn't trust him...my trust was gone.

Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living

Craig's POV:

'Manny...how I wish you could understand how much I truly do love you. It's so hard to start over with someone when you know the trust is gone. There may be a small spark still left between me and Ash, but nothing enough to rekindle our old flame.'

It wont be right if were not in it together

'Forever,' I knew I'd love her that long, I walked down the hall and heard footsteps behind me.

"Craig, hey Craig wait!" It was Ashley.

"Craig I saw the whole thing with Manny, I'm sorry. I just caught up with her and she told me that it's over. She can't take everything and she knows you still want me, I'm sorry."

Tell me that it's over

I stood there silent, "...what?" I could feel my throat clench, "It's...over?"

And I'll be the first to go (yea I'll be the first to go)

She took a deep breath, " Yes I'm sorry Craig. She doesn't want to be with you anymore, she couldn't take it. She told me that we'd be happier together and all she wants is your happiness."

Don't want to be the last to know

"No...I...I need to find her now. Where did she go? MANNY! looked down the hall MANNY!" I yelled until my lungs burned, my knees buckled and I fell to the floor.

Over, over, over (over)

The words kept on repeating in my mind...over...it was over. I walked away from Ashley as tears began to fall.

My tears are turning into time

I had to get home...I had to call her, I needed to hear it from her mouth...from her.

I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I quickly walked to my house before I was stopped by Ashley.

"Craig can't we talk about this? About us?"

I just kept walking, "Not right now Ashley. I need to talk to Manny right now."

She ran up to me and reached for my shoulder, "Craig please...give me five minutes."

I cant live without you

I stopped to let her speak. She walked up to me as I sat on the curb, "Craig...I'm still in love with you. More than you could ever imagine even. It's crazy, but I just want things to work between us."

Can't breathe without you I'm dreamin' bout you honestly

I looked her in the eye, "Ashley, you need to understand that I'm in love with Manny. There was a time where I did love you, but my feelings for her just took over me. There is no more us. I'm sorry."

Tell me that its over

I watched the tears form in her eyes as I wiped one away, "Ashley please try to understand, I still want to be friends with you, but nothing more. I...I just love Manny."

Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living

It wont be right if were not in it together

She placed her head in her palms and as usual I began to feel bad so I embraced her. She took it as an advance and placed her lips on mine. I knew it wasn't right and I didn't want her, but for some reason I couldn't pull away.

It was that exact moment that Manny happened to walk by.

"C-Craig! Oh...my...god. I...I thought this was going to be different!" She quickly ran off as I let go of Ashley.

Tell me that it's over (over)

I ran after her as Ashley sat on the curb smirking, 'Teach you to try and take him away from me again.'

"Manny! Come on Manny wait up!"

Honestly tell me

Honestly tell me

She turned around as I stopped right in front of her, "Craig...What do you want? Me...Ash...my love...hers? I can't take this anymore."

don't tell me that it's over

"M-Manny...don't-"

I looked straight into her tear filled eyes as she said those two words that shattered my world.

"Craig...it's over."

don't tell me that it's over

Then she left...left me standing there as she disappeared into the distance. I knew I had lost her, but could I get her back? Maybe...maybe not...all I know is that those two words repeated over and over in my mind.

-It's over-

A/N: So how was it? What did you think? It's not really that long I guess...could be longer. Well, I have a couple more stories in the making, but what I really wanna know is if I should continue this or just leave it as a one-shot. It's up to you...but if you wouldn't mind...do you think you could go click on that nice little button that says review for me plz? I'd love you forever!

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