MutantXHottie, Mizzle fo' Rizzle, and Adalyn, thank you so much for the reviews! It's great to be back, and I'm so honored to know that you guys remember me! A lot has happened since I've been gone, but I got the itching to write again, and I'm working on another fic that I'll be posting the first chapter to soon. Please read and review!
Danielle pulled into the familiar parking lot of the apartment building they once shared and started to get teary again. God she loved with him with every ounce of everything she ever was. He always supported her with whatever decision she made, and she returned the favor. Then she started to think back to the night she called to tell him what the doctor had told her and that was when her biggest fears came true.
By the time Randy went over to her car to walk with her inside, she was crying. He reached through her open window and squeezed her shoulder, "Come on princess, lets go inside."
She nodded and got out of the car. They walked inside and Randy unlocked the door. As they walked in, she pulled the cell phone out her purse and set it on the table. She could see that he had looked through the envelope she had left him.
"I'm going to get us something to drink, why don't you find a place in the living room?" Randy said heading towards the fridge.
Danielle nodded and went and sat down on the couch. She felt nostalgic, she felt vulnerable, and she was feeling a little nauseous. She pulled out the Goldfish crackers and began to munch on those again.
Randy came out with a beer for him and a mixed drink for Danielle. "I made you your favorite."
Danielle looked at it, "I would love to, but I think I should stick with a soda instead. I have to drive home yet."
Randy felt his heart sink, she didn't even call the apartment home anymore. He really blew it this time. He nodded slowly, "Sorry, I didn't think about that." And he got up and grabbed her a soda.
Before she could say anything, Randy reached over and grabbed her hand, "Danielle, I love you. I know that you don't believe me right now, but I do, I love you more than life. You mean the world to me. I know I haven't been very truthful with you, and I know that that is not fair to you. You don't deserve that. I don't want to hide anything, because we've never had secrets. I'm going to tell you everything that happened, ok?
Danielle nodded with tears already flowing down her cheeks, she put another Goldfish cracker in her mouth. She was doing everything she could to brace herself for what she was about to hear.
Randy took a deep breath, "Yes I was unfaithful. At first I was just going with the guys out to the bars, I'd dance with the girls, but nothing else. Every now and then I'd buy a round of drinks, but that's it. Then one night I had a rough night in the ring, and I let a few too many drinks go to my head, and I found myself saying yes instead of no."
"Was that the night I called?" Danielle asked cautiously. She held her breath scared of the answer.
Randy shook his head and started crying. "No, no it wasn't. I let a girl give me a blow job that night. I let the character go to my head and I started to listen to the guys when they said that oral sex wasn't really cheating. I'll be honest, it wasn't the only time. I had never actually had intercourse with another woman until the night you called. That was when Ric was throwing a hot tub party, and we had all been drinking and messing around, playing games and whatever. But, I let temptation take me too far, and I…I didn't say no. God Dani, I'm so sorry. Looking back, I was so wrong, I was such an asshole, but please forgive me. I swear on everything, it will never, never happen again. If you only knew how horrible I feel now that I've realized what I've done."
Danielle felt sick, she was going to throw up. All she could picture was Randy in the middle of some massive orgy. She ran to the bathroom and promptly threw up all of the goldfish she had eaten.
Randy followed her. He gathered the strands of hair that were too short to make it into the bun but were long enough to get in the way. He could hear her sobbing. He held her, "God Dani I'm so sorry." He cried. "I'm sorry I was so selfish, I'm sorry I was an asshole. I've been so worried about partying and hanging out with the guys I've ignored you, and then I did the worse thing ever, and it's going to cost me the best thing in my life."
Dani looked up at him, "You think I'm the best thing in your life?"
"What else would be?" He asked wiping his eyes.
"You're career." She replied. He had pretty much focused only on his career lately, and had barely acknowledged her. "I guess I just figured that your career was your top priority lately."
Randy hung his head, "Dani, I know that I've been such a jerk lately, I don't know why you would even consider this, but please, please hear me out." He kneeled down by her and gently took her head in his hands and had her look in his eyes, "Baby I love you. I love you more than anything. We've been together 14 years, I don't want to throw that away. I know I've been so blind I couldn't see that until it was too late. Please give me a second chance. I promise to make you the happiest woman alive. I can't stand knowing that I've hurt you so deeply."
Dani started crying even harder. "Can you give me a minute?"
Randy nodded and walked out of the bathroom. Once the door was shut all the way, Randy broke down again. He hated knowing that he was the cause of her pain.
Dani washed her face and brushed her teeth. She opened the door slowly and found Randy standing by the window crying. "Ok Randy, now it's your turn to hear me out."
Randy turned around and Dani took a deep breath.
"Ok, hear me out. I love you Randy, I love you more than anything I've ever known. 14 years is a long time, but I'm not the one who chose to go to bed with another woman. God Randy, I love you but I'm hurting. What did I do? Or what didn't I do? Those are the questions that keep me awake at night."
Randy couldn't help but be shocked. He felt horrible for what he had done. "Dani wait, it was nothing that you did."
Dani held her hand up, "Randy please, let me finish."
Randy shut up quickly. Dani was always the type who could stand on her own two feet, but she usually wasn't assertive with him.
"I want to see us work. I do, we've been together for 14 years, I want to see us go the distance. I love you. But, I'm not going to rush into this. I want us to take it slow. I want us to rebuild our trust. I want a man who'll stand beside me. Be true, don't tell lies to me. Hold me, support me, and I'll give you everything I have in my heart. " Dani said.
"So basically you want us to go back to dating." Randy replied.
"Kind of, I mean…I know we were only dating." Dani started to say when Randy interrupted her.
"Baby we were way more than only dating."
"Hon, there weren't any rings involved. So what else do I call it?" Dani asked.
Randy sat down with a sheepish look, she had a point. He had never made the move to solidify the relationship to more than just dating. "Will you please move back home?"
Dani sighed, she knew that she hadn't told her family about what happened yet, so they would be suspicious if she didn't. And something was telling her that he wouldn't screw up again, but she wanted him to have to work on regaining her trust. "On one condition."
"Anything, anything at all." Randy said going to her side.
"Can we go back to being us again? I want you to know that you'll have to rebuild my trust with you, but I don't want this to be weird. I just want us to be us. That's the only way we'll know if we'll work this out." Dani asked tearfully.
Randy pulled her into his arms, "God baby I love you. Yes, yes we'll go back to being us again. We'll move you back in here tonight." Randy started to ramble when Dani stopped him. "I have the whole week off, I want us to work on us and only us."
Dani smiled, "I would really like that, but before we do all that, I need to talk you about something very serious first." Dani said slowly.
"What's going on? Randy asked with a little concern.
"Remember I was calling you for a reason? Well, I could really use you." Dani said making him sit down and sitting on his lap.
"I'm here for you, what's up?" Randy said.
"I don't know how well you'll like what I have to tell you, so you might not even want me to move back in here." Dani started to say.
"Don't talk like that, what's up?" Randy replied playfully slapping her hand.
"Well, I went in for my annual physical, and they found a few things." Dani said leaning into him. "I had some abnormal test results."
Randy swallowed hard, "Like what?" And he held her hand tighter.
"Well, first off, I'm 6 weeks pregnant." Dani said softly.
"I'm sorry, what did you say? I could have sworn you just said that you're pregnant." Randy repeated.
"I did." Dani said with tears welling up in her eyes. "I know that you didn't want kids until you were older, and I didn't want kids until I was older, or at least married, but we conceived over our anniversary celebration."
"I don't get it, how did it happen? You were on birth control right?" Randy asked.
"Yeah I was, but obviously it didn't work, so here we are. But you didn't let me finish." Dani said sharply. "I have a lump in my breast."
Randy stopped quickly, "a lump?"
Dani nodded, "Yeah, it's a painful, tender lump. I'm scheduled for a biopsy on Wednesday."
"What do they think it is?" Randy asked nervously.
"Well, it's too early to tell, but they're nervous because mom died from breast cancer at a young age." Dani replied.
Randy nodded, he was there for her through the whole thing. "Can we go back to the baby thing? What happens if…" Randy couldn't bring himself to say it.
"If I have cancer? I don't know. The doctor said we'd talk about that on Wednesday. But I need to know how you feel about the "baby thing" because it's a big deal. I need to know if you are going to be in on this or not." Dani said seriously.
"Dani I love you. We talked about having kids, and granted both of us wanted to wait, this child was created and here it is. And here am I. I'm not walking away from you and our baby." Randy said sincerely. But inside he was freaking out. He wasn't ready to be a father yet. He felt he was too young and he hated to admit it, but he felt like he was too naïve to be a dad.
Danielle held him, "I know we weren't ready for this, but I know you'll be a great daddy. Look at how great you are with kids. We have 8 months to get used to the idea."
"Have you told anyone about us or about the baby yet?" Randy asked.
Dani shook her head, "No I couldn't bring myself to. I was staying with a friend of mine from college."
"Why didn't you keep the money I've been sending home?" Randy asked curiously.
"Because in the beginning I was putting it aside into a special savings account for a down payment on a house. But when I started suspecting you were having an affair, the thought of you sending me money made me feel weird so then I definitely put it into the savings." Dani replied. "Besides, I'm working, why should I?"
"I was just curious, that's all." Randy answered. He held her close and slid his hand under her shirt to rub her tummy. "So inside that skinny little body is a little baby huh?"
Dani nodded, "Yup, there sure is."
"Want to order a pizza and veg out on the couch?" Randy asked.
"Yeah I'd like that." Dani replied taking ahold of his hand.
"I'll order the pizza, you find a movie." Randy said kissing her hand and heading into the kitchen.
Dani put her head in her hands. All she could think was how badly she hoped that he wouldn't screw up again because she loved him so much and now it wouldn't just affect her.
Sorry it's so long, please let me know what you think! In the next chapter, Randy comes up with an idea on how he can win back Dani's trust, but it would completely change her life. Will she be willing to change everything just for him? Let me know how you feel!