To Love Again

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It had been about two weeks since he had seen her, but she was on his mind constantly, which made it extremely difficult to cope with. Looking around and outside he wondered how her new job was going. Emily was watching Justin for her. He wanted to tell her he would take care of Justin, but he knew it wasn't the right thing to do and it would have put added strain between them and that was the last thing he wanted right now. It was difficult enough without being able to see her, but to see her everyday and not be able to touch her or kiss her would be worse and more than anything he wanted to honor his promise to her and be "just friends" for right now. Even if that meant giving her some space to figure out on her own that no matter how many hours she worked, she wasn't going to come out ahead in the end with the cost of living expenses alone coupled with childcare.

"I think we should do something nice for Sam dad."

"Yeah, what would you like to do?" He asked surprised that he would want to do something for her.

"I think we should stock her refrigerator and cabinets and surprise her dad, when we were there last time; she hardly had anything in them."

"How do you know that?"

"Because when the two of you were out on the patio I went to get something to drink and it was almost empty."

"And you are just now telling me this?" He asked him shaking his head. "Go get ready so we can go." The last thing she needed to worry about was being able to eat and feeding Justin

"Okay dad I am ready to go. And dad I am sorry I didn't say anything earlier than this, it just didn't occur to me."

"You're forgiven, let's go."

An hour later they were standing in the checkout line, it was about 3:30 and Samantha would be getting off of work in about an hour or so. Getting all the groceries into the car he told Michael there was one more place to stop on the way for her, as the pulled to the side of the road, to a little flower stand and he bought her a huge bouquet of roses and wildflowers in a vase for her.

"I think you are trying to hard dad."

"I just want her to know that she is appreciated."

"Who are you trying to kid?"

"Michael, Sam is…." He said looking at him knowing he wouldn't understand it.

"What? Sam is hot dad but not only that she has a good heart and most of all she has those perfect wife and mother qualities." He said to him

"How would you know?"

"Because I see it dad just like you. And I know you want more than friendship, but you need to take it easy… We don't want this one to get away, at least I don't. I love Justin dad, he is a kick and I can tell you love him to."

"What am I doing having this conversation with you? I should be having it with Emily or…"

"Or who? You obviously can't have it with Sam and I am the only other one in your life that knows you well enough."

"Yeah, but you're ten Michael."

"With an incredible amount of insight, a chip off the old block." He said winking at Jason as they pulled up alongside of Sam's apartment and walked through the gate of her place and walked up to the door and saw a three day notice attached to it, Jason pulled it off and looked at it, then folding it he put it in his back pocket. She wasn't going to lose her home if he had anything to do with it and it was almost as if it was destiny for them to be here to see that. Knocking on the door Emily opened it and was surprised to see him and Michael on the other side of it.

"Hey you two what are you doing here?"

"We have some things for Sam."

"Yeah, we went grocery shopping for her so that she would have something to eat tonight when she got home." Michael said as Emily looked at Jason knowing he wasn't going to like what she had to tell him.

"What's the matter?"

"Sam isn't going to be home tonight for dinner. She has a date."

"With who?"

"You're not going to like it."

"Just tell me."

"Lorenzo."

"He is to old for her, what is she thinking?" He said as he walked out the door to get her stuff with Michael he slammed it behind him as Emily watched him. He was in love with her, she could see it, and she would bet anything that Sam had feeling for him too, maybe not love, but definitely feelings and that is probably why she went out with Lorenzo instead, because he was a safe bet.

As he walked through the door with the huge bouquet of flowers he set them down and put her groceries away she watched him, he was upset and removed and she felt bad for him but she didn't know what to say to him, other than to calm down and relax and that wasn't going to happen. He wanted her so badly and his feelings were shot to hell in the course of aboutthree minutes. Setting her flowers down on the counter for her, he grabbed up Michael and said goodbye to Emily.

"Jason calm down."

"Why?"

"Because if you love her and I know you do, I can see it, you will let her be. Don't get mad at her, it might not be anything Jason. If you ask me, I would be willing to bet that Sam has feelings for you too. They might not be love Jason like yours for her, but give her some breathing room, she isn't going anywhere. And besides you are all she talks about."

"I am?"

"Yeah, I wouldn't be at all surprised if she is talking Lorenzo's ear off right now."

"Are you ready to go?"

"You know what? I am going to have to take a rain check on that. My little boy isn't feeling well."

"Okay well another time then." Lorenzo said disappointed, but hoping it would be soon.

"Okay, I have to go. See you tomorrow."

"Okay, bye." He said watching her go absolutely fascinated with her.

About 15 minutes later she pulled up and noticed Jason's car parked in front of her place and she smiled to herself, she missed him and she hoped like hell that Emily hadn't told him about her date tonight, she couldn't go and he was the reason why. Pulling her keys out she went to unlock the door when he opened it from the other side as she looked up into his eyes and he had to keep himself in check, the way she looked said it all, her feelings for him were there.

"What are you doing here?"

"Um. Well."

"Cat got your tongue again?" She said to him with a smile on her face and he couldn't look away she was so damn sexy.

"I thought you were going out."

"I couldn't." She looked at him.

"Why?"

"Because of you Jason, I've missed you." She said looking at him then walking past him he looked at her and smiled she missed him, he was on cloud nine. "Where did those come from? They're beautiful." She said walking over to them and bending over she smelled them.

"I got them for you, I wanted you to know you're appreciated." He said to her as Emily looked at him and her. "Nothing more just that." He said.

"Thanks, it's been a while since I have felt appreciated….." She said softly. "Excuse me." She said walking out of the kitchen past him and Emily and to the bathroom shutting the door behind her the both of them could hear her crying.

"Michael come on let's go." He said gesturing to him as he got up to leave Justin started to cry to. "I'll be back, I promise okay?" Michael said as he hugged him then got up and walked out the door with Jason as Emily sat down and waited for her to come out, she did about 10 minutes later.

"I scared him away again didn't I?"

"No you didn't."

"Why does he have to be so………………………wonderful?" She said. "He isn't making it any easier on me, not only is he drop dead gorgeous, but his heart is so good, and gd those arms you just want to crawl into and stay forever."

"You have feelings for him don't you? And you're conflicted in your heart."

"Yes." She whispered.

"Jason is a good man Sam, I know he is my brother, but I haven't seen him like this before. He definitely wants to do well by you and I know this about Jason he will wait for you, it might kill him in the meantime but you are more important to him then life itself, I can see it."

"I love the way he looks at me Emily, like I am the only woman in the world for him."

"That's because you are…. Jason is falling in love with you Sam, but you don't need me to tell you that."

"You don't, it's just that I am not ready for that yet. And I feel so damn bad all the time for all the good things he does for me, like these flowers, for instance."

"That's not all Sam, go look in your kitchen, go look in your cabinets, in your refrigerator." She said to her as Sam walked in and opened them up, they were stock full.

"Why does he do this? I can never repay him Emily."

"He doesn't want to be repaid Sam; he wants to make sure that you have food and a roof over your head."