To Love Again

Page 5

Sam turned over in bed she couldn't sleep she kept having thoughts of her and Jason being more than friends. It had been so long since she had any physical contact with a man and all she could think about was him making love to her, and not a quickie, she wanted to make love to him all night and the next day and never let him out of her bed. Glancing at the clock it was about 2 am, she was lonely and wanted to talk, and picking up the phone she hoped he was still awake.

Jason was just getting into bed when his phone started to ring picking it up he hoped it was her, he had done nothing but think of her since he had gotten home. With Michael sound asleep he picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Jason?"

"Sam." He whispered "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm sorry for calling so late, I am just lonely and wanted to hear your voice." There she said it; she wanted to talk to him and only him.

"I'm sorry Sam for upsetting you, it wasn't my intention."

"I know Jason. I am not being a very good friend am I? You probably are ready to throw in the towel and say the hell with it all."

"Sam I wouldn't do that ever."

"Why the hell not?"

"Because I am your friend first and foremost and I want you and Justin to be happy and taken care of."

"Thank you for the flowers, you have no idea how much I need to feel appreciated, and for the groceries and…"

"Sam."

"Say it again Jason."

"What?"

"My name."

"Sam." He said in his whispery low voice as she closed her eyes

"I love it when you say my name." She said to him and he smiled to himself knowing he was making her happy, that was all that mattered to him.

"Okay, Sam I need to say something to you before you go, and I don't think you are going to like it very much."

"What?"

"You don't have to worry about the roof over your head."

"Jason please tell me you didn't." she said as tears flowed out of her eyes. "

I can never pay you back Jason."

"I am not asking for that Sam, I just need to know you are going to be okay, that you and Justin are going to be taken care of in the way you deserve to be, that's what friends are for, and I would do just about anything in this world for you."

"Jason... I don't need your pity."

"Its not Sam, It doesn't have anything to do with that and I think you know it."

"I don't know what to say." She said softly into the phone.

"You don't have to say anything Sam, just be happy."

But happiness was the furthest thing from Sam's mind as she sat here and talked to him. She was broken still from a past that held so many memories, none of which she could let go of. And having Jason near her taking care of her in this way was to say the least very confusing. As much as she wanted to keep those memories alive on the one hand, on the other she was beginning to crave Jason in every way possible.