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Ok now it is time for chapter 12!!!!

****Chapter 12****

Suze

Oh my god. I can't believe I just did that. I was this close...THIS close! Jesse told me that he loved me and I had to go ruin the moment by fainting. Yes, I fainted I did not black out. And do you want to know why I fainted? It wasn't because of hitting my head so many freaking times. Oh no, it was because Jesse actually told me that he loved me. God! I couldn't even get those three words out before I go and faint.

My eyes were still closed but I could hear Jesse yelling, "Susannah! Susannah can you hear me? Nombre de Dios I have to get her some help! But how? Think Jesse think...oh yes, David can help. He can see me now. NO! It has been more than two hours, so his "spell" is over..."

All I wanted was quiet so I could rest for a bit, but I couldn't do that with all of Jesse's yelling. I forced myself to open my eyes and I grabbed Jesse's arm. I hissed, "Jesse would you shut up? I am fine!"

I tried pushing myself up with my arms, but before I could get all the way up Jesse had scooped me up into his arms. "Oh Querida! You are okay! Don't do that to me!" He moved me to my bed and set me gently on it.

I was thinking to myself 'Oh...I could so get used to Jesse treating me like this. And isn't this a nice position he put us in. All I have to do is reach up and kiss him...' Which is what I did. I know I normally wouldn't have done something like this, but like I said before I think I knocked some screws loose when I hit my head. Jesse is normally the one kissing me, and it isn't me who kisses him. He seemed a bit surprised by my actions, but he recovered quickly. Let me just say that Jesse got into the kisses...a lot. So here we were laying on my bed having a make out session, and I choose this to be my time to tell him how I feel.

"Jesse..." I said pulling back so I could look him in the eye. "Jesse I love more than I have ever loved anyone. Well, really you are the only person I have truly loved." He looked at me even more shocked.

"But Querida...what about all of the other guys you have gone out with? Tad and Paul and..." I know it sounds like he isn't happy or something but I think he was just surprised I have never loved a guy before.

I quickly decided to tell him about the whole psychic thing. "Well, you see Jesse I was once told by a fortune teller that I was going to have only one true love. I know I know...those people are normally fake but I know she wasn't!" He looked at me questionably so I continued. "I know that she wasn't fake because she knew I was a mediator. She knew about that so she must know about my love life too."

Jesse sat up and looked at me. For reasons unknown to me he had what looked like pain in his eyes. "Susannah...I can not let you waste your love on me. As much as I love you too...I just don't want you to get hurt."

What is he saying? If he doesn't want me to get hurt he would just shut up and kiss me! I could feel the tears coming and there was nothing I could do about it. For once I don't care if he sees me cry. I want him to feel guilty. I wiped a tear from my cheek and said, "Hurt? How could you hurt me?"

My tears seemed to work because Jesse gathered me in his arms and whispered, "I could never hurt you, Querida." He then kissed me on my head...yeah I know not as good as the lips but I am not going to be picky with Jesse's love. I finally get him to say it and I'll be damned if he runs off and leaves me for a week like he did last time he kissed me. I might just have to kick some Jesse butt if he does that. "But Susannah...how can you love a ghost?"

I looked at him...I mean really studied him. He looked like he was about to cry himself. He looked kind of pathetic to tell the truth, but he looks hot pathetic. Ok, I am even more pathetic then he is. "Jesse...I wish...I wish you were alive!" And with that I lost all control and burst out sobbing. I am sorry to say that I was the one who ran away this time. I jumped off my bed and was out of my room like a bullet. Seriously.

I didn't even notice where I was going until I bumped into someone out on the sidewalk. "Oops! I'm sorry I didn't see-" The guy talking looked up and said, "Suze? Why are you crying? Why aren't you in bed resting?"

I just let out another big sob and said, "Oh Paul!" and threw my arms around him. He held me tight and didn't say anything. He just let me sob on his shoulder...like a good friend.

He led me to the closest bench and we sat down. He looked at me and handed me the same handkerchief that he let me use when I was crying about Jesse moving out. I took one look at the handkerchief and started crying even harder, if that was possible. Jesse. Jesse always gave me his handkerchief to use.

"Whoa!" He said. "I didn't know you didn't like hankies so much. Sorry I will remember to carry tissues for you in the future..." He was still looking at me but didn't press me to tell him what was wrong.

"No...no its not your, uh, hankie," I almost laughed at the word 'hankie', but I was crying too hard to laugh. "It is Jesse..."

Paul didn't let me continue. He looked very angry and said, "Oh JESSE. I should have known it was he. What did he do now, that asshole!" Yeah so apparently Paul is still plenty pissed at Jesse. Which is sort of understandable seeing that he did almost kill Paul today.

"No...its nothing like that. He told me that he loves me..." I said looking at Paul and crying at the same time.

Paul looked even more confused at this. "Um isn't that what you have wanted him to say for the past year and a half? And I told you that I loved you today and I don't think you cried your eyes out because of me."

"No, I am not crying because he told me that he loves me...that part made me happy. It's the fact that he has to be dead, and like you have told me so many times what am I suppose to do with a ghost of a boyfriend? I mean I love him to death...er sorry...but my life would be so much easier if he was alive." I dropped my face into my hand and cried some more. Talk about embarrassing! Paul just sat there petting my back with his hand. It wasn't awkward though. It was like he really wanted to help me, but he then suddenly stopped.

"Uh...Suze" He said sounding nervous. "I hate to do this, but, uh I got to go...now." I looked up and saw why Paul started acting all weird. Jesse was walking towards us...well me. He didn't seem to see Paul. Like he was only focusing on me so everything else was just...not there.

"Ok I will talk to you later Paul..." I said still crying even though my tears were almost all gone.

"Yeah...bye." He then slowly backed up from Jesse and walked away.

I looked at Jesse and felt the tears rushing to come out again. I had to cover my face with my hands again. I hate crying, really I do, but it seems since I came to good old California all I have done is cried. I am getting pretty sick of it, and I think my family is too.

"Susannah...you see this is what I was talking about! You already are in pain because of me...I can't handle causing you all this pain." I looked up at him and saw that he too was crying. Jesse...was crying because of me. All I wanted to do was throw my arms around him. I looked around the street to make sure no one was around. I mean, how weird would it look for me to throw my arms around what appears to be thin air to all non-mediators. To my luck nobody was in sight, so I did hug Jesse tightly and we both just cried together. Of course Jesse wasn't crying nearly as hard as I was.

"Jesse, I am sorry that I said that I wish you were alive. I mean I do and all but I love you anyway. Even though you are a ghost."

"And I love you." Jesse said his voice once again smooth and deep. We wrapped our arms around each other and kissed...again.

TBC

Yeah this was a short chap but it was full of fluff! Ah fluff its it great! Tell me what you think and REVIEW!!!!!!!!!