Emily—YO!! I miss hearing from ya girl! I will have to update more so I
can hear your WONDERFUL words hehe!
Chapter 15
Mystery Boy
"Hello? Hello?" I said into the phone. My cell phone went dead on me. Great just great now she is going to think I am some creepy stalker dude. I am not I swear! Suze asked me if I once lived in New York and I was about to answer but not really answer her. I want my identity to be a surprise to her even though she does know who I am. I have a feeling she will be over powered with happiness when she sees me Monday morning. At least I know I am excited to see her and I am hoping she will feel the same way.
I cranked up my car stereo when "I miss you" by Blink 182 started to play.
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stare I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight.
She has no idea how it has been without her with me. She has no idea what it is like thinking everyday what could have been if things were different, what might still happen, if we are lucky. I need her and I want her and I will not be able to live a day longer without her by my side. I am sorry for the past things I have done. I am sorry for anything that might happen in the future. I just need you now, Suze, wherever you are, to stop this pain...this pain that has been eating away at me since I realized I would never be good enough for you. I need you now at this darkest hour of mine to save me and to be with me...
Suze
I woke up this morning feeling crappier then ever. One would think I would be all well rested after crashing in my bed, but oh no...I had a restless night's worth of sleep. I kept thinking, which lead to dreams. In one dream I was back in New York City in a room that seemed quite familiar yet I could not put my finger on what it was. Then it hit me, I was in Matt's room. I had of course been in there before since he and I had been friends since we were five years old. In this dream we were sitting on the floor watching his TV...wait no...we were playing on a X-Box. A racing game if I can remember correctly. Yeah it was a racing game because I am the Queen of racing games and I would beat his sorry ass every time, so I got to pick what he had to do when I won. I being Suze, chose that he had to kiss me...we played for 3 hours and I beat him many, many times...therefore many, many kisses for the Suze! Woohoo! Yeah, so the kisses got longer and heavier as we went on, until finally the racing game was forgotten about totally.
Then I sat up and it was no longer Matt who I was kissing but Jesse. They liked switched bodies or something. Like I said my dreams were all messed up. Jesse and I started getting all hot and such with the kisses until he said, "Susannah, how can you even think about wanting another guy when you have me? I thought you loved me" He looked at me with his dark liquid black eyes and I just melted. I felt my face start turning bright red and I looked away from him. Hey, what do you expect?! He is just too hot for words when he looks all-sad like, and I felt guilty.
Then right in front of me he then became Paul. Paul came at me like he was ready to rape me or something. Really, I would not put that past him even if he and I had a new found friendship. I mean, hello this is Paul we are talking about. He is like the spawn of Satan...maybe a good- looking Satan...but...yeah I will not fall into that trap again. He put his arm around me and leaned in, but instead of trying to kiss me he leaned to my ear and whispered, "It may not be what you think it may be." And disappeared all together. And here I am, awake, on my bed trying to figure out what the hell is going on.
It has to be Matt. Who else COULD it be? I do not just attract strangers to call me up randomly. Plus why did this mystery boy even call in the first place? I just realized that I never got out of this fellow why he even called me. God! Now I need to know who he is and what he wants! Why must my love life...or just my life in general...be so complicated? All I want is a boyfriend who is good to me and loves me back and will do no harm to me. What do I get? A ghost. A stalker/killer who is now my friend but still. And now this mystery boy. Yipee. My life is just WONDERFUL! My lord. And now to top it all off I still have to figure out whom to ask to my dance coming up. OH NO! I never got to ask Padre about my new abilities either! Aaah wonderful. Now I have to somehow get my butt up to the rectory and talk to Father. I just want to go back to sleep please...
"Susie! Wake up! Breakfast is ready and waiting!" My mom yelled up the stairs to me. All I wanted was to sleep though...or take a shower. Ooo a nice relaxing bath seems so inviting right now... "SUZE!" Dopey yelled as loud as possible. "COME ON!"
Yeah looks like any type of relaxation will have to wait for me in this wonderful home of mine.
I got downstairs and the smell of pancakes hit my nose. Ok so maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all...no one didn't say I couldn't relax by eating a yummy wonderful breakfast! Ha yes, maybe if it were just my mom and I but here we have the whole jolly good family. Even though I have been apart of this 'family' for a while now, it's still weird having all these brothers still. Though I must admit, it comes in handy sometimes...
"Suze, can you take any longer? I want my food!" Brad growled at me. Hmm, ok maybe Brad can't ever come in handy.
After we finished breakfast I went back into my room and sat on the window seat and looked out at the ocean. Why did I have that really odd dream? That question just kept repeating in my head over and over until suddenly I remembered. "It may not be what you think it may be..." Paul had to have sent me this dream or something. He is the only person in the dream who gave me any type of hints or messages at all. He must have sent me this dream with the same type powers that we use to speak telepathically. I mean that only makes sense...speaking to me through thoughts or speaking to me through dreams...it seems kind of connected.
If this was true that Paul sent me these dreams...well what was his reasoning behind it? Furthermore, how does Paul even know about this so- called Mystery Boy, unless he IS the Mystery Boy. I need to talk to Paul...I really need to talk to Paul about this all I am so fricking confused!
"Ok so talk," A deep voice all of a sudden said.
"Holy crap, Paul!" I shrieked out. "That was so freaking scary DON'T do that!"
He just chuckled and put his hands in his pockets. He turned and walked over to my desk chair and sat down. "So, I am guessing you are wondering about the dream?" He asked me.
I really hate how he seems to know everything about my life. Even stuff I don't know...well especially stuff I do not know. It gets quite annoying some times. "Yeah...what did you mean that things are not how they may seem?"
He raised his eyebrows as if was surprised that is what I asked. "You mean that you figured out that I sent you that dream to talk to you?"
Ha, he really needs to start giving me more credit. "Yeah, I figured that out. I just put two and two together, yanno?" I grinned. I couldn't help it; I was just so proud that I was finally starting to understand at least PART of this whole Shifter thing.
"I am impressed Suze. Now, getting down to business...that call you got yesterday is not from who you think it's from." See! I just hate how he knows I got a call and then how he knows whom it was from! I don't even know that much! "Though, I think you will be much happier with the real results." This made me raise my eyebrows at him. "However, I must warn you...though it might not seem so right now, it will only cause more problems...so do me a favor Suze? Put aside your girly views of love and such and be a mediator for a moment, ok?"
Oh god...what does he mean? Now I am kind of worried but..."Yeah, OK Paul, I will try." Then I got this really weird feeling. Almost like butterflies in my stomach and it was all tingly. This is so odd...what is happening to me?
"Besides Suze..." Paul said looking at me all intensely. "You don't really want it to be either the people you think it might be, do you?" He was looking me straight in the eyes and they seem to twinkle with something that I have never seen before.
"No of course not Paul..." I heard my voice saying, and I didn't even try to fight it. "I don't want it to be them because all I want is you..."
TBC
Believe me I have ideas again so I am going to try and update a whole lot more again.
Chapter 15
Mystery Boy
"Hello? Hello?" I said into the phone. My cell phone went dead on me. Great just great now she is going to think I am some creepy stalker dude. I am not I swear! Suze asked me if I once lived in New York and I was about to answer but not really answer her. I want my identity to be a surprise to her even though she does know who I am. I have a feeling she will be over powered with happiness when she sees me Monday morning. At least I know I am excited to see her and I am hoping she will feel the same way.
I cranked up my car stereo when "I miss you" by Blink 182 started to play.
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stare I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight.
She has no idea how it has been without her with me. She has no idea what it is like thinking everyday what could have been if things were different, what might still happen, if we are lucky. I need her and I want her and I will not be able to live a day longer without her by my side. I am sorry for the past things I have done. I am sorry for anything that might happen in the future. I just need you now, Suze, wherever you are, to stop this pain...this pain that has been eating away at me since I realized I would never be good enough for you. I need you now at this darkest hour of mine to save me and to be with me...
Suze
I woke up this morning feeling crappier then ever. One would think I would be all well rested after crashing in my bed, but oh no...I had a restless night's worth of sleep. I kept thinking, which lead to dreams. In one dream I was back in New York City in a room that seemed quite familiar yet I could not put my finger on what it was. Then it hit me, I was in Matt's room. I had of course been in there before since he and I had been friends since we were five years old. In this dream we were sitting on the floor watching his TV...wait no...we were playing on a X-Box. A racing game if I can remember correctly. Yeah it was a racing game because I am the Queen of racing games and I would beat his sorry ass every time, so I got to pick what he had to do when I won. I being Suze, chose that he had to kiss me...we played for 3 hours and I beat him many, many times...therefore many, many kisses for the Suze! Woohoo! Yeah, so the kisses got longer and heavier as we went on, until finally the racing game was forgotten about totally.
Then I sat up and it was no longer Matt who I was kissing but Jesse. They liked switched bodies or something. Like I said my dreams were all messed up. Jesse and I started getting all hot and such with the kisses until he said, "Susannah, how can you even think about wanting another guy when you have me? I thought you loved me" He looked at me with his dark liquid black eyes and I just melted. I felt my face start turning bright red and I looked away from him. Hey, what do you expect?! He is just too hot for words when he looks all-sad like, and I felt guilty.
Then right in front of me he then became Paul. Paul came at me like he was ready to rape me or something. Really, I would not put that past him even if he and I had a new found friendship. I mean, hello this is Paul we are talking about. He is like the spawn of Satan...maybe a good- looking Satan...but...yeah I will not fall into that trap again. He put his arm around me and leaned in, but instead of trying to kiss me he leaned to my ear and whispered, "It may not be what you think it may be." And disappeared all together. And here I am, awake, on my bed trying to figure out what the hell is going on.
It has to be Matt. Who else COULD it be? I do not just attract strangers to call me up randomly. Plus why did this mystery boy even call in the first place? I just realized that I never got out of this fellow why he even called me. God! Now I need to know who he is and what he wants! Why must my love life...or just my life in general...be so complicated? All I want is a boyfriend who is good to me and loves me back and will do no harm to me. What do I get? A ghost. A stalker/killer who is now my friend but still. And now this mystery boy. Yipee. My life is just WONDERFUL! My lord. And now to top it all off I still have to figure out whom to ask to my dance coming up. OH NO! I never got to ask Padre about my new abilities either! Aaah wonderful. Now I have to somehow get my butt up to the rectory and talk to Father. I just want to go back to sleep please...
"Susie! Wake up! Breakfast is ready and waiting!" My mom yelled up the stairs to me. All I wanted was to sleep though...or take a shower. Ooo a nice relaxing bath seems so inviting right now... "SUZE!" Dopey yelled as loud as possible. "COME ON!"
Yeah looks like any type of relaxation will have to wait for me in this wonderful home of mine.
I got downstairs and the smell of pancakes hit my nose. Ok so maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all...no one didn't say I couldn't relax by eating a yummy wonderful breakfast! Ha yes, maybe if it were just my mom and I but here we have the whole jolly good family. Even though I have been apart of this 'family' for a while now, it's still weird having all these brothers still. Though I must admit, it comes in handy sometimes...
"Suze, can you take any longer? I want my food!" Brad growled at me. Hmm, ok maybe Brad can't ever come in handy.
After we finished breakfast I went back into my room and sat on the window seat and looked out at the ocean. Why did I have that really odd dream? That question just kept repeating in my head over and over until suddenly I remembered. "It may not be what you think it may be..." Paul had to have sent me this dream or something. He is the only person in the dream who gave me any type of hints or messages at all. He must have sent me this dream with the same type powers that we use to speak telepathically. I mean that only makes sense...speaking to me through thoughts or speaking to me through dreams...it seems kind of connected.
If this was true that Paul sent me these dreams...well what was his reasoning behind it? Furthermore, how does Paul even know about this so- called Mystery Boy, unless he IS the Mystery Boy. I need to talk to Paul...I really need to talk to Paul about this all I am so fricking confused!
"Ok so talk," A deep voice all of a sudden said.
"Holy crap, Paul!" I shrieked out. "That was so freaking scary DON'T do that!"
He just chuckled and put his hands in his pockets. He turned and walked over to my desk chair and sat down. "So, I am guessing you are wondering about the dream?" He asked me.
I really hate how he seems to know everything about my life. Even stuff I don't know...well especially stuff I do not know. It gets quite annoying some times. "Yeah...what did you mean that things are not how they may seem?"
He raised his eyebrows as if was surprised that is what I asked. "You mean that you figured out that I sent you that dream to talk to you?"
Ha, he really needs to start giving me more credit. "Yeah, I figured that out. I just put two and two together, yanno?" I grinned. I couldn't help it; I was just so proud that I was finally starting to understand at least PART of this whole Shifter thing.
"I am impressed Suze. Now, getting down to business...that call you got yesterday is not from who you think it's from." See! I just hate how he knows I got a call and then how he knows whom it was from! I don't even know that much! "Though, I think you will be much happier with the real results." This made me raise my eyebrows at him. "However, I must warn you...though it might not seem so right now, it will only cause more problems...so do me a favor Suze? Put aside your girly views of love and such and be a mediator for a moment, ok?"
Oh god...what does he mean? Now I am kind of worried but..."Yeah, OK Paul, I will try." Then I got this really weird feeling. Almost like butterflies in my stomach and it was all tingly. This is so odd...what is happening to me?
"Besides Suze..." Paul said looking at me all intensely. "You don't really want it to be either the people you think it might be, do you?" He was looking me straight in the eyes and they seem to twinkle with something that I have never seen before.
"No of course not Paul..." I heard my voice saying, and I didn't even try to fight it. "I don't want it to be them because all I want is you..."
TBC
Believe me I have ideas again so I am going to try and update a whole lot more again.