I wake this morning
And leave for the next fight
As I sidle down the alley
Towards the base I must infiltrate
No one notices me, a lonely boy
A stench of decay.
It permeates my senses
A minor nuisance
I pass fallout builings and
Scorched bodies of women and children
Obstacles in my path
Then I reach my destination
The battle is about to begin
I close my eyes and wait
I think of nothing but the fight
During that long moment
Before the first shots
I think of nothing
My foot hits a cold body
A small body
Blue eyes, tiny hands
A stuffed dog
And I think of why I must fight
Why I gave up everything for this war
My innocence, my life, my freedom
My humanity
All lost for this battle
Is it worth it? I think to myself
During the long moments
Is it worth becoming a machine of this war?
The first shot is fired
I went into battle unsure
I was uncertain of my place
For the first time in my life
And so I lost the battle
I return to the base
Beaten, worn, and absolute
Absolute. My innocence, life
Freedom, my humanity
They are all worth giving up
For this war
I will give myself, my mind
My very soul for this war
I will become a machine of pure destruction
So others can have humanity
So after me, after this damned war
Peace and humanity can have a place
And a chance to flourish
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Hey guys, thanks for reading, and feel free to criticize.
I was thinking about pursuing this in a fic-novel format. So please let me know if anyone is interested in a primarily Heero-based, no relationship fic. Also, let me know if you have any suggestions. (If no one but myself has any interest, I won't torture you all or waste the site's space ;p) -qantaqa