Author's note: Thanks for the great reviews everybody. I am glad you like my story so far. I have been thinking about whether or not I want to change some stuff that has happened with other characters on OTH since I am changing the whole Brooke and Lucas thing it might affect other things, but I am not sure. So just bear with me and I will take it as it comes. If you get confused don't hesitate to ask me what is going on.

Chapter 3- Decisions

Lucas awoke to a pounding outside of his front door. He closed his eyes, hoping that whoever it was would go away. Finally, within a few minutes it stopped. Just as he was about to drift off to sleep he heard footsteps and then even louder pounding on the door that leads outside from his bedroom.

"Lucas Scott, I know you are in there, I was just at the café and your mom told me you were home. Get your lazy butt out of bed and open this door!" At the sound of Brooke's voice Lucas dragged himself out of bed.

Opening the door he could tell that Brooke was pretty frustrated with him, "Hey Brooke, sorry, I was asleep."

"Oh, I'm sorry; did I interrupt your sleep?" Brooke was giving Lucas a look like he had never seen before. "How about you interrupting my life? Hmmmm. The least I can do is interrupt your sleep."

"Brooke, calm down, we can talk about this. I told you, I had to tell you."

"You know what Lucas? I don't really feel like talking about it. As a matter of fact, I feel like yelling about it. How does that sound to you?" Brooke started to raise her voice. "I don't care how that sounds to you because you are going to listen to me whether you want to or not."

"Fine." Lucas sat down on his bed and crossed his arms.

"First off, who do you think you are walking into my bedroom telling me that you love me? We just started being friends again, I figured we would try that and see how it went. I have some serious trust issues with you. But no, apparently friends wasn't good enough for you, you needed to walk around with the I love yous."

"Brooke, I know that we were just becoming friends again and that was the whole point, not telling you how I felt was like lying to you. You have to understand that I don't want to ever to that do you again, lie to you." Lucas gave Brooke a pleading look; he needed her to believe him.

"Here is how this here is going to work right now, I ask the questions and you answer them. That is all, right now I need to talk and I need to hear answers, anything else you want to say can wait. This is about me right now. Okay?"

All Lucas could think about was how hot Brooke looked standing there with her arms crossed looking all angry. He told himself to stop thinking like that and give Brooke his full attention. "Okay Brooke, whatever you want."

"Okay, first things first, what did the letter say, the one you left for me and Peyton?" Brooke had been wondering about that letter for months.

"I admitted how much I screwed up with the two of you, and how sorry I was for acting like I did. I said that I understood if neither of you could never look past it because I know how wrong I was and was having a hard enough time forgiving myself. Then I explained how it happened." Lucas took a deep breathe; he knew he wouldn't get off that easy.

"How what happened?" Brooke urged him on.

"How the whole cheating thing happened. How Peyton was so vulnerable and I could remember back to how bad I wanted her. And how I knew that if the accident hadn't happened I never would have been able to go through with telling you, because deep down you were the one I wanted to be with, the whole thing with Peyton helped me realize that. I was so confused though, I got out of the hospital and my judgment was clouded, I didn't know what I wanted. And then you found out and Peyton couldn't keep hurting you so she called it quits. Then I was so hurt and confused, and everything sucked and that led me to the bar that one night. If Nikki hadn't bought me so many drinks nothing would have ever happened with her. I am not trying to use this as an excuse for my bad behavior but the painkillers I was on mixed with the alcohol just made me lose my head. I never set out to hurt you Brooke, if I could take it all back I would in a second, you have always been the one I wanted to be with." Lucas knew that he had to own up to all of it, tell her all of it, including how much he loved and cared for her, but he knew that she was leading this conversation not him.

"Well, that leads me to my next point. Why did you start dating Anna if I was what you wanted?" Brooke's tone had settled down a little bit. Lucas was doing exactly what she wanted, owning up to it all, so she had to take it a little easier on him.

"Because I needed to find some way to make myself feel less empty. She was there, she was empty too, she needed me just as much as I thought I needed her. I was lying to myself and to her by continuing it. I kept trying to hide it deep down, how much I missed you and needed you, but it surfaced and I couldn't keep running."

"But why last night? There were other chances. That night at the beach, after the dance, why not then?" Brook walked over and sat down next to Lucas.

"Like I said, I was trying to hide all of this. But Nathan, he saw it, and he called me on it. He knew that if I didn't do something about it then I wouldn't be okay. I think I needed someone else to tell me it, someone else to say it, and once he did I couldn't run anymore. I am sorry that it happened like it did. I never expected Felix to be there and it threw me off."

"Just the thought of him makes me mad, let's not talk about that. Now what I want to know is how I can trust that things will be different this time?" Brooke needed to know.

"There isn't anyway you can know Brooke, I can say it but those are only words. You just have to look deep into your heart and listen to what it says. If it says trust me then give me the chance, and just know that not a day will go by that I won't try to prove to you just how much you can trust me. You just have to listen to what your heart says and then if it says to try it again, take a leap of faith."

"Well you know what Lucas?" Brooke stood up again and started to raise her voice, "I took a leap of faith in you before and look how good that turned out for me. So I don't know if I want to leap again."

Lucas stood up in front of her, "Well you know what Brooke?" Lucas started to raise his own voice, "You are scared. Admit it, you are scared to take that leap."

"Who are you to tell me how I feel? You have no idea what I have gone through, no idea how much you hurt me. I am anything but scared Lucas, right now, all I am is pissed."

"That is classic Brooke Davis, hide what you are really feeling by throwing a fit."

"Oh, you better stop. This is not classic anything! Don't stand there and talk like you know me so well. Just stop!" Brooke took a step towards Lucas; she could feel the electricity between them.

"I will not stop, ever. I will fight for you everyday if I have to. I will repeat myself everyday if I have to. I am not giving up on us Brooke, I love you too much to do that." Lucas took a step towards Brooke and before she could even react her kissed her. He didn't kiss her soft either, there was too much passion between them for that. He began to push his tongue into her mouth, lightly at first, as if to ask permission, she allowed it and massaged his tongue with hers. She even bit softly at his bottom lip, something she used to do that drove Lucas nuts.

This went on for a few more minutes until Brooke pushed Lucas away. "No, this isn't the way I want to solve this. I cannot believe that you just kissed me."

"I had to Brooke, I couldn't ignore the heat between us, you can't ignore it either, admit it, you felt it."

"Of course I felt it! That is what bothers me. This isn't the way to solve it though. I felt like you used me before, I will keep that buried in the back of my mind. I never want to feel like that again. Kissing me like that isn't the way to let me know that I can trust you." Brooke was starting to get angry again.

"Okay, I get that. I just don't want you to deny how you feel." Lucas wasn't going to apologize for kissing her, it felt amazing.

"Fine, I won't deny it. I do care about you Lucas, and I do want you. But I just don't know if I can go down that road again." With that Brooke turned around and walked right out of Lucas' room, slamming the door behind her. Lucas just stood there in shock.