Aw, I guess the last chapter was not that great. I only got four reviews...but I love you four dearly!

Awi- takes a bow oh Ali, how I love you so!

Nikki007- hehe your review made me laugh. This chapter is for yoooou! (and of course anyone else reading)

Madmaddy- I GET IT! I am crazy too! And I am not high on caffeine right now...Paul seems to be quite good at ruining stuff.

Jaclyn- haha I am sorry I made you twitch

Livin2love- He might be under a spell…might not…

Chapter 25

Suze

All I can say is thank God that we had Tuesday off after the dance. I seriously do not think I could have made it through the day if I were at school where I could see Jesse and Paul…and Kyle. Yes, yes I know you are probably wondering what does Kyle have to do with any of this? But I don't know…he and Jesse are like best friends now so I guess seeing Kyle would mean seeing Jesse. Oh, and I believe if I am in a 50 yard radius of Emily I would kill her. I would run at her screaming like a madwoman and tackling her…or OH! How I would love to sucker punch her in the stomach…

I sat on my bed just staring at the window seat wishing Jesse were still sitting there…as a ghost…for only me to see. For only me to love… A tear fell from my eye to the tip of my nose and landed on the pillow I was holding. 'No,' I whispered softly to myself. 'No! I cannot cry. I will not cry!' I took a deep breath and slowly let it out in attempt to control my emotions. I then leaned back into my bed, closing my eyes, and pictures of Jesse with me flooded my memory. Funny though, most of them were when he was a ghost…

'Help me.' I said to no one, while my eyes were still closed.

I suddenly heard a voice that said, "I am here to help."

My eyes flashed open and I saw a figure sitting on the window seat. My breath got caught in my throat and asked softly, "Je…Jesse? Is that you?" The man did not have an un-earthly glow so I knew it was not a ghost…and after last night it was obviously not Jesse. That left only… "Paul?" I asked louder, anger obvious in my voice.

He sighed softly and said, "Yeah, it is Paul…sorry to disappoint you." He stood up, his hands stuffed in his pockets and looked at me questioning. "Are you alright?"

I had to keep myself from staring at him. Ok, I know I always seem to say this but Mr. Slater here was looking good in a light green semi-tight shirt that made it known he has muscle and then a pair of jeans. Yes, I know, I should hate him completely and totally, but he is just so…hot. 'And dangerous,' a voice in my mind reminded me. But…isn't that a reason to stay on his good side? So he doesn't end up pulling shit like last night? I mean, come on, he actually made a good friend while it lasted, and nothing bad happened to Jesse nor me. Jesse now seems out of the picture so Paul needs not spend his time plotting to get rid of him…I was snapped out of my thoughts when Paul prompted me with a, "Suze?" He walked over to me and sat down on the bed and said, "ok, answer me now, I want to know I did not kill your soul or something."

I looked up at him and gave him a sort of half smile. "No…my soul is not dead…maybe my heart…" I then frowned and said, "Hey wait, why do you even care? You are the one who caused all of this! You should be the one to FIX IT!" Ok, I apparently forgot already about trying to stay on his good side. Here I am yelling at him already.

He ran his hand through his curly hair in frustration and said, "Suuuze," as if it pained him to say my name or something weird like that. "I…do not like loosing. You know that. I…do not deal with it well especially when it has to do with…the girl I…love." He stood up, somewhat angrily, and started pacing right in front of my bed and said, "Ok, when I get in a angry jealous rage…I do things…things that I probably should not do…"

I snorted and said, "yeah you can say THAT again…Erik. You totally ruined Phantom for me…ass." I said 'Erik' totally sarcastically and mockingly.Paul grinned at me. He actually stood there and GRINNED at me, so I stood up and punched him on the shoulder. That made the dumb ass grin even more! "Why are you grinning at me?" I basically yelled at him.

"You are back!" he said throwing up his arms in triumph.

"Um…" I said utterly confused. "Was I ever gone…? Did I get another 'gift' where I can teleport from here to where ever in a blink of an eye or something because, that would be amazing…"

"Suze!" Paul yelled over my nonsense babble. "Shut up! No, you did not gain another power that I know of and yes, that would be cool, but I just meant you are back to your normal self. You were yelling at me…and calling me names…and being sarcastic. Our normal type conversations!"

I rolled my eyes at him and said, "You are insane. I am trying to be MEAN to you because you ruined everything. My god why are you even here? Wait, why can YOU teleport and I can't?" Ok, Suze, nice way to change the subject there…

Paul just smirked at me and said, "you know you cant be mean to me…and you can teleport. Just shift. Close your eyes, and picture where you want to go instead of the Shadow Land.

"Just shift. Duh, why didn't I think of that…" I muttered more to myself than to Paul. A thought came to me then…maybe I should go talk to Jesse today. I at least need to try and fix things between us. Lord knows I worked hard enough to get him to tell me he loves me. I can such an idiot can't I? I mean, my God, how could I have thought that Jesse would stay with me once the world of beautiful, talented, intelligent females was opened to him. Especially when I am just "Suze Simon: Ghost seeing freak." "Paul?" I asked in a whiney voice, but really…could you blame the whininess seeing the current situation I am in? I sat back down on my bed and said while looking up at him, "Is there anything I can do? Anything? "

Paul was silent for a moment as if he was debating whether or not he should tell me. After what seemed like forever he said, "Yes, there is something…but I do not know if you will like it." He retreated back to the window seat before continuing with, "You must get Jesse's affection back for you- and he must kiss you…"

Paul paused and I said, "That's it? I mean you said I wouldn't like it…I don't see why I wouldn't…" Ha! I would love to kiss Jesse again.

Paul cleared his throat and replied with, "Uh, no that is obviously not all. That would be too easy…assuming you could get him off Emily long enough for you to make your move…" He trailed off when I yelled some not so nice names at him and chucked a pillow at him. "Heh, sorry…could not resist with that one. You must prove you still hold the power of Love. You have to get Jesse to kiss you…in front of the one his affection is being shown to now…Emily. And you cannot just grab him and kiss him. It has to be the real deal. He has to want it as much as you do. I must warn you though…you only have 48 hours to do this or you and Lover Boy are done with forever. Uh, the 48 hour time limit started as soon as we kissed sooo…yeah you are down to…" He looked at the clock which read 11:30 and calculated in his head how much time had passed. "Well, we kissed at roughly 9:15 last night which leaves about 34 hours…give and take some."

I laughed bitterly and said, "I am surprised you had the dignity to let me know this very important detail. One would think that the infamous Paul Slater would with hold all information from me so I would finally become his!"

Paul actually looked a little ashamed. "Yes, I know. When it comes to you, I do not normally end up making the best of choices…but I am trying! Suze, I really am! I might be extremely powerful, but not even I have the power to make someone fall in love with them."

I raised my eyebrows approvingly. "I am shocked, Paul. You actually admitted you do not know everything; I believe that is a first."

"And probably the last," Paul replied smirking.

I suddenly frowned slightly and said, "I don't know if I can do this…I mean, Emily is so much prettier than I am plus she's more Jesse's age and…and…"

"Suze," Paul said sounding bored. "You do not give yourself enough credit. You are beautiful and Jesse did not seem to mind you being younger than him before. You will be fine." Before I could remark in anyway, his eyes were boring intently into mine. He then stood up and started walking towards me slowly never once breaking the intense eye contact he held with me. He then whispered softly in my mind, "Suze…do not leave me…"

My face broke out in an expression of pure confusion as I asked shakily out loud, "Le…leave?"

"Yes leave," he said a littler harsher this time out loud also. "What do you think will happen with you and me once you fix everything with Jesse? If you and I kiss after that it's bye-bye Jesse FOREVER. He will turn back into a ghost and quite possibly sucked back to the shadow land…for good. There would be no saving poor lil' Jesse's soul this time sweetheart."

I felt my gut start to tighten and my heartbeat increase but tried to hide the fact I was now scared. I swallowed and said, "Well, we will just never kiss again. Ever. Not like that will be that hard. Starting now, Paul, no kisses. Nada. Zilch…none…"

I trailed off because I noticed Paul was still advancing towards me and was now about a foot or less in front of me with a look of hunger in his eyes he has not shown me in a while. Not really since that night he caught me in Father Dominic's office. He was shaking his head and chuckling softly as he said, "Ah, you say that now, but I know it will be hard for me. And I personally think it will be hard for you too. You see I want you. More than you know." By this time Paul was definitely only two inches in front of me, and had pulled me off the bed to my feet. I could feel Paul's haggard breath on my neck, and I am sad to say that my breath was not too even also…but I would like to blame that on the fear…not want…

"Paul…" I began in an almost pleading matter. "No…please…"

"Yes." He whispered back, his voice deep and raspy, full of want, once again in my mind. "Yes," he repeated.

I watched numbly as I saw his hands grab hold of my wrists and slide up to my neck area. "Please. Just one last kiss…?"

"No." I said out loud but damn Paul and his mind reading abilities for my mind was screaming YES! He took this as my answer and dipped his mouth to mine, his lips brushing against mine before he completely wrapped his arms around me.

After about a minute I pulled back from Paul letting my forehead rest against his and said, "That was your last kiss from me. Ever."

He looked at me, his blue eyes full of such sadness and said, "Why can't you be mine?"

I sighed and took a few steps back from him, letting his arms drop from me. "I just…can't. I belong with Jesse." I glanced at the clock and said, "I have to get working on him now."

Paul frowned slightly and said, "See that is what I do not get. You have to work to get him. You obviously have to do no work to get me…sooo…you chose the harder of the two?"

I rolled my eyes again at him and said, "I only have to work to get him because you went and ruined everything. So, yes, I am going after him because I do not know how much I can trust you right now. Now goodbye. I have a limited amount of time here and I'll be damned if Jesse slips away from me!" With that I closed my eyes and pictured Jesse's room at the missionary.

When I opened my eyes I found that I had indeed landed in Jesse's room…but it appeared to be empty. "Jesse?" I called out just to make sure he was not there somewhere. "Where the hell are you…" I sighed and exited his room, heading towards Father D's office to see if he knew where Jesse was. Great. That is all I need. Father Dom to be all 'I told you so' about Jesse and me being together.

I got to his office and entered without knocking. "Father Dom I need to ask you somethi…" As I entered I noticed that Father Dom was not by himself. In fact he was sitting with Jesse and Emily of all people. "Oh. Uh…" Come on Suze! Think up something to say! Do not, I repeat do not just stand there! But…that bitch stole my man…I felt myself being overcome by anger and I said, "You know what. Never mind. I am leaving."

I spun on my heel and slammed the door with all my strength cutting off a deep male voice saying, "Susannah…"

"Susannah…Susannah!" I mocked out loud to myself in a poor fake accent. "You have been a very stupid girl, Querida." I said as anger built up in me. "God! I bet he calls that fake…bitch Querida too!" I found myself storming around the Mission's campus until I landed at a very familiar part that not many people go to. In fact I am one of the only people who probably ever realize it is even here seeing that I helped pay for it. Jesse's grave.

I fell to my knees when I realized that this is where I ended up since it was where I normally go when completely upset. Of course this time it has to do with the owner of the grave…"WHY!" I screamed throwing a handful of dead leaves, gravel and whatever else was on the ground in front of the grave at it. "Why is this happening? Don't you love me anymore?" Heated tears began to pool in my eyes and fall angrily down my face. "He tricked me. Don't you understand that?" I shrieked through the tears. I know I probably looked like a crazy woman to anyone who was in the area, but you know what? I really did not give a shit right now. "I loved you! I still do love you…" A huge sob shook my body as I whispered, "But you…you don't love me…" I wrapped my arms around the grave and just cried my heart and soul onto it.

Ok I know I know. I did not make my dead line of May 31st, but I had writer's block for 3 days. So I will just finish it all soon. Love you. Hugs to all who review!