My Shattered Dreams
By Cammy Rammy
Chap. 1- This is how it is
A/n: Hey! Sorry I took so long to update, but I just got DSL and I've been nuts about it! Well here's your second-requested chapter! oh by the way… this chapter has a flashback in Rin's past!
Disclaimer: Inuyasha characters & story © 1996-2005 Rumiko Takahashi.
So after Makoto had beaten her daughter Rin, she left to her room to smoke a cigarette. How ironic, her mother could give a damn about her if she had a dead 16-year-old girl in her room (not that she was dead or anything).
'KEH, if I died she'd burry me in the backyard so the cops won't find me. No, she'd dump me on a garbage dump downtown. Or maybe set my carcass on fire.' The young woman thought as she cried on a fetal position.
Her body ached so much... so she decided to get up and go to her bed where she didn't hesitate to drift to sleep, it was the only place she lost her worries and sorrows.
DREAM Rin's POV
As a child I got into a respected elementary schools in Tokyo city. Though I was one of the three kids out of 150 who had a full scholarship you still didn't care…
You always reject me,
I try so hard to make you proud of me,
To curve those icy lips into a warm smile,
That's what I always wanted…
But I always failed…
When I entered middle school I couldn't focus on the exams…father had died and my heart was torn. But somehow I applied and entered a prestigious middle school. I reached my 2nd year of Highschool (7th grade) and decided to play a sport, and made the JV volleyball team, something unheard of back then. I played captain in my 8th grade year… you never cared.
I try to get you to see me as something,
A human, your flesh and blood, your daughter.
But you push me aside,
Like a rag doll who's been endlessly abused…
In other words…
Like me…
Since I was young you beat me, but when I reached my freshman year the beatings got severe…
You can darken my day,
With your hateful comments…
They feel like a deadly sting in my heart.
Tonight (Also in the prologue) you have said the most hurtful comments. It shatters my heart to think that you'd treat me like this when I relieved you of paying more money and I relieved you of paying at all. If it wasn't for me, how would we live? You'd be broke if I didn't baby-sit for an elite company.
I want to die, but..
I'd like to know: do you want me?
Do you just hate me because you think I'm a mistake?
Tell me… I wanna know
Dream ends (Back to author's POV)
Rin awoke with tears flooding her face as she sobbed and realized she was fully awake. Today she didn't feel sore at all…guess she'd be able to attend school.
'It's odd for mother not to leave me scarred,' she thought as she saw that she didn't have any bruises. Just the ones that were already recovering.
It was 7:05AM and her mom was gone, she walked down the stairs and noticed that her breakfast was made, it was still hot too.
"Looks like mom woke up in a good mood!" she thought.
"Daddy I'm ready ok!" a small boy, about the age of 4 ran to his father's arms. His amber eyes looked happy as his father brushed off his silverfish colored bangs, revealing his happy eyes.
"So you ready to go to pre-k?"
"Yea daddy!" he shouted as he ran along. Suddenly the older man's cell rang.
"Hello?" he said.
"Sesshomaru, it's your father, did you drive Shinta to school already?" Inutaisho asked him.
"I'm doing that right now Chichiue" he said as he took his son's hand. (Chichiue is what Sesshomaru calls his father. It basically means father, or dad…correct me if I'm wrong anyone! U.U)
"Keh! You're late Sesshomaru, I figured. A 22-yr-old boy cannot take care of a child the proper way."
"Chichiue, you're making me even more late."
"Fine, but Izayoi can't take care of the pup, she's working as my accountant again."
"Nani!"
"Son, just hire a babysitter again."
"Alright. Well got to go Chichiue. Or else Shinta will bounce off my car."
click-
Finally had Rin Aizawa had finished her breakfast and put on her uniform when the doorbell rang as she went and opened the door and found a rather worried Kohaku at her doorstep.
"Rin-chan, are you ok? Did Makoto hurt you again?" Kohaku asked as Rin smiled and shook her head.
"No. not yesterday, she was being so sweet to me. She didn't even bother me!" Rin lied as Kohaku out of nowhere held her in his arms.
"Rin you are so strong. I admire you for that." He smiled as she retuned the hug and smiled.
End of chap. 1-
A/n: I apologize for making this chapter so damn short! It was just there to introduce Shinta, Sesshomaru and Rin's POV towards her mother! But:
Will Sesshomaru meet Rin?
What will happen at school when Kagome sees Rin?
Why am I writing this fic to begin with?
LOL
I'd LOVE to thank: (No specific order)
hot stuff9807: thank you! I hope my fan think so too!
FluffysBijin05: yea it was supposed to be sad to begin with. The guy as you now know is Kohaku! O.O and yea Makoto (Rin's mom) is supposed to be a bitch! As you now can also tell by reading Rin's dream in the beginning. I love Beta-reading your fic and I'll start "recommending" fics to people so they can read other Sessh/Rin fics so our (Sessh/Rin fans) can expand our popularity and people get to see that they're a good couple!
Mika Rocker: Thanks so much Mika-Kun! Yea I'll try!
Ukyou Senshi: thanks Mindy-chan, I'll try to keep my fic up and you outta upload a fic missy! Your Kaiba/Serenity rocks and so does your Sessh/Rin!
rin-almighty-yaoi-lover: Sure! Sorry I took so damn long!
Spirit Demon: thanks so much!
imagine-me: thank you very much too!
Well I'd like to thank my reviewers and I hope you review this chapter and hopefully you can get your friends into my fic, which will be awesome!
CammyRammy-