Disclaimer: I forgot to post this before.. I don't own anything. Joss
Whedon does. You can probably tell, if I owned them Buffy and Angel would
be raising kids by now.. : )
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Cordelia walked into the office after splashing some water on her face and redoing her make up. "I'm not giving up this easily" she thought to herself.
Gunn was sharpening a sword, Wes was reading some old book and Fred was on the computer. Conner was quietly doing Tai Chi in the corner keeping to himself.
"Where is Angel?" she asked.
Gunn said, "He's having a, uh, talk with Buffy"
Cordy felt her heart break a little more when she heard that, "Can you tell him I went shopping?"
"Sure"
"Do you want some company?" Fred asked.
"No. I want to be alone" Cordy said and walked out of the hotel. ....................................
(Buffy and Angel)
"Buffy- we need to stop. We can't"
"I know" Buffy stopped kissing Angel but didn't remove her arms from around his neck.
Angel smiled softly and said, "There's something I have to tell you before."
Buffy stopped smiling and looked away. "It's Cordelia isn't it? You want to be with her not me. You're about to say this was a mistake and go to her" Buffy predicted.
"Yes, No I mean. It is about Cordy but it's not what you think. Buffy, when I left Sunnydale I never expected to love again. I spent nearly 2 and a half years brooding. I couldn't let you go. I was miserable. I lost my faith in all that is good. I allowed Dru and Darla to kill all those lawyers. I didn't try and stop them. I know they were evil but I didn't even try."
Angel had a stricken look on his face and Buffy just held him close. She didn't interrupt him. "I slept with Darla. I put my soul at risk that was when I knew I had to do something. The guys eventually forgave me and let me back in. The Conner came along. That's when I needed you most. But you weren't here so I turned to Cordy. When Holtz kidnapped Conner I was lost again. Cordy helped me. I guess I started believing that I loved her. Conner came back. He hated me. The one person who could reassure me was Cordy. That night Conner pushed me, I was there to tell Cordy that I loved her."
Hearing this, Buffy started to pull away from Angel but he wrapped his arms around her and didn't let her move.
He looked straight into her eyes, "I was wrong Buffy. I know that now. It was so easy to want Cordy. I just realised it was because I knew being with her would never put my soul in danger. That's not real love. I could never be truly happy with her. Not like I can be with you. You have to believe me Buffy. I love you."
Buffy was crying by now. "I don't deserve this Angel. I've done some pretty horrible stuff my self this past year. Feelings you had for Cordelia are nothing compared to what I did" She pulled away from Angel and walked away.
"Buffy I know whatever it is it can't be that bad"
She turned around and just stared at him for a few moments, "I slept with Spike."
Angel couldn't move when he heard that, "You what?"
Buffy kept talking, "When I came back a part of me was missing. I couldn't feel anything. I was numb. I needed to feel. Spike was convenient. I knew I could never be emotionally involved with him. I am so sorry. This past month has been awful. I've dreamt of you every night. I would wake up and cry. Even though we weren't together I felt so guilty for what I did. You have to believe me Angel. I love you too"
Angel crossed the room quickly and hugged Buffy. "I don't care. Ok, that's a lie. I do care and I won't say it doesn't bother me. But I want to be with you. I have to be with you. I can't walk away again. The last two times were hard enough."
At that Angel almost bit his tongue. 'I wasn't supposed to say that' he thought with apprehension.
Buffy didn't seem to notice his slip.
She just hugged him back. "So we're back together?" she asked with a smile.
Angel just kissed her. "You're still my girl"
(A/N: Spike doesn't leave Sunnydale that means he never got a soul)
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(One hour later)
"Dawnie?" Buffy said into the phone.
"Buffy? Oh My God! I was so worried. How are you? Where are you?"
"I'm okay. I'm with Angel."
"You're with Angel? That was the big emergency? You needed to see him so bad you couldn't even say goodbye?!"
"Dawn, it was an emergency. I'll explain when I get home. I'm leaving tonight"
"Are you coming alone?"
"Angel is coming with me. I have to go now. Tell the gang I said hi."
"Okay."
"Bye"
"Bye"
Cordelia had walked in and had overheard the last bit of the conversation. "Going somewhere?" she asked Angel.
"Uh, Yeh, Sunnydale" Angel said.
Cordy looked at Buffy quickly and then addressed Angel again, "Do you have room for one more?"
"Actually Cordelia, I kinda need it to be just Angel and me. You understand don't you?"
Buffy said quickly before Angel could say anything.
A furious look flashed over Cordelia's face for a second, and then she smiled and said. "Of course I do. I'll see you in a couple of days I guess"
"Uh, Actually I need to talk to everyone. Could you call them here please?"
The rest of the Fang Gang came in and looked at Angel expectantly.
"Buffy needs to get back to her sister and I want to take her with me. I don't know when I'll be back. I know you can manage without me. Conner, we need to spend some time together. Try and get past everything that happened. So maybe you'll come with us."
"I thought it had to be just the two of you." Cordelia snapped angrily.
"It does, but If Angel and I need to work some stuff out I can't leave the hell mouth unguarded. I was hoping Conner could take care of it for me." Buffy said.
"I can do that." Conner said.
"Okay then, we're leaving at sunset unless anyone else has a problem with us going?" Buffy looked around the room.
"Listen Bro, what if there's some big bad and we need help?" Gunn asked.
"There won't be." Buffy said.
"How do you know?" everyone asked at once including Angel.
"I just do. Everything will be ok until we find what we're looking for."
"What about Wolfram and Hart?" asked Wes.
"Don't let them know that I'm not here. There's nothing else I can do."
"Ok. I guess that's it." Buffy said.
She and Angel started to walk out the door when Angel called out, "One last thing. Find Lorne. You may need another hand around here when we're gone. Conner, let's go."
And they left to Sunnydale.
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Cordelia walked into the office after splashing some water on her face and redoing her make up. "I'm not giving up this easily" she thought to herself.
Gunn was sharpening a sword, Wes was reading some old book and Fred was on the computer. Conner was quietly doing Tai Chi in the corner keeping to himself.
"Where is Angel?" she asked.
Gunn said, "He's having a, uh, talk with Buffy"
Cordy felt her heart break a little more when she heard that, "Can you tell him I went shopping?"
"Sure"
"Do you want some company?" Fred asked.
"No. I want to be alone" Cordy said and walked out of the hotel. ....................................
(Buffy and Angel)
"Buffy- we need to stop. We can't"
"I know" Buffy stopped kissing Angel but didn't remove her arms from around his neck.
Angel smiled softly and said, "There's something I have to tell you before."
Buffy stopped smiling and looked away. "It's Cordelia isn't it? You want to be with her not me. You're about to say this was a mistake and go to her" Buffy predicted.
"Yes, No I mean. It is about Cordy but it's not what you think. Buffy, when I left Sunnydale I never expected to love again. I spent nearly 2 and a half years brooding. I couldn't let you go. I was miserable. I lost my faith in all that is good. I allowed Dru and Darla to kill all those lawyers. I didn't try and stop them. I know they were evil but I didn't even try."
Angel had a stricken look on his face and Buffy just held him close. She didn't interrupt him. "I slept with Darla. I put my soul at risk that was when I knew I had to do something. The guys eventually forgave me and let me back in. The Conner came along. That's when I needed you most. But you weren't here so I turned to Cordy. When Holtz kidnapped Conner I was lost again. Cordy helped me. I guess I started believing that I loved her. Conner came back. He hated me. The one person who could reassure me was Cordy. That night Conner pushed me, I was there to tell Cordy that I loved her."
Hearing this, Buffy started to pull away from Angel but he wrapped his arms around her and didn't let her move.
He looked straight into her eyes, "I was wrong Buffy. I know that now. It was so easy to want Cordy. I just realised it was because I knew being with her would never put my soul in danger. That's not real love. I could never be truly happy with her. Not like I can be with you. You have to believe me Buffy. I love you."
Buffy was crying by now. "I don't deserve this Angel. I've done some pretty horrible stuff my self this past year. Feelings you had for Cordelia are nothing compared to what I did" She pulled away from Angel and walked away.
"Buffy I know whatever it is it can't be that bad"
She turned around and just stared at him for a few moments, "I slept with Spike."
Angel couldn't move when he heard that, "You what?"
Buffy kept talking, "When I came back a part of me was missing. I couldn't feel anything. I was numb. I needed to feel. Spike was convenient. I knew I could never be emotionally involved with him. I am so sorry. This past month has been awful. I've dreamt of you every night. I would wake up and cry. Even though we weren't together I felt so guilty for what I did. You have to believe me Angel. I love you too"
Angel crossed the room quickly and hugged Buffy. "I don't care. Ok, that's a lie. I do care and I won't say it doesn't bother me. But I want to be with you. I have to be with you. I can't walk away again. The last two times were hard enough."
At that Angel almost bit his tongue. 'I wasn't supposed to say that' he thought with apprehension.
Buffy didn't seem to notice his slip.
She just hugged him back. "So we're back together?" she asked with a smile.
Angel just kissed her. "You're still my girl"
(A/N: Spike doesn't leave Sunnydale that means he never got a soul)
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(One hour later)
"Dawnie?" Buffy said into the phone.
"Buffy? Oh My God! I was so worried. How are you? Where are you?"
"I'm okay. I'm with Angel."
"You're with Angel? That was the big emergency? You needed to see him so bad you couldn't even say goodbye?!"
"Dawn, it was an emergency. I'll explain when I get home. I'm leaving tonight"
"Are you coming alone?"
"Angel is coming with me. I have to go now. Tell the gang I said hi."
"Okay."
"Bye"
"Bye"
Cordelia had walked in and had overheard the last bit of the conversation. "Going somewhere?" she asked Angel.
"Uh, Yeh, Sunnydale" Angel said.
Cordy looked at Buffy quickly and then addressed Angel again, "Do you have room for one more?"
"Actually Cordelia, I kinda need it to be just Angel and me. You understand don't you?"
Buffy said quickly before Angel could say anything.
A furious look flashed over Cordelia's face for a second, and then she smiled and said. "Of course I do. I'll see you in a couple of days I guess"
"Uh, Actually I need to talk to everyone. Could you call them here please?"
The rest of the Fang Gang came in and looked at Angel expectantly.
"Buffy needs to get back to her sister and I want to take her with me. I don't know when I'll be back. I know you can manage without me. Conner, we need to spend some time together. Try and get past everything that happened. So maybe you'll come with us."
"I thought it had to be just the two of you." Cordelia snapped angrily.
"It does, but If Angel and I need to work some stuff out I can't leave the hell mouth unguarded. I was hoping Conner could take care of it for me." Buffy said.
"I can do that." Conner said.
"Okay then, we're leaving at sunset unless anyone else has a problem with us going?" Buffy looked around the room.
"Listen Bro, what if there's some big bad and we need help?" Gunn asked.
"There won't be." Buffy said.
"How do you know?" everyone asked at once including Angel.
"I just do. Everything will be ok until we find what we're looking for."
"What about Wolfram and Hart?" asked Wes.
"Don't let them know that I'm not here. There's nothing else I can do."
"Ok. I guess that's it." Buffy said.
She and Angel started to walk out the door when Angel called out, "One last thing. Find Lorne. You may need another hand around here when we're gone. Conner, let's go."
And they left to Sunnydale.
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I have a vague idea as to where I'm going with this but I'm open to suggestions.
Thank you for reviewing.
ecstasy_of_grief()
BookWorm1990
punkymonkey()
Jaci()
Candy()
X-identaty
Tariq
And please, keep reviewing. It motivates me!!