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The next several days were not very good for Remus, seeing as it would be the full moon. He took the Wolfsbane Potion and was now guaranteed to keep his mind when he transformed, the only comfort he had. He kept to his room, mostly because he felt so ill and didn't want people bombarding him with questions if he was all right and if there was anything they coulddo. He appreciated their concern for his well-being but he had to admit, it got a tad tiresome. The only person he mostly talked to was Sirius who knew all too well that Remus didn't like people worrying about his health. He talked to Remus as if there was nothing wrong, which Remus was extremely grateful.

It was the day before the full moon and Remus was lying in his bed. He felt awful, like he could keel over right then. He hated feeling like this, he felt so weak and helpless, like a little child. He sat up very slowly in his bed and glanced at his clock that was on the nightstand. 7:34 a.m. was what it read. It was much too early to be up, but he couldn't get back to sleep, once Remus was up, then he was up for the rest of the day. He sighed heavily and slowly and carefully got out of bed. He dressed in his familiar shabby robes and crept downstairs once he had fully gotten dressed. He pushed open the kitchen door, praying that no one was yet up. His prayers were answered and he sighed out of relief.

He dragged his feet over to the stove and conjured up some eggs and ham, which then sizzled onto a pan that had suddenly appeared. He yawned and rubbed his neck; he must've slept on it wrong for there was a terrible kink in it. He was concentrating on how bad he felt that Remus didn't notice nor hear the sound of someone apparating in the kitchen.

"Wotcher Remus." The voice of Tonks said friendly.

Remus turned around. "Hello Tonks." He said weakly, facing her.

Tonks had waist-length dirty blonde hair today and sea-green eyes joined by a long, perfectly shaped nose. She looked very worriedly at Remus.

"I'm fine Tonks." Remus said before Tonks had the chance to comment on his appearance.

"I know you are. I mean, I figured you would be, seeing as how you've had to deal with this since you were a child." She said casually. "I actually just stopped by to talk with my dear cousin. Do you know where he is?"

"I believe he is still asleep." Remus informed her, remembering the snores that had emitted behind Sirius' closed bedroom door.

Tonks sighed and rolled her eyes. "Of course. I was hoping to talk with him before I headed off to work."

Remus smiled at Tonks' irritated tone and turned back to his breakfast, which was nearly ready. He took a plate from the cupboard then turned back to Tonks. "Would you like some breakfast? I'm afraid I've made entirely too much." He asked.

Tonks eyes twinkled mysteriously. "Sure." She said.

Remus collected another plate from the cupboard and insisted on serving them, remembering Tonks' incident with Molly and the plates several days earlier. They both sat down across from each other at the table and dived in to their hams and eggs.

"This is really good Remus." Tonks said after swallowing a healthy-sized portion of ham.

Remus smiled. "Thank you Tonks." He hadn't ate that much, he felt very nauseous.

But for some reason, the nausea wasn't directly related to the illness caused by the full moon. However, Remus had such a splitting headache, he didn't much care to think on it. He held his head gingerly and lightly rubbed his temples.

"You ok Remus? Got a headache?" Tonks asked.

Remus nodded. It hurt too much to talk.

"Here," Tonks dropped her fork and came around the table towards Remus. "I know this Muggle trick. It'll get rid of your headache." She said. She pulled up a chair and sat very close to Remus so their noses were merely inches apart.

"You don't have to-It's ok." Remus said, feeling very frustrated with himself. Why did he have to be so bloody weak and sickly? Why? He hated people taking care of him.

Tonks smiled, revealing very straight pearly white teeth. "It's ok." She said. "Now just relax." She instructed. Remus obeyed and instantly relaxed his tense muscles. "Now close your eyes." Tonks said softly.

Remus did, as he was told and next thing, he felt Tonk's fingers gently massaging the sides of his head. Suddenly, Remus' head didn't feel like a thousand nails were being hammered into it. His head felt very light, he felt much better. Tonks' fingers moved in small circular motions all over the sides of his temples. Remus felt completely relaxed.

"How does that feel?" He heard her voice ask.

"I feel much better." Remus replied quietly, opening his blue eyes, to see Tonk's sea-green ones staring at him.

She smiled. "See? I told you I could get rid of your headache."

Remus felt himself smiling also and inhaled the vanilla scent that was secreting from, what he guessed, was Tonks. She smelt very good. For a moment, the two just stared at each other in silence. It wasn't an awkward silence either, it was a relaxed, friendly silence…at least Remus thought it was. All of a sudden, Sirius barged through the kitchen door, yawning loudly. He stopped suddenly at the sight of Remus and Tonks.

He smirked. "Well well well, hope I'm not intruding on anything." He said.

Remus and Tonks both immediately looked away from one another and pulled back, Remus' face was a deep shade of scarlet and he noticed, so was Tonks'.

"We weren't doing anything." Tonks said, narrowing her eyes at her cousin.

"Sure." Sirius teased.

Remus suddenly felt very embarrassed and looked away from his good friend, choosing to stare at the floor instead.

"I'm glad you're here though." Tonks said, standing up and walking over. "I wanted to talk to you before I went off to work."

"Really? About what?" Sirius asked interestingly.

Remus forced himself to get up. "I'll leave you two alone then." He said, excusing himself. "Thanks for the…you know." Remus said. He didn't know what to call Tonk's treatment exactly.

She smiled that all too familiar smile that Remus associated her with. "No problem Remus. You just feel better, ok?"

Remus grinned. "Deal."

Sirius looked from one to the other. "Hang on a bloody second! What are you two talking about?" He asked.

Remus and Tonks shared a look then laughed. "I'll see you later Tonks." Remus said.

"See ya Remus." She called back as Remus exited the kitchen.

Remus felt considerably better than he had earlier and marched silently up the stairs to the sanctuary of his room. He sat on the bed, kicked off his shoes, and lay down and stared at the ceiling. He kept seeing Tonks' face, kept hearing her laugh and kept smelling her sweet vanilla scent. Remus shook his head slightly, immediately regretting his decision as he saw little stars appear before his eyes. He recovered from his slight disorientated state and thought about Tonks again. Why was he thinking about her? What did she do to make him think about her day in and day out? Remus was utterly confused. Maybe because she was just so different, such a free spirit, that she just purely fascinated him? No, he didn't think of her as a specimen to be observed and studied. It was something else about her, something else that drew his attention to her whenever she was not around. Ah, well, Remus closed his eyes, maybe it was simply because she was a female and he had not been around females that often, especially ones that he could talk to so easily and didn't run away once they found out about his condition. Yes, that was it. That had to be the reason he thought about her so often. What else could it be?

Later that early evening, Remus was still in his room but he was drenched in cold sweat and was panting slightly. In just a few short minutes, the full moon would emerge and envelope him in it's light, forcing him to transform from a man to an ugly beast. Remus hated transforming. It was very painful, having your bones mutate and your organs shift. Remus gasped and yelped in pain as the light of the moon hit him through his window. He dropped to the floor on his hands and knees and clenched his teeth so hard, he thought he would for sure break them.

Instantly, the tall, slender form of Remus the man transformed into the big, hairy beast that was the wolf. His fingers grew into long, sharp claws, his torso into a fur-covered underbelly, his back arched as it mutated into the back and spine of the wolf, his face grew fur, a long snout and his mouth grew a set of long, sharp teeth. Remus whimpered slightly as the transformation finished. He looked at his paws and looked away ashamed and disgusted. The only comforting thing he felt was at least he still had his mind so, he at least he wouldn't be out on the hunt, looking for innocent flesh to tear and rip apart. He slowly walked to a corner of the room that was completely drenched in darkness. There, he settled himself and waited until dawn approached and the moon would fade from sight.

Remus had only been a wolf about two hours when he smelled a new presence enter Grimmauld Place. He could tell it was a woman and she was very worried. It had to be Tonks. What was she doing here? Remus wished she would have stayed at her home tonight. But why did he care so much that she was here? He didn't care that Molly, Arthur or even the children were here 'cause he was safe, but why did he care so much about Tonks? The question bothered him and he dug his claws into his head in frustration, causing him several nasty cuts. He forgot about how powerful he was. At that moment he hated himself more than he ever had. Eventually, the wolf Remus curled up in the corner and fell into an uneasy and unrestful sleep.

Remus awoke suddenly as he felt himself transforming back into a man. It wasn't nearly as painful as transforming into the wolf but it wasn't exactly pleasant either. The fur disappeared from his body and was replaced by skin. His long snout melted into a human nose and finally, the transformation was complete and Remus lay naked in his human form in the corner of the room. He was glad that he had locked the door. He crawled to his wardrobe and got dressed into some pajamas. He felt awful. He could feel the pain of the cuts caused by transforming all over his body and winced slightly as he got into bed. He fell asleep almost instantly after his head had hit the soft, feathery pillow.

Remus felt he had been asleep for several hours when he was awoken suddenly by someone jiggling the doorknob on his door. He got up gingerly and grabbed his wand off the nightstand. "Alohomora." He said quietly. The door swung open to reveal Tonks.

"Oh, I'm sorry Remus, did I wake you?" She asked worriedly, stepping through the doorway.

Remus smiled and didn't know why he was so happy to see the young woman, but he was. "It's alright."

"I'm sorry. But Molly made me come up here to check on you. You know how she is." Tonks explained.

Remus held up his hand. "It's quite alright Tonks. I knew Molly would be sending someone to check on me. How long have I been asleep?"

"All day. It's nearly dinner."

Remus wasn't shocked; he always slept long after his transformations, which were very tiring.

"Are you hungry? I could bring you up some dinner if you'd like." Tonks offered.

Remus was, indeed, hungry but he was reluctant to have Tonks bring it up to him. "That's ok Tonks. I can just go down-" He started to get out of bed.

"No!" She said forcefully. She swept over and gently pushed Remus back into his bed. "No, I'll get it. Don't worry." She said as she lifted the covers up to his chin.

Before Remus could protest, Tonks had hurried off down the stairs. Remus heard her trip and fall, causing the portrait of Sirius' mother screaming and yelling.

"FILTHY SCUM INVADING MY HOUSE! HALF-BREEDS MUDBLOODS INFECTING MY PUREBLOODED FAMILY'S HOME! DISGUSTING BLOOD TRAITORS-"

The harsh words were cut short by, no doubt, somebody pulling the curtains shut on Mrs. Black. Remus chuckled to himself lightly.

A few minutes later, Tonks arrived with a tray full of food. She looked extremely proud. "I didn't trip once coming up!" She announced happily. She carefully treaded over to the nightstand and set it, surprisingly graciously, down without a single drop spilled.

"How about going down?" Remus asked, sitting up in bed.

Tonks grinned at him sheepishly. "That's a different story." She laughed.

Remus laughed along with her. "Well thank you Tonks for bringing up my dinner." He said. He felt slightly embarrassed at having to have his meal brought up to him.

"No problem." Tonks said. "Here, I also brought you something to help you with your cuts." She said. She lifted a bowl of yellow liquid and a cloth. "It's a solution of strained and pickled murtlap tentacles. It'll soothe your cuts." She informed him.

Remus smiled gratefully as Tonks sat down on the bed,place the cloth in the liquid and run it over several of Remus' cuts on his face. He felt his cuts instantly feel better. "Thank you Tonks." He said as she replaced the cloth into the bowl.

She smiled warmly at him. "You're welcome. Hermione is the one you should thank, though. She looked this up in A Thousand Magical Herbs and Fungi. She's awfully brilliant." She said, now running the cloth over Remus' arms and up his neck.

"Yes she is." Remus said, feeling the pain of his cuts subside. He made a mental note to himself to buy Hermione the biggest chocolate slab he could find.

"Well, I better get downstairs. I got guard duty tonight." She said, placing the bowl of essence of murtlap beside the dinner tray and getting up. "There's plenty more of the murtlap in the bowl if you need it. Feel better Remus." She said.

"Thanks Tonks. I will." Remus said as Tonks waved good-bye and disappeared from view.

Remus ate his dinner hungrily. He was always very hungry after the full moon and Molly's lasagna really hit the spot. When he had finished, he set the tray back onto the nightstand and grabbed the essence of murtlap and put his slashed hand into the bowl. He sighed out of relief and felt much better. After he had covered his cuts in the soothing liquid, he got out of bed and took the tray downstairs. As soon as he entered the kitchen, Molly rushed towards him.

"Oh Remus! You look awful." Molly said as she grabbed the tray from Remus and discarded it into the sink.

"I'm fine Molly, really." He said, trying to reassure her.

But Molly wasn't buying it. "You need to eat." She said as she pushed him towards the kitchen table and made him sit down where Hermoine, Ron and Ginny were also seated.

"But Molly I just had-" Remus started to say but he was cut off by Molly placing a large piece of lasagna on a plate in front of him.

"Now eat. Merlin knows you could use the nourishment." She told him.

Remus sighed in defeat and forced himself to eat. He knew Molly meant well and cared about everyone's health.

"Did the essence of murtlap help at all Professor Lupin?" Hermoine asked.

Remus looked up. "Yes, thank you very much Hermione. How can I ever repay you?"

Hermione blushed. "Oh you don't have to repay me Professor. It was my pleasure."

Ron rolled his eyes at her.

"I saw that Ronald." She said, turning to him.

"Saw what?" Ron asked innocently.

Hermione rolled her eyes and scoffed while Ginny giggled.

"C'mon Hermione, let's get upstairs." Ginny said, clearly trying to avoid the huge argument that was aboutto ensue.

Hermione gave Ron one last seething look before exiting the kitchen with Ginny.

"Girls." Ron muttered, causing Remus to laugh.

Remus, along with everyone who knew them, knew that Ron and Hermione fancied each other but they would rather take care of blast-ended skrewts than admit it. Finally, after forcing down a third helping of Molly's lasagna, Remus went back to his room and flopped down onto his bed and fell asleep, wondering how Tonks was getting along with her guard duty.

A/N: Well, that was Chapter 4. It's my fav. chapter so far so please please tell me what you all think. I know I sound a wee bit greedy begging for your reviews but they really do mean alot to me. So pleeeease review, please?