A/n: Wow, I know I've reached it. So this what a good fanfic feels like. Cool.

Naruto: It's just me today. Yui-chan and Kakashi-sensei are stuck in low times and fuzzy emotions. Everyone this is chapter nine.

Chapter 9-What it Feels Like

'He wanted me to stay…we kissed. What's going on here? Could I really have feelings for him? I just can't. This is weird. No…it's…its…this is scary. I'm afraid. I really am afraid. I do love him.' Yui lay in her bed. She watched as the clock on her nightstand had the numbers upon it change from 3:49am, to 3:50am. It was late.

Since she had gotten home she couldn't think straight. Everything was hazed. Her thoughts showed images she didn't understand. Her mind keeping saying things she didn't want to believe. Her heart sang its own sad song. A sad song of love. It was so sad, but at the same time happy. Happy that after all this time there could be someone. Sad because she wore she'd never love again. She promised she'd never love after he left. She promised she'd never love after her father died. Both those promises to herself had been broken, all because of him. Kakashi really was amazing.

Her hair was a mess. She headed home it suddenly began rain. She'd be leaving in a couple of days, and everyday until she was gone it would be raining. No one told her that. The only one who did was the sky. The rain was undying. The clouds seemed to gathered closer together and become darker. Lighting was frequent and thunder like always followed.

Although the rain was unexpected, it was just what she needed. Somehow the rain always calmed her. It washed away the flames that surrounded her home the night her father had died. She could still remember vividly the large flames, and her murdered father. The fire had become much more violent and her life was in danger. Despite this factor, she was still. Still in shock that in one week her life had been shattered. Her first love had abandoned her, her father was murdered and her home was burning. Then through all of this…it began to rain.

Here was again. Scared and confused. In the last two nights everything she was sure of was changed. The idiot man who trained her, taunted teased and bothered the hell outta her had turned into an affectionate and passionate individual. He gave her thoughts that she'd never dare to have. He made her think in ways she kept herself from thinking. All in two nights, he was someone else. Someone she didn't want to be around. Someone she did want to be around. For what reasons? She loved him. This fact alone scared the living day lights out of her. It terrified her.

She couldn't tell him. What if all in all it was just one massive scheme? The ultimate prank played on her before she was gone for good. He thought this out a head of time. He planned it out carefully. He just had to know what was going on. He planned for the situation in the cave, and for he stay with him the night before. He knew she'd throw him a party and then the rest of the plan would fall in place when she did. It was a game. One she couldn't play back.

Her fingers traced around the lockets shape. Exactly one month and a day ago was when she got it from him. The white diamond was the most precious thing she owned at the time. In it a memory of her dearest father. It was everything to her. She never took it off. Never. She couldn't. She didn't want to. Her wearing all the time even lead to having it fall down the bathroom drain once. She refused to leave her home until it was returned around her neck. It was that day she and Kakashi spent the entire morning together. No training was involved. She dropped her locket in the drain, and him being a kind and good gentleman made efforts to retrieve it. That and it had cost him much money. (A/n: If you check on the item is $200.00) She remembered that too.

"Oh my GOD!" She screamed. Kakashi was about to knock on the door when he heard the girl's scream.

"Yui!" She called in worry. What was going on in there!

"NO!" She screamed.

"Yui! Open up!" He shouted on the other side of the door. Yui opened the other. He looked at her. He simply stared. She wasn't in any danger. She was unharmed. What happened? "Are you okay?"

"No!"

"What's wrong?" He stepped in the apartment on full alert.

""It's horrible." She cried.

"What?"

"My locket fell down the drain."

"Oh...WHAT!" Kakashi quickly ran in the bathroom and saw the sink water running. "…" All that money gone. It was hard on him. He wasn't exactly a spend thrift, and for all his money to literally fall down the drain was a headache. A heartbreak. The equivalent to murder. "It fell…?"

"Uh huh."

"Crap." Kakashi sat on the bathroom floor. "You have any tools?"

"Some." She said standing behind him.

"Go and get them. We'll be here for a bit." Kakashi rolled up his sleeves and changed his expression. He became more serious to the situation at hand.

After an hour and a half, some loose pipes and some broken ones, the precious gift was returned to its owner. "Oh thank you Kakashi!" Yui hugged the man tightly not realizing he was very much enjoying the closeness of her. "You're the best!" She said, still hugging him.

"Your welcome. Anything for you." He said to her. She released him and smiled.

"You would put it back on for me?" She asked with a smile.

"Sure." She handed him the locket and turned around allowing him the chance to do so. He moved her hair and placed the locket to where it once belonged. "There. Try not to have that happen again. That was a headache to get you."

"Okay. Thanks again." She turned to him and smiled. Kakashi blushed slightly. It was okay being she couldn't see it on his face. "You're really a sweetheart. Why can't you be this way all the time?"

"It's not funny." She simply responded.

"…" They sat there on the cold and wet tile fore a while. Yui jumped up and shouted. "Training! We completely forgot!"

"It's fine." He stood up and gathered his things. "I don't feel like it today anyway. That's why I came, as to tell you so."

"Oh. You can't just blow off training when you feel lime it!"

"Sure I can. I'm the teacher." He simply stated. Yui frowned and jumped up to face him.

"That's not enough reason!" She said.

"Yeah it is."

"No it isn't."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"NO!"

"Okay, no."

"Yes! CRAP!" She slapped her forehead and the jounin laughed. "It's not funny."

"Whatever. I'll see you tomorrow Yui." He headed out her apartment when she called him back.

"Let me take you out to eat." She offered.

"Why?"

"Well, today you're practically my hero." She smiled. "You tell anyone about this and you'll be a dead man." She frowned.

"Lunch and a threat? How can I turn that offer down?"

"Great. Let me go get my stuff." She picked up her bag and stepped outside.

"Yui." He pointed.

"What?"

"You sure you wanna go in those?" He pointed referring to her silky pajamas that stopped at half her thighs.

"Hm? HUH? "She cried when she realized it.

"I mean I like to see you it. It looks good on you, but I don't think other women will appreciate it when their men notice your nipples through the silk."

"…" Yui blushed furiously and stepped inside. She changed her attire and made an attempt to slap him in his face. MADE AN ATTEMPT. Which mean it wasn't successful. "You're a pervert."

"No, I was just being honest."

"Whatever." She walked ahead and he caught up to her.

"Don't leave me behind." He said and held her hand. Yui looked to him and he smiled. They headed off together. Through the entire time, Yui did not object to holding his hand. Actually she liked it.

'Since when did I like him this much?' She asked herself while eating with him. 'I really, really like him. So much…' She thought. She looked to her plate and realized her dumplings were gone. "YOU PRICK! I HATE YOU!" She screamed as he smiled to her.

"What makes you think I did it?" Yui shouted at him and he laughed.

It finally hit her that it was a long time ago she liked him. She never wanted to admit to herself that she liked the silly man, but it was a fact. A fact she pushed away and hid from. Now it was resurfacing and taking over. This time, she couldn't run from it. 'And I won't…I'll let you know now…be honest with you and myself…I do love you.'

Yui rose up from her bed and walked over to her dresser. She looked in her mirror and saw there were dried up tears on her cheeks. The night before he wiped her tears away. He didn't wish for her cries and comforted her. The more and more she looked at it, the more she realized she really did love him. After this evening, she would deny it no more. She picked up her keys and headed out the door. A wet walk would relax her tensed heart and mind.

Kakashi sat in the rain. He was sitting on the same bench he gave Yui her birthday gift. He had been there since evening. The length of time was three hours. He went home after he was unable to find her. Midnight approached and he found himself unable to sleep. When he could no longer tolerate being lost he got up and headed to the park. Three hours in the rain. Only God knows why hadn't began to sneeze yet.

The amount of rain it was raised flood warning. The village streets would be nothing but large puddle when the rain was to die out. When that would happen he didn't know. No one seemed to know when the rain would stop. They all knew it was much though. It was heavy. It was constant. Undying as well. Just like his confusion. It was too much.

Not too many times had he felt at such lost. A few times, but not too many times. Times he felt like this was when Obito had died. When his sensei had died. His father. And when Sasuke had left to Orochimaru. Those were times he couldn't find himself. Those were times when he was lost. Those were times when there was no answer to his pain. He really had gone through a lot.

For a woman to be able to hear his words and honestly care wasn't enough. For a woman to hear his words of pain and sorrow and feel it that was near but still not quite. For a woman to feel and hear his words, and understand the pain…that was it. She understood him. Even though she'd complain and yell at him, she understood. She did. She connected as well. It was out of the ordinary but undisputable.

Kakashi had a tendency to never be close to people. His students were his only close relationships. Sure he had his comrades, his fellow jounin and Iruka, but they were different. They were his 'friends' one could say, but they weren't the way he'd look at them. They weren't close. He'd call Iruka for lunch, sure. Maybe he'd listen to Kurenai complain about Asuma. Yes. He'd even do Gai's silly challenges, but they weren't what he'd call the closet companions. No. In the short time she was there, she was his closet companion. 'I've become use to her presence.'

He sat under the tree reading his book. He looked away from it occasionally to see if she was around. No, she didn't arrive yet. To the bone of it, it bothered him. She was never late. She was never. If she'd blow off practice she'd tell him in advance. She just wouldn't blow it off. Maybe something happened. Maybe something horrible. Is she safe? She is okay?

Kakashi arose and put away his book. He'd have to go look for her.

"Sorry I'm late." She said running up. He looked at her and sighed heavily. She was alright. Thank God. "I overslept." He couldn't help but poke fun at her.

"Having naughty dreams about me?" He asked. She tried to kick him in the knee but he only caught her ankle. "Bad girl. So bad." She frowned and he dropped it. "I'm kidding."

"You kid too much." She walked up to him and sighed. "I am rather tired though."

"Another nightmare?"

"…yes…this time…I couldn't see daddy's face." Her hands covered her face as to hide the welling tears. She wasn't weak, or a crybaby, but painful thoughts of her father killed her insides. An autumn leaf fell and landed at their feet. By this time Kakashi was holding the woman. He felt he needed to comfort her. He felt he was meant to. He could never tell why, but didn't fight it. She didn't either. She'd let him hold her. She'd let him comfort her. She wouldn't' fight back comfort. For a long time she didn't allow anyone to hold her. Now…she was allowing Kakashi to. If not him, then who? If not now, when? With no answers to that Yui never disputed their closeness. This was one thing she'd tolerate from him.

He looked up and could only hear rain. He could only see rain. Still, through all the water pouring from the sky he could see her image. He could make out who it was. He could sense her aura. Only she had such an aura. He stood up and walked towards the image. She had no umbrella. She was as drenched as he was. Who wouldn't be walking in the rain?

"You'll get ill.." He said to her. The rain fell harder when his voice reached her ears. Lighting came on cue, and thunder as always followed. Her jade eyes were the only light in the dark night, and poring rain.

"You wanted me to be with you tonight, so I'm here." She said. Her eyes didn't meet his.

"Just where…where are we going?" He asked her. He touched her shoulder.

"I don't know." The rain fell harder and the silence that followed was lethal. They both felt if any words were said lightning would strike them dead.

"I hate the fact it feels so empty. I don't know what I'm supposed to think. I can't…I can't say what I need to. Something…if I say…something is wrong."

"What's wrong is that I cannot come to terms with my life. In this sad reality I exist in, I'm running from everything hoping…someday…someone will follow." Tears began to fall from her eyes. To Kakashi they were like crystals from the sky. He could see them despite the rain. "I can't have someone follow if I don't stop running to greet people." He pulled her close and held her.

"Please stop running." He said. The rain poured harder.

"..,I have." He looked into her glowing green eyes and brought his arms around her waist. He leaned in once more, even more gentle then the first time. For the second time that night, he kissed her. She kissed back. Although cold and drenched the touch of their lips was heated and burning. The cold feelings of their bodies could not compare to the scorching feeling of their lips. When they parted they looked deep into each other's eyes. Nothing else mattered. No one else needed to care. "I love you…"

The rain fell…

Sasuke sat by Kakashi's bed. Kakashi slept peacefully. He had his mask on. Sasuke dared not look at his face. Even at this point. The jounin had sickened himself. He had caught the flu. The young man looked to his teacher and frowned. Love made people stupid. He hated the fact that someone has talented as his sensei could be so moronic.

Naruto entered the apartment holding two containers. One had tea in it, the other had chicken soup. Sakura had made it for Kakashi. Naruto poured the green tea for himself and his friend and took a seat across from him. "Is it too hot?" He asked.

"No." Was his response. Naruto's eyes meet Sasuke as he took another sip. No words were said between them. They both knew why they were there.

"Love is like that?"

"I wouldn't know."

"Right." He said and stared at his sensei. "He's an old fool in love. You think he'll ever say so to her?"

"You ask me like I care."

"You do."

"I don't."

"You say you don't care for many things, but I know it's a lie. You can't lie to me Sasuke."

"Say what you think."

"If you didn't care for such things at all, Sakura and I…we'd still…" He looked away and sighed. "I'm talking too much again. "

"Yes you are." Although Sasuke would never admit it to him, he wanted to hear it. He wanted to know what exactly went on between them whilst he was gone. "I told you to try and cut that out."

"I am trying." He sipped another cup of the green tea and looked out the window. The rain still poured.

'I feel really tired. Last night seems like a dream…but I remember it all so well…we kissed. I felt it.' Yui's heavy eye lids arose and showed Sakura. She sat there by her bed side. "Hi." She said. The covers were up to her chin and outside she could hear the undying rain.

"What you and Kakashi-sensei did was stupid! What were you doing out there?" She asked with the deepest concern.

"I…I stopped running."

"What?"

"I love him. I told him I did."

"…"

"I couldn't just leave it anymore. I needed him to know. It's amazing how light hearted I feel now. Its like I'll never come down to earth again." She rolled over in the bed and her back faced Sakura.

"Your actions were still careless. You could have caught pneumonia." Sakura frowned.

"I could die knowing I've freed myself. I love someone. I'm…I know what it feels like."

"What?"

"I know what it feels like. Before I just refuse to feel it because I was scared. I was terrified. Honestly, I still am. Now…now I can feel, and even though I'm a little anxious…I'm okay. I loved someone and he hurt me. Soon after my father left me. I've just been so anxious since then, but now I'm okay."

"Even though you're scared?"

"Yeah. I'm okay. It's okay to be afraid, as long as someone is with you. I don't have to run alone anymore." Sakura looked to the floor. "I can have doubts about many of things in life, but not as much now. Hell, maybe never again." She sighed.

"Doubts…what if you hurt someone else? Someone you always cared for? What if you hurt them?"

"Sakura?" Yui sat up and looked at the girl. Tears poured from her eyes.

"I want to be with Naruto, but I don't want to hurt Sasuke." Sakura held herself and cried. Yui looked to her, seeing that even under her nose; others suffered painful feelings and confusion.

"Sakura."

"Yui-nee-chan!" She cried and placed her head in the woman's lap. Yui ran her fingers through the crying girl's hair. Her sadness was similar to her own.

A/N: I know I've used a lot of metaphors for Yui's feelings so I'll put it in a nutshell. She didn't want to love. Her first love left her and her father died. She didn't want to love again. Kakashi changed that. He let her love again, and now instead of always hiding in fear of love, she's just to be happy. I know I could have said that sooner, but hey I like metaphor's they're cool. And the Sakura and Naruto thing, its a little love triangle as you can tell. She told you her feelings plain and simple. The next chapter is the finale so I'll see you all then Later.