Disclaimer: I dont own it so deal :runs away crying:
Look et Look et i'm updating! eh heh heh many apologizes i moved so i haven't even been able to get on the computer for weeks! ugh i have been going insane and if it weren't for sonic the hedgehog i probably would be. GUESS WHAT FOLKS! they released that loveable blue hedgy-hoggy for ps2 and i think x-box too not sure but go get it the game is so 90's i love it!
anyways somebody actually asked me a question in a review i was all like "whoa man!" :tear: so touched you care lol so here it is
From: prongs-gurl202113
wow. i really loved this chapter! but i was wondering, how long is this story going to be?
)i(rebecca)i(
answer: I'm not sure how long this story is going to be I don't know maybe like 5 or 6 more chapters we'll see I doubt it will be much longer considering Naraku is dead they know they love one another and KIKYO! is dead. Thanks for reviewing :D
also tanky tanky to Aria-wolfstar and of course my editor SurfinDiva which is her name on the site and i was confusing with her email address eh heh heh yeah anyways she has great stories so if you are looking for something to read i highly recomend it.
Thank you Chelsea aka tobokeru or SurfinDiva which ever which ever because no one can write one of these alone :claps for you:
Long Awaited Confessions chapter 9 - Fears revealed
It was the eve before they were going to head home and all were asleep except one. Miroku lay awake gazing up at the stars as he let his mind wander. He brought up his right hand and stared into it as he reflected mostly on the one thing he had yet to tell the others. That the wind tunnel which was both a curse and a gift, had yet to disappear.
Flashback
As Naraku evaporated into oblivion Miroku felt his hand begin to throb. It was increasingly more intense as Naraku spoke his last words and all at once was gone. Miroku turned away from the rest of the group as Shippo squealed "Is-is it over?" Kagome ran to Shippo during which Miroku carefully removed his rosary and shifted aside the cloth which covered the gaping hole. Expecting a tunnel of air to come shooting out and sucking up its surrounding Miroku was puzzled when there was no disturbance at all. Turning his hand slowly to look at the hole he found that it was about a size smaller and the outer ring was glowing a faint purple. Hearing Sango's voice snapped him out of his chain of thoughts and he quickly hid his hand behind his back. As Kagome hugged him he lightly patted her back as to not draw any suspicion or alarm. Miroku wrapped the rosary around his forearm once more after Kagome had released him and headed toward Inuyasha. As soon as he heard Kagome tell Inuyasha her true feelings Miroku decided he would bring up the issue of his wind tunnel at a more appropriate time.
End flashback
Miroku sighed deeply as he began to lift off the rosary once more. He was half way there, moving
slow as to not make much noise when someone began to stir. Allowing the rosary to flop back
against his arm Miroku turned to see Sango staring back at him. In the light of the moon Sango's
eyes were bright and a glow as she innocently watched him from her sleeping bag. Tilting her head
slightly to one side Sango quietly asked "Miroku? What are you still doing up?" Miroku gave a shrug
before replying "Just thinking" "About what?" Sango said standing up walking over to Miroku with a
blanket wrapped tightly around her shoulders. Sango plopped down next to Miroku whose gaze
was fixed skyward. "A lot of things" he mumbled. She joined with his stargazing "Well if you ever
need someone to listen then ask me..." she paused before adding, "What a glorious night" Miroku
smiled and whispered back, "That it is" He smiled as Sango inched closer. Absent-mindedly he
began to twirl the beads of the rosary with his hand as he thought of what he would do now that
Naraku was dead. Sango thinking along the same lines began to gnaw on her bottom lip. "Miroku,
what are you going to do now? I mean, with Naraku gone and all our little group has lost it's
purpose" Ceasing fiddling with his rosary Miroku turned to look at Sango. Her bottom lip was
almost completely enveloped in her mouth as she fixed her eyes on his. "I'm not sure what I want to
do" he replied honestly. "Oh, are you going to back to being a monk and traveling?" Sango asked.
"Iiye, that was before and before it didn't matter" he said his gaze shifting from her to the ground.
"And why would that be?" Sango said her curiosity fueled by the strange way Miroku was acting. He
was far from his usual self he sat hunched over eyes clouded as he thought but something was
missing. The usual shine that was always found in his eyes was absent leaving what seemed to be
vacant violet eyes. She stooped looking over when he turned back to her opening his mouth to
speak. "Then seems so long ago before I met any of you, I could just wonder from place to place
and not care having no real purpose to afraid to get close to anyone in fear that the curse would take
me as soon as I did. But now Naraku is dead, it's just-" Miroku stopped abruptly and looked down
at his right hand before continuing "Sango I-its still there, the Kazaana is still there, smaller yes but
still there and it's not really working. I don't know if the curse as been lifted or what but, what if its
not gone what if-if it can still..." he trailed off as Sango saw something she thought she never see a
tear threatening to drop from Miroku's eye. "Sango I can't, I can't just leave I don't want to either I
have people I care about and who care about me. What if killing Naraku didn't do anything. What if
my fate is sealed and all of this has been for nothing?" he said his voice thick with raw emotion.
"Miroku..." whispered Sango. Miroku the one who was always there to listen and help you with your
problems and always had a smile on his face was crying. His sobs were very few, short and quiet
almost unnoticeable except for a single tear that was gliding gently down his cheek. It the moon light
it shined brightly contrasting the semi-darkness surrounding them. Sango eyes remained transfixed on
the tear as it traveled down the slope of his face and dropped off his chin. It seemed momentary
frozen in mid-air before if dropped onto Sango's hand. The tear was still warm but her heart felt
frozen what was she supposed to say what was she supposed to do as she tried to figure this out
Miroku spoke again. "I'm scared Sango really scared what if I have no control over my fate? I
know I'm a letch and all but all these years I thought I had no choice. I thought my life was doomed
to be short so why not get the most out of it but it never really meant anything to me it never helped
to shrink the fear bottled up in my chest. I traveled everywhere seeing youth at its peak and all these
happy couples with their children thinking there is one thing I'll never have. And then I didn't care I
was young an care free out to get whatever I could. I'm still young but if the curse remains then how
long do I have left. I have no problem with death it is a concept I can handle and something we must
all one day face but the dying the dying part is the problem where all the fear is and remains the more
you think about it the worse it get s but I-I can't help but think about it." Miroku pounded his fist into
the ground. More tears brimmed his eyes. "Over the years this fear has grown larger and larger until
it felt as though it would burst forth and consume me. B-but then something happened I met up with
some people who automatically accepted me and soon after an amazing girl and I began to fall for
her but kept pushing her away because I knew there was no point in getting close to her just to
break her heart with my departure" Miroku stopped as another tear leaked for his eyes and a look
of fear filled his face. "Miroku…." Sango embraced him "Miroku I don't know what to say but
please-please stop crying I-I know I can't even begin to fathom how you feel but I'm all too familiar
with pain and fear." Sango paused a tear dripped from her eyelashes and she gripped Miroku
tighter. "I know it must be a horrible feeling but I want to help you and ease your fear. We will find a
way to fix the wind tunnel and break that curse I swear it! Just as soon as we get back to Kaede's
you and I will go straight to see that monk friend of yours and get this all straightened out I promise I
promise it will all be ok" Sango laid her head on Miroku's shoulder as she felt his arms wrap around
her. "Miroku..?" Sango said a little above a whisper. "Miroku there is something I must say I-I care
for you deeply in fact I out and out love you with the whole of my heart and I don't care what will
happen in the future all I care about is being with you and no one else. I love you and there is nothing
else to it. So please don't cry or worry just be happy and live for what is happening in the now not
what might happen later. Ok?" Tears filling her eyes again. Miroku looked at her shocked. "You…?
you love me? After all those slaps in the face and hits with the hiraikotsu and you love me?" His eyes
regained some of the happiness that always filled them. "Sango, Sango my sweet I love you too as I
have since we met. And how would I not you being so beautiful and strong I was surprised to find
you weren't already taken. I remember when that prince asked you to marry him I wanted so badly
to suck him into my wind tunnel and be done with it but I had to keep my cool wanting your only
your happiness. Sango how can we be together if the curse still remains. What future do you have
with me?" Miroku's sparkling eyes drained once more.
Sango shifted into his lap and leaned back against his chest. Gazing up at him Sango wiped a tear
away as it tried to escape down Miroku's cheek and simply stated "Miroku I love you and there is
no changing or denying that. We can't pick who we love but even if I could I would still chose you"
Miroku gave Sango what had to be the purest, happiest smile she had ever seen before planting a
short, sweet kiss on her lips. The second he lifted his lips from hers they met again as Sango kissed
him back passionately. Seconds turned into minutes as the two remained lip-locked as there troubles
melted away as if they where released like butterflies from there cocoons into the air all that was left
was a slightly nervous feeling which was greatly overpowered but love. Sango broke the kiss due to
lack of oxygen. Breathing in deeply Sango smiled and rested her forehead on his. "I love you" she
breathed. Smiling brightly Miroku replied "I love you too Sango, I love you too"
Yes, yes a little sappy a little cute but i had to do it i aplogize anyways if you haven't noticed in my story where the is love there is action. so YAY! anyways i will get working on the next chapter right away. oh and don't forget to... REVIEW please and thank you