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And now to continue with the show... part two my friends...
Eternally Yours: The One You Love (Part 2)
She flew up to Wing Zero and Heero, and glanced into the cockpit.
"Wait Heero," she came fully into his view her body hovering above the door.
"Hn." Heero barely looked up from his tasks.
"Tell me why it's necessary for you to go too." Relena's eyes pleaded with him for some sort of reasonable answer.
"Hn." He looked up to her this time.
"Libra is going down; there isn't any reason to keep on fighting. My brother, Milliardo, and the white fang have been defeated." she told him, still hovering at the door to the cockpit.
"Hn. I'll make you a bet. Zechs doesn't think that he's lost. What's more I doubt him or Treize are ever going to allow this battle to end." A small trace of a smile danced across his lips.
"What?" Her eyes widened with curiosity.
"That's why I've got to go and fight them."
"Do you really think if you go the war is really going to come to an end?" She looked at him stubbornly.
"Huh?" She was shocked at Heero's next movement. He leant forward and pulled her towards him; his hand placed around the back of her space helmet, and brought her half way into the cockpit.
"I'll defeat Zechs and I'll go get Treize." There was a strong determination blazing in his deep Prussian blue eyes. "Then the war will be over. Afterwards, if you make it out of here, there will finally be peace. This is the only thing I can do for you."
"Heero…" she looked at him with strong passionate eyes.
"I promised to protect you. But in order to protect you and the earth sphere, Relena, I have no choice but to fight."
"No…" she said her voice and eyes once again pleading with him.
"Please let me fight."
"No. I won't. No way. Heero, you're planning to die aren't you?" Heero suddenly flicked down her visor on the helmet and glared at her with a strange almost sad look in his beautiful eyes.
"Believe in me." He pushed her away from the cockpit sending her gliding slowly across the docking room. Her face was one of shock and bewilderment. He closed the cockpit as she glided further away.
"Heero…" she called out as she reached out for the nearest railing and grabbed a tight hold of it. "I do. Believe in you. Yes I do."
"Goodbye Relena…" He said as he took off in wing Zero, leaving her safely behind.
"Heero…" she shouted after him, her voice echoing through the docking bay
-8-
Relena sat upright on her bed, cold sweat dripping off her body. What a dream. The dream was of a memory she had, when Heero had rescued her from the Libra ship and was about to take off on a suicide mission. Her heart swelled at the remembrance of her past. A lot had changed since that year. The year she had followed Heero around, chasing after him like a puppy dog.
After that year she had settled down as Vice Foreign Minister, he had taken off, maybe trying to start a life of his own, she didn't know exactly what it was that his goal was, but what she did know was that once Heero had a goal nothing would stop him achieving it. Many years ago, when she was merely fifteen, Relena fell in love with Heero Yuy.
The boy was so mysterious, dangerous, and heartbreakingly handsome; she had been drawn to him immediately. She had always wondered what her classmates had seen in the school 'bad boys', but now she knew.
Heero had threatened to kill her many times, and she had known that he was not joking. The 'perfect soldier' did not have time to joke around.
For years, she dreamt and wished for something that had never been or would be. A lone tear slid down made its way down her cold cheek. She grabbed the teddy bear he had given her for her 16th Birthday and held it close to her. She always held that little bit of hope, that Heero one day would realise how much she loved him and return the love that she had always given him.
But realisation was starting to dawn on her, she now realised that Heero would never feel for her the way she did him and he would never look at her with such love and compassion as he looked at Lafeia.
He would never be hers.
She knew that she needed to get over him but that seemed impossible at the minute. How can you get over the only man you have ever loved? She pushed the teddy away from her embrace and held it at arms length studying it carefully. I thought this was a sign Heero, a sign that you cared. She pulled the teddy's arms apart in her rage, making a tear appear at the seams. She threw the teddy across the room; it hit the door with a light thud and fell to the ground.
A small, white, folded up piece of paper popped out of the opening from the tear. Huh? What is this? Relena thought as she climbed off the large four-poster bed and walked slowly across the room to retrieve the paper. She picked it up carefully, reading the messy scrawl at the front, Relena it read. That is Heero's writing! She thought as her heart began to thud in her chest, its rhythm progressing in speed. She opened the letter with shaky hands, unfolding it carefully.
Dear Relena,
I do not know when you will receive this message; I just hope that you do not miss it because in this letter I will reveal things that I will never be able to tell you in person for whatever reason. I hope, at the moment, we are still friends, but it is not very likely, as I have sealed the letter inside of the bear hoping that if we fall out you will find it, the way you may have there now.
Getting to the point, Relena I know, and have known for quite a while, of your feelings for me. I am sorry I have let you suffer for such a long time and have been unwilling to face you and your feelings, but I do not know how to handle them. Relena I love you, but…
Her heart skipped a beat. He loves me! He does love me, oh crap it is followed by 'but' that cannot be good.
… I do not love you in the way you love me. I love you merely as a friend. You will always be a friend of mine, and I apologize but I cannot see you as any more than that.
Relena you must understand. You have such an amazing life ahead of you, and that life does not contain me, not any more as a friend anyway. You must move on with your life. Forget about me. I am merely a soldier with much spilt blood on my hands, I cannot wash this blood off my hands, it is stained onto me, is a part of me, and therefore a soldier like me is definitely not worthy of a leading role in your life. A life with the 'perfect soldier' would never be the life you have ever dreamed of or anywhere near that…
She stopped reading and examined the last sentence again. Oh but Heero, any life with you is the life I have always dreamed about.
… I too must move on with my separate life, and I hope that one day you will accept this fate of ours and agree that right now, going in separate ways is definitely the right path for both of us. Trust me in this decision Relena. I hope we can still be friends one day. I apologize again for any pain I may have caused you in not returning your love.
Heero.
Her hands moved gradually over the piece of paper as she sat down slowly on the bed. She felt numb inside and her mind was flooded with memories, all of her memories of times she had been with Heero, the memories that she held so closely to her heart.
-8-
Duo stalked down the stairs to the main reception area slowly, he was still half-asleep, but he had slept in and Heero was bound to give him crap about it already.
He turned the corner to the reception area and saw Heero sitting on a sofa, sipping a mug of coffee, his body tense, ready for anything to happen. He's always prepared for everything and anything.
"Hey man. Why the hell do you have to get up so early? It's half four in the morning. Half four in the morning! You know what we're meant to be doing? Eh?" Duo asked his friend.
"Going on our mission." Heero replied coolly.
"Hmph!" Duo glared at him dangerously. He tended to be moody on these early mornings, "No! Sleeping man! Sleeping, don't you ever do it?" he examined Heero closely, sitting down next to him. Obviously not, considering the state you are in. Heero emerged from his seat and stood up grabbing his small baggage.
"Let's go." He said before walking out the two main doors.
"Huh!" Duo asked, annoyed that he had only sat down and now had to get up again. "Oh man!"
They walked to the car, Heero silently, and Duo muttering curses towards Heero under his breath.
"Stupid bast… who does he think he is… can't even rest… for one minute… oh no! No, Duo cannot rest… The God of Death… show him…"
"Duo!" Heero said coldly, "I can hear you perfectly well. Just shut up would you. The God of Death will show me nothing." Duo blushed and huffed silently, sitting in the back of the car with Heero. He pushed himself up close to the edge of the car; I'm keeping as far away from 'the iceman' as possible, he thought as he stared out of the window, his arms folded stubbornly across his broad chest.
Heero glanced across at his friend and sighed deeply. Is it possible that he is the same age as me? Eighteen? He's acting like he's eight. He was shook out of his thoughts as the driver wound down the screen that hid them from his view, in the back of the limo, and turned to face him.
"Master Yuy. Are we ready to go?"
"Yes Pagan. Thank you." Heero answered politely as the driver turned around. Heero scowled, silently fuming at Relena. Why did she always have to be so awkward? Why couldn't she just let him drive his own car to the shuttle port? He hated being driven anywhere, depending upon someone else; it was almost too much for him to bear. Independence was the only thing that kept him sane in this world, that and maybe… Lafeia. Well at least Relena has not sent me in that pathetic, dopey, girly pink car of hers. That would have been too much.
The car pulled up at the entrance to the spaceport.
"Okay Master Yuy, Master Maxwell. Have a nice flight." Pagan had turned around, and was now eyeing Duo suspiciously, who was still sitting with his arms folded and a childish frown placed upon his face.
"Thank you Pagan." Heero muttered, loud enough for the driver to hear him. "Send Relena my thanks." He forced a smile onto his face and jumped out of the car, longing for fresh air. Duo followed him, looking a bit more pleased to be at the spaceport. Both of them hated being stuck in cars together. They didn't know why, it was just strangely uneasy. They both stood to watch Pagan's car pull away and leave the gates to the shuttle port car park.
"Here we go." Duo said swinging his arm around Heero's shoulder and pushing ever so slightly towards the entrance to the port. Heero glared at him silently but didn't bother pushing his friend's arm off his shoulders. It was strangely comforting to know that Duo was there, for support.
He shuddered.
Did I just say that? Okay that must be the first time I have ever wanted Duo to accompany me. The only reason I asked him to come was because Lady Une most definitely would not have allowed me to go on my own, and he was easy to ditch if I ever needed to be on my own. The other pilots are nearly impossible to lose. Their eyes are constantly alert. I'm not saying Duo's not as good at guarding as the other pilots, no, he's just well, more trusting in me.
They both boarded their private shuttle within the next fifteen minutes. It had taken Heero a while to persuade the shuttle pilots to let him and Duo drive on their own. He managed it in the end somehow, and here they where sitting silently, floating in space, with just the power of a space engine to keep them from drifting into oblivion. Their destination was colony L3, their mission, to retrieve the girl, Heero's girl, where she was on the large colony neither of them knew.
"Ya know it's going to take a while to find her. If she's been kidnapped, she's gonna be somewhere secluded, and it's gonna be hard trying to locate her." Duo said breaking the silence that had settled upon them.
"Hn. I'm aware of that Duo. But thanks for reminding me." Heero said keeping his eyes closed. He was so tired, but no, he could not sleep until she was safe, with him. Then, then he could sleep.
"No problem, buddy." Duo said his voice a whisper, as he too was tired, and drifting slowly into a peaceful sleep.
Heero opened his eyes and glared at his friend enviously. He has everything he wanted. A home for him to return to, with a girl (who was by the way, safe at the minute) who he loved and who loved him back, the sparkling diamond ring in his back pocket, waiting for the right time to propose to his Hilde. It was funny when he thought about it. Everyone knew he was going to propose. Everyone knew about the ring, and yet he hadn't told anyone. Another funny thing would be Duo getting married, hah! Now that was a thing he would pay to see.
"Heero?" Duo opened his eyes and stared at his friend.
"Hn." Heero answered, he wasn't aware that Duo was awake.
"Will you be my best man? Like when I have this whole wedding thing planned out, ya know with Hilde and me. I mean, I couldn't think of asking anyone else but you man."
One minute, he knows that I know about the whole proposal thing. One minute had he proposed already?
"You've proposed already?" he asked. Duo blushed slightly and scratched the back of his head.
"Well not yet. But soon, very soon."
"Yeah sure, I'll do that for you Duo." Duo smiled impishly at this before leaning back onto his headrest and closing his eyes once again.
The shuttle jerked slightly and shook for a few minutes sending them both forward in their seats. Duo grabbed the control panel and directed the shuttle towards the colony in front of them.
"It won't be long before we reach the colony. I reckon an hour or so. Meanwhile man, you seriously gotta get some sleep."
-8-
He could not sleep. He tried, well not very hard, but he still tried. However, his mind kept leading him down the same path. To her, to the one he loved. This path would then lead to so many of his unanswered questions. How had they broken through Relena's security barrier? Sure, the one guy, Adam, his blood boiled at the thought of this man, who was trying to ruin everything that seemed to be going so well for once in his life.
Adam was Relena's guest. However, he couldn't have done the whole kidnapping by himself; there must have been others, right? Why did he do it? What did he want with her? He knew that the answer to the last question might lead to the incident in the alley. She had been running from 'them'. Who 'they' where he did not know, and why 'they' wanted her was most likely because, she either had something that they wanted or she had gotten herself somehow involved with their plans.
He sighed deeply as he remembered the event that took part only a few nights ago.
"Heero?" Lafeia walked over to his bed, she had come from her room, situated right next to Heero's; exactly where he had wanted it. He glanced at his clock on the table; it read 2:19 a.m. He was about to ask her why the hell she was out of her bed at that time when he noticed she was trembling, not only with the cold but with fear.
"What's wrong?" he asked unable to keep the concern from wavering in his voice. She came closer and knelt down beside his bed.
"I had a nightmare. Only I do not think it was a nightmare… Heero they're coming. They want me again." She was still trembling, her face, from what he could see in the dark, which was quite a lot thanks to his great vision, was extremely pale, her eyes were wide with fear and her voice shook uneasily.
She closed her eyes and her body rocked slightly with the searing pain in her head.
She could suddenly see them clearly; running after her, following her into the dark alley, the bullets penetrating into her back, she felt the pain again, maybe not as painful as then, but she felt it.
"They aren't finished with me yet. I know too much Heero, I know way too much…" Heero's hands shot out and shook her shoulders gently, making her eyes fly open as she found his face in the dark.
"Calm down a second. Who are after you? And what do you know?" The intensity in his Prussian blue eyes seemed to pierce right into her. She felt the emotion seeping through her body further, she was scared, no not scared, petrified, and she didn't know the exact reason. This terrified her more than anything did. She shook her head violently in response to his question, biting her lower lip.
"No…" she continued shaking her head, "I don't know. They want me Heero." She looked at him, the fear completely evident in her eyes. "They want me dead." The last part she whispered and, it was barely audible but Heero heard it.
Heero watched her as she stopped trembling and fell deep into her thoughts.
"The red claw." She said suddenly and looked at him expectantly. "Does that mean anything to you?" Heero shook his head faintly and she started trembling again. A single tear fell from her mesmerizing teal eyes and trickled down her cheek. He lifted his hand and wiped it away gently. Gazing into her intently.
"I know too much…" She stopped and looked up at him in confusion, "it's not fair because in all honesty, I know nothing, yet. I-I can't remember anything." Sadness whelmed over her face replacing the previous fear, and Heero pulled his quilts away and drew her closer to him.
"Get in." His voice was strangely cold.
"Huh?" She looked at him, hesitantly.
"Just get in. I won't do anything, I promise." At this, she smiled down at him and climbed into his bed beside him. She snuggled her body against his and immediately everything seemed as though it would be okay." With Heero by her side the whole time, it seemed that nothing could go wrong.
"I've missed you in this bed." Heero said when she had settled down. "Since you got your own room, I've been sort of lonely." He laughed but it was so quiet it was nearly silent; usually he preferred to be lonely
"I've missed you too." She kissed him lightly on the lips before laying her head against his chest and falling into a nightmare-free sleep.
"I love you." Heero mouthed the three words he knew would take him a long time to say aloud. Nevertheless, for now, mouthing would have to do, and it helped strange.
He opened his eyes suddenly.
"She knew, the whole time. She knew something like this would happen." God dammit if only I had listened to her, been a bit more protective of her, not let her slip out of my sight.
"Huh? What did she know?" Duo's eyes blinked open as he stared at him suspiciously, "And who is she?"
An excerpt from Chapter 5 : Memories from a Painful Past
He studied her carefully. She was so fragile and breakable, yet at the same time, he knew she was strong. How was that possible? He watched her as she sat upright on the bed, coughing and spluttering. It was then that he noticed the dark crimson splotches of blood upon the damp sheets. His eyes grew wide with shock and worry. God, look at her. She's really ill. She needs to be tended to properly. She stood weakly in front of him and he grabbed her arm to steady her. She tried to glare at him, but her lack of energy stopped her and she ended up throwing him a strange, confused glance. She hates me. There you've done it Adam, the only girl who has ever really mattered to you, and you've gone and turned her against you.
But you were just following orders… a voice in his head told him.
"Lafeia…" Adam said worriedly as she spluttered a large amount of blood onto his shirt.
"Don't…" Lafeia told him as she tensed up, the immense pain inside her body was growing. "Say anything." Adam sighed and laid her back down on her bed.
"Lafeia." She looked up at him as he reached the door. "Don't think about escaping, you'll get hurt even more than you are."
His eyes flickered in her direction as he spoke. 'Was that anxiety in his eyes? No, he hates you. But what for? I never did anything to him.' Lafeia thought.
As if reading her mind, Adam glared at her before saying. "You left Lafeia. I begged you not to, but you did. You left me. Hell, you left everybody! Your friends, the people who cared for you most and everybody that mattered in your life. I was confused for days." He stared at her with sad eyes, "You were my best friend, the only person that could keep me together and I didn't know what to do when you left. So I joined this," He threw his arms up, signalling to the base they were now in, "I joined this force, to take my mind off of you, and look where it lead me. Straight to you, talk about irony." He was about to leave the room when he called one more thing out to her. "Get some rest. You'll need it to recover; I'll bring some clean clothes for you tomorrow." And with that he left the room, locking it behind him and walking down the long corridors.
'Love is like war, easy to begin but hard to end.' - Anonymous (Anonymous huh? Anonymous said a lot of very interesting things)
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