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Chapter 7: It all falls down

Shuchi's P.O.V

I sat at the bench the clock read 7:05 I growled angrily. I was starting to get mad how dare he stand me up? I was about to leave when I heard a voice say behind me.

"Planning to leave brat ", he uttered whispering in my ear his hot breath on my ear. I shuddered.

"So the mighty eiri yuki has finally arrived" I spoke with venom in my voice. He smirked and took my hand we walked down the path finding a nice big oak to sit under. As we sat the wind blew causing the leaves to scatter everywhere making it seem like a whirlwind of leaves. His golden eyes looked into mine molten eyes met brilliant violet. His hand reached forward and he spread my lips apart with his two fingers and uttered softly under his breath "I guess it's time for us to talk", I nodded gently the leaves still falling. We stared at each other I went first.

"I really only came here to know the answer to one question why? Why all those years ago did you do that?" my hands trembling and shaking as I asked the question gently.

He looked at me coldly and slid his hands through his golden blonde hair. "Do you want to know why little Shuchi I'll tell you why, those five years ago we were happy and nice to each other I suppose we were in love you and me Shuchi ,but then you started to work more your hours got later and later. You stopped almost paying no attention to me so I couldn't take it I just started cheating", his voice seemed cold and lacked emotion.

"That doesn't give you the right to cheat if you felt that way you should have told me not just keep to yourself about it", my voice rising my usual violet eyes had darkened to a more dark purple colour. His laugh became cold and distant he looked at me his usual golden eyes had also darkened to a richer gold.

"How was I supposed to tell you, you were in a world of your own you thought everything was perfect did you really want me to ruin your little dream?", I laughed myself "I would have preferred the truth then this lie you fed me all those years", I got up I had found out what I wanted he didn't care what he did. He wasn't sorry for what he did not at all. I started to walk away when a hand stopped me and he pulled me forward I felt cool droplets hit my skin. Was Yuki crying? He lifted my chin making sure our eyes locked his usual golden eyes were glazed over with tears.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me" Yuki said his voice trembling. "I don't love you, I could never love you" I was lying through my teeth and I knew it. He bent his head down and uttered in my ear. "I know your lying, just admit it you've fallen for me again", his lips came closer I struggled in his grasp as he pushed me on the tree. The leaves seemed to dance as he got closer. His eyes flashed for a second and he kissed me. I cried out and struggled against him his lips became more aggressive as he kissed me. I felt hot tears slid down my face as I had no choice but to open my mouth. Its not that I didn't want the kiss it's just Ryuchi maybe if I wasn't with him. No what am I thinking he broke my heart. At that moment a figure was watching from a bush he was angry, very angry. Before I could blink a fist smashed into Yuki's face and I was face to face with an angry Ryuchi.

Ryuchi's P.O.V

I had watched Shuchi leave and I had stealthy followed. I was curious. I played with kuma-chan with me. I petted his little pink ears, he had arrived at the park he looked sad as he talked to Yuki. I got closer listening in closer my ears perked up as I heard him ask Shuchi if he loved him. He had said no and I saw Yuki force himself on my Shuchi.I felt my anger overtake me No one I mean no one touched my Shu-chan and got away with it. I marched forward slamming my fist into Yuki's face that would indeed leave a mark. His eyes narrowed and he spat blood. First hit who would hit next. I saw Shuchi get in the middle of us. "This is between me and Eiri Shuchi stay out of it" he pulled me forward the tears trickling down his eyes. I put down my fist and sighed.

Shuchi's P.O.V

"Thank you Ryuchi", I held him close. I looked at yuki. I saw his eyes shed a tear. He looked away and lit a cigarette. My eyes widened the lighter he had kept it. I looked at the picture it was the one we took when we went to the carnival. I felt a few tears escape my eyes no it was happening the bubbling of emotions were coming out. I wanted to scream, shout I love you yuki. Yet on the other hand I wanted to punch him for what he did to me.

Did I really want to give up everything for him? I stepped forward telling Ryuchi it was ok to go he nodded and left his eyes narrowed still he left and I stepped toward Yuki my legs wobbling. I reached forward grasping the lighter his eyes looked at mine as I held it. "You kept it" I uttered staring at him. He smirked and leaned forward "Its always good to remember a better time isn't it" , I felt the tears escape my tears falling one by one landing on the ground his hand grasped my chin. "Brat, you know I hate to see you cry", he leaned forward wiping away the tears that remained. "Yuki when I told you I didn't love you I mean I don't know how I feel "I uttered. His hand came forward slapping me I gasped "What was that for"; His laugh was cold and hard

He walked away the next words that came from his mouth hurt worse then anything. "Call me when you get it all figured out ,cuz I'm not waiting anymore, I'm sick of waiting for your pathetic answer , I don't care You can go fuck Ryuchi for all I care because all you are is a brat ,I cant believe I wanted you back and now you can't decide well kid when you decide come look me up in the phone book", his footsteps got quieter and quieter as he walked away I sank to my knees and cried the cries got louder and louder. I clutched the lighter.

If I'd only had told him how I felt The tears got stronger and stronger the scent of tears spread around. The lighter lay in my pocket and I brought it home. Home if that's what you could call it. Back to my life that wasn't real back to a man I used, back to nothing.

I'm an idiot a god damn brat your right Yuki. I was in a dream world never payed attention to you; I left you to live alone. I deserved it, I deserved to die.

As I walked further to my house the thoughts got more twisted and sick.I didn't deserve his love or his attention I deserve pain and anguish. Tell me what to do god should follow my heart and go back to the man that betrayed or stay with the man who loves and cares for me. I don't deserve any because I'm sick and twisted. I opened the door and looked in it was dark and quiet all I walked toward our bedroom the bed looked bare and quiet. "Ryuchi "I called no answer.

I looked down at the phone beside the bed I played it; I heard a beep and a soft voice started to talk. It was from Ryuchi.

"If you can hear this Shuchi I am gone, it's not like I wanted to leave its just things between us has being strained. I mean the yuki thing and in general I don't feel likes it's working out. I don't mean to be mean. I just feel that way, I hope you follow your heart and do the right thing. Shuchi I loved you with everything but I feel the feelings aren't mutual. Was I just a stand in for Eiri Yuki? So I guess I found out this discovery when I found you two in the park I realized that what we have isn't real it's made up. Really who you care about is him. So I guess you could say this is goodbye" I heard a few quiet sobs and the phone hanging up.

I sat in the bed and I couldn't move I was numb everywhere I couldn't cry anymore. He was gone, he had left me, I was numb everywhere. It was like nothing mattered anymore. All I had was music now and friends.

The walls looked like they were laughing at me. Was god laughing at me? Yes he must be everything had fallen away leaving me alone. I guess I deserved this playing with two hearts. If Yuki could see me now and Ryuchi they'd laugh maybe even cry. A few sobs escaped my throat. My body curled up and slept in the fetal postion hugging Ryuchi's side of the bed. So cold and distant was how it felt. Just like how I felt. Goodbye Ryu-chan as I slept I dreamed of a better day, a day away from this day.

All I saw that night was pain. I wanted it to end to go away. I wanted to disappear.

Hello all again Well I cant write a preview write now because well I'm kind of stuck on what to write now so Review review and it'll help me think. So the faster you review the faster I write toodles thank you to all the reviewers I hope you guys didn't mind the angst in this chapter.