Déjà vu

White, lily of the valley scent, soft bed.

Ugh. I'm having far too many accidents in one year. But was this really an accident? I kind of swam right into it.

I opened my eyes, it was warm and the breeze relaxed my tensed shoulders. I tried getting up. Ouch. Okay that failed I must have pulled a muscle or something.

"It's a sprain," said a gentle voice as if whoever had read my thoughts. I turned my head and saw it was ol' Katty and beside her Lily.

"Hi"

Kat jumped up and hugged me.

"Ow!"

"Oh my god Cele we thought…we thought"

"You were gone" finished Lily quietly, who was sitting by me.

"I'm okay now relax"

"Relax? Relax?" shouted Kat but she was grinning.

"You little munchkin Celeste!" screamed Lily and thumped me with a pillow.

"OW OW OW! Sprain girls sprain" I shouted and they stopped feathers everywhere.

"Sorry but…you're our little munchkin" replied Kat ruffling my hair.

"Munchkin?"

"Well we're never going to dare each other like that again," said Remus wisely.

"Aha Lupine said it and its damn correct" added in James.

"Lupine?"

"Isn't it a tree?"

"No you dorks it's a flower" said Lily rolling her eyes.

"Flower…tree…same flipping thing" said James winking. We all laughed…and that included Lils.

"And we really care about you Cele 'k?" said Lily grinning.

"Yes and I care about you two munchkins, close to my heart" I replied and hugged them both. James and Remus walked over and joined in the hug. Lily not noticing how close "Potter" was to her.

"Awwww how cute, can I have a hug?" said a voice. We all turned and saw that Black boy had joined our presence. Sirius was already sitting down on Kat's chair. They all let go and sat down on the couch beside the window.

"Padfoot where were you?" asked James suspiciously.

"You don't want to know"

"Hey!" said Kat trying to show Sirius off her chair.

"How you feeling Demesie?" asked Sirius coolly leaning back on the chair. Kat sprinkled the glitter from her jeans over Sirius's head, grinned and went back onto the couch.

"Fine" I replied calmly.

There was an odd silence as we both looked at each other.

Me sitting still erect on the bed. Sirius lounging lazily on the chair.

Then suddenly the most unexpected thing that I would have never thought would ever ever happen did.

Sirius Black rose from his chair, leaned down and gave me a hug. There was even a more shocking silence.

"You are okay right?" he asked letting go, his expression unreadable. I was in total shock. I merely nodded. I didn't know what to say, one of my worst enemies had just…hugged me!

"Hey I'm really sorry, it was stupid of me and that's twice I've put your life at risk this year…I know you hate me but-"

"Hey Black" I began smiling a little and looking at my hands, "It's okay I don't hate you. Hate is a very strong word. I admit you made a mistake…but mistakes are what makes…us human…we're all human"

Sirius didn't reply, he had sat back down on his chair again; he seemed a bit more lost at one moment. I wondered what he was thinking.

"Thanks" was the reply I got. I smiled, it meant a lot though.

"Me and Celeste are friendies! Let's have a P.A.R.T.Y!" Sirius suddenly shouted, randomly grabbing Kat and Lily's hands and twirling them around. I sighed. Sirius could never be serious.

"AAAAAAAH!" they both screamed and Sirius let go. Kat flew madly into a cupboard. Luckily full of clothes.

"Oof!"

And Lily backed right into James.

"AAAAH!"

James caught her and held her up. They looked at each other for a split second.

The gap, the gaps SEAL the gap between you and Lily, James! The GAP. I thought desperately as I watched them.

"Thanks" said Lily, she didn't snap. I let go of my breath. The gap is beginning to seal…mwahahahaha my plan is working.

Okay I made that kind of sound a tweak evil…

Meanwhile Remus helped Kat up, who was now blushing crimson and frantically brushing the dust off her skirt.

Remus looked out of the window, and I swear I saw little redness bloom across his nose.

Heh that's funny.

I let out a small chuckle. Cute too.

Sirius hastily apologised to both of them, but was laughing with almost tears running down his cheeks.

Kat thwacked him on the head but laughed all the same. Lily and James were now both laughing, together I noticed. Yay for the gap is closing. At least I could try to make them friends. I promised James I would help after all.

I picked up some caramel chocolate by my bedside and started munching it.

It was from Kat's aunt, there was a little get well soon note there too.

I looked around; finally realising I was in her aunt's room. But no Aunt Jenny.

"Where's your aunt Kat?" I asked

"Yeah were your hot aunt Kat?" asked Sirius stealing my chocolate. Lily thumped him on the head and gave my chocolate back.

"I was hungry!" protested Sirius whining.

"You just ate breakfast," commented Remus rolling his eyes.

"Aunt Jenny has gone to get our school stuff"

"Oh that's so very sweet of her. The dear" said Sirius winking.

"From you it just doesn't sound right Black," replied Lily raising an eyebrow.

I passed Kat some chocolate, she munched happily ignoring Sirius.

"She's gone to LA she says she'll be back quite late since she's got to do some of her own work too. All the food is set don't worry" she said.

"Goodie I'm hoooooongry!" cried Sirius jumping up and running madly to the kitchen.

"And I thought Peter was bad" said Remus shaking his head.

"You do realise we're all going back to Hogwarts like a week?" I asked. Wowie time had certainly flown…

"Alas our final year of school approaches," said James sighing. We all nodded in agreement.

Suddenly there was a shriek from the kitchen.

"PRONGS LILS C'MERE!" shouted Sirius excitedly.

We all ran to the kitchen at once. Sirius was on top of the table with two letters in his hands.

"You do realise that my aunt got that has an engagement pressie that table you're standing on," commented Kat dryly.

Sirius danced around excited and handed the letter to James and Lily.

"Open open!"

"Padfoot no need to get some insane over a couple of letters"

"They're not just any letters Moony. You should've seen the talking parrot that delivered these! Awesome idea parrots! The maddest thing it said to me. Dumbledore has finally cracked James is-"

"Head boy" Kat finished quietly but everyone could hear. She was leaning over to see his letter.

There was a silence.

I quickly ran over to Lily.

Her letter contained the following:

Dear Ms. Evans

We are delighted to inform you that you have been chosen as Head Girl for Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry this year. Congratulations on this achievement. We expect you to be an excellent role model for younger students and a pride for the school. I hope you understand that there is to be no abusing of your duties and abilities with this position.

You will take the Head Girl and Boy compartment on the Hogwarts Express this year and will have the privilege of the Head Girl and Boy dormitory and common rooms also.

Best Wishes

Albus Dumbledore

Kat and me both immediately hugged Lily.

"Congrats Congrats Congrats!" we cried in joy, Lily smiled weakly. The sudden realisation dawned on me. James was Head Boy. Lily…Head Girl. They both have to share the same dorm. Room and duties, more time together.

The gap…the gap…the GAP! It will seal this year between the two them I'm certain of it.

"Congratulations Prongs" said Remus smiling. James nodded in reply still holding the letter in his hands.

"Our seventh year is going to rock this world!" said Kat excitedly.

"Totally. We're going to have the greatest time in our final year" I added in grinning.

Lily smiled broadly now and gave if I'm not mistaken. Yes Omigosh! The Marauders thumbs up. Lily gave the marauder's thumbs up.

Hell is beginning to seriously get cold.

"Yup we're going out with a bang!" said Lily.

"I'm hungry where did you say you hot aunt's hot food was?" asked Sirius randomly opening draws and cupboards. We all turned to stare at him and all automatically rolled our eyes at exactly the same time.

"Something's never change…"

Lily's POV

I couldn't believe I was to leave California so soon. It was such a cool beautiful place, it made me relax. The Head Girl letter today was a shock, but I was over the moon in joy.

But what shocked me more was that James Potter was Head Boy.

I sighed and buried my head in my hands. Ever since my birthday I've been feeling so confused, anxious, annoyed and perhaps…a few other random things.

I slipped my toes into the warm yet cool water of the ocean, the pier was low so I could just about reach. I sighed and wrapped my arms around myself, huddling as the air began to feel a little icier.

"Feeling cold?" a soft voice suddenly asked. I jerked then turned around, my body stiffened, James was standing behind me gazing at my face.

Of all the people, I thought, of all the people.

I was going to be civil. Expressionless, Blank, Empty on the edge of cold.

"A little" I replied. He draped his cloak over my shoulders, I didn't move. The silk material smelt oddly of him, a deep scent…almost alluring. I could have slapped myself, what the hell was I thinking.

James as I had predicted sat down beside me. There was an awkward silence between us for a few minutes. I was looking at the ocean; I felt his hazel eyes upon my face.

I shifted a little, hopefully he didn't notice.

"Did you like my gift" he said out of the bloom. The water splashed at my feet, and every nerve in body went crazy.

This is insane, I thought, so insane what is this?

Moment, Illness? Feeling?

"It was…beautiful" I replied not looking at him, I had told the truth and regretted it.

"I'm glad you liked it" he put simply and smiled a little. I turned to his face and his gaze held me still for a moment. Frozen. The moon glimmered on his features softly. His chiselled bone structure, nose, lips, deep hazel eyes and that untameable scrimmage of dark hair.

That was the first time I had seen him.

I had seen James Potter. James Potter. Not egotistical bigheaded jerk. James Potter.

After six years of hate, I felt one hundred percent terrible.

I had been a horrible person. It all crashed down on me, like a gigantic wave.

And as much as I hated myself for it, I cried.

I put my hands on my face and wept. I let tears stream down my face.

I felt a hand touch my face; lift my own hands away. The touch was like electricity, buzzing through my veins.

I could see a pair of hazel eyes through a mist of tears. He was so close to me now, I could feel his breathing and mine pass each other. My tears were wiped away by soft fingers; they remained there after my tears had vanished.

"Don't cry Lily please…I'll die" said a voice. I cried even more and felt a warmth wrap around me, strong arms hold me. And I cried and cried.

"I'll die for you," said the voice.

I closed my eyes and embraced it all.

That feeling I had been hiding from. That confusion, illness, insanity.

Love.

It was truly the most powerful magic that ever existed.

I'll never forget that.

A/n

Thank you soooooo much reviewers, I'm so sorry forever sorry for the lack of update. I'm sorry there are probably lots of mistakes in this chapter, it's because of the major rush I had to get it finished. Been really busy

The last couple of lines here relate to the whole Lily and her love for Harry issue, everything is linked.

Just had to put a little Lily and James in there.

PerfectlySirius, big hug thank you so much, can you please beta the next chapter?

Corina, love you. You totally rock too :) ya all the way. I'm so glad you can relate to Cele and Kat as well. Hehehe big grin on my face.

Lilyskywalker, thank you also so very much your review meant a lot to me and made me smile so much that my cheekbones ache like hell.

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